Author's comment: first fan-fic. don't be too rough. i didn't know how to seperate the chapters...oh well. please rate and review! (some hints and tips willhelp, too!) based off of a dream i had. hope it's interesting! enjoy!(or at least try to.)and don't hurt your eyes trying to read all of it! you can always come back later and finish it.
Disclaimer: I do not own Kingdom Hearts or it's characters. Please do not mistake me for Square Enix, they are the rightful owners. I also do not own the songs that are mentioned, they belong to their rightful owners, too. hey, i'm not three musical artists and a disney song(which belongs to Disney.) I only own the plot and the new character, Lydia.
PROLOUGE
"Why?" I wonder, "why can't their world be real?"
As I lie there awake, I ponder on how the beings of the world of the kingdom hearts can't be real. Although they were made up, non-existent, and are only on paper and disks…I knew that characters can come to life…
I soon realized that I spoke too soon.
CHAPTER ONE
"Hey. Hey… are you…alright?"
"Hmm…what?"
"Hey…who are you?"
"Huh? What?! Where am I?! Who are you?! Why..?! What..?!"
"shh, shhh, shhh, shh… calm down!"
"I…I don't understand! I was just in my room! At home! Where! Am! I!?"
"Wait! Tell me who you are."
"L…Lydia."
"Can you stand up?"
"I-I think so…. Your Axel…right?"
"*gasp* how do you know my name?!"
"I! your…! I know you! I can explain everything about me and you and everything! After…after I talk to…him…"
"Who?!"
"The…superior."
The man, Axel, I knew…and didn't know. I knew him from where I used to be…where I was before I came here. A place I didn't know, yet did know. I did and did not know where I was. I knew the name and location of where I was, yet I didn't know why.
All I knew is that I was in the Castle that Never Was.
CHAPTER TWO
"Hmm….."
"What is it?" he asked.
"Do you want to know EVERYTHING that I'm thinking about right now? 'Cause there's a lot."
"Shoot"
"Well…it really is all white and boring in here."
"Yup. It sure is."
"you won't BELIEVE everything that's going on"
"such as..?"
"well…now that you mention it, I come from a COMPLETELY and I mean COMPLETELY different world. Or maybe even UNIVERSE!"
"well, that's not uncommon here. There's a whole bunch of different worlds out there"
"OHHHH!! NO, NO, NO, NO, NO! You don't get it! I KNOW EVERYTHING!!!"
"WELL WHAT EXACTLY DO YOU KNOW?!" he said angrily.
"YOU! YOU are a nobody you have no heart. You are a shell of only a body and soul, moving at it's own will. You became a nobody when your heart was succumb to darkness and left your body. You are in an organization of 13 powerful used-to-have-strong-hearts nobodies! Your names, in order from one to thirteen are Xemnas, Xigbar, Xaldin, Vexen, Lexaeus, Zexion, Saix, you-Axel, Demyx, Luxord, Marluxia, Larxene, and Roxas--born when Sora's heart was released from his body! Yes! I know who you are, what you are, why you are, Sora's adventures in this plot and why you are involved with him. I know what your goal is and why, but what I DON'T know is WHY THE HECK AM I HERE!!!!!!" I was a total emotional wreak. I was going mad. I was about ready to lash out on anything.
"……woah. You do…know…a lot…."he was scratching his head like pretty much all guys do when they make a mistake. "umm…sorry I doubted you…HUH?! Wait a sec! Why?! Why are you crying?!"
" I…I….I want…to know why I'm here! Can…will I ever be able to go home?!" out of feeling helpless I clung to him. Only to find out that he might not…or never be able to give me a sense of comfort. Yes…sobbing like a little kid, I kept calling out 'why?' and 'mommy' and 'I wanna go home'. And as I was crying on someone right in front of me…I felt even worse knowing that I was practically all alone.
No sympathy, comfort or even a hug back. I….felt desolate….I was the only one going through this…. I….was all….
ALONE.
CHAPTER THREE
After I was done crying and shaking--feeling terrible-- we moved on. No…we didn't travel through the passage of darkness like they all do, but instead we walked. In silence.
"umm…"I began. Breaking the silence.
"hmm?"
"this sucks…"
"I bet it does for you."
I hated it! I was all depressed and pouty. And what do I get? A HEARTLESS NOBODY WHO ONLY SAYS, "I bet it does for you." UGH!!! I was so mad! Those stupid words were echoing in my head. I mean, I was somewhere, and then BOOM! I'm somewhere else! And, hey! That place is in another world!
YAY!!! And here I am, helpless as a dog and what else do I get? A MEANIE! A BIG FAT SUPER GOOD LOOKIN' RED(SPIKEY)HEADED MEANIE!
But I guess he can't help it. I mean (haha) he is a nobody after all (haha) and I go from pouty to angry then pouty, again. Man…. I wish someone would come and comfort me….
"Hey, Axel. Who's this?"
Demyx.
A glimmer of light just shined upon me.
"DEMYX!!!" *ahem* I guess you could say I fan girl glomped him. Or you could say I *desperately* hugged him. I was practically 'holding on for dear life' thinking that the "wimpy fighter" acts-like-he-has-a-heart nobody would "feel" sorry for me. So…. Just in case…. I was repeatedly saying "hold me back, hold me back!"
"what?! oh? "hold you back"?!"
"yes!!! Hold me back, hold me back!!!"
"Huh?! Okay"
YAY!!! He was holding me back! At this moment in my life, I would practically take a hug from anybody. BUT HEY!!! Instead, I got a hug from "nobody". (HAHA! This would be where someone would smack me upside the head because of the bad pun.)
"Umm…am I done hugging you?"
"Huh?! What? Oh. Yeah. Sorry 'bout that." oh, geez. I felt like an idiot.
"Haha. Your face is all red. Are you feeling…embarrassed?" Axel taunted.
"TCH! Shut up, Axel. At least I can feel embarrassed! *gasp!* uh… I…I'm sorry! I-I didn't mean to be mean…. DANG IT!!! YOU'RE ALL MAKING ME FEEL MORE AND MORE LIKE CRAP!"
"Aww…its okay…. By the way. What is your name?"
"Me?! Oh! I'm Lydia."
"And I'm De-. Oh wait. You already know my name. And…why do you…know my name???"
"Ohh… Demyx you just missed half of the story. You'll hear it again once we get to the room where nothing gathers. The Superior is gonna have to hear this, too. And…. I don't think Lydia here is gonna want to explain the whole entire story more than once. She'll probably throw another fit again."
"WHAT?! I didn't- ohh…..oh, yeah…that's right….I did, didn't I? But… HEY! That doesn't mean I'm gonna throw another one. And besides…I like Demyx. He makes me happy." In fact, Demyx did make me very happy. Back where I came from, whenever I did my little
"If they were real, what would happen" things in my head, Demyx would always be the "best guy friend you could ever have (who acts like the little puppy dog that you never had)" you know?
"Well. Enough chit-chat. We need to hurry and head to the Room Where Nothing Gathers." Axel said in an authorative voice.
"Aye, aye. Captain Axel." I mocked happily.
"heh. Yeah…you better keep up Private Lydia."
"Pfft!!! Ahahaha!" it was hard not to laugh. Especially because he answered like that. It made me… happy. I'm glad he played along. Maybe…maybe Axel really is something else.
CHAPTER FOUR
I was all of a sudden getting nervous about meeting the other members… especially Xemnas, The Superior.
"Are you ready to go in there?" Axel asked as we were inching closer and closer.
My heart was beating considerably fast and I could sense a shortness of breath in the way that I was breathing.
"Hey, do I look okay?"
"You do realize that I can't a: be "heartfully" honest and b: I don't know how a girl is "supposed" to look."
"Wow…I shoulda known not to ask you." I said sarcastically while rolling my eyes.
He smirked and then walked on ahead of me. I couldn't help but look down at my feet and smile.
"Sigh…we're here. Are you absolutely sure you're ready now?"
I took a deep breath. "I'm ready."
The door creaked open. In front of me were all of the Organization XIII members. And they were all looking at me from way high up in their chairs, Xemnas in front of me.
"So… you are the one who appeared in the castle. Tell me. Who are you? Where did you come from?"
"Umm…first of all…is it proper for me to call you "your honor"?"
Haha… he looked at me funny. "I suppose so."
"Okay, your honor…I am Lydia. I came from a planet called Earth a "world" in a completely different universe of existence. Before I came here I was laying in my bed thinking about you guys. I-"
"Wait a minute…you said you were "thinking about us" if you came from a different "universe" then how did you know about us?" Xigbar spoke up.
"I was just about to explain. You-you all are in a story. You came to life from a video game. Some one created who you were and why you are Nobodies. Let me be specific-and start from the absolute beginning. The story starts out with-. Umm… may I mention his name? Before I go any further?"
"Yes… it is absolutely alright for you to mention him."
"Phew…okay. Just checking. Alrighty then… where did I leave off? Oh! That's right. The story starts out with Sora, a fourteen year-old boy who traveled to all the worlds to seal the worlds from darkness, stop the Heartless, and restore peace to all the worlds. But I'm guessing you already knew that, right? Throughout the game you play as Sora. And now, this is where the story continues, correct?"
"I believe so." said Xemnas in his "usual" monotone voice.
"Wait a minute!" Xigbar called out again. "You're saying that where you come from, we don't exist?!"
"Exactly."
"But if you're here right now, in front of us, doesn't that mean we do exist?"
"Well coming from what you just said, you do and you don't exist. You see, in my world I can't just find you and say, "hey, how's it going?" you exist on a screen. But here you are "people" and I can "see" you and talk to you. Here, I can see you as three dimensional and I can touch you. I now know that I'm really gonna be in one heck of a story line"
CHAPTER FIVE
"So… umm…what now?" I asked sheepishly.
"I suppose you stay here. But first, tell me what you know about us."
"Oh, I know basically all about you. You are Organization XIII. You are a group of thirteen powerful nobodies with you as the leader. Nobodies are creatures who are born after a heart leaves the body and the shell left behind acts of its own free will. Nobodies have no emotions and are shunned by both light and dark, forced to live "in between" and are considered as nothingness. You, however are special. You used to have strong hearts and your shell resembles whom you used to be. You have memories from your past as a whole, and you are working together to gain Kingdom Hearts and get your hearts. Am I right?"
"I believe that you are on top of your game. And I suppose you already know about each individual, so you do not have to explain to me what else I already know."
"Thank you, Your Honor." I did a little bow of respect and gratitude and then I asked, "excuse me, but if I'm going to stay here, do I get my own room, a map, a cloak, some advice, and what not?"
"Yes." Man, was his voice starting to bug me, or what? "Okay. Court dismissed" haha… "court dismissed"… that was funny.
Afterwards, Xigbar came over to talk to me. To be honest, he kind of freaked me out… he really did look like a pirate…and his voice was kind of funny…. I wasn't really paying attention, but he was saying something to me about how he was wondering if I wanted to talk to the Superior about getting like, a new name and powers and stuff…but, as cool as it sounded, my mind was somewhere else at the moment.
And then I remembered something I think I shouldn't have.
I remembered when Xigbar said the word "pickle" in the game. And, boy was I wrong about thinking about that.
"AHAHAHAHA!!! AHAHAHAHA!!!! "PICKLE" AHAHAHAHA!!!!" I was laughing like there was no tomorrow. I was hunched over the floor clutching my stomach trying to breath properly. Before I knew it, tears were coming out of my eyes from laughing so hard. I thought, "oh, geez. How are they going to look at me now?" but at this moment I really didn't care because to me the word "pickle" was all I could think about at the moment. And then finally, it came to a stop.
"hehe…ohh…that was so funny…haha…man, and to think I was crying because I was upset earlier. Whoa! Man… that was awesome."
With stares all directed towards me , I slowly got up in silence, cleared my throat and apologized for the outburst. Then! I gave my full attention back to Xigbar.
"What were you saying again?"
CHAPTER SIX
"I was saying… do you want me to take you to the Superior to get you everything you need?"
"Yes!"
"Alright then, follow me."
He was taking me through many corridors until we got to Xemnas's office. Yeah, boring like pretty much every room here, he sat there waiting.
"A new name for you…"
"Uh… I have a question…"
"What might that be?"
"Can I pick my own name?"
"I don't see why not."
"Okay thanks. 'cause I've been thinking about what name I would have if I was a member,"
"And what did you have in mind?"
"I wanted it to be Lynn." it's true. Whenever I would do my little "if they were real, what would happen?" things, I had changed my name to Lynn.
"Well, "Lynn" I think we have a deal. Now, what about a power you would like to possess?"
This too, I have been pondering about. And after a while of eliminating the possible choices: nothingness and "Ethereal Blades" *cough light sabers cough*; space and gun arrows; wind and six lances; ice and a shield; earth and a tomahawk; illusion and a lexicon; moon and a claymore; fire and twin Chakram; water and a sitar; time as well as cards; "flowers" and a scythe; lightning and eight knives; and of course not the Keyblade! So… I came up with something totally different: thread. Yeah, thread. You know, cloth, silk, yarn. Thread. Like, lets say…I can make anything cloth-like I can lift it up, like telekinesis, shape it how I want it to, like how Demyx can shape water. But it would only work on cloth, which makes it a challenge to fight Heartless and Nobodies. But I made my decision.
"Clothing material."
"Excuse me?" Ooh, I caught him of guard.
"I said clothing material. You know…make it move…make it element proof…"
"I understand. What will your main weapon be?"
"I think something like a long metal sewing needle for most of the time when I'm fighting…or even if I do fight."
"Alright. You will now be known as "The Lacy Needle""
"Whoa, that's a pretty killer name there, man. That's filming sweet, dude! That right there… is the bomb." WOW, you could tell I was pretty happy at the name I got! (I mean I am the one writing the story and giving me the name, after all! HAHA! *BAM!* OWW!!! Something hit me upside the head…. Ah, maybe I deserved it.)
"Here." he handed me the traditional black cloak that everyone wears.
To be honest, it's actually kind of boring for a girl…hey… I just got my new power…(how convenient*POW* ouch…)so, it's okay to do a little adjustments, right? So, I made the pants into shorts that fit the body comfortably and are good for moving around and fighting in, and they are also very stylish. Too, I raised the bottom zipper up a little higher so it would give room for more leg movement. Also I pulled the top zipper down to where it shows a little more neck (I also don't like my neck to be sweaty). Oh, yeah, and because of my new ability, I made the weight of the material a little lighter so it doesn't weigh me down. And there! I'm good to go.
"Your adjustments are acceptable." what he says should be "short and sweet", not, "short and boring"! I'm about ready to fall asleep listening to this guy!
"Umm…thanks. Can I go now? I want to get used to this place."
"Yes you may leave." FINALLY! Xigbar led me out to the main hall way and he said I could go from there. But where am I supposed to go?! This place is just one big white maze! Well, since I did play the game I kind of know where to go…I think….
As I'm walking there are lots of doors. So when I came across three doors, I just trusted my instinct and went to the door on the right. Great…. More hallways. I came across a door that looked different then the doors that connect the hallways. I opened the door and peered inside to find countless numbers of shelves with books piled all the way up. Books. That's right….Zexion must be here.
CHAPTER SEVEN
"Hello? Is anybody in here?"
"Hello."
"Gasp! Don't scare me like that! I almost had a- , never mind." Zexion was standing there, you could only make one-eye contact. Haha. " Umm… so, how are you?" I knew he liked polite greetings so I thought I should act polite and make him…happy? I don't know. Maybe it'll amuse/please him.
"I am just an illusion of myself. The real me is deeper within the labyrinth. Oh, and by the way, thank you for greeting me nicely."
"huh? Wha-? Oh. You're welcome." That was nice of him to say.
"Follow me." Haha. Maybe I really do need a map. "Here we are." and right at that moment, the illusion vanished and right before me was the real Zexion.
"Umm…hello….again?"
"Hello, again, to you, too. Would you like to have a seat?"
"Oh. Yeah, sure. Thank you." that was nice, too. I couldn't help but smile at how cute/sweet that was.
"You're welcome. Here. Sit down. I'll push the chair in for you."
"Why, thank you so very much!" I don't know why but I wanted so very much to smile from ear to ear and squeal. He looked extra…cute(?)….today, so that made it a lot more worse at how I wanted to so very much hug him to death. Darn you, Zexion. No wonder a lot of girls like you. And your voice just haves to be total lady killer. Ugh, whatever. I sat down and (tried to) maintain my composure.
"So, I see you got the uniform…and made some modifications….did you also obtain a new name and retrieve some new powers?"
"Yes, yes I did. My new name is now Lynn. I also got myself the title of "The Lacy Needle""
"That is very creative. Would you mind telling me the full name's definition?" Eh, now his way of speaking was starting to get to me. (hey! I am the author of this change in story line, so I can make him act anyway that I want! HAHA! *POW!* okay…I won't change it…) back to the story ah, who cares. It's not like he can be more enthusiastic. I guess most nobodies really are boring….
"Oh, yes. Um, well, I can control and shape any clothing or cloth material at will. The needle part might be do to the weapon I will use: a big sewing needle."
"That is a rather different kind of weapon. How do you think the battling will be?"
"Well, I was thinking that in battle it could be rough ore subtle. Like, if I want to take out a Heartless enemy quickly, I could just hit a vital point with the sharp part and it would be gone. Or say, if I had to go into a hitting frenzy, I would just keep hitting the opponent with the smooth edge until defeated. I could also do long range attacks and helicopter type moves to take out more than one at a time. Ooh! Ooh! And if I could I would also extend it lengths to make up the distance between me and the target."
"That is somewhat of a unique fighting technique." well, it is and it isn't, now that I think about it. (notes to most of the Organization's fighting style.)
"You think so?" I can't believe I said that in a total girlish tone/voice.
"Yes. Yes I do."
"*sigh* you know it's kind of hard to believe that I'm really in a whole new world…. Oh. Oh no. oh no, no, no, no, no!!!!"
"What's the matter?" you can probably imagine what happened at the phrase "a whole new world." yup, I got that famous Disney song in my head from Aladdin. (oh, how convenient, Agrabah is one of the worlds in the Kingdom Hearts series and now the song is in my head.)
" A whole new world, a dazzling place I never new. But when I'm way up here, it's crystal clear, that I am in a whole new world with you…."
"Umm…what just happened?" you could see nervous sweat dripping down from his face.
"Oh, that song is called A Whole New World and it suddenly got stuck in my head. I honestly think that right now the song is annoying to me, so, sorry for surprising you with my outburst."
"Its alright."
To actually believe that I was really in a whole new world….
CHAPTER EIGHT
"By the way, Lynn, do you remember what happened before you came here?"
"Oh, yeah… that's right. I was in my room trying to fall asleep and I was thinking about all of you."
"You already mentioned that, but do you remember how you got here?"
"…no. I don't."
"Well, maybe you fell asleep and it could have teleported you here."
"Why hello there….Vexen."
"Maybe I should listen to this and come up with a theory on how you may have gotten here. Tell me more…."
"Well, I have always thought about what it would be like to meet you guys, but this time I think I was thinking pretty hard about it…."
"Hmm…then maybe your force of will brought you here. But one thing I want to know is…what happened to you back in your world?
"*gasp* you're right! What happened to my body?! Am I still sleeping?! What about my mom?! Am I okay?! *gasp* do you think…maybe my soul and being left my body?" I asked in a frightened/cautious voice.
"I do not know. Maybe I will do a little more research on it."
"And I will do some extra looking in the books to see if I can find anything written about something that could have been similar to this."
"Thanks, you guys… that means a lot to me if you do."
"You're welcome." I think…no, I could have sworn I saw a little smile on Zexion's face as he said that.
"Oh, um Zexi…first of all, can I call you that?"
"I will allow it."
"Okay. And umm, could I maybe borrow a book for me to read on my spare time?"
"Sure. Do you have a specific genre in mind?"
"Ooh, I like romantic adventure novels. Could you recommend one to me?"
"Yes…" he began looking around and when I went to look and see if Vexen was still there, he had already left. "here. I read this before I became a nobody, and it was a very good one. I hope you will like it."
"Thanks again Zexi. By the way, could you walk me out the door? I'm afraid that I would get lost heading back."
"Sure." we started walking through the maze of books and I was asking how the books existed in this realm. He said that we basically have most of the genres based on what I had back in my world. But I figured that "fantasy" wasn't a particular genre that they had, considering that the whole story of Kingdom Hearts is fantasy. A lot of what he was saying was very interesting, like books on history and how they were printed and I was telling him that another one of my favorite kinds of books were manga and graphic novels and how that's how they came into the story line of how people knew them. It was a fun talk from my point of view, and before I knew it, we were already at the exit.
"Can you find your way around from here?"
"I think I can. And thank you for the talk and helping me figure out how I came here."
"You are welcome." out of a habit that I had of thanking people I knew, I stretched my arms out and smiled. "umm… what is it Lynn?"
"Huh? Oh. Where I come from I would hug people to thank them for their kindness. I guess I did that out of habit. Can I have a hug anyway? I would appreciate thanking you like this."
"First of all…may I ask….how old are you?"
"What? Umm…I'm thirteen back in my world…. Why?"
"You look like a woman of seventeen."
"WHAT?! Give me a mirror!" he made an illusion of a mirror and handed it to me.
"Oh my gosh…."
I had looked completely different.
CHAPTER NINE
I had grown about three inches, boosting me from a 5'5" to a 5'8" and my hair which was about two inches past my shoulder, had grown down to my waist. And instead of it being the "sad impression" of waves, they had become perfect little curls that you would probably see on a movie star. Not to mention my faded brown hair had turned to my longed for color: a soft lavender/ lilac shade of purple (I guess you really can have any kind of hair color you want in a made up world)
"WHAIT A SEC!!! This isn't me! What happened?!"
"I don't know. Maybe you changed when you got here. Since this realm is different from your own. You never know what might happen.'
"But that's just crazy!… but, I do think I look "very dashing" and "lovely" (haha! *POW* ) I guess I'm just gonna have to get used to it."
"You will. I mean, when Nobodies are born, they look different then who they used to be, like us."
"I guess you're right." in fact, although the change in appearance was a bit alarming, I didn't mind that I looked different. I mean, hey, this was my "if I were an anime" look.
"Lynn, did you still want that hug of yours?"
"Oh, yeah. Sure." to be honest, I was kind of nervous about getting that hug right now, but since I thought I looked great, I wasn't afraid of anything! But…I wonder…even though he doesn't have a heart, I wonder if this hug would make him fell bad… I again, stretched out my arms as he did his, and we linked in a kind embrace… or maybe I was the only one who thought it was kind… even for the brief moments that it was, I could feel his breath and his hair tickle my face. Although I still had the mind of a thirteen year-old, I had never received a hug from a guy that held me not like a friend….but… not like anything more than that either.
Though this was only a hug of gratitude, in my head I was thinking of something else. I do not have feelings of love for Zexion, but the thought of hugging him, a male, and if I did have feelings for him, right now, I would feel crushed as a cookie. I was on the verge of breaking into tears. I felt so bad. I began to hold tighter, crying.
"I'm sorry! I…am so sorry!" it was hard for me to talk. All through the time that I was crying, he didn't let me go. He just stood there with the look of what I thought was a look of apology. It felt as though he made a promise of some sort. A promise he couldn't break, and a promise he wish he didn't have. It was like he was saying, in thought of the promise, that he couldn't sympathize, and that he wish he could.
But…. I don't think that it is so much of a promise…. But it is more of a curse….
The curse…..
Of being…..
A Nobody.
CHAPTER TEN
I hate it…. I am so helpless. Is this what you would call a teenager's mood swings? 'Cause they seem to be swinging back and forth a lot today. I feel so bad…
"What is wrong with you?" I couldn't tell if he was insulting me or just asking a question, but whatever it was, I wasn't particularly fond of it.
"I…I don't really think that I want to talk about it."
"That's alright. Well…I'll let you go from here."
"Okay….I'm sorry. I've been a total train wreak today."
"Well, if you had a heart, who wouldn't be?" he said in a matter-of-fact voice.
"You're right. I'll be going now."
"Don't forget your book." he handed me the book that he picked out. I looked at the title: A Hold On the Heart. It looked like a science novel, but you can't judge a book by it's cover, right? If it is to be a romance, that would have something to do with the heart part. And….I guess since it says "a hold" it maybe means something about obtaining something, like an adventure. So, with that in mind, the book in hand, and a word of farewell, I left the labyrinth.
It sure is boring…they need to paint the walls or something… heehee, maybe I'll ask if we can paint it like a real bright color, like nauseating pink Pepto-Bismol color or something… that'd be hysterical.
As I was chuckling to myself and not paying attention to anything but the walls and what color to paint them, I ran into Axel.
"Yo, watch it there, buster." he dragged out in a cautious kind of way.
"Oh…sorry." What the heck?! Why did I just say that in a real girl-who-blushes-at-the-contact-of-a-really-hot-guy smooth kind of way?! That was like, so totally uncalled for!
" It's okay. Whatcha doin'?"
"Oh. I just came back from talking to Zexion. He gave me a book to read so that way, if I'm bored and have nothing to do, I will have something to do."
"Question."
"What?"
"Why is your face all blotchy red? Were you crying again?"
I looked down at the floor in a little bit of a pathetic way. "Yeah…"
"Man…I think you have some issues here, girly." he stated looking at me jokingly.
"What?! No I do not!" I retorted whiningly.
"Hahahaha! You're amusing. Maybe I'll hang around you for a little while." he smiled in interest and said, "So, where'ya headed?"
"No where in particular… but, would you mind taking me a few places?"
"And where might those places be?" he questioned, leaning on one leg and putting his hands on his hips.
"I want to go to my bedroom, and I want to know where all the bathrooms are. But first, I want to go outside."
"You want to go outside? It's raining outside!"
"Exactly."
"Then…why do you want to go…?"
"Because I like that kind of weather! It barely rains at all back where I lived, and if it did, it would only rain a little. And, I want to go see the moon. And if I can, would you walk me around the city?"
He sighed, "I guess I'm gonna have to."
I linked my hands together behind my back and smiled. "Thank you, Axel."
"No prob."
CHAPTER ELEVEN
As we were walking outside of the castle, I was glad to feel the rain drenching my face. Haha, lucky for me, I made my outfit water proof.
"Ah, boy do I love the rain…"
"Umm…I'm soaking wet, here." he exclaimed in what seemed like a "I'm-not-happy-about-it" kind of tone.
"Aww… ," I leaned towards him and grabbed his face like he was a puppy or a little kid, "is someone's hair gonna get flat…? Are you going to cry because you don't like the water, little "hot-head?""
"Tch, let go… and I can't cry… even though I'm not a watery kind of guy." he had a hint of embarrassment in his voice.
"Haha! You're so cute, Axel. Do you want me to make your cloak waterproof, too?"
"…cute? You think…I'm cute?"
"Huh? Oh… umm… heh heh… about that…." I was trailing off and probably blushing like a maniac. I mean, what are you going to say to a guy that you just told that you thought he was cute? "umm… I…. I THINK YOU'RE CUTE, OKAY?!" man… why did I just shout that…?
"Okay…. But why?" he seemed to have an extra tint of wonder in his voice.
"Well… a lot of girls back where I live think you're… "hot""
"Well, of course I'm hot! Ow! What was that for?!" as you may have suspected, he was the one to get the hit.
"Stupid! Not that kind of "hot" you idiot! They think you're hot as in good looking!"
"Hmmm….wait a second… you just basically told me that you're attracted to me."
BLUSH!!! I could feel the heat coming over my face-- and it wasn't helping that it was him making my face feel hot. I had no other way to answer accept to answer in a "well-who-cares-even-though-it's-true" tone. "S-so?! What if I do think you're good looking? What's it to'ya?!"
"Nothing at all, really. I can't reply in a jokingly manner so it's basically no use if you give me compliments or not. But just to be grateful, thank you."
"Uhh…umm… you're welcome." I was in a bit of shock, but what else did I have coming, anyway?
"Oh, by the way…. What is your new name?"
"Oh, that's right. It's Lynn."
"Why doesn't it have an 'X', or the letters from your real name in it?" he had his arms folded and an odd look on his face.
"First of all, I am not a Nobody and two, I wanted that name for quite some time."
"Did you retrieve a title and everything?"
"Yeah, as you can probably tell, I got cloth material, and my title is "The Lacy Needle." my weapon is a big sewing needle, as you can prob'ly tell from the title."
"That's cool, "Lynn"" he said in a rather friendly manner.
"Thanks." I liked having this idle chit-chat. It was rather….comforting.
"So…umm…how 'bout that waterproof thing?"
CHAPTER TWELVE
After some time of walking around in the rain, looking up at the moon and talking about recent events, we headed back after sitting by Memory's Skyscraper in silence, enjoying each other's company.
The rain had started to let up and only sprinkles remained. As we were walking back, I had lots of thoughts running through my mind…or maybe even nothing at all. Was I thinking of something to say? Or was I just merely staring off into space? Was I thinking about my home, or how I got here? Or…..was I thinking about feelings? My feelings….strong, uncontrollable feelings…for Axel?
My mind went black after that. I felt….cold….I was….was I…asleep? I was just talking to Axel a second ago….what happened? Wait a minute….now I feel….warm.
As I was trying to open my eyes…I realized that I wasn't standing up anymore…I was lying down.
"Hey. You're awake now. How're ya feeling? Are you okay? You passed out."
"What?" I was feeling a little bit drowsy…and why was his voice so close? And….why did my torso feel so weighed down? As I was turning to my left I felt my head hit something…or more likely… someone.
"I asked if you were okay. I said you passed out, so I brought you to your room. Boy, you were freezing cold. I almost thought you were dead. Yeah. That's how cold you were. If you noticed, I took your coat off for you. It was dripping wet. I'm glad you had an undershirt on, otherwise that would have been weird. I covered you up and I was trying to raise your body temperature up; note to why I'm lying right next to you with my arm around you."
"Hmm?" I was still really sleepy so I didn't really pay attention to what he was saying.
"Yeah… I also thought that you may not like me right next to you "next to you" so I didn't cover myself up, too. You know…you were asleep for, like, two hours….hey are you going to get up now?"
"*yawn* say whaaaat???" he began to squeeze me tighter as he got really close to my ear. And in a soft, almost whisper-like, voice-he said,
"I said get up, sleepy head." Oh. My. Gosh. With those words, my eyes sprung open and my face turned redder than his hair. I was so….embarrassed? Shocked? Happy? His voice was so soft and….almost dark-like….and odd enough, or maybe not really strange at all….I liked it. I put my hand to my face and tried to hold back a scream of happiness. Yes…if it were to be heard out loud, you would define it as a fan girl squeal.
My head wildly turned to the left and along with whatever limbs of my body I could move….and in result to that, we banged heads.
"OW!" he screamed, "that hurt! What do you think you're doing?! ….man, my nose."
"Sorry….umm…at least I'm up and awake, now!" I exclaimed cheerfully.
"Uhuh…hey, are you hungry? I haven't eaten for a while and you probably haven't either…so do you want to go and get something to eat?"
"Yeah! I'm starving!" I really was, I thought I was going to get sick if I didn't eat something soon.
"Alright, what are you in the mood for?"
"Umm…Ooh! I want some ramen!"
"Okay then, I know this great place over in Twilight Town, shall we go?"
"Yup! I'm ready to go!"
"Not in that you aren't." I looked down at what I was wearing: shorts, a black-laced at the top and bottom-undershirt and no boots.
"Haha… right…" I put the cloak-which was surprisingly dry, probably Axel's doing- and boots on, and then we were ready to head on to Twilight Town, until….
"Hey, you guys are looking fine."
Demyx.
"Hi there, Demy-dem!"
"What're you guys up to?" he asked with a cute, childish smile on his face.
"We were just heading out to get something to eat. You wanna come with us?" Axel asked in a "hey, buddy, what's up?" tone in his voice.
"Sure, I'm famished!"
CHAPTER THIRTEEN
I was finally able to walk "in between" when I was with these guys, and it wasn't to bad. Kind of weird and stale, but we were up and out of there in a flash. We managed to make small talk--about, like, "what are we gonna order?" and "what did you do today?" s. Demyx was like a breath of fresh air, he was acting all happy-go-lucky when talking with us, and I felt that I got along fine with him.
"So, did you talk with the Superior after the meeting?" he asked with a big grin on his face.
"Yes I did. I got a new name and everything." I replied with about the same size smile.
"Hey. Hold that thought. We're entering the town, now." Axel remarked with an expressionless face.
"Okay!" we both said in unison.
We entered what looked like a big, black egg, and then, before I knew it, we were in Twilight Town.
"Wow…" I looked up to see countless clouds roaming across the sky. It was beautiful. I could just feel the warmth of everything and the soothing touch the un-moving sunset had to offer. I wish I could live here forever.
"Hey, quit standing there. If you're as hungry as you say you are, then hurry and get your buns over here." Axel remarked plainly.
"Yes, mother." I replied sarcastically. The streets were so calm…I wonder what time it is? I really didn't care because I wish time would stop and leave me here to enjoy the cool breeze… after a while it felt like we were walking forever. "Hey…are we there yet?"
"Almost. Don't worry. We'll be there real soon."
"How much longer~?" I was beginning to become whiny and impatient. My stomach felt so hollow, and walking wasn't helping me much.
"Are you alright?" Demyx came over to where I was lagging behind and he looked at me with what looked like concern.
"No… I can't walk anymore…" I began to clutch my stomach and I was beginning to fell my throat tighten up.
"Do you want me to carry you?"
"Would you do that for me?" I looked at him with both surprise and shyness in the way I said it.
"First you have to tell me what your new name is."
"It's Lynn." I looked at him happily and I felt really relaxed.
"Okay then, Lynn. Here." he knelt down on one knee and stretched his arms out in a cradle-like position. I squatted down to where he could pick me up easily. He then swooshed me up and said, "Do you want to go for a ride?" he looked at me with a suspicious smirk on his face…it kind of freaked me out.
"What?" before I knew it, with me in his arms, he began running like a maniac--really fast-- and I did not like it. I put my arms around his neck and I was screaming and crying--with a little bit of laughter to it. "Stop it, Demyx! Put! Me! Down!" it was a very bumpy ride--we were going up hill and that was not helping one bit. I had to result to violence. I pulled his ears and whacked his head. "I said put me down, you idiot!"
"Oww… that hurt… you're mean." he had a sad look on his face as he was rubbing the back of his head. I knew his pain and sadness was an act, but I hugged him and apologized anyway.
"I'm sorry…I told you to put me down, but you didn't listen. I shouldn't have hit you that hard. I really am sorry…" I held him and patted his back like a little dog…or baby… I don't know.
"Man, Lynn, you're vicious." Axel appeared in the picture again, waving his hands around, shacking his head and looking down in disbelief.
"Tsk! Am not!"
"Are, too!"
"Am not!"
"Are, too!"
"Be quiet Axel! I don't want to play a little kid's game!" I was still holding Demyx and I began to squeeze his arms out of reflexes along with the quick anger I got from Axel. I stuck my tongue out at him, as he did the same. "Come on, Demyx. Lets go on ahead without Axel." I grabbed Demyx by the arm and was walking forward with my back turned to Axel.
"Hmph. Funny…you don't even know where the restaurant is." I could tell he had his hands on his hips and inclined his head forward as if he was trying to hear something.
I stopped in my tracks and turned around with a beet-red face and the word embarrassed was written all over my face. I let go of Demyx's hand and then looked down with my hand over my right arm feeling stupid. Axel caught up to where I was standing and bent down to look at my face. I avoided eye contact with those…bright, neon green eyes…. My heart was beating uncontrollably as I tried to refrain from shaking.
"Who was wrong?" his voice was so empowering, even in a playful manner. His beautiful eyes were wide open and his hair was fluttering as the gentle breeze was floating past us.
It was hard for me to try to speak. Let alone breath. I managed to let out a little words, "I…was."
"There…now that's a good girl." he was rubbing my head like I was a pet and was smiling like there was no tomorrow.
"But I'm not vicious!" I was still upset about him calling me that.
He pulled me in close and held me in an embrace I wasn't exactly expecting. "Heh…sure. whatever." I didn't really notice how big he was. I was around 5'8" in this realm, but he was, like, 6' something tall. My dad is 6' tall, but being next to Axel, he seemed a lot bigger. I had a "I'm not enjoying this" look on my face, but then I leaned in closer, slowly putting my arms around his slender waist, closing my eyes, enjoying the warmth that his body gave off.
"Hey, Axel?" I mumbled into his chest.
"What?" he asked, still holding me.
"You smell good…like a fireplace." he did smell like a fireplace…it was a like pine wood with a little bit of sap leftover… it reminded me of waffles. That smoky smell of incense that lost it's artificial scent…I loved that smell.
"It must be the heat I'm contracting."
"…hey, Axel?" I asked again.
"What?"
"Can I stay like this forever?"
I felt his hands jolt…was he surprised at what I said? I could sense that his eyes were blank--staring off into nothing. He was unmoving, and then I could tell that he wasn't warm anymore.
"Axel…are you okay?" I asked quietly, trying not to sound loud and scare him. I pulled back slowly and put my hands above his elbows. I rose my head to where I was looking directly at him…he was still. He looked like he was glued to the ground. "Axel? Axel! Are you alright?"
He jerked and blinked his eyes as if he had been woken up by a storm. "What?!" he looked like he was back to normal.
"What happened, Axel?! You scared me half to death!" It was true, he did scare me there for a minute. I thought something was wrong with him…no…something was wrong with him. "are you feeling okay?"
"Yeah…" he put his hand to his shaking head. "it's just…what you said…never mind." he clenched his small, red eyebrows together and smiles sadly.
"What is it…? You can talk to me about it…" I looked up at him in concern and then, Demyx who I totally forgot about shouted from across the way,
"Hey! Are you done yet?! I'm hungry! Hurry it up!" Demyx… I rushed over to him in hope that he would take my mind off of what just happened, but it didn't work. Axel was coming up both close and far behind. I don't know…things were starting to get a little weird…maybe what I said was wrong….but, I really did want to stay like that forever… to be in his arms…that nice, warm embrace…to feel his breath, his wide, muscular….heartless chest. I'm beginning to think that what I said really was wrong. Like…he was…feeling bad? But he--a Nobody--can't feel. Did he feel… sorry? I'm beginning to feel sad…heartbreak…I somehow regret what I said…but, those were my true emotions. I wanted to be with him…but that would only bring me sorrow and loneliness…
All of a sudden…I don't feel hungry anymore. I don't want food…or love….
I….
Have lost my appetite to feel.
CHAPTER FOURTEEN
I don't remember what happened after that. I am awake…but I feel asleep. Like I am in endless sleep. I feel sad…. That's right….I went to go get something to eat…I remember having eaten…but I don't remember coming back to the castle. Let alone me being in my bed. Did I pass out again? Did some one bring me here? Did I come back here on my own? What about…what about…
"*gasp* Axel!" his name came fluttering back to me. All I could worry about right this second was Axel. Is he okay? Did he bring me back? Is he here? My mind couldn't focus. I was panicking and hoping. I felt like the world was crashing down….that's right. I'm not on earth anymore. I'm here now…in the Castle that Never Was. I've been here for two days now…I wonder how long I'm going to stay here….
"Axel…" I sat up and brought my knees up to my chin. "Man…I feel like crap…" tears started forming in my eyes. "Dang it!" I was sobbing for what seemed like a very long time. Alone…all alone, in that big white room…feeling empty and sad…I regret what I said…. "I'm sorry!!! I am SO SORRY!!!" it was hard for me to talk. My face was hot and wet with tears. It was hard for me to breath in between the sobs. My hair…my fake hair, was sticking to my face and finding a way into my mouth. I was shaking and my stomach and lungs were hurting from all the pressure.
I wasn't calling for my mom…I wasn't saying I want to go back home…I was calling for him…
The one I had lost my heart to…I was calling for…
Axel….
Axel…
Axel…
Where are you?
Where are you….when I need you?
When I need you….
....The most?
I…..
Where am I?
I feel….
Warm….
"You're a little much aren't you?"
CHAPTER FIFTEEN
"Are you feeling better? You know…you've been causing me a lot of trouble lately."
Who's there?
"Hmm…you were very exhausted. You need to take better care of yourself and make sure you do what's good for your stable health….hey, did you act like this back where you come from? I would think that you would at least make sure that you would do that."
I…hear someone…it's soft…
"You were calling out to me…and I heard you. You were a mess. …your eyes were all crystal-like. Your face was so red…and you had a fever up the yin-yang."
Who…. Who is this…I know who is talking to me…but I can' see their face….my eyes won't open…
" I tried to lift the heat off of you, but it didn't work. You're really stubborn at healing. Just so you know…I didn't leave your side even once while you were crying. You clung to me, like, forever. You wouldn't let go….you were also saying something over and over in your sleep… you kept saying--"
Thank you.. I kept saying thank you… that's right…who was I thanking? Open your eyes, Lynn! Look at him! Look deeply into his eyes! Lynn! Look! Look at --
"AXEL!!!" I sprung up out of wherever-I-was and I threw my arms around his neck. "Axel! Axel… you came…you came for me! I'm…so happy…"I was crying again… but this time, they were tears of joy.
"You! You're crying again!"
"I'm so happy…." I was holding tighter, and as I did, he put his arms around my waist and held me back. I could feel his red, spiky hair against my cheek. I ran my hands through his hair which was surprisingly soft. I then jolted at the feeling of him stroking his hands through my hair that lie across my back. It was soothing to the touch. It tickled me a little, but I liked it when people played with my hair.
There we were, holding each other without a care in the world. I regretted it at first, but now I know, that I really did want to stay like this forever….I never want to leave here…I never want to let go of this embrace. I don't want to make space between us…
"I want to be close to you…forever…"
"I never want to let you go, either. I know I don't have a heart…but I know that right now…what I'm feeling…is true."
"Axel…don't ever let me go." how come…I'm feeling lighter?
"Lynn…Lynn! What's going on?! What's happening to you?!"
"I… won't ever let you go…"
"You're fading! Lynn! LYNN!!!!"
"Lynn…"
"Lynn…"
"Lynn…"
"Lydia…"
"Lydia!"
"Lydia…it's time to get up!"
"What…?"
"Lydia…it's time to get ready for school."
I'm…
At home?!
CHAPTER SIXTEEN
"*gasp!!*Where am I?!"
"Lydia are you okay?…You're in your bed. Did you have a nightmare?"
"Wait…I'm at home…I'm at home! No way… was I dreaming…no way…I was there…"
"Sweetie…did you have another dream about Kingdom Hearts? I think you're watching too much of that stuff lately."
"No way…Axel…"
"Lydia?! Why are you crying?! Was it a sad dream?!"
"Axel! Axel! Axel!! AXEL!!!" my mom was holding me while I was sobbing. I was supposed to be getting ready for school, but I didn't get ready until my tears started slowing down.
I just threw on the jeans I wore yesterday--on Sunday--and a shirt that I wore last week--a red shirt…Axel….
I couldn't stop thinking about him…I knew that where I was wasn't fake…it was real….that hug…that unforgettable hug…. Was it all…just a dream?
My mom, being the beautian that she is, curled my hair and did my make-up.
"Just to be safe…if you get affected by that dream again…I'm putting waterproof mascara on you."
"…okay."
"Are you sure you're okay? Do you want to talk about it?"
"…no…I don't want to talk about it…it was really sad…I…I-I had to let go!!!"
"Had to let go of what?! Did someone do something to you?!"
"No, mom! No…it just…I had to let go…of someone I didn't want to lose…. You wouldn't understand. It's too hard to explain."
"Did someone…pass away..?"
"No…I just had to part from the one I love…"
"Don't you think you're a little young to have dreams like that? To be affected by someone who isn't real?"
"But he was real, MOM!!!"
"Don't shout at me! It's a real petty thing to be fighting over something like that….I'm sorry you "had to let go", but you're going to school so try not to think about it and get all worked up. Everything'll be okay. Just think happy thoughts." my mom squeezed me as I began to cry again.
The only happy thoughts I could think about were the time that I had spent with Axel…but then, thinking about it only made me cry more…I cried because they were happy. The happy memories I had…became sad in an instant just knowing that the person that made me happy…I had to let go of him. I was heartbroken… I felt so unsafe. I wanted to be held in his arms…I wanted to fell the warmth that seeped through to my heart…I wanted to go back…I want to go back…and never leave… I wouldn't want to leave my family… but I couldn't bring them there, either… I just…I wanted both…but right now…I want him the most.
I was quiet the whole time I was in the car being driven to school. My mind was a blank slate. I was motionless, and I kept staring at my feet. My mom didn't turn on the radio or say anything. She knew that I was hit pretty hard about the dream she didn't know about. I was glad my mom understood me to where she would respect how I felt when I was sad. Half the time she would cry whenever I would cry…but this time she didn't. she just looked sympathetic and sorry that I was so depressed. I knew that I could always tell her everything…but this I could not talk about.
Before I knew it…I was at school.
CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
"Are you sure you're gonna be okay?" my mom asked me as I was opening the door to get out.
"…" I couldn't even speak. I shook-nodded my head…a sort of gesture of uncertainty.
"Just go to the office and call me if you need me to come get you." I nodded my head, grabbed my stuff and walked up to the doors with a blank expression on my face.
I was aware of my surroundings…but I wasn't paying attention to them…just looking at them. I didn't want to have a sad look on my face, so I just didn't make any face at all. I just kept my thoughts and feelings in my head and heart…unseen.
I didn't sit with my friends like I normally do, and instead, when I walked by and they said "hi" I looked at them made a "I'm not feeling okay today" look while shaking my head and holding up my hand…and when they said, "that's okay. We understand." I smiled at them and sat somewhere else…all alone.
Man… why do I have to think of the saddest songs right now? I made a look face that clearly said "what the heck am I thinking?" at the thought of the songs "What Hurts the Most", "Umbrella", and "It's Tearin' Up my Heart."
"Ple…ome…ba…nn"
"Axel?!" I jumped and lifted my head off of the hand that I was leaning on.
"WELCOME BACK, SARAH!!!" shouted a group of people on the table in the next row.
I could have sworn that I heard Axel's voice… maybe I was just imagining things….
Axel…
I miss you…
"Axel…!" I was crying to myself…in the loud cafeteria…I felt that my sobs were drowning out the noise…and I felt all alone again…without love…
I…it just…it's just to hard to handle…
. . .
I went the rest of the day in silence… I walked with no one to or from class, I talked with no one. I know I didn't like handling things like this alone…but I couldn't handle it with anyone either. I was thankful that my teachers didn't call on me for anything…but some did ask me what was the matter. I was glad that they were worried about me but I told them that it was something I could get over.
On my way to the cafeteria, the counselor stopped me on my way there.
"Lydia, is something wrong? The teachers told me that you were acting funny and not your usually perky self. Are you feeling okay? Would you like to talk about it?" she was really nice. She made a really good counselor--very understanding and considerate of how other people were.
"I had a unhappy-ending dream last night and it won't go away. I can't stop thinking about it…especially since I had to leave…I had to leave him…and now…NOW I'M ALL ALONE!!!" I began to cry again… Mrs. A held me like a family member and said it was going to be okay…but it wasn't… it wasn't "okay"! no one understand or believe me if I told them. They would think that it was just one crazy story and that I shouldn't get myself so worked up about it.
I finished crying and told her my mom had to come pick me up and go back to work. I grabbed my things from my locker, headed outside, went to my moms work, did my homework, went home at the end of the day, ate dinner, hung out, got ready for bed and went in my room.
I lied there awake again…and I thought about Axel really hard.
"Lynn…"
"Axel?!" I opened my eyes and jumped up in bed listening….
"Lynn….come back to us…come back to me…"
"Axel!!! Can you hear me?!"
"I…I'll make you come back…I want you…no… I need you…" before I knew it…I wasn't at home in my bed anymore.
CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
Whe-where am I?… what is that? In front of me was a castle…a castle of bronze and green…it had a weird shape to it and a lot of the ends of the structure were pointed. Wait a second… I looked down where I was sitting, and instead of the pajamas I was wearing…I was wearing a black cloak with shorts and boots…my hair was waist-length and lavender purple….I…I'm back.
"Wait a minute…I'm back…but… I'm not at the C that Never was….I'm…at Castle Oblivion!!!" I hurriedly stood up and I ran across the path that lead towards the castle. "AXEL!!!AXEL!!!I'M BACK!!!" I was shouting and screaming as I was running like a mad woman. I kept calling his name, telling him I was here, and I was smiling trying to breath at the same time. It was hard enough without crying happily as I was using all of my strength just to get to the entrance.
I stopped as soon as I reached the door and bent over clutching my knees, gasping for breath…rubbing my eyes. I used the last bit of strength in my arms and opened the massive door. I barged in and I looked around desperately trying to keep my pounding heart from jumping out of my chest. I was on the first floor. If this is Castle Oblivion…then that means Sora might be here…I'll probably run into him on my way up…. But since I can't travel in the darkness…then that means I have to go through all of these floors!!! Right now I don't really care…as long as I can get to Axel!!!
I ran towards the first door…inside of it was Traverse Town…or at least a Traverse Town that was created from Sora's memories…I looked around and I could see Heartless.
Am I gonna half to fight these on all of the floors?! I guess this can be practice for my new weapon. I held my hands in fists in front of me--together as if I was holding something from it's center. I then slowly pulled them apart to the sides to where my arms made a 'V' if you looked up from above. Within my grasp came forth long metal. I formed from where my hands were together to where they were spread apart, and through both of my hands--on my left was where you put in thread through, and on my right was the sharp end. "Alriiiight…" I was amazed at how that happened and thought that it was awesome.
"Come on, Heartless…Bring it on!!" I swung the weightless needle like a baton, threw it up in the air, caught it, accelerated forward and started hitting, stabbing, and doing ultra-awesome helicopter and fencing moves. It was pretty sweet. I barely broke a sweat…it was like the fighting came to me naturally.
"Alright…next floors, here I come." I finished going through all of the doors in Traverse Town that Sora had already opened. And it was weird. I didn't have to fight with cards. I liked it better without them anyway.
I know that I am going to have to go to some of the worlds that Sora went to in KH 1 so, that means that I'm going to have to go to all of the floors until I find Axel!! I was starting to get irritated fighting the Heartless, even more so that I had to keep fighting them, and then having to go up all of those stairs and to run to hurry to get to the next floor?! Uh-uh!! No way was I putting up with that! But I had to, I wasn't a Nobody and I didn't know how to use all of those little passage ways. So, I just did the best I could…in a hurry.
1 floor, no Axel…2 floors, no Axel…3 floors, still no Axel.
"There has to be some way that I can get there!!!" I was so frustrated. I made a mad face that scared the Heartless away and they let me pass with ease. And then…as I was walking, I found a weird pattern on the wall. It didn't look like all of the other walls. Out of curiosity, even though I was in a hurry, I stopped to look at the wall.
There was a line in the middle. I put my hand on the right side of the line. Sure enough…it was a door. It was one of those doors that you see in the cut scenes to Kingdom Hearts Re:CoM. There was another door ahead of me… an obvious door…
I could already feel the heat… I could feel warmth coming off of it…
I knew…that behind that door…
Is…
"Axel."
CHAPTER NINETEEN
I ran.. I ran like you wouldn't believe. My feet were just carrying me. I felt like I was levitating. I had no expression on my face. If anything it was a serious, and concentrating. My heart said everything I was feeling. My heart was pounding, but not because of the running. It felt like there was trillions of tons of adrenaline rushing through my veins. I felt weightless. The corridor was really long and my feet would not stop running until I got to the door. I finally reached it and threw the doors open.
I looked inside. There he was…standing. My feet would not move now that they stopped. I felt frozen. I just stared at him…my eyes would not leave the man standing there, staring right back at me. We didn't say a word, move an inch, blink….breath. I finished looking him over, knowing that he was there. My eyes met his and my mouth that was closed in awe, spread into a smile bigger than any space.
"Axel!" I yelled his name, felt fluttery, and once again my body moved as fast as it can to go the distance to reach the destination.
"Lynn?! LYNN!! You're back!!" I flung my arms around him and I was crying… I was so happy…
"I'm back! I'm really back!"
"You really are…you're here…in my arms." he held me tighter and tighter as I did the same to him. He made a sound that sounded like he was crying…he brought one of his hands up to my head and he kept stroking my hair and kissing it and each time, he would keep saying that I was back.
"Axel…can you believe this? I can't believe that I was really able to come back here."
"Do you know how long I waited?! I waited a month! Waiting for you to come back! I could barely take it! I was frustrated. I know…I still don't have a heart, but there is something about you that makes me think that I do. And when I'm around you…all of these things keep flowing out of me…it's like they're telling me to not let you go and to act kind around you. And the whole time that I did those things…I didn't feel like I was lying. I didn't feel like I was putting up my normal Nobody act…thinking that I have feelings…but…but…it's you…
It's you…. You are my heart."
"Axel…" my tears started flowing like a river now that he said that. I backed up a bit so I could see his face. He brought his warm, gloved hand and wiped away the tears that were spilling out of me.
"Silly…don't make me cry, too…" he did. I saw a tear come out of his right eye. Seeing that…knowing that I'm "his heart"…and seeing a genuine smile on his face…that was priceless.
"Ohh…Axel…that…that's so sweet…" I covered my mouth with my hand, trying to contain more tears from coming out.
"Can… I tell you something?"
"What is it?" I tried to make my words understandable…it was hard to talk and I needed a box of tissues.
"I've been wanting to say this and to truly mean it. I want the words to flow out right. I never really said then before." my heart began to pop out of my chest. You could see it thumping back and forth sounding really loud. My eyes were HUGE.
"Wha-What is it?" my voice was kind of shaky and I was awaiting to hear what he said.
I had the rare chance to see him blush…it was hot. "I…" with his left hand he grabbed my wrist and with the other he put firmly on my waist. Right then and there, he pulled me into a dip, and very smoothly with the face that would normally make me feint, he brought his face real close to mine with a smirk that only fit him, and he said, "I love you."
I feinted. So much for that.
At least now I know how he really feels. Now, when I wake up, I'll tell him my feelings.