What Hurts the Most

I heard the steady pattering rain outside the window as I sat there, alone, in the desolate house so big and empty. And it was still okay with me; it meant I could cry once in a while without anyone knowing. And occasionally I pretended everything was okay when I felt the farthest thing from it. I was hurt, broken, but I kept smiling the veil over their eyes more tightly secured each time as I pretended everything was okay, pretended that I hadn't shattered into pieces.

Because… I'd gone to her torn and confused, which did I really love: Kairi or Naminé? But she never tried to give me the answer; instead I felt her sorrow at her manipulations. But she still watched out for me though she believed with certainty I would chose Kairi. And I was so caught up in my own pain I couldn't see hers which she hid so well for my sake I knew. And despite myself I grew closer to her as she comforted me, sacrificing her own feelings. My guilt grew because… I finally knew with complete certainty who I loved and… I couldn't tell her. After all… I'd forgotten her.

So I watched, sitting in silence not even knowing where to begin as she walked away, thinking I loved another.

Now I'm left here, never knowing just what might have been. I'm left here wondering because Nami you never realized. Now everywhere I go reminds me of you… I'd never thought that was possible. And it only gets worse when I see all our friends, so hard to force yet another smile.

It's still hard going through the motions every day, living with this regret. If I could do it over I would say all those things left unspoken… because… you never saw it: all I tried to do, all I wanted, was to love you.

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A/N: posted as a response to psycholone's challenge (you pick a quote and use the letters in it for pairings). Check out his profile for more. Anyway, the quote I used is: A man in earnest finds means or if he can't find creates them.

So the pairing I did was:Sora IrinoxNamine N. (the last names are those of the Japanese voice actors who play them if they don't have a given last name)

r&r. I wasn't thrilled with this one and i think Sora's at least a little ooc but... he does seem the emotional type so i think he could get pretty worked up. it's still hard imagining him ansty tho so i need ur input!!!!!!

oh and please vote in my poll.

oh and if people end up liking any of these and want me to possibly lengthen them or make stories with these pairings or possible storylines from any of these oneshots let me know.

next up is ExA any guesses?

oh and this was inspired by the song 'what hurts the most' (by Rascal Flatts i believe) i luv that song

here's some links to the song with namora vids (they're at youtube so it's at youtube . com (with the spaces deleted obvsly) 1st b/c ff won't let me put the whole address):

/watch?v=DV0T9VVFxf8

/watch?v=caGy9EvMJvI