Title: Twisted Gravity
Author: AnimeXMusica
Category: Anime/Gravitation
Genre: Romance/Drama, but there will be some humor, don't fret. This IS Gravitation! Ofcourse there will be humor!
Rated: T (PG-13) at the moment
Pairing(s): Hm, I'm trying to make this solely YukixShuichi but I already have some ShuichixRyuichi and some YukixTouma... So it seems, hm, not going to give anything away! Hehehe, I'm so evil, I'm so evil! YAY
Summary: Shuichi has come back from a long tour with his band Bad Luck and is dying to see his lover, Romance novelist Eiri Yuki, but when he rounds the corner, what he sees makes him re-think this plan, Yuki is in the arms of a smirking Touma, about to kiss him. What Shuu doesn't know, will hurt him. The story is basically…ok, so I have no idea of what I'm going to do after the first few chapters, I'm just in a writing mood ok? I know, you just love it don't you?
Warning! This fan fiction is yaoi meaning guys with other guys. So, if you don't like that, please don't review bashing me about it! Also, sorry if it sucks, tell me what I can do to make it more interesting if you think it's boring and whatnot!
Reader Notes: Let me know if the OOC bothers you, because for parts of the story, Shuichi WILL be OOC so I can make this work, although…I for one, LOVE his bouncy happy-happy fun sense of…Shuichi-ness but this is my story. Nya! So there. Oh and, in this story Touma is NOT married, just cause if he was, I would have to spend more time explaining shit. Also, I am not a Touma hater, after writing this first chapter, I think it makes me look like I want Touma to die or something, I have nothing against the guy, really… Except he sometimes creeps me out with his 'All-The-Time-Smiling' thing he has going on. Oh well…
Disclaimer: I do NOT own Gravitation in ANY way, sadly. If I did, we would have seen them go all the way instead of them ending it with us hanging! Grr to you Right Stuf! -.- Anyways…
Intro Chapter (Means it's Extra Short M'kay?): Dark Emotions Tremble
For the past 3 weeks, I have been touring with Bad Luck in America! It has been very interesting to see the reactions of foreign fans. I'm glad we are expanding so that we're not just known in Japan but everywhere! Even so… I have been dying to see Yuki! He hasn't picked up his phone much, and when he does he is usually very tired or pissed off that I called him while he's in the middle of brainstorming for his latest novel. So, I let Hiro know that I wasn't going to be going back with everyone else to our welcome back party, I was going to surprise Yuki and ask him to make dinner with me, since, well he is a wonderful cook, and if I tried to make something by myself I would feel bad making him eat it. slumps downward
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I can almost see the light of his apartment, only a few more steps to go! But, what I saw next…Touma was standing deathly close to Yuki with his hands wrapped around the mans waist and Yuki's head was tilted towards Touma, they were about to kiss! I kept watching because… my body couldn't move, even if I wanted to, I was stuck there. Further and further. Touma and Yuki had been kissing for what seemed like forever. And the look on Yuki's face didn't show any annoyance, anger or fear. He looked…happy...peaceful.. but WHY it just isn't fair! No...no…no… "WHY? YUKIIIIIIIIIII!" They stopped kissing. Touma turned his head, but no! No, I ran and ran, farther away from that sight; my vision was getting blurry as I felt the hot tears streaming down my face. I just…wanted to see him. It that too much. Maybe I should have called? No...no…even if I HAD called…nnhg WHY YUKI? Don't you love me? Why are you with Touma..maybe a misunderstanding? Just when my mind stopped racing, I felt a hand on my back and then flashing lights…
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I opened my eyes, realization hitting me of what I had seen the other night, wait…I was running, then what- "Hey, your awake. I thought you would never get up after being hit so hard by that car you ran into…" nnhg, car? You've got to be kidding me! This sucks…what a way for Yuki to see me, how un-romantic…heh if that was my only thing to worry about right now… "Why were you running so fast, I couldn't catch up with you." "Hmph, …" Looking away, I didn't know what to say, I didn't want to say that I had seen him with Touma, no… "So, you saw Yuki and I, didn't you Mr. Shindou?" Wai-what? Wasn't I just.. "Yuki? … Mr. Seguchi? Touma?" "Yes, that's right, I'm not Yuki, and I told Eiri to go home since he wasn't feeling well. And he kept mumbling and was getting worried about you. I followed you until I saw the car heading towards you. I know what your thinking but how can you expect someone like Eiri to stay with someone like you, Shuichi. You make him sick. He needs someone who is stable, who doesn't nag him and who isn't so ill-tempered. I'm sure you can understand that. "What the hell! Touma… why did you! Doesn't he.. But..."You're not making any sense Shuu-chan." I grimaced when I heard him call me that. What the fuck? Only Yuki can call me that. I was ready to yell, but he didn't stop talking, so I bit my tongue and balled my hands. "If you know what's best for you, you won't bother Eiri Yuki anymore, remember, I am your producer, if something happens that I don't like, I can always… get rid of Bad Luck. Make the media hate you, drop you like a rock…" He was smirking now and it was killing me, because it was true. I couldn't just say, 'Fuck You, I quit then!' because, that would be selfish. What about Hiro and Suguru? They don't deserve that, after working so hard. So… I breathed deep and looked Touma straight in the eyes. "Just YOU don't hurt him, if you do, then he is MINE." "Hmph, so there it is then, if I hurt Yuki, he is yours. But, don't be expecting me to do something like that, Shindou." Hiro and Suguru walked in, probably from all the noise we were making… "Hmm, Anyways! You better slap a smile on your face and get out of this slump your in, nothing happened. Now. You need to go home and make yourself some tea, then write a song, we still don't have a track 13 to release Bad Lucks new CD with. I will see you later Mr. Shindou." What a fake.I looked at Hiro, showing him my face. He knew I wasn't feeling well. So, he didn't bother asking me about going out or anything. So… this is it huh? What a lousy thing to happen, why does it have to be this way? But, I WILL get MY Yuki back, no matter what it takes. But for now… everything hurts…
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I slowly dragged my feet down the road. Longing to just curl up in my bed and disappear. But, this would mean… Going home, not the home that I share with my beloved Yuki. Hm… 'My' Yuki? Is he- Yes! Of course…He will always be I shook my head and suddenly realized that I was standing in front of Yuki's apartment. I walked a few steps back so that I was near the alley wall, slumped down and hung my head. It was getting colder and I was so hungry. "YUKIIIII!" I found my journal and pencil and decided that I would write, since either way, I was going to be needing a song for tomorrow, to present to Touma, to him.
I'm breaking my own heart
by letting everyone
capture the ripples of my essence
The smile on your lips
Pushed the tears
To the back of my head
As I lay my hands across you at night
Knowing your love
Is a façade
Only friendship
You give to me
Knowing that you love
Someone else
Hurts me so
I run my nails
Over my skin at night
But it will never numb
The feelings I cannot bury
You lay there still
Right next to me
But yet so far apart
I can hear your steady heart beat
The rise and fall of your chest
But it is all
So far away
When I saw you that day
Your eyes shining like
Sunrise after rain
I wanted to
Scream and rip out
The emotions I felt for
Slumped against the wall
On the other side of it all
Why do I need you so much?
That it hurts to breathe
The world is blurry
I am forever crying
When you told me goodbye
That day, I wasn't able to
Cry, because baby all my tears were gone
I am empty just waiting
Just waiting for your return
To be your lover
To be your toy, I just need to hear
You say my name
I see you only now on the TV
The headlines of the Times
Such a bright life
Everything you always wanted
I am just trying to
Let you go
Just a little bit longer baby
And this pain will stop
The liquor burning through my body
The flashing lights
Of New York
Normal day, normal life
I see you
You walk right past me
And I hear your footsteps
Halt and I can feel your gaze
On my back
So I turn to look at you and I see
Your tears
You want me now
For me to hold
Love and tell you
It's all ok
But I can't do that baby
Even though I still love you so
The only thing I can do
Is close my eyes and go
Walk away, like you did me
But my feet won't move
It isn't fair
You did this
Without a care
To me, I cried
For now and forever
While you were
Screwing your boyfriend
Your bodies tremble
I stare right through you
You still are
The same
Looking for guidance
Look, I've lost this game
I feel your heartbeat
Against mine
Your tears seeping through my clothes
Breaking down
I wrap my arms
Around you tightly
When you then say
Come to my wedding
To spite me
Was it?
At that moment
All I felt was anger
As I saw his blood
On the floor
Small little drops
Of tears
And the questioning look
In his eyes
As I felt his body
Slump against my own
Then I woke up
And it was all a Nightmare
That was wavering
To come true
So today my friend
I will propose to you
I read it over, and felt just a tiny bit better, thinking that just maybe, I would have a chance, of Yuki praising me… Just maybe, that would make him re-think his actions.
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On the ride over to NG, I was extremely fidgety, I couldn't sit still. "Hey man, what's bugging you, you look like a rock just hit you in the face. Hm, does Yuki have anything to do with this?" "Hiro!" I jumped; I was so out of it I almost forgot there were other people besides me in the van. "Dummy, did you forget where you were or something. Look, I don't know what's eating at you, and maybe it's Yuki but, we have a big day ahead of us and you need to brighten up." Through the corner of my eye I could see Hiro's hand fumbling through his jacket pockets. "Here it is!" I tilted my head and- "POCKY! I love you Hiro! You always know how to cheer me up!" He laughed at me but hey, it's okay right…I can pretend that the small things, my friends do for me distract me enough, so that I feel okay about the way my life is right now. I always have found a way.
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Somehow, I pulled myself together, and I'm pretty sure, it was because, I know I have friends who care for me, even if, they don't always understand me. "Now, to get down to business. Shindou, did you write new lyrics? For the last track, number 13?" I turned my head only to see Touma, face like a clean slate, void of any emotion. "Yes Mr. Seguchi." When I handed him the lyrics I felt his cold rough hands brush against mine. It gave me the chills. After about 30 minutes of waiting around. Touma walked in with a broad smile on his face. He was coming closer, and closer until I felt his lips brush against my ear. "Beautiful Lyrics Shindou, probably your best song yet, I'm sure Eiri would praise you for this." I felt disgusted and at the same time highly motivated, maybe it was that he said Yuki would be happy with my lyrics, but… at the same time, every time I tried calling Yuki last night, he didn't pick up his phone, and I wasn't able to hear his voice, telling me, that it was all ok, and that I didn't really see him and Touma together, and that it was just an illusion, something I made up. But, even if I had been able to get Yuki on the phone, what would I have said, I just…don't want to accept reality I guess. Maybe I'll go see Ryuichi, he has always cheered me up whenever I am in a down and teary mood. Soooooo, I grabbed my cell and dialed his number.
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"Hey Shuichi its Ryu!" "I know that, I was the one who called…" "You sound sad Shuu, want to come over and help me bake a cake?" "What?" "Welllll, you see hehe, I kind of sort of volunteered to help out with my nieces wedding! How about it Shuu?" "Why not." I felt a smile creeping its way upon my face, as I hung up the phone and made my way over to Ryu's place. This feels ok, I'm ok, I feel fine. The door flung open the instant my feet touched the door step. "SHUIIIICHIIII!" I felt Ryuichi's arms wrap around my lanky self. "Are you ok Shuu?" I nodded suddenly feeling depressed again, reminded of what just recently happened to me. "Come inside ok? There's no use just standing outside my door you know." I walked inside and felt myself entranced onto the walls, glistening with awards, pictures and autographs of other famous musicians. Even though, this wasn't my first time here, it was still un-believable… I felt a hand slink around my waist and another slide up the back of my shirt as I was turned around and pulled into a kiss. "Nnhg.. Ryu…" I returned the favor and slid my tongue across his lips making him open his mouth a little as I deepened the kiss and pushed him against the wall, I felt him getting completely turned on by this. He grabbed my inner thigh and pushed me down onto the floor. He fell on top of me, kissing me from my fore head down to my lips and across to my ear. He whispered to me. "Shuu, you can't keep coming to me… When, this happens. You know I have feelings for you, that aren't just lust. I truly love you Shuu. So why tease me so much Shuu-chan?" I saw tears forming in his eyes. I knew all along, that this was a terrible thing for me to do, but I didn't exactly have an alternative. I laid my head on his chest and listened to his heart beat for a few minutes. "Ryu… I'm sorry, I'm truly sorry." He closed his eyes and wrapped his arms even tighter around me. "I know. I just want the sparkly Shuichi, to come back, even if I can't have you for myself." His voice was almost un-audible, but the closeness of our bodies made it easy to make out his words. He was asleep. I closed my eyes and soon felt myself fall into a long awaited sleep. Thank you, Ryu.
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My little extra stuff: Hokay, soooooooo How much did it suck? It's ok, you can tell me the truth! HAHA, wow it's like 5:45 AM I need some sleep man! It will be longer, this is just the Intro Chapter! Anyways, please, please, please R&R. I want to write more, but the only way I will be inspired to do so, is if people give me feedback. Please & thank you! Oh and… I was thinking on using some Japanese words, but, I can see myself using way too many, so that people may not understand what I am talking about, since I am actually learning Japanese in school, and not just through anime and all of that. So, hm. Also, as of now I don't have a Beta, I kind of need one.. HAH. So, anyone want to help me out? Sorry for any grammatical errors and whatnot, I just am not in the mood to fix stuff when I am this tired. Nya, so deal! Love ya, Livvie.