A Beautiful Tragic Love Affair
It all starts with a song.
"We had a beautiful magic love there,what a sad beautiful tragic love affair"
Chapter One
What am I going to do? He's all I think about. I know that we could never be together because he has Peyton. He's happy with Peyton. I'm glad he's happy because that's all I have ever wanted. I just wish he could know how much I'm hurting because of this. I see him every day and all I can think about is running to him, telling him to be with me and not Peyton. But after what happened, he won't even look at me, let alone talk to me. I wish I never told anyone and then we would still have what we had. Though after speaking with Haley, I knew that we wouldn't go back to how we were because it wasn't right. It was a messed up situation, I couldn't help but want it to be normal. In the back of my mind I knew that it would never be normal between us ever again.
Sometimes I lie in my bed and just think about how we could have been. I think about all the 'what ifs' What if I never told Bevin, would we still be talking? What if he never told me that he felt something for me? Would I still be looking at him every day and feel the need to start crying? I knew that answer to all of them questions; I wouldn't because I always thought of him as a friend, more like my best friend. I never thought of him in a boyfriend type of way until he told me and ever since then I have thought of him like that.
In biology, we would talk and it would feel like we were friends becoming closer and closer with every lesson. And then he goes and tells me that he thinks he has feelings for me while he has a girlfriend! I mean come on? He knew Peyton and I were best friends (best friends? More like sisters!) He knew! What could I do? I didn't know. But what I did know was that with every lesson that past I felt something for him.
After he told me, we spoke ever night, whether it was on the phone, through text or Skype. The late night phone calls that I waited all day for. I craved them. I loved hearing his voice at 2 O'Clock in the morning. I loved talking to him about everything and nothing. But in the back of my mind I knew it was wrong. I'm not the type of person that hurts people especially Peyton. But it felt so right with him, it always did.
I'm Brooke and this is my story.