Screwed Up

NC-17

Okay I had this idea after The Mortal Cure aired but I only jotted down some notes on what I wanted to happen. The I found them again and well I wanted to type it up. It is only a one shot…well more like a 3 shot. I have 3 parts in mind but then it is over. So hope you enjoy. It has some angst.

Summary: Well Mick is back after 3 months of searching for the permanent cure, now he is back to try and make things right between Beth and him, but has he screwed everything up? Has Mick, Beth, and Josef in it with mentions of Coraline and other vampires but most it just has Mick/Beth/Josef as the main characters.

Part 1

It's been 3 months since I have seen her face, heard her voice, felt her touch. I know she will be mad at me, she asked me not to leave, to choose her over the cure. I did choose her; I chose to go after the chance for the permanent cure for us. I hope she will see that, it's done and over now I just have to go back to her pray that she will forgive me.

4 months ago

After Josh's funeral we talked. She needed me and I was there for her, finally the way I always dreamed of being there for her, as a human. I take her home and we talk, I tell her everything about what happened with Coraline, the cure, and Lance. She asked if I was going to go after Coraline, try and save her, it is almost as if she is jealous. I shrug off the feelings, she had just buried her boyfriend a few hours ago, but I assure her that I am not going anywhere.

After a few hours we are both so at ease letting everything go. I feel like I am dreaming, she says she would not have been able to marry Josh if he had asked; she was in love with someone else. My living heart pounded in my chest, what a feeling and it only increased as she asked me what I was going to do about it. I wanted to take her right then and there but I want it to mean more. Even if she didn't love Josh anymore she still cared for him, and I want it to be about us, do it the right way, so I ask her on a date.

We spend the next 3 weeks working and dating, normal dating. Yeah I am a bit rusty since I had not been on a date since the 50's but she is my life. It was mostly filled with our usual banter and flirting, only now I was accepting it and actually happy. Our first real honest to god kiss was on our 3rd date. I would have done it sooner but I was trying to be a gentlemen, she made it quite clear she wanted to step forward. I had cooked us dinner as we sat on the roof, and talked about our days. She was getting fed up with work and how Buzzwire was losing hits because they actually took the time to check their facts first. After our meal I drove her home, and walked her to her door, I will remember it like it was yesterday.

As she opened the door to her place she stood in the doorway facing me, "I had a good time Mick. I always have a good time with you but…"

"What is it?"



"We are dating right?" She looks at me her eyes full of confusion.

"Of course me are, I mean I haven't dated anyone in over 50 years but I am pretty sure this is what happens," I try giving her one of my grins trying to hid the embarrassment I felt at that moment.

"50 years? So you are just out of practice?"

Unsure what she means by out of practice, I was pretty sure I was doing my best. Horrified that I was not making her happy, my embarrassment growing by the second, "I guess so, because I have no idea what you mean."

"Well Mick, when two people are dating and they enjoy the date they move forward. We seem to be at a stand still. Our dates have been amazing don't get me wrong but are you ever going to kiss me?"

I am sure the look on my face at the moment is just priceless. I have been pushing down the desire to pull her into my arms and kiss her since we meet at the fountain, I guess I just got so use to suppressing it that when it was time to give in I ignored it. After I realize I have just stood there for god only knows how long staring into her beautiful eyes, I regain my voice.

"I have wanted to kiss you everyday since I say you in the fountain."

She looks at me with a since of wonder in her eyes, "Why haven't you?"

"I…I…don't know anymore. I guess I am out of practice."

With that I throw control to the wind, and lean slowly into her, she is waiting eagerly tilting her head up to mine. Our noses brush softly as we get closer, her breath on mine our lips just a hair apart, before they finally meet. Soft and slowly I kiss her; I kiss her the way I have been dreamed about. She moves her mouth in time with mine; I bring my hands up to caress her check. I pull back before it goes any deeper and place a soft kiss on her forehead and give her a smile.

That was the perfect first kiss; I will never forget it as long as I live. I left her go into her apartment and close the door, knowing that we had to keep things at a pace. Our dates progressed from there each night the end of our date or even just our meetings about work would end in a sensual kiss, slowly deepening with each one. We had been dating for 3 weeks; I have no idea how many dates we had been on, spending so much time together it all seemed to run together.

I had no idea how long the cure would last, I had forgot to ask Coraline that much, but I could feel things were changing. The sun was starting to give me a headache if I stayed in it directly for to long, I cut myself preparing dinner and it was healed by the time dinner was finished. I know I wanted my first time with Beth to be perfect and not rushed, but I want nothing more than to make love to her as a human. I knew I had to talk to her about the reverting process, so when she arrived for dinner that night I was going to tell her.

Dinner that night



She was wearing a sexy simple little black dress, not to revealing but showing enough to drive me crazy, not that she needed any help in that department. I have the table set with candles and laid out the food in the oven staying warm.

After we have eaten, I take her hand and pull her to sit on the couch with me. I sit on one side with my back against the arm one knee curled under the other leg, pulling her close she sits the same our legs run along each other. I hold her hands in mine unable to let them go, bring them to my lips for a kiss. She can tell something is wrong, her investigative abilities fine tuned.

"What's the matter?"

"I need to talk to you."

"Then talk," she gives me a smile encouraging me to continue.

I can't help but to pull her to me and into a deep kiss, showing her just how much I love her. When I release her e are both breathless, and she strokes my check I lean into her soft caress.

"Beth I...I…I think that the cure is wearing off."

Sadness fills her eyes, I want to look away not see the pain in her eyes, but I can't look away. I knew things would be different when I reverted back but I actually thought it would be okay, that she would be there with me. I can't help but let the fear and pain of rejection flood my senses.

"Mick, I'm sorry. I know how much this means to you, being human. Are you in pain?"

"No…yes," I admit. It may not be physical pain but the pain of losing her is too much for my heart.

"Is there anything I can do? Make it easier, make the pain go away? Do you need me to call anyone, a vampire doctor? What hurts?"

I can't help but laugh at her questions. She wanted to help make it easier on me.

"I am fine, I don't have any real pain—"

"Then what kind of pain are you in? Tell me how to help."

I am silent, unable to decide. Do I tell her that I want her, that I want to make love to her as a human? Would that be wrong, she would probably do it to make me happy but I don't want it like this.

"Mick St. John, don't you dare start this crap."

The shock of her words snaps me from my thoughts, "Do what?"

"Do this vampire I hate myself crap. I really thought we were past this; you can't push me out not now. I won't let you; I am in love with you I won't let you do this alone."



She loves me, I had hoped as much god knows I have loved her but hearing the words from her lips are heaven to my ears.

"You love me?"

"If you're reverting shouldn't your hearing be getting better? Yes I love you. I love what is in here," she places her hand over my heart, my heart that is pounding for her.

"I love you so much Beth, but I—"

"You are Mick, the man and vampire I love."

"Beth," is all I can utter before I feel myself crushing into her. She was constantly making my dreams come true. I reach behind her and start to unzip her dress, as she starts to unbutton my shirt. I get her dress halfway unzipped before she pulls back, the fear charging back to my mind.

"Mick, I want this. I want to make love to you. I have wanted to for so long but I need something first." She readjusts to sit on both her knees on the couch facing me, her hands cupping my face. "I need to know that you want this, that you want this enough to stay."

"Beth you have no idea how much I want you—"

"Shhh, let me get this out. I love you. I don't plan on going anywhere, not tonight not ever. I want to spend my life with you, but I don't know if I can make love to you tonight—"

I know where this is going, "I understand—"

"No you don't. I don't know if I can make love to you tonight knowing you are going to leave me, pull away again after you…revert. I don't want to have regrets but I don't think I can make love to you and then you shove me away. I don't think I can handle that."

The words coming from her mouth, of course I don't have it in my will power to push her away again, not if this is what she wants. She knows the risks, I am not going to try and push her away, not when I want her by my side.

"Beth I will never try and push you away again. You know what I am; I will not take your choice away from you. I pray that you want me monster and all, I don't have enough strength to push you away again."

"Good," was all she said pulling my lips back to hers for a soft kiss. "Now why don't you say we go in and break in your new bed properly?"

The devilish smile on her face is enough to make my jeans to tight. I had bought a bed after the first night of sleeping on the couch. I had relished sleeping in it, but now I will find a new use for it. I stand up and pull her into my arms, carrying her up the stairs to the bedroom as quickly as I can.

Setting her at the foot of the bed I finish unzipping her dress letting it fall to her feet, she is an angle standing before me in matching black lace bra and panties. As I take her lips in mine, pulling at her 

bottom lip she drops my shirt to the floor, and in seconds my pants follow. I stand before her completely naked, I press my erection against her soft stomach.

She pulls from the kiss to look down at the sensation, looking back into my eyes she gives a coy smile, "I see I was wrong, you go commando."

Her hand snakes down around my erection and I feel I wont last long with her, my desire is just to strong and it has been a long time for me. She pulls me to the bed pushing me down to lay on my back, I am at her mercy. Leaning into me her tongue darts out to lick her lips before licking mine, slowly traveling her way to my ear. Her hand trailing down my body, her touch is like fire. Softly she whispers into my ear, "I'm going to take care of you," before darting her tongue into my ear.

She starts to slide her body down mine taking her time, teasing me, tasting me. Her open mouthed kisses travel from my neck down my chest, my stomach to my manhood. Her hand wraps around me, my breathing is getting faster, I know I shouldn't look down at her being so close to the edge but I can't resist. It's like she is waiting for me, as soon as I look into her eyes she grins and takes me in her sweet, warm mouth, her eyes never leaving mine. I almost explode right then.

She begins to work me, massaging my cock with her tongue as she sucked. I can feel the pressure, I'm going to lose it and I haven't even touched her, she is still partially clothed. I try to speak, try to stop her, to make it last but I can't. Swirling her tongue along my tip is my end, without much warning I come in her mouth. She keeps working me, sucking me dry, I think I have been screaming her name, or just moaning in the bliss she just caused me. After she licks me clean, an image that will be seared into my memory for life, she starts kissing her way back up to my lips.

"I'm sorry," all I can manage.

Her eyes find mine, "Sorry for what?"

"For…you're still dressed, I haven't…I didn't—"

"Why Mick St. John, I am not the least bit sorry. But if you feel the need to make it up to me, I wont try and stop you," she gives me a coy smile.

I would make sure she is taken care of, that is for sure.

"I think I do, again and again."

Her body shivers as I whisper those words in her ear. I treat her body like my temple, my hands caress her every soft curve. I taste my way down her neck sucking and kissing along her collar bone, finding myself between her perfect breasts. The black lace was keeping me from feeling them, but not for long. I pull her body up to sit, taking her lips in mine, her tongue darts out to meet mine. With one hand I unhook her bra and toss it from us, pulling my lips and tongue away as she whimpers in protest.

God she is so sexy when she pouts. Pushing her back onto the bed I straddle her, taking in her beauty as she is sprawled out before me. I have dreamt of the for so long, now here she is. I take one nipple and roll it in between my fingers, the other I take in my mouth caressing it between my teeth and tongue 

bringing them to hard peaks. I rotate giving her other breast my mouth my free hand I caress her stomach, her body trembles form my touch. I'm already hard again, but now is for her.

I release her nipple and move lowed dragging my hands across her things kissing the line between her panties and flesh. Her head is back she is breathing hard, I know what she wants. I pull her panties down her legs and toss them aside. My tongue darts out licking her up, she is pulling the sheets tight pushing her hips up to me. Sliding my hands under her firm ass I begin to suck her most sensitive spot, "Oh Mick," I hear her moan my name. I have only done this once before and that was a long time ago, but her reactions to me urge me on. I'm throbbing with want for her, I want to be inside her I ache to thrust into her but not before I make her come. I want to taste it on my tongue. With a few more sucks and nips she does, she comes for me her body spasms, head thrown back in sheer bliss, bliss I caused her. I lick up her juices now as her breathing is still hard I come back up her body and take her lips positioning myself at her still pulsing core. She looks me in the eyes, "Now Mick, oh god now."

I do as she commands one move and I am in heaven, I am inside her. So wet, so tight, her muscles pulling at me, the remains of what I did to her. Slowly I find my strength to move, I begin to thrust inside her, find a pace we can keep but it is no use I won't last long insider her depths, she is too hot, too wet, too warm, and just the knowledge that I am with Beth, MY Beth intensifies things, but I will take her with me. I take her lips, pulling at her bottom lip sucking it, my tongue dances with hers twisting, twirling, needing air I pull back as she cries my name, "Faster Mick, harder."

Her long sexy legs wrap around me, pulling me into her determined to get more of me. I reach my hand down and begin to stroke her, stroke her where I had sucked her hard not to long ago. She digs her mails into my shoulder I can feel she is about to come again, so am I. I thrust with abandon only one goal to spill myself inside her as she tumbles into bliss with me inside of her. Thrust after wild thrust she screams my name, I feel her tighten as I spill my life into her. We continue until I am spent and she is finished milking me.

Our bodies covered in sweat, I pull myself from her, she whimpers at the loss, and I smile at her. I lay down next to her on her bed and she snuggles into my arms. There is silence as our heavy breathing begins to slow back to normal pace, I stoke her arm kissing the op of her head. I am completely happy; all my dreams just came true in one day. Not only did I feel her body on mine, did she scream my name, but most of all she loved me.

Suddenly she pulls from my arms and starts to get up; I just sit up before she comes back to me placing a kiss on my lips.

"I will be right back, wait here."

She leaves and I wait, my eyes never moving from the door, waiting for her to return. When she does a few minutes later she is carrying a tray.

"Hold this," she hands me the tray while she crawls back into bed, pushing into my arms.

"What is this?" I ask.

"Now Mr. St. John surly you must need more nourishment," giving me an impish smile over her shoulder. "I know I do, and I need to energized and ready."

"Ready for what?" I play dumb, we both know what we want, that we won't be leaving all day.

"Making up for lost time."

"Oh really…" I feather kisses along her neck, "When do we start?"

"As soon as we eat something."

"Sounds like a plan, what did you bring to eat?"

Present

Now after 3 months I am going back to her, everything has fallen into place. When Stephen contacted me and told me he might be able to keep me mortal, I couldn't believe it. Beth and I spent a month together, a wonderful month living like normal people, the cure was starting to wear off. The sun started to give me headaches, I was more sensitive to loud noises, food is started to get bland.

Yes Beth said she was ready to spend her life with me, vampire or human it didn't matter, I was even starting to accept it. Stephen was an angel, and considering he is a brother of Coraline that is a miracle. I didn't trust him at first, but he dangled the cure in front of me and I couldn't help myself. Beth asked me not to leave, said she didn't trust Coraline or her family, and Josef well he had the same views, but the chance to stay human and be with her without complications I couldn't not try.

So I left, I hope my letter explained I was choosing the cure for us. Yes I was too chicken to tell Beth or Josef in person, neither wanted me to go and would have tried to talk me out of it. I wrote them both a letter, begging them to forgive me but that I had to do this, that I would be back for her to never think for one second that I didn't love her with all of my heart, and I asked Josef to keep an eye on her keep her safe for me.

She will see now, Stephen has worked wonders. Coraline had been working with him on making the effects permanent and he found something, I have been human for 4 glorious months. It did take longer than I had thought, but he had to run some tests, and Coraline was hiding out from Lance so we had to keep low, which meant not contacting Josef or Beth.

I decided to just show up, instead of trying to give half answers on the phone. I wanted to see her face when I told her I was human, that there was nothing standing between us. I am driving the familiar pat to Josef's knowing that he would be able to tell me where Beth is.

Parking I walk up to the door, and knock, one of his regular freshies answers the door, looking shocked to see me. Maybe she thought I was dead, it had been 3 months without word, I hope I didn't worry Beth to much. She tells me Josef is in his office, so I head on in. Opening the door the look on his face is both priceless and frightening.

"Mick, where the hell have you been? What have you been doing?"



Josef was walking towards me not looking happy to see me but more like he was angry with me. I understand I did disappear for 3 months without a word. I just hope he understands, I hope Beth understands.

"Josef I'm sorry I haven't been in touch but I couldn't—"

"Do you have any idea what has happened? No I suppose not since you went and became human. So is this permanent?"

"As far as the tests show yes its permanent. What has happened? Where is Beth? I cant wait to see her, tell her, Josef I know you don't like me being human but please understand this is important to me. I have wanted to be human again for so long. I love her, I want to spend my life with her, and now there is nothing in our way."

"You have missed a lot."

What have I missed, what could have happened that Josef is so mad about? Oh god don't tell me she is hurt, she needed me and I wasn't there for her.

"Is Beth okay? Where is she?"

What isn't he telling me, please god don't let her be gone.

"I think you need to sit down."

I know that look, I know it is pointless to argue and faster to get answers by just doing as you are told. He dials a number on his phone, speaking softly into the receiver.

"She will be down in a few minutes. I think you might need a drink…a really strong drink."

"She will be down…she's here? Why is she here?"

"You have missed a lot."

End of Part 1