Title: Life
Summary: A Risa-centric drabble. Reflections from the future about Dark. It's a piece that I wrote a few years ago and figured I should finally post.
Disclaimer: I don't own DN Angel. Nothing like that.
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My sister once asked why I liked Dark-san. Sure it started out as just trying to find the best guy around, trying to one-up all the other girls, especially Riku. It ended up as an obsession. I never thought that any guy I wanted would be able to resist my charm. I was wrong. *bitter laughter*
In retrospect, if someone had followed me around like I did to Dark-san, I would completely shun them. And if they kissed me…restraining order.
And yet, Dark-san was patient and kind. He took me out on a date even after my pitiful attempt to ambush him when he stole the "Whisper of Memory." He helped to save my life after I was kidnapped by Argentine (poor boy, I won't, no, I can't, forget him). He did everything for me, and I hardly even recognized it.
When Dark disappeared four years ago, when Riku found out and accepted that he and Niwa-kun were one and the same, I made the decision to get over him and find someone else, anyone else, to replace him, so that he could be proud of me if I ever saw him again. Riku and Niwa-kun have now been married for three years and I'm still alone.
Hiwatari-kun had been the best man at their wedding, and I was the maid of honor. We were required to dance together, but after only one dance he was looking pained and more peaky than usual. He left after that one dance.
Four days after Riku discovered that she was pregnant he was found in his apartment. He even went out in style. I can only imagine what was running through his mind. And I truly can. He was in the same exact situation that I am, in love with someone that cannot be obtained.
Sometimes I wish that I could follow in Hiwatari's footsteps, but I will wait until I see Dark-san again. Then, I'll have something to die for other than a specter of my memory. Little Dai-chan is already 2 ½. Only 11 ½ years until those black wings once again weep across the sky. And who knows, I might find resolution in that time. I doubt it.
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-Lukeam2a