Paradox
K-O-K-O-R-O-Y-O-M-I
The Beast Inside of my Heart
Her eyes shine bright as Hyuuga-kun stalks in, her fangirl side showing oh-so-blatantly.
I wish it was never like that.
I don't hate Hyuuga-kun.
It's just that I've fallen for her.
I wonder, what people would say if they knew I loved her.
I took a guess.
And I was right.
"I knew it! The idiot's in Sumire-chan's evil secret plan to get Natsume-sama's attention! She has openly committed treason against the Natsume Ruka Fanclub!" Usami screeched, glaring at Sumire after I had confessed.
And then, it shattered.
The familiar tranquil trance I was now getting used to.
But it's my fault.
Because I can't control this burning feeling.
Because I don't know how I can speak again.
I hate this.
If only Mikan-chan was here.
Maybe she would have given some kind of advice.
Some kind of comfort.
But she's not here.
And my heart feels like it's being squeezed.
Squeezed until it feels like any moment later, it's gonna burst, and whatever emotion hidden in there will charge forth, rampaging my body.
And possessing it.
I do wonder. I wonder what would have happened if Mikan was still here.
Would this have happened?
Would I have stopped pranking and started focusing on my studies?
Would I have stopped using my Alice so often, especially on the others, namely Sumire and Kitsu?
Would I have ended up like this?