Note: Dally never died in this fanfiction. Only Johnny.

Warning: Gay incest + Sexual content. You have been warned!

Chapter 1: I hate myself!

Sodapop sat at his desk with a knife in his hand. Just wanting to cut his already bruised up arm. Ever since he left school, he knew one secret about himself that nobody knows. He is gay and even worse loves his own flesh and blood. Ponyboy to him was not only a brother, his best friend, but his lover.

Soda has been hiding his secret by dating Sandy. He thought by dating a women, nobody will know about his "sin". However recently Sandy moved away with her grandparents. Soda thought it was still possible to hid his "disease". However it turns out that Sandy was pregnant... with another man. "If you ever want to talk to me, here is my address. If you don't I'll understand" Sandy said as she gave Soda her address on a paper. Right after she left Soda tore it up and threw it away.

Soda after thinking begin to cut again. This time only was difference. Ponyboy was right in bed asleep. Pony has not really had any nightmares lately. During the night Soda got an erection while staring at Ponyboy's face.

After he cleaned up the blood he got back on the bed. Just staring. Ponyboy woke up and saw Soda staring at him. Just with lust in his eyes. Pony was about to ask whats wrong he got jumped on by Soda. "Soda! What is" Pony got cut off by Soda trying to put his shirt off. "Oh god, it is happening." Pony thought. He tried to fight his wants, no needs and tried to push Soda off with no avail.

Soda was successful in ripping Pony's shirt off and afterwards licked his nipple. Pony moaned at the sight. "Fuck yes" Pony said. This was a huge turn on for Soda as he starting to nibble his nipple harder and faster. Pony took his pants off and started to rub his already erected cock.

Soda moved down and saw the beautiful thing. He started to lick the tip. "Oh fuck yes! YES! SODA!" Ponyboy thought. Soda put the whole thing in his mouth and started to go up and down. Both Pony and Soda knew he wouldn't last long. Hell they were right. Just one minute into sucking Pony camed all in Soda' s mouth. Soda then transferred the cum into Pony's mouth in an intense makeout.

Then the worst thing happen. Dally walked in and saw his kid brothers making out naked on the bed.

A/N: Yes I know I am fucked up. I will update this soon. :)