When All You Got is Faith Not a Lie

by blackflame28

A diary of a teenaged girl in a anti god world both versions of the story

1. The Story

7:45 pm

Diary,

I was almost caught today by my mother on the computer! I was on the computer with Daniel, searching for stuff we both need to live when I heard I noise. I scarcely just a chance I say good-bye to Daniel and close the window when Mother walked in. She just wanted to see what I was up to. I think that she thinks I spend too much time on the computer. It's really not my fault, through. I have to spend at least ten to fifteen minutes on the computer to work my way through all the legal barriers that stop me from doing my searching. If I didn't spend that time I would probably be dead by now! It also takes a long time to find the stuff I'm looking for! Do you how hard it is to find music about Jesus Christ that doesn't bash him? I guess I'm expecting too much. It's a miracle I have all the music about my Redeemer that I do now, considering it's... illegal and all. I can't believe it. Who in the right mind would illegalise Christianity? The only way to live, on Earth and the after life? Who in their right mind would make practicing Christianity a crime Punishable by DEATH? The world leaders, that's who. I don't think it's the end of the world yet, because there has been no rapture yet and because it's not a total world government yet, there are still four "countries" or regions- the North, South, West and East. Canada, where I live and the US is in the North Region, Europe in the West, Asia is the East and Africa is the South. The other parts of the Earth also fall into those Regions but those are the major players in the world today... except Canada... they are the same as always! Sleepy Canada! Ha! Okay that's not TOTALLY true. Canada and the US are one of the major players for underground Christian stuff. Unfortunately, the black market is EXPENSIVE! So it's the Internet for me to get all things Christian.

Daniel is completely dependent on me for get him the newest songs and such. He can't go online. His father caught him looking for a Bible a few months ago on the Net and since then unless Daniel has adult supervision he can't go on the Net. He still sneaks on some days (like today) to talk to me. He was the one who taught me about hacking about the Internet. Right now, our biggest project is getting our hands on a Bible. We have only found parts of the Bible online, mostly the New Testament. We really want the whole thing. Daniel told me, the day he was caught, that he found a site with a whole Bible! But he never got the time to write down the address. *Sigh* Don't get me wrong, I am so very thankful that Daniel's father didn't turn him in.

I remember last year a girl in my class was caught listening to POD, the teacher called the Police, and I swear, the whole SWAT team came and I'll NEVER forget this day... they killed her! They didn't give her a trial or anything. They just made a noose... they hung her in the cafeteria and left her there for a couple of days. The teachers, and the prefects, told us that would be a lesson for all us. If any of us were caught with any Christian items what happened to that girl would happen to us. That whole week I cried. I couldn't understand how God would allow that to happen? I longed for His Word so much. That's when Daniel and I started our own web page. It's called Jesus Freaks Lives! It's a combination of my and Daniel's web alias. Mine is RLives and Daniel's is JFreaks. Daniel LOVES the song Jesus Freaks by DC Talk. My favourite band is Relient K. Opps! Off topic! Pretty much all J.F.L do now is posts prayer requests. We also reply to people who want to know where other Christian sites are. We always do a background check on the people, in case they are really the government or something. At this point, no one from the government or the school knows about our site.

Hey! My parents have just left to go shopping. I'm going back on line to get a Bible. Later!

-Mia

Lunch

Diary,

I'm in total shock. Today during first period we went down to the library to work on our History Project. My partner, Jocelyn, and I were already done our project so she was showing me some of her songs she had been working on. She wants to be a musician when she grows up. I, personally, don't like her songs. They are completely anti- Christian in their lyrics. They speak of sex and violence like it's commonplace. It is but it shouldn't be! I would really like her to show her the love of Jesus Christ so; perhaps, her songs could reflect that message. But her father is a politician and she's been brainwashed, like everyone else in the world, to believe religion, especially Christianity, is the cause of all evil in this world. I'm sure if I told her about the love of the Prince of Peace she would turn me in and I don't think that's a risk I am willing to take yet. Anyway her disk is FULL of songs and musical notes so when she typed in the title 'Jessie Eielson Should Use Somebody' the computer said the title was too long. So she typed the first letter of each word for the name of the file. Suddenly a loud alarm went off and metal straps shot out of her chair and pinned her down. She began to scream. I was so shocked then I realised why. Our stupid government have special 'key words' that tip them off to the Saints. Well, her shorten song title was- JESUS- a major keyword! I jumped to my feet. I told Jocelyn to calm down. I'm sure, after they read her lyrics, they would realise she wasn't a Christian. She continued to cry. The librarian cleared out the library, except for me because I refused to leave her there. About ten to twenty minutes later the police ran in, guns raised. Three surrounded Jocelyn and pointed their weapons at her head.

"LET ME GO!" she screamed at the top of her lungs, "Don't you know who I am? Don't you know who my father is?" The policemen laughed at her.

"Shut up, Jesus Freak!" one snapped. (Someone really needs to tell them that calling us Jesus Freaks isn't really an insult anymore! We are proud to be associated with our Lord and Saviour!)

"Now we are going to release you from the chair," it was a female cop who was talking. I thought she was more sympathetic to Jocelyn, "But if you make any sudden movements we will be forced to shoot." The other policemen told me to 'get lost' but I refused. I had to know what would happen to my friend! They arrested Jocelyn and led her away. I wanted to follow but again I was refused. They wouldn't listen to her as she tried to explain the file title was only an anagram. But I think, because of who her father is, they might give her a trial instead of just executing her. I prayed that while she's in jail that she might find the comfort that Jesus provides.

PLEASE JESUS, MY SAVIOUR PLEASE LET JOCELYN MEET YOU AND FIND OUT HOW WONDERFUL YOU REALLY ARE! GIVE HER COMFORT WHILE SHE'S IN JAIL AND PLEASE LET JUSTICE BE DONE. AMEN.

-Mia

After school

Diary,

Mom is good friends with Jocelyn's mother. Mom just came in with news about Jocelyn. Mom knows I'm really worried about her. Jocelyn is in the Juvenile Detention Centre. She will be held there over night. The police, tonight, are going to search her room for anything Christian. They have another team on reading her song lyrics. I heard from mother that Jocelyn is in a crowded cell with other Christian prisoners. I'm still Jocelyn with hear the Good News... I hope she believes it. Mom says tomorrow there will be more news.

DEAR LORD, AGAIN I PRAY FOR MY FRIEND'S SAFETY IN JAIL AND THAT YOU WILL FIND HER AND WARM HER HEART. PLEASE TAKE CARE OF HER. AMEN.

-Mia

1: 26 am

Diary,

Guess who called right now? Jocelyn! Because of who her father is she received one unmonitored phone call- on a safe phone even! I can't believe what happened!

"Mia? Mia?" the voice came across the line.

"Jocelyn?" I mumbled, it was early and I was so tired.

"My god Mia! I am so thankful I got through to you! Mia, can you do me a huge favour?"

"Sure, Jocelyn. Anything."

"I need you to tell me about Jesus. I figured that you would know about Him."

"Me? Why me?"

"Please Mia! After listening to some of these Jesus Freaks in here I thought a lot of them sound just like you... except mention God and Jesus and such."

"But why do you want to know?" I didn't know what to do. I thought that maybe if I kept Jocelyn to keep talking an answer would come to me. I would pray about it in the back of my mind.

"Because I'm pretty sure I'm going to die tomorrow. I want to know who I'm dying for."

"You? Dying? But how do you know?" I heard my parents move around upstairs. I began to talk quieter.

"My dad came tonight. Yelling at me. 'How could you become one those thieves?' 'Do you know what this will do for my career?' I told him to read my songs. For once I agree with you- those aren't good songs. I'm recalling a lot of the songs and I can't believe I even thought them, let alone wrote them down! They were- are- awful! He told me he did read them. He said that a lot of them had a lot of hidden Christian meaning. That tomorrow I should renounce my faith and go for major rehab or die. I heard some of the guards talking. They are coming up with... different ways of killing Christians. Mia, I'm so afraid."

"It's okay. God will protect you." I said. I was so worried after I said that. What if I was caught? But now, after the phone call, I know I have to trust everything up to God. No matter how hard it is. I have to trust Him and at times, like tonight, let Him speak for me.

"Do you think God will have me? Even after all these years of picking on His people?"

"Yes," I really wished I had a Bible on me. I would look up the verse and everything, "In the New Testament a man named Saul went around killing Christians. One day on the road... to somewhere... Jesus revealed Himself to Saul and Saul became a Christian. He changed his name is Paul."

"I've heard of Paul! Some of the girls in here keep quoting Paul and Peter!" I smiled.

"Yes. So you see? Saul KILLED God's Saints and Jesus still wanted him. God wants no one to be apart from Him!"

"Thank you Mia! I'm going back to my cage and I will pray the Sinner's prayer! And when the lawyers ask me tomorrow to forsake Jesus I will say no! Thank you Mia! Thank you Lord!" We hang up after that. I'm so glad Jocelyn found Jesus. Maybe...

DEAR LORD, COULD YOU PLEASE SPARE JOCELYN'S LIFE TOMORROW? I KNOW THAT NOW THAT SHE'S ONE OF YOUR CHILDREN SHE WILL SPEND THE WORD FOR YOU. PLEASE GOD, PLEASE LET HER LIVE. IN JESUS'S NAME, AMEN... PS- THANKS FOR LETTING JOCELYN TO FIND YOU!

-Mia

1st period

Diary,

There has been no word on Jocelyn yet. Daniel told him he would continue praying for her safety. He also told me got a lead on are Bible hunting! Yeah!

-Mia

Therefore take up the whole armour of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand. Stand therefore, having girded your waist with truth, having put on the breastplate of righteousness, and having shod your feet with the preparation of the gospel of peace; above all, taking the shield of faith with which you will be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked one. And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God; praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, being watchful to this end with all perseverance and supplication for all the saints. Ephesians 6: 13- 18



12:30 pm

Diary,

I'm in the car. Afternoon classes are cancelled. Jocelyn's trial is public in the town square. I'm afraid. I hope God keeps Jocelyn strong.

PLEASE GOD KEEP JOCELYN STRONG. LET HER KNOW THAT YOU LOVE HER AND THE DECISION SHE HAS MADE IS FOR BETTER, NOT FOR WORST.

-Mia

3:30pm

Diary,

She's gone... I don't believe it. How could anyone be so cruel? I HATE this life!

-Mia

After supper

Diary,

I got off the phone with Daniel. He made me feels somewhat better. I guess I should record what happened. We arrived at the Square, what we thought was early because the trial began at 1:30 but the Square was packed. People were screaming, "Kill the Freak!" I shivered. I saw Daniel and I told my parents that I was going to talk to him. My parents were okay with that. I went over to Daniel and he was with his other Christian friends that he has met through Jesus Freaks Lives. I didn't know these people with people very well so I don't know if I can trust them. They seemed very sobered. One, I think his name is David, asked if maybe if we should pray- aloud- for Jocelyn.

"Are you nuts?" I cried, "Do you want to be killed?" His friend, Anne, laughed.

"Oh, Mia! Does it matter? We will be dying for the Greater Cause!" I blushed. Why did these people make me for so bad for wanting to survive?

"But if we die who will teach others?" I countered. The three nodded. Daniel smiled at me and he seemed to say, 'Why are you so afraid?' then the lawyers stepped up on the stage.

"People! Welcome! As you all know, this is the trial for Jocelyn Pearson. She has been charged as a being a Christian. And we all know what our Criminal Code says?" he called. I shivered. The lawyers were acting like this was a game show. That our friend's life had no impact, no significance whatsoever.

"It says that there is no god, goddess or higher being. We are the Higher Being. We are in control of our future. It says that anyone caught practicing can be charged with treason! It says that anyone caught practicing Christianity with be put to death!" the people chorused. Again I shivered. Daniel put his arm around me and I could tell he was scared too.

"Let's bring out the prisoner! Jocelyn Pearson!" Jocelyn came out in chains but carried her defiant look, as she always did. She looked at the crowds and gave a small smile when she saw me. My eyes began to fill up with tears. One of the lawyers walked up to her.

"Let's get straight to the point. It doesn't really matter what that file was called was it?" he asked. It wasn't fair! Jocelyn wasn't even given a lawyer!

"Jocelyn Pearson, are you a Christian?" he cried.

"When you arrested me I wasn't guilty of anything except not thinking. I didn't realise what I wrote when I named that file. That file was a normal song like every other one I wrote. But you threw in jail! There I was exposed to other Christians and for that I thank you. I thank you for arresting me. Because of your stupid laws I found there is a God! There is a true living God and that loves each and every one of us! He wants you to know Him!" she cried. I smiled. She was so brave. How on Earth did she find the courage to say that with the threat of death in the face?

"Praise God." Matthew whispered. Praise God indeed.

"Shut her up!" a lawyer cried. Jocelyn smiled.

"OUR FATHER IN HEAVEN! HALLOWED BE YOUR NAME!" Jocelyn cried. The police ran up to her and slugged her. I turned away. The people cheered.

"YOUR KINGDOM COME! YOUR WILL BE DONE ON EARTH AS IT IS IN HEAVEN!'

"Hang the freak!" the crowds screamed. I shuddered as I heard young children yell this.

"Hang her! Hang her!" they chanted. As the police looped the noose over Jocelyn's head she continued, "Give us our daily bread, forgive us our debts, as we also have forgiven our debtors, and lead us not into temptation but deliver us from the evil one-" the second she said 'one' they dropped the platform and she died. The people cheered all around us. They cheered. Didn't they care they killed someone's daughter? Someone's friend? Just because of faith. Why, God, do You allow Your children die? Please Lord; protect me and my friends from those who wish to extinguish Your beautiful light. Please Lord; protect us. In Your Son's name, Amen.

-Mia

After School

Diary,

I've been thinking a lot about Jocelyn's conversion to Christianity. I'm so glad she became one of Jesus' followers and I've been thinking about my own and the impact it has had in my life. I've also been thinking that for our website we should put up a section where people can post their own stories. I mean every Christian has a story and I'm sure they would love to share it. I'll run this past Daniel and see what he thinks. Anyway, if it's a go ahead then maybe Daniel and I should post ours first. This, dear diary, is my story...

My mother was only six when our World Leaders decided it would be better without religion. See, it was the end of World War III and what the Leaders believed what was the cause was religion. The Jews and the Muslim's fighting over the site where the temple use to be had escalated hugely over the past fifty years. One day a radical Jew fighter planted a bomb at the Dome of the Rock and blew it up! This caused a huge war, and like the other World Wars, most of the countries became involved. And for some reason, I'll never understand, the people began to blame Christianity! I guess it's like at the end W.W I when everybody blamed Germany and it was SO obvious that they didn't start the war! Anyway at the end of the War the strongest countries- US, China, Britain, and surprisingly Russia (who grew to be really powerful during the War)- appointed leaders and split the World into four regions. They blamed the cause of the war on religion. They said anyone caught practicing any

religion would be jailed. And to appease the people they said anyone who is a Christian would be put to death! How this passed is, also, beyond me! So both my parents grew up in an anti- religion world. And when I was born I grew up without religion.

I never missed it because I never knew it but I knew that I was missing something! But I didn't know what. In grade seven I met Daniel. He was a strange kid who was really quiet. I guess what really drew him to me was that the obviousness that he was hiding something. He had that whole aura of mystery around him! So after months of pestering him to tell me his secret he invited me over. We were really close friends by then and the fact that he hid stuff from me wasn't a big deal... but honesty it hurt me a bit that I became his best friend and I thought that he couldn't trust me! Anyway, I went over and his parents were gone (out shopping or something) so he took me his room. As we stood outside of his room he said, "Mia, you can't tell another soul what I'm about to tell you! I'm trusting you with me life!" I laughed. I didn't understand what was so serious. So we went inside his room. And there, with his stereo blaring, told me he was a Christian. I remember, after I heard that, I stood up.

"Danny? You're a Ch- Christian? Are you insane?" I cried. He smiled.

"No, Mia, I'm not. Once I've found Jesus I have never been happier!"

"But it's illegal! Oh god, Danny!" I couldn't stand it anymore and I ran. I avoided Daniel for the whole week after he told me. I recall he would go up to me and try to talk to me but I would turn and go the other way. I remember thinking that if I stayed friends with him that I would be accused of being Christian too! That I could also be killed, that I was an accessory to a crime! I was so scared! So I decided I had to save Daniel. I couldn't let my friend die. Funny, he was thinking the same thing but he was worried about my eternal life.

"Daniel," I said to him one day after school, "I'm here to save you! I won't let you die!" he laughed.

"Amelia," he countered, "I'm here to save you. I won't let you die!" I raised me eyebrows. We went to the park with the swings. I believe that park was torn down and replaced with a Mini- Mart or something gross like that.

"Danny, what you're doing it wrong! If you're caught, you will die. Don't you understand?"

"Mia," he said my name really slowly, "have you ever heard of John 3:16? `For God so loved the world he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.'" He looked at me.

"What was that?" I asked, that strange longing for something returned.

"'For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world but to save the world through him. Whoever believes in Him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe stands condemned already because he has not believed in the name of God's one and only Son.'"

"What happened to God's Son?" I asked.

"He died for us."

"What do you mean `He died for us'?" I asked again. Why would anyone die for someone else? Then he, without a Bible, told me anything that Jesus did for us. I remember him telling me that I was a sinner and I fell short of being with God but God kept His promise and sent the One who will save us from our sinning cycle. That Jesus died because of us! He died because He wanted us with Him and His Father! I remember feeling warm after hearing that. I knew that I had to have Jesus in my life! I knew it!

"Daniel, what do I have to do to have Jesus by my Saviour?"

"Pray the Sinner's prayer. Pray that Jesus will enter your life and make you a person of God. Mia, pray with me." Then together we prayed the Sinner's Prayer and I felt God, Jesus in my life!

I really wanted, after that day, was to tell everyone. I wanted to shout it out to the world and Daniel understood completely that urge but we also knew doing something like that would lead us to our deaths, no matter if we were only twelve. So we would learn how to hack around the computer and get God's word. We found others like us. And I never regretted becoming a follower of Jesus!

-Mia

After Supper

HE FOUND ONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DANIEL GOT A BIBLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Daniel came over for supper and we went on the computer to work on our site (he loved my Christian story idea!) and we decided to post a note on the message board saying to email us your story and we will post it for you on the site. While we were reading the messages from the people someone, named Angel, said that he read our request for a Bible and he gave us an address for a Bible site. So, I making sure mom doesn't come and see what Daniel was up to, he went to the site and got an NIV Bible. He saved it to disc and said he would print one out me for tonight! Praise God!

THANK YOU GOD FOR ALLOWING US TO READ YOUR WORD! I'M SO HAPPY! THANKS GOD! THANK- YOU! THANK- YOU! THANK- YOU! THANK- YOU! THANK- YOU!

-Mia

1st period

Diary,

Oh my gosh! I'm so happy! Praise God! Praise God seven times seventy (that's how many times we are suppose to forgive other people and it means an infinite number so I want to praise God forever!) Daniel brought me my VERY OWN BIBLE! I brought my chemistry book (from the year before) and hid it within the pages. So about every ten Bible pages there are chemistry notes!

Also Daniel just told me about this message he found on the site. It's a group called the Underground Resistance and they are dedicated to the teaching people about Jesus! I want to join. I really want to get my parents saved. But Daniel thinks we need to do major research on this group because they could be governmental and they are trying to destroy us. Daniel e-mailed Matthew, Anne and David to see if they had ever heard of them. I guess we will know soon if we can go to the front line.

Anyway, Diary, sorry for the short entry but I'm going to "study" my "chemistry" notes!

-Mia

Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Blessed is the man where perseveres under trial because he has stood trial, because he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love Him.

James 1: 2-4, 12

1st period

Diary,

I'm really mad at Daniel right now! We just got in a huge fight all because I want online, without him, and did my own research on Underground Resistance. So by doing this on my own, I wrote a full report so everyone who visits our site can know the lowdown. So I told Daniel what I did and was about to show him the report but he flipped! Said I didn't trust him, this was a two- person team, there's no "I" in team, why did I feel like I couldn't trust him to go online, etc. I told him I did trust but I was anxious and couldn't wait. I said sorry but he rolled his eyes and told me that I needed to trust more- to trust him, trust David, Matthew and Anne and I had to trust God a lot more. Then he turned on heel and left! I'm so angry. He's probably going to rant to David and Matt right now. Well good for him! Anyway I wanted, during this period, to write down my findings.

Okay, so it turns out that this Resistance group has their own website but it's on public Internet and there's no hacking involved to get to it. I think they taunting the World Leaders, like they are saying `we are here and you can't get to us'. Okay, and diary I know you will keep this quiet, but I was trying to hack into their site and find out who they are but, yeah for them, it's impossible to break down their walls. Anyway, I read their mission statement and I can't believe they thought they are a good group to post on our site! It's complete syncretism! I can't believe it! They want religion in our world again but they think they will make everyone happy by creating a ONE WORLD RELIGION! What is that about? I read that they will be creating a petition to send to the World Leaders and tell them we want a world religion. And you wouldn't believe how many people have signed it! I read their message board and it says stuff like, `I've want religion all my life but I was afraid. I'm so glad you are brave enough to take a public stand!' `I've read all the religions that there were and all seemed to be the "right one". I'm happy that you will out the best parts in one religion.' I was almost sick! They LIED on our message board... in a way. They do want to spend the Word of Jesus but not in it's true form! Argh! Okay, I should go.

-Mia

3rd period

Diary,

Daniel and I made up. After I finished my last entry I went to his locker and put my report in his locker and he read it. We both apologized and it's all-good. He's furious at the Underground Resistance too. During 1st period he did his own research and will help from Matthew and David they found out even more information. The main guys of the group come from backgrounds of Buddhism, Muslim and Hinduism. Not one of them were even Christian! Not one of them believed (or believes) Jesus is the Son of God! Also the guy who is a Buddhist works for the government! I'm so furious! So Daniel removed that message from the site and wrote a really long one explaining why that one message was removed and why it's best to stay away from it. Within the period there were several messages. Some were thanks, saying they were really interested in the group but if that's all true they will stay FAR away from it! But some also were coming from the opposite end, they said things like, my parents are a part of that group, they believe Jesus is a god, why should Christianity be the ONLY way to Heaven? *IDEA* It's an awesome idea! Why don't Daniel and I start our own group? We already have the site. And I'm sure Matthew, David and Anne would like to help! It's our best bet to save more people instead of waiting for them to come to the Kingdom! Oh! I'm so excited!

-Mia

Late- very late

Diary,

I think my mom is going to kill me! I went out with Daniel and we met up with Matt and David at Anne's house. That was pretty fun. We porked out on chips and pretzels! Then Anne's mom, who is also a Christian, brought in brownies and hot chocolate! I never ate so much in one night in all my life! Anyway we talked about my idea. David thinks it's a wonderful idea but Anne and Matthew think it's too dangerous- especially for a couple of high school students. Daniel is sitting on the fence. I guess he doesn't want to upset anyone. I asked what's the harm? I mean we already have a site promoting Christianity, why not take it a step farther? We could really help people find Jesus! But Anne said people needed to be touched by the Holy Spirit first before they become Christians. David pointed out that they couldn't have their heart softened until they know that God exists. We got into a HUGE argument (in which Daniel said nothing). Anne's mother came running in and told us we needed to calm down. We sat there for almost ten minutes, eating, and deep in thought. I think it was Matthew who said the only way to solve this was to pray about it. We send our problem up to God and He will lead us to do what's right.

Anyway David mentioned that the Four World Leaders are coming to our city. I found out tonight that David's dad works for the city government and is going to be promoted soon to provincial government! David doesn't know why they are coming. But we did manage to agree on something tonight- we are going to have to lay low for a while. Matt had to point out that means no updating the site or making a new site. I wonder, sometimes, how Daniel can stand them! They really make me mad. Especially Anne and Matt, they always act like they know everything!

Oh right! I totally forgot! So mom is really mad because I didn't come home until... well... after midnight...way after. Try around 2am. Yes, it's a weekend but mom said my curfew was 12am. She never told me that. And besides who can really stop talking when it's about God? *Shrug* Well, now I'm grounded for a month. And I have no Internet privileges for at least a week. Doesn't mom know how important Internet is? It's my lifeline to other Christians! Of course I can't tell mom that. Image what she would say to that! I would be grounded forever! I suppose there is an upside to this. I can "study" more. Hee hee. Well, it's late. I'm going to bed. Later

-Mia

Afternoon

Diary,

Because I'm grounded I couldn't go to church this morning! Usually I tell my parents that I'm going to Daniel's and that we work on our homework. And a part of it's true- I do go to Daniel's but then we go to this house church that Pastor Steven runs. He's about 33- and so cute! - and completely relates to what us students feel. He works for a part of the government and he always see his friends being arrested. He says that he is afraid to quit because that's a dead giveaway that you are a Christian. I remember once he told us that he had a girlfriend named Amara and his older brother introduced her into Christianity. Anyway she decided she couldn't work for the company anymore. So she quit. Pastor Steve said she had a really believable excuse. At any rate the next day rumours were flying around that Amara got arrested. Steve had to find out and went straight to his boss. He apologized and said that the rumours were true. He told Steve that his girlfriend was found out to be a Christian and will be killed that very night! Steve wanted to know how they found out but his boss told him not to worry. So now every weekend Steve asks us to pray for him so he will know whether or not it's safe to quit or not.

Anyway, Daniel called earlier this afternoon. Mom allowed me to talk to him on the phone.

"Mia, where were you?" he asked.

"Because of Friday night I'm ground for a month!"

"That sucks. I'll keep notes for you at Steve's. That reminds me, I told Steve about your idea and he thinks it's awesome!"

"Really? That's great. Once I can go on the Net again, I'm going to start working on it."

"Plus Steve made a decision about work!"

"What?"

"He's quitting. He says he's sick of working for the devil and refuses to anymore!"

"Good for him!" That's when Mom told me to get off the phone.

"I heard that. I should go too. Oh! David says hi!" then Daniel slammed the phone down. David says hi? Since when would David send messages to me- and Daniel deliver them? Oh well, HI DAVID! But good for Steve. I really mean it. I hope God protects him... I hope God protects all His children.

-Mia

After supper

Diary,

OH MY GOSH!!!! I just heard this on the news! I'm shaking! I really want to call Daniel but mom won't let me. I can hardly write this. Breathe, Mia, breathe. Okay... okay... so Dad and I were listening to the news. We are both interested in why they are coming to our little city but we were watching and the newsman said that due to their arrival... EVERY HOUSE, SCHOOL, AND STORAGE PLACE WILL BE SEARCHED FOR ILLEGAL MATERIALS. That means I have to wipe the hard drive. No I have to do better than that. The police will be doing the searching whenever they want- we will have no warning! I must wipe the drive TONIGHT! A better idea! I will crash the computer. I mean a major crash that practically breaks the computer. But I don't know what to do with my other stuff- like this diary or my chemistry notes! I'm so scared! I don't want to die!

-Mia

1st period

Diary,

I managed to crash my computer last night and while I was "fixing" it all the files were deleted. Unfortunately all my school files are gone too. I don't know what to do with my Bible and my diary. I spoke with both Daniel and David. Daniel doesn't know what to do. He can't crash the computer, like I did, because his dad uses it for work. He says he's going to delete all his files then using all his hacking knowledge try to resurface it. David doesn't think they will try to uncover any lost files and if they do the titles won't give anything away.

"But what will we do about the hard stuff, like our Bibles?" I asked.

"I don't know. We can't throw it out! Not after all the work we did to get one!" Daniel said. I totally agree. I can't even image throwing out my Bible!

"'Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust in Me.' Isn't that what Jesus said? And shouldn't we believe him?" David asked. I smiled.

"I do trust God and I trust Jesus but these times are dangerous. If every Christian openly professed the Word then every Christian would be dead, trust in God or not." I replied. I really do trust God.

"Paul, Peter, Steven and many others lived in times where Christianity was illegal and they weren't afraid. Why are you?" David answered quickly.

"Because I don't want to die! I want to grow up! I want a job. I want children! Don't you have the same dreams?" I cried. David shook his head sadly.

"I do. But I trust my Lord. If He wants me with Him then I will go, singing His praises. I refuse to be afraid. I thought you trusted Him too." David walked away. I am so mad! How dare he say that? He acts like he knows me or something! I'm only human- of course I have fears. I don't know anymore. I don't want to say David is right but I guess that's all I have. I have to trust God that my time isn't up.

-Mia

2nd period

Diary,

Am I nuts? I'm still very scared! All the students are talking about the arrival of the World Leaders. No one knows, still, why they are coming but they (the students) are looking forward to the arrests for the "religious idiots". This one boy, who I once to think was super fine, cheered, "Yeah I would love to see the Christian Freaks burn. Crucify them! That I would pay to see!" I was almost sick to my stomach. This other girl, who use to be friends with Jocelyn, said, "Yeah, I don't mind Buddhists or Hindus but those Christians! God, they think they are all special because they think they are "saved"! No hell for them! I would love to see their faces when they discover there is no god!" It took everything in my power not to say anything.

GOD I KNOW I'M SUPPOSE TO TRUST YOU SO I NEED YOUR HELP! PLEASE HELP ME TRUST YOU! HELP ME TRUST YOU MORE WITH THIS UPCOMING TEST YOU LAID BEFORE US CHRISTIANS. MAKE US STRONG IN YOU. IN JESUS'S NAME, AMEN

-Mia

After Supper

Diary,

I watched the news with my dad tonight. I couldn't stop crying. My parents didn't really understand why. All these people were being arrested. Buddhists, Hindus, Jews and Muslims were being arrested. They will be jailed. The parents will be charged with treason and the children will go for psychological help. And the Christians... a lot of them were killed on sight... those who weren't killed were arrested and will be killed tomorrow. The news people were talking about leaving the Christians until the Leaders come in a week, then they can celebrate with their deaths. After the news I came up here... I told my parents I felt sick. That's no lie.

LORD, PLEASE HELP YOUR PEOPLE. PLEASE LORD GIVE ME STRENGTH. GIVE US ALL STRENGTH.

-Mia

1st period

Diary,

I still don't know what I'm going to do with my diary and bible. David is grounded now too. He was caught looking through his dad's things. He was trying to find out more about the Leader's arrival because of his dad's almost promotion he is in charge of getting the city ready for their arrival. Once they arrival the promotion will be official. Anyway, David was going through the notes and stuff, trying to learn more and his dad walked in. David did mention to find the tentative schedule for the searches but David said because he saw it that they might be changed. My house will be done Thursday, Daniel's tomorrow, Matthew's Thursday and Anne's is Friday's. David's was done yesterday. He had quite a day yesterday. Luckily for him they didn't search too much because of his dad's loyalty. So I'm calling my mom at lunch to see if I'm allowed to go to Daniel's and work on "homework". We will actually delete ALL Christian files and anything that might even hint that there is any Christianity. I

wonder by doing this... are we denying Christ? That thought popped into my head as I closed my journal last night... I didn't say anything to anyone about it but I wonder if I am denying Him. Well I have two days to find out. But I think I will keep my diary and Bible. I don't want to hide them. I just don't know anymore.

LORD, GUIDE ME TO DO WHAT YOU WANT ME TO DO. KEEP DANIEL AND THE OTHERS SAFE. IN JESUS'S NAME, AMEN.

-Mia

After school

Diary,

Daniel is over now. Mom, because of her cleaning of the house seems to have forgotten my grounding. Any way we just came back from his house, we completely crashed the computer! We bailed out before his dad came home and we came here. Mom didn't really notice or care. So we are hiding in my room. Daniel is reading my Bible. Tomorrow we are going back to Daniel's to give him support. David will try to come too. Anyway, we will be praying hard this week!

PLEASE LORD, PROTECT YOUR CHILDREN. PROTECT DANIEL TOMORROW... AND PROTECT ME THRUSDAY! IN JESUS'S NAME, AMEN.

1st period

(Thursday)

Diary,

Daniel is so scared! We have been reading our Bible and praying (in plain view of everyone!) like crazy this morning. We mainly were praying for Daniel but we were also praying for Matthew and myself. Daniel has his Bible in his bag. Pretty much anything Christian he owns is on him. We are worrying that the police may search our lockers after they search our houses... of course that wouldn't make sense. But David did say they would search lockers later on before the Leaders arrive. Anne and Matthew are trying to find other believers in the school. So far we four are the only ones...

LORD PROTECT DANIEL TONIGHT, PLEASE PROTECT HIM ALL DAY. PLEASE PROTECT ALL YOUR FOLLOWERS THIS WEEK. IN JESUS' NAME, AMEN.

-Mia

After Supper

Diary,

The three of us went to Daniel's house. The police were still searching. We froze. Daniel paled.

"I can't go in there." He stammered.

"Yes! Yes you can!" David said. I nodded. I was shaking too.

"Yeah! `Don't let your heart be trouble', remember? God will surely protect us!" I cheered. Daniel nodded sadly. We, heads up, walked into the house. Daniel's parents saw us. Only his father made a face. I guess he never told Daniel's mom that her son is a believer. His dad walked over to us.

"Boy, why are you bringing your friends over?" he demanded.

"I- I didn't know they were here." He said. I glanced at David. He was glaring at Daniel's dad.

"Are these your Bible buddies? If you get us in trouble..." he warned. Daniel sighed.

"Don't worry dad, nothing is here that can be of any harm." He reassured. His father glared at and went back to join his wife. So we then crept up to Daniel's room. It was a total mess. I guess they don't take the time to clean up. The police had searched the place already. We closed the door. The next room over was being searched. Daniel groaned and (carefully) fell back on his bed. We, each, searched for a place to sit down. David began to laugh. Daniel shot him a look.

"What's so funny?" he demanded. David began to laugh harder. Then I realised why he was laughing- it was one of relief. Daniel was safe. God had protected him! Then I began to giggle. Daniel smiled.

"Okay... what's the joke?" he asked.

"We are safe!" David cried. But Daniel shook his head and snapped us back to reality.

"What about Mia?" he said. I stopped laughing. Tomorrow would be my day of search... and seizure. We became really quiet.

PLEASE LORD, PROTECT ME TOMORROW. IN YOUR SON'S NAME, AMEN!

-Mia

Do not fear those who can kill the body but cannot kill the soul; rather fear him who can destroy both body and soul in hell. Matthew 11:28

1st period

The big day!

Diary,

I am so scared. David is helping me through this. He was been praying with me and for me. Daniel is helping too. I think I will spend this period reading my Bible.

PLEASE LORD, HELP YOUR CHILDREN BE SAFE! IN JESUS'S NAME, AMEN.

-Mia

During 2nd period

Outside the principal's office

Diary,

I was called down to the office. I'm scared. What could they have found? I thought I cleared everything out! I thought I was safe. I wonder if the police are in there... trying to figure out the best way to take down a super Jesus Freak like me. What if they torture me? Demand I reveal the names of other Christians? OH LORD PLEASE KEEP ME SAFE FROM DEATH... AND PAIN! I'M NOT READY TO DIE YET... I WANT TO DEVELOP THAT SITE FOR YOU! PLEASE LORD! Oh here they come!

-Mia

At home

Diary,

I never knew. My sister (I have never mentioned here in this book because she's away at university) is a Christian. At 10:10am I was called down to the principal's office to tell me that my older sister had been arrested for being a Christian. She is being held with the other prisoners in the federal prison just on the outskirts of town. We are soon going to visit her. I REALLY want to tell her that I am a Christian- I never told her before. I was too afraid. Honesty, diary I feel majorly conflicted. I am SO happy that my sister is a Christian yet... I'm so upset that she got caught. Argh! My thoughts are everywhere! I should write down how she got caught. I went into the Principal's office and my parents sat there, stone faced. I decided that I wouldn't say a word until they accused me of being a Christian. I walked in and slipped my diary into my bag. Mom got up and hugged me.

"Amelia... I'm sorry." She whispered. I pulled away.

"Mom, what's wrong?" I asked.

"Samantha got arrested today." Dad said. I froze. Here I was thinking I was in trouble and my own sister was the one is jail!

"But how?" I whispered, in total shock.

"She was a Christian. They found her bible in her dorm room." Mom replied. My dad took my arm and said, "Let's go home." Then we left and now we are home.

PLEASE LORD KEEP MY SISTER SAFE. USE HER TO SPREAD YOUR WORD... PLEASE LORD... DON'T TEAR THIS FAMILY APART. IN JESUS'S NAME, AMEN.

-Mia

Late at night

Diary,

We just came home form the jail. It was totally different from when Jocelyn and I talked... then again we were on the phone. They roughly dragged Sam to us. She was... wearing a red jumpsuit and hand and feet cuffs. Then the four of us were locked into a room with a camera. They were going to tape the whole thing. Sam had been beaten up and her jumpsuit had blood on it. My eyes filled with tears. I ran to her and wrapped my arms around her.

"How are you so brave?" I whispered. She smiled at me.

"Oh Mia! Why should I be afraid when I am going to be with the One Most High?" she asked.

"Samantha, shut up! I don't want you brainwashing Mia with that Christian bullshit!" Mom snapped. Sam, painfully, sat down. I sat next to her. Mom and Dad remained standing.

"Mom... Dad... why did you come here then?" Sam asked, "Do you honestly think that I will give up my faith?"

"Baby, you don't know what you are saying. Just say you aren't a Jesus Freak and come home with us." Dad said.

"No. I am not going to give up the one thing that truly matters in life." Sam declared.

"Sam, what happened?" I asked. Sam never stopped smiling.

"It looks likes it hurts but this is only a small price to pay. Oh Mia! I wish I could express in words the feelings I have when I think about how Lord Jesus Christ. He suffered so much worst just for us!" Sam said. I nodded. I really wanted to tell her I knew! I knew the joy that is saving faith! But I was so afraid... like I was with Jocelyn. I'm even afraid now as I write this. Mom slapped my sister across the face, reopening a wound. I jumped to my feet.

"Mother!" I cried. How could she do that to her own daughter?

"Mia, it's okay. She only wants to protect you." Sam said.

"Honey, I'm sorry. Sam... what if you are wrong? What if there is no god?" she asked.

"Mom, I know there is. I feel Him." I nodded. I remember that feeling. That moment of joy I felt when Christ entered my life and the Holy Spirit entered my heart. Sam shot me a look of confusion. Mom sighed.

"Please, just say the words and you will be safe!" Dad pleaded.

"My Lord says, `but if anyone denies me here on earth, I will deny that person before my Father in heaven.' Right Mia?" I paled. What was she trying to do? But then she continued, "You would never tell the person you love that you hate him, so I can never tell the Messiah I don't believe in Him."

"But instead you rather tell your family that you hate them?" Mom countered. Sam just continued to smile.

"'If we die with Him, we will also live with Him. If we endure hardship, we will reign with Him. If we deny Him, He will deny us. If we are unfaithful, He remains faithful, for He cannot deny Himself.' That is what Paul wrote to his friend Timothy is his second letter." She replied. My parents knew then my sister would never deny her faith. Mom hugged her daughter.

"When is your... execution date?" she asked. My eyes filled up with tears again.

"The night when the Leaders come. Mom, Dad and Mia, I want you to know that I love you. I really do. And I pray that you, too, find God and His Holy Son in your life. Do not be sad." She said. Mom mentioned that we should leave. I hugged my sister tightly.

"Sam," I whispered in her ear, "I'm a believer too." I smiled at her through my flowing tears. Sam looked shocked and then mouthed the words, "Praise God." Then we left.

I'm going to see if David will drive me back tomorrow. David has a car. I'm going to visit her every day until...

OH GOD! PLEASE KEEP MY SISTER SAFE IN YOUR LOVING ARMS! I PRAY THAT SHE REMAINS STRONG IN HER FAITH AND THAT IF I EVER HAVE TO FACE THE SAME CHALLENGE AS SAM THAT YOU WILL MAKE ME BRAVE. PLEASE MAKE ME BRAVE NOW. DO NOT LET ME FEAR THE CONSEQUENCES OF BEING YOUR FOLLOWER. I LOVE YOU. IN JESUS'S NAME, AMEN.

-Mia

Don't imagine that I came to bring peace to the earth! No, I came to bring a sword. I have come to set a man against his father, and a daughter against her mother, and a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law. Your enemies will be right in your own household! If you love your father or mother more than you love me, you are not worthy of being mine; or if you love your son or daughter more than me, you are not worthy of being mine. If you refuse to take up your cross and follow me, you are not worthy of being mine. If you cling to your life, you will lose it; but if you give it up for me, you will find it. Matthew 10:34- 39

1st period

Diary,

Okay, I'm still a little mad at mom right now. I told her, last night, that David would drive me to see Sam after school (which I did ask him about this morning and he said he would) and she flipped out. She told me she didn't want me to see Sam, that she is a "bad influence". I couldn't believe that! I told her that she's my sister and I want to spend time with her before... yeah. Mom still said no way! All Sam will talk about is God and the 'so- called' love of Christ and she doesn't want me to turn into one of 'them'! I was so mad! I told her that everyone should have their own right to freedom of speech and that I, also, have the right to spend time with her! Then I went to my room and stayed there all night. I know the Bible says not to let the sun go down while you are angry but she's my own sister! I want to see her! And she should know that there are people out there that love her and agrees with her about Christ!

Anyway, after school David is going with me to see Sam. You know it's strange but I use to hate David but know we are very close? It's strange, things like that. God sure does work in mysterious ways!

-Mia

2nd period

Diary,

Oh my gosh! We had a library period so I went on to check my Rlives email (after a lot of hacking to make sure it's safe) and I got a message from a very good friend who lives in Ireland, her name is MyMessiah. I'm very grateful for becoming friends with her because she helped Daniel and I a lot on website and it's nice to know there are other teenagers facing the same Christ- issues that you are... anyway, I'll just copy the message in here:

Rlives,

I thought you should know that the government has their top hackers out to delete all Christian websites and to capture those who made them! I don't know why they are just after Christian websites. but I heard this rumour that Hinduism, Buddhism, Islam and the like are all going to legalized- except of course the one true religion. This bugs me so much! Just thought you should know so you can do something to your site. I will pray that God protects you and Jfreaks from the government.

Your sister in Christ,

MyMessiah

That just makes things so much harder for us. PLEASE GOD! PROTECT YOUR CHILDREN! HELP US GET CLOSER TO YOU, IF ONE WAY FALLS, ALLOW ANOTHER TO GROW! PLEASE LORD!

Hmmm... I just heard my name called to the main office. Later.

-Mia

At home

Diary,

This is unbelievable... just unbelievable. I'm at home now. Mom took out me out of school today. I thought something had gone wrong with Sam but without mom saying a word, we went home. These I found out what was wrong.

"I searched your room." Mom stated.

"What? Why? How could you?" I cried.

"I listened to your CDs," I paled slightly but didn't say anything, "Amelia, where did you get that music?"

"The Internet..." I mumbled.

"Amelia, are you a Christian?" I began to shake. My eyes began to tear up. I nodded.

"Oh god, Mia! Why?" she cried. I didn't know what to say. My dad just stood there.

"Where did we go wrong?" Mom wailed.

"Nowhere. You did everything right." I said.

"Where? Who did you learn this from?" Dad finally spoke up.

"I rather not say." I replied.

"Go to your room until... we decided what to do." I left the kitchen.

So here I am. I worried. What if my parents turn me in? What if my parents turn me in? What if, because of them, I die? Would they do that to their own daughter? (Don't think about Sam, don't think about Sam!) PLEASE LORD, HELP ME BE STRONG THROUGH THIS!

-Mia

Don't be afraid of what you are about to suffer. The Devil will throw some of you into prison and put you to the test. You will be persecuted for 'ten days.' Remain faithful even when facing death, and I will give you the crown of life. Revelation 2:10

Later

Diary,

Praise God! My parents have decided not to turn me in! I'm so grateful! Yeah God! Unfortunately I have lost ALL Internet privileges. I can't even go on if my parents are right beside me! This means that it's up to Daniel to hide the site or something like that. Also my parents have removed all my Christian music and anything else they could find that was Christian. I'm hiding my Bible and this diary on me at all times! They said they would also go through my locker (telling the principal something like I am on drugs or something!) and removed all Christian things. I am to come straight home after school and until I tell them who told me about God I cannot hang out with Daniel or any of my other friends. I think they suspect I learnt about God from Jocelyn. Plus there is more. The municipal government is holding an all day workshop in a couple of days teaching all about the wonders of the new non- religious government and my parents are forcing me to go! They hope that once I learn about the peace that an anti- god world brings I will give up my devotion to Jesus! Yeah, right. I'm still scared. After they discover that all this brainwashing stuff they are trying doesn't work they turn me in? Today I heard from David that this Saturday (one week tomorrow!) that is when the Leaders are coming. What if they decided to hand me in to them then? Or what me to express my loyalty to them? I CAN'T do that! My loyalty lies with God, with the Son and with the Holy Spirit!

OH LORD! I'M SO SCARED RIGHT NOW! PLEASE GIVE ME YOUR STRENGTH AND HELP ME BE READY TO GIVE UP MY LIFE FOR YOU IF NEED BE. I PRAY THAT YOU KEEP STRONG ALL THOSE WHO ARE AFRAID BECAUSE OF THEIR FAITH RIGHT NOW AND LET THEM (AND ME) KNOW THAT YOU WILL NOT ABANDON THEM AND YOU ARE ALWAYS WITH THEM, JUST LIKE YOU PROMISED. PLEASE LORD KEEP ALL YOUR CHILDREN FAITHFUL TO YOUR WORD AND YOUR WAYS. IN JESUS'S NAME, AMEN.

-Mia

Thursday

After school

Diary,

This week sucked! My parents are breathing down my neck and I don't know they have told my teachers but they are watching my like a hawk! Only David and Daniel are standing by me. Anne and Matthew (like I ever considered them true friends) are acting like I have (or AM) the plague!

"Mia, how could you allow yourself to found out?" Anne asked me Monday.

"Yeah Mia, just because we trust God to protect us doesn't mean we don't have to careful all the time!" Matthew scolded.

"I was careful!" I cried, "What did you think I did? 'Hey mom? Well I figure you already now about Sam so I thought you should know that I'm a Christian too? Oh, while you're at it you can search my room while I'm at school. Okay? Love you.'"

"Oh Mia! I told you that your site would get you in trouble." Anne said. I opened my mouth to say something but then Matthew spoke again, "Mia, if I were you I would toss that diary of yours. I would honestly think about tossing the Bible too. But definitely the diary-you could get all your friends in trouble. I don't want to go to jail because of your stupid mistake."

"Well, I, for one, am proud of Mia. Things are a little rough now but she is still holding strong. That takes a lot of faith." David said. I whirled around. I couldn't believe he stood up for me, a girl he barely knows, for his closest friends! That took guts! Actually today he gave me this really cute card and he wrote Matthew 10:19, 20 on it. I think I'm going to write down the passage here:

"But when they arrest you, do not worry about what to say or how you are going to say it. At the time you will be given what to say, for it will not be you speaking but the Spirit of your Father speaking through you."

Okay, I know diary that it doesn't sound very comforting but, as I think about it, it is. I mean if God put in my heart tomorrow to speak for Him then I won't fear about what to say because He is talking for me. Okay, yeah, that sound weird and all but it's not.

Anyway, tomorrow is the "workshop" day plus the day before our "wonderful" leaders come. I'm afraid about tomorrow. I trust that God will be with me. what if they find out the truth?

PLEASE LORD, HELP ME TOMORROW, HELP ME BE STRONG AND CONTINUE TO BE YOUR CHILD. AMEN

-Mia

Lunchtime

Diary,

Hiding in the washroom now. ARGH! I don't think I can listen to those people anymore! First there are all types of people in that workshop. There are older people, young teens, college students, parents with their children (newborns and toddlers) and criminals. You could tell that they were criminals (not religious criminals) because they wore handcuffs and such. It was frightening because of all the teens and children. They all seemed to be eating it up.

The first part of the morning was a quick lesson on religion: how it got started, what were the five major ones, what was "common" each of them. Next they taught the negative stuff about religion. They told us all about the wars, the racial terrorist groups, and the division of the people. They, however, forget to add all the positive things that happened because of religion, because of the faith they have. Then we had a small break. I started to talk to the girl next to me. She was a major Goth. Her name was Rachel.

"So, why are you here?" she drawled. It sounded to me that she had a Southern US accent.

"My parents made me go," I said, "What about you?"

"Same reason. My older brother was caught for being a Christian. Didn't want me to be one too." She explained.

"I'm sorry about your brother." I said.

"No need, at least that's what my 'rents say. He got what he deserved."

"What do you think? Honesty?" I asked slowly. She looked at me funny.

"What you mean? He's a Jesus Freak. He got what he deserves!"

"But you honestly believe that?" her eyes began to well up with tears.

"No... he's just a normal guy!" but before we got to talk farther the session started again.

Then we learnt, in great detail the events of W.W. III. I learnt something that I didn't know. Supposedly they were going to make a one- world religion, but the Leader from the North shot the idea down. He said religion, in any form, was dangerous. So then I asked a question. Few people had asked questions this morning.

"Why did everyone just accept that there would be no religion?" he looked at me and smiled.

"Because everyone was so sick of wars, they were so sick of blood- shed and everyone was so sick of pain. They knew that for hundreds of years there were wars because of religion, it was so much easier that it was all given up." He replied.

"Why didn't everyone agree in a one- world? That would have stopped wars, pain and the like." I asked. The teacher sighed.

"Because one of the great Leaders thought otherwise." He said shortly.

"But it's obvious that tons of people want religion. Why else would the government, still, go gung- ho on the anti- religion?" I quizzed. The teacher sighed.

"Because they are stubborn. Amelia, may I continue?"

"No. I don't understand! Why on earth would people just give up their beliefs, their faith, their life without a fight?" I cried. Rachel nodded next to me.

"I don't understand either. There are so many people now that refuse to give up their faith, why did everyone agree last time? It's so hard to believe!" Rachel said. The teacher shook his head.

"Those people now who have faith in God are enemies of our Earth. Since the end of religion there haven't been any wars. The people wanted peace! Those, Christians, those freaks want to destroy our peace! Our love for each other!"

"But Christians believe in peace! They believe in love!" Rachel cried. She began to cry, her black makeup began run down her face.

"Rachel, are you a Christian?" the teacher asked.

"No, sir."

"Then how do you know all this?"

"My brother..." she whispered.

"And my sister both hold this belief of love and truth yet they were Christians. Love your neighbour as yourself, that's what Jesus Christ said. That sure doesn't sound like something someone who is against love would say." I said.

"'But he does not hesitate to punish and destroy those who hate him' Deuteronomy 7:10- that's in the Christian Bible. Doesn't that sound like one of love and peace?" Some of the class agreed with him.

"But my brother... he often spoke of the peace that God brings... I do not believe that the Christian God brings hate." Rachel whispered.

"By the end of the day, child, you will think differently." Then the teacher carried on with his lesson.

I think... I will go talk to Rachel now. I have to tell her the Good News... I won't be scared.

LORD ALLOW ME TO BRAVE IN YOU! HELP ME SPEAK YOUR TRUTH. IN YOUR SON'S NAME, AMEN.

-Mia After Supper

Diary,

*sigh* Thank God I'm home! The rest of the afternoon wasn't as bad. Pretty much all that was talked about was tomorrow and what the Leaders will do once they are in our city. I already knew most of it from David! Anyway I didn't get a chance to talk to Rachel. She was talking to a bunch of other teenagers so I didn't really get a chance. I really hope I get another chance to see her again. I over heard her say that she was invited to the ball tomorrow! I am glad that I can't go! Unfortunately David has to go. Since tomorrow night is the night that his dad gets promoted in the government. David called me an hour ago. He asked if I wanted to go with him. I said no way! Theirs is no way on Earth you would get me to go there. He sounded a little upset when I told him that but I figure it's because he doesn't want to suffer through it alone! I don't want to see all those innocent people die... I don't want to see Sam died. I've seen to many people I care about die. During the workshop they told us that tomorrow night over half of the jailed Christians would be killed. Our teacher said some will be shot, others hanged and the rest, if the Leaders permit, might be crucified! I don't want to see that... I have no clue how David can watch that! I feel bad for him... maybe I should have gone. *gee darn* it's too late for that! Hey! The phone is ringing!

-Mia

Evening

Diary,

That was just Daniel. I just got chewed out for not going tomorrow with David.

"David really wants you to go!" Daniel cried.

"I don't! I don't want to see people die! I don't want to see my brothers and sisters die... I don't want to see Sam die." I whispered that last statement.

"Mia you can't hide from this forever. I have decided once the Leaders leave I'm taking a stand! I'm going to make our web page again and I am going to make it as public as possible! I want to have the whole world to know that Jesus is the Truth, the Way and the Light! I will not be afraid!" Daniel declared. I wonder if his parents were around to hear his speech?

"Daniel, damn it! I want to, too! But I can't go tomorrow! I don't think I'm strong enough! Do you know how close I came to blowing it today? I was so close to telling my bloody teacher that I was a Christian!" I cried. My parents heard that...

"Maybe God wanted you too!"

"He wants me dead! What good am I to Him if I'm dead?"

"Who knows? But if you avoid your callings from Him you are no good to anyone!" Daniel cried. I started to cry then, "Oh Mia... I'm sorry. I didn't mean to sound so harsh."

"It's not you... Daniel... why are I so afraid? Why can't I trust God like you or David?"

"I don't know Mia. A lot of people have trouble trusting God. Look at the apostles, as long as Jesus was with them they didn't believe Him. They were afraid when He calmed the waters, they were very afraid when He was arrested. Yet the Son always forgave them."

"Daniel... why aren't you afraid?"

"I am. Dave asked me to go to the party with him. I declined too. Mia, you are brave too I think. You wanted to continue with the website idea even through Anne and Matthew thought otherwise. You stayed with Jocelyn when she was arrested. You could have run but you didn't. You helped her when she called. You stand up for your beliefs and you strengthen others when they fall. Now you are tripping and now you need you and, Mia, I promise you that I will help you stand again."

"Thank- you Daniel."

"Can we pray? Dear Lord, I thank you repeatedly for Your help and guidance ever since we have became Your children. We thank you for Your help when we built a website in honour of You and Your Son. Lord, times now are very scary for Your kids. We are being killed and sometime we have trouble being strong and trusting you. I pray that You keep all Your children strong in times of weakness. I really pray that You help Mia with her fears and You will hold her up and allow her to do what You want her to do. I also pray for David. Please protect him tomorrow; as he will be with the Leaders, the ones who wish to kill Your church. I pray for Anne and Matthew and prayed that You will help them with their journey in you. In Jesus' name, amen."

"Amen..." I saw my dad looking at me. I don't think he was too happy with what just want on. Daniel and I got off the phone soon after.

-Mia

With a loud command and with the shout of the chief angel and a blast of God's trumpet, the Lord will return from heaven. Then those who had faith in Christ before they died will be raised to life. Next, all of us who are still alive will be taken up into the clouds together with them to meet the Lord in the sky. From that time on we will all be with the Lord forever. Encourage each other with these words. 1 Thessalonians 4:16- 18

1st period

Diary,

Sorry, I haven't written all weekend. I've been kind of depressed. Saturday night was the night my sister was suppose to have... died. I don't know if she's one of them who died or not and my parents won't let me find out. I wonder if they even care? I really wanted to study my Bible this weekend but my parents kept a close eye on me so it was hard. I was able to get some studying done late Saturday night and early Sunday morning. I really missed church on Sunday. I wanted to be with God so much! I know He's with us all the time but, well, at least I have always felt that when I'm with a group of believers, He makes His presence so much strong. It's like He's smiling down at us. I also really wanted to talk with Daniel and David. Especially David. But every time I got a chance (after I had to convince my parents to allow me to use the phone) to call him his dad would tell me that David wasn't feeling well and would tell me to call back later. After the fourth time I called Daniel.

"Yeah, I've been calling David too and he won't talk." Daniel told me.

"What do you think is wrong with David?" I asked.

"I don't know. I'll call Matthew and Anne after. Maybe they know what's up."

"I'm sure about that. David seems to be distancing himself from those two." I argued. Daniel called me back later. Matthew and Anne didn't know anything. Daniel and I tried to find him this him this morning but we couldn't. I wonder if he's even at school... or maybe he's avoiding us! Maybe something really bad happened Saturday night and... STOP. Don't worry... I'm sure everything is okay... just think about something... anything else.

Anyway, according to our teachers we're having an assembly during second period. She says that the Leader of the North is coming and going to talk to us. I'm a little nervous about that. But I'm more worried about David. Later.

-Mia

Period 2

Diary,

I only have a few minutes to write but I found David! I was walking down the hall to this class and I saw him. I called out his name but he completely ignored me and continued to walk away from me! I tore down the hall and grabbed his arm. I looked him straight in the eye and said, "David." I would never tell him this but he looked awful! He had bags under his eyes and he was pale. His hair looked like it hadn't been washed for a long time.

"Mia." He said. Without thinking I wrapped him in a hug. It seemed like the thing to do.

"David... what is wrong?" I asked.

"Nothing." He replied. I didn't believe him and told him so.

"Listen, at lunch, can I talk to you? Please," I asked. David nodded, "I'll meet you at your locker." Then we parted.

PLEASE LORD, HELP DAVID WITH HIS PROBLEMS. PLEASE KEEP HIM STRONG. IN JESUS' NAME, AMEN.

-Mia

Can anything ever separate us from Christ's love? Does it mean he no longer loves us if we have trouble or calamity, or are persecuted, or are hungry or cold or in danger or threatened with death? (Even the Scriptures say, "For your sake we are killed every day; we are being slaughtered like sheep.") No, despite all these things, overwhelming victory is ours through Christ, who loved us. And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from his love. Death can't, and life can't. The angels can't, and the demons can't. Our fears for today, our worries about tomorrow, and even the powers of hell can't keep God's love away. Whether we are high above the sky or in the deepest ocean, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 8: 35- 39

After school

Diary,

I have so much to write down. Okay, starting at the assembly. Our whole school poured into the gym. I found Daniel and sat with him. I updated him with the David situation while we waited for the assembly to start. We also kept our eyes open for him but we didn't see him. Then the lights dimmed (we have a small stage in our gym) and the curtains opened. The Leader of the North walked onto the stage. He stopped in front of the microphone. He said nothing and the students were absolutely quiet.

"Hello students of-" but the crowd cheered so loud you couldn't even hear him name our school. He raised a hand and the students automatically stopped cheering.

"For all those who don't know I am the Leader of the North. I am your own personal prime minister," Again there was cheering, hand, silence, "but few people know my name. At my birth my mother called me Peter." Daniel leaned over to me and whispered, "Just like the disciple who denied Jesus."

"But I would doubt that this Peter will repent and spread the Word and love of Jesus Christ." Daniel nodded.

"As you all should know that all four Leaders arrived in your beautiful city (cheers, hand, silence) Saturday. There was a wonderful ball, which I'm sure I saw some of you there! Also that night could be seen as a sad night. My heart still cries from that night. All those people had to die. I would have given my own life if I could have stopped it," All I could think was 'Why didn't you?' "But I also must realise it is for the best. I get many letters everyday from young children not understanding why people they know are dying by our- my- hands. It is never easy to answer them. Christians are the lowest form of life there is! They refuse to assist us in keeping the world peaceful! They insist to live their lives against the normal peaceful way of life! Their own Bible tells them to hate- yes hate!- the world! They do not respond to peaceful ways against them! Hell! They don't even crease when we kill them! They are the sole reason for our world's sadness, for our world's pain, for our world's suffering! They don't care! They won't stop! Our government cannot do anymore. So I implore your help. Please, if you know any one who is a Christian, alert the police. If you are a Christian and you realize the errors of your ways, we will help you!

"Unfortunately people don't turn in their family members or friends and Christians don't see that they are wrong so I need some people to help me, to help your world, to help keep the peace! Please if you want to help come join me on the stage!" I turned to Daniel and grinned.

"Otherwise, if you want to be part of the Secret Police, come on up!" I whispered. Daniel tried not to laugh but failed. Heart-wrenchingly about 300 students ran to the stage. All those who "weren't willing to keep Earth peaceful" were allowed to return to class. After that little propaganda statement another 100 students stayed back. Almost 1/2 of our school stayed behind. I wonder how many will actually participate? Anyway, that's what happened with the assembly.

At lunch Daniel decided it would be better if he stayed away. He went to the library instead. I went to David's locker. If it was possible he looked even worst! Again I hugged David. I think I surprised him with all the hugs I've been giving him! I just figure that people feel better after receiving a hug. I know I do! Anyway I took him to the little park we have behind the school and we sat on the swings.

"So what happened?" I asked. David shrugged.

"Nothing." He muttered.

"Come on. Was it because of the ball?" David's face seemed vacant, "Please David, talk to me."

"I'm praying night and day since I came home. I would think my parents suspect but they are so carried away with my dad's promotion they don't even notice me. Mia? Do you understand what it feels like when God abandons you?"

"But David, God hasn't abandoned you! He loves you!" I cried.

"I know. But those martyrs... did they? When they were shot, when they were crucified, when they were hung, did they know?

"I'm sure they did! Sam did..."

"I saw her..." I froze. David saw my sister. That means she was one of those who died... I had so many questions burning in my head.

"Her last words were 'He will not falter or be discouraged 'till He established justice on Earth.' Isaiah 42:2"

"How did she... die?" I whispered.

"They shot her. The people, my own parents who taught me to respect other people, laughed and cheered. I can't say I would be so strong. Mia, I don't care about myself. What were they thinking? Eloi, Eloi lema sabachtani?"

"God never forsaken anyone!" I cried, "Jesus knew that! He wasn't questioning God, and I totally believed anyone who is willing to die for their faith knows God would never leave them!"

"Are you willing to die for Jesus?" that took me by surprise, "I have to question that myself. I love Jesus but... I worry. I'm sorry before that I doubted your faith in God." He surprised me again as small tears began to run down his face.

"David it's okay. We all doubt ourselves. Remember what James wrote, 'if any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault and it will be given to him' God will make us strong in Him." David just looked at him.

"Thank- you, Mia. May I tell you what happened at the party?" I nodded. I really wanted to know about my sister. David drew a deep breath.

"The ball room was decorated like a palace. I thought I was in a castle or something. Everyone was in tuxedos or a grown. The tables were on the sides of the room, and there was a dance floor in the middle. In the front- middle of the room was a stage. In a half circle on the stage were the crosses. We sat right next the table with the Leaders. Did you know the Leader from the South is a woman? They were the last to arrive. I was actually forced to shake their hands. You know, Mia, I tried my best to see them like God does but all I saw were horrible hateful creatures. I felt like puking.

"They went up and gave a grand speech, much like the one "Peter" did. They told us that we were the best of the best, cream of the crop and such," David sounded bitter, "so again it was like 'please help us fight the good fight'. Then before dinner they brought out some religious non- believers. Some of them were beaten up. They were told to give up their religion then told to leave. Since there were buns on the table, some people threw them at the fleeing people. My dad laughed and said, 'if they were under my care they wouldn't get away.' Then we had supper. I'm sure it was good but to me everything tasted like cardboard. There were roasted potatoes, shrimp, salad, and some sort of pasta. Thee were chicken, ham and pork. There was enough food to feed the 3rd world countries. I doubt we even made a dent in the food. I started to pray then. I asked God if He could help me get through this. I begged Him for His help. My parents didn't even notice that I barely touched the food. At one point I couldn't stop starring at the crosses. I wondered how I was going to survive watching the people die without losing my sanity? My mom woke me up from my gaze and when I looked at my dinner plate, l swear it was covered in martyr's blood." He paused then. Our lunch break was over but there was no way either one of us were going to leave. David moved off the swing and we sat on the ground. For a couple minutes he said nothing. I think he was praying, calling for strength.

"Then all the food was cleared away and the first group of Christians were brought in... they nailed them to the crosses. Some cried, others yelled praises to the Lord until the guards were ordered to gag them. Then they brought out dessert. This time I thought I was going to puke for real. I ran to the bathroom. I looked awful. I know I still do. The nightmares haunt me. I was shaking. I gulped some water. I locked myself in a stall and prayed. That's all I could do... but I didn't cry... not yet. Finally I got my strength back and returned.

"Dessert was cleared away and the guards shot the Christians on the cross and took them down. My parents didn't say a sword to me. Then the Leaders returned to the stage. They made some stupid comment on the blood stained crosses they left up. Then they had the official ceremony for my dad and a few others's promotion. Yea for my dad. To celebrate..." he paused. I took his hand and squeezed it. 'Thank- you Lord for not making me go. Please Lord help David. He's really shaken up and needs help. Please.' I prayed silently.

"To celebrate they brought more Christians. I recognized your sister right away. She looked just like you... I could have sworn you were twins. I thought... just for a moment... Oh Lord! Help me!" he began to cry. I hugged him I had no clue what to do.

"I thought it was you," He whispered, "She was so strong and through her bruises and scares she glowed. Like some of the others she yelled out praises for God. Mia, she wasn't scared. She was so happy. Mia, I'm sorry I didn't help her..."

"It's okay David. This isn't your fault." I told him. Again he stayed silent for a few minutes.

"After that they cleared off the bodies and set up the band. People began to dance. It was like nothing happened. I sat there at the table for the longest time. At one point this girl; rather Goth- ish came up to me. She asked me to dance. I declined. How could one dance after that? She told me her name was Rachel. I asked her why she was dressed like she was mourning."

"I know her! She was at the workshop!" I cried.

"A small world. She told me she wanted to rebel against the world. I think she wants Jesus. Mia, I am so weak. I could have witnessed to her but instead I said nothing because I was scared and depressed." Then I whispered something that both of us needed to hear, "Because God has said, 'Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.' So we say with confidence, 'The Lord is my helper, I will not be afraid. What can man do to me?'" David looked up at me. He grabbed both of my hands.

"Lord, both Mia and I are scared. We are not as strong in You as we thought. We are in need of Your help. Please Lord... use us... use us together. In Your Sons' name. Amen." He looked at me. I smiled. I was crying too. We both felt the Holy Spirit run through us.

"Rachel left after that. I hung out by myself. A couple of hours before the end of the ball, the remaining Christians were brought out. They were hanged. Everyone cheered and praised the Leaders. Then we went home. I went directly to my room. I refused to come out until this morning. I didn't want food, I didn't want to talk to anyone and I think if you didn't insist on talking to me I would have returned to my room and hide there again. Thank- you Mia." I smiled.

"It's okay David. That's what I'm here for." By that time 4th period was over.

Aie! I want to finish up what happened with the Secret Police Students but my wrist is killing me! I write after supper...

-Mia

After Supper

Diary, Okay... what a day. So I went to my last period class. There was a lot of sad faces in my class. Daniel and Anne are in my class.

"What's with everyone moping?" I asked as I sat down. Anne looked at me strangly.

"Mia, for Pete's sake, why are you such a flake?" she asked.

"These people weren't the right material for keeping our Earth safe." Daniel replied. Okay so that made same sense.

"Mia, what's wrong with you?" Anne asked, "You are so pale and sick looking." Daniel nodded. I guess talking with David drained me out. Not that I wouldn't do it again, I would in a second!

"Um..." I didn't want Anne to know what was up with David. Anne rolled her eyes. I'm sure Daniel understood because he made sure that the issue wasn't pressed. Anyway about 100 students were chosen and will be back next week. I'm a little depressed now. I'm worried about David; I worried about the students on the retreat. I think I'm going to read my Bible. Later. -Mia

1st period

Diary, David decided to talk to us this morning... that sounded bad. He hung out with us. He whispered thanks to me when I hugged him this morning.

"So what does Matt and Anne know?" he asked us. I shrugged.

"I didn't tell them a thing," I laughed, "Daniel barely knows anything." David nodded.

"Good, I really rather that they didn't know anything. I doubt they would understand." He said. So my speculation is true. David is puling away from the other two. I should ask him why... not that I blame him! -Mia

Don't forget about those in prison. Suffer with them as though you were there yourself. Share the sorrow of those being mistreated, as though you feel their pain in your own bodies. Hebrews 13:3

After School

Diary, I was on my own at lunch. Daniel and David had their own talk. What I got from David, that even Daniel still doesn't know the whole story. Anyway Daniel has a very bad idea. Since Anne is the only one with parents who are both Christians, he wants a little 'let's get together and cheer up David' party over there. That party I'm all for (if I can convince my mom and dad to let me go) but at Anne's? And Matthew will be there too? I don't like. I told Daniel so but he thinks it's a wonderful idea. Fine, so be it. I want to see David happy... I'm actually having mixed feelings about David and me lately. I wonder if... I like him. And if he likes me. Argh! I don't want to even go down that road right now... maybe when there is a little less heat on us Christians. Later, Diary! -Mia

After School (Thursday)

Diary, It's more like after supper but whatever. Dad and I were watching the News. Remember that net group, Underground Resistance? Anyway, they finally sent their petition to the Leaders for the One World Religion. And, from a public announcement from the Leaders, they said they would consider it and they are planning to have a conference with the organizers of the group! But I wonder if maybe they are just saying that and in fact planning to kill them? Maybe not since they are not Christian... PLEASE LORD; LET THE BEAUTY AND TRUTH OF YOUR WORD COME OUT. ALLOW EVERYONE TO KNOW WHO YOU, YOUR SON, AND YOUR SPIRIT ARE AND LET THEM KNOW THAT YOU HAVE THE ONLY TRUE RELIGION. IN JESUS'S NAME, AMEN. -Mia

1st period

Diary, It's been a week since the Secret Police Students (okay so that's not the official name) left and today is their first day at school. So during 2nd period we will have an assembly to honour their return. I'm so excited (not). -Mia

After school

Diary, What the heck? Well, you could say the party is off. I am so angry right now! Guess who is a part of the SPS (I really need to find out the real name)? Our dear friend Matthew!

So David, Daniel and I were sitting together. The assembly was started with the arrival of the Leader of the North.

"Welcome again," he laughed, "I'm glad to be back (cheers). Since I was last here we selected students who would help me and the other Leaders protect the world from rebels. I would like for you to greet the students!" He began to clap. The hundred students came out. The male students came out in black dress pants, white dress shirt, on top of that they wore a black blazer. If they weren't agents of the devil I would say some of the guys were cute! The female students came out, they, too, wore white dress shirts and black jackets and a black kilt. David leaned over to me, "Do you see him?" I searched the row. I didn't see anyone I should have known.

"Who?"

"Matthew." I looked again. Okay, well maybe one of the guys looked like him.

It wasn't until lunch when we found if Matthew was up there. We were going to go outside because it was a really nice day. Anne and Matthew walked up to us. Matthew was decked out in that SPS uniform. Daniel glared at Matthew.

"Matthew! What the hell are you doing?" he cried.

"Undercover, Dan. I'm undercover."

"So you are working for the devil? Or have you always been?"

"Daniel! I'm insulted I can give you the heads up." Anne agreed.

"Matthew, I have the heads up and I don't have to work for the devil." David said. Matthew shrugged.

"David, Daniel, I know what I'm doing. He grabbed Anne's hand and walked away. I can't understand why he would do that. LORD, KEEP MATTHEW STRONG. DON'T ALLOW MATTHEW TO FALL AWAY FROM YOU. IN JESUS' NAME, AMEN. -Mia

Evening

Diary, Aie. Mom finally got wind of the SPS group. She chewed me out for not taking a chance to join.

"Did you pay attention to that workshop?" she cried.

"I did, mother." I said.

"Then do you see that you're beliefs are wrong?" she asked. Dad stepped into the kitchen, where we were arguing.

"I know my beliefs aren't wrong! Jesus is the only way to heaven. He is the Truth!" I objected. My dad cleared his throat. Mom ignored him.

"I have half the idea to turn you in!" she cried. I began to cry silently.

"Excuse me?" Dad tried to interject.

"What?" Mom cried. Dad flinched.

"Honey, calm down. I just came in here to report that the conference about making a One World Religion. I'd thought you guys might want to watch it, as it will be aired tonight." Dad touched my shoulder. I mumbled thanks and ran up to my room.

OH LORD, I'M SCARED! PLEASE KEEP ME SAFE... REVEAL YOUR LOVE AND YOUR WORD TO MY PARENTS... ALLOW YOUR GLORY SHINE. IN YOUR SONS' NAME, AMEN.

-Mia

Afternoon

Diary, I spent most of my morning on the phone with David (mom went out shopping and dad doesn't really care). We talked about the conference. They didn't show most of the meeting but the final decision was to be decided later. The four Leaders would be making the religion then they will decided whether or not the people should believe in it or not. We so enjoyed that the Leaders think we are machines that will believe in whatever they tell us to, whenever they say so. This whole thing made David and I just sick. We are sure they will pick just the good parts of every religion and probably will choose themselves to be worshipped. It's depressing.

I also told him what happened between my mom and me last night. He told me if I ever needed a place to go because mom was going to have me arrested, that he would take me in. I told him thanks, but I hope that will never come to that. Then we discussed Matthew. We both figure all we can do is pray for him. Then we hung up. I think I'm going to avoid mom this weekend.

-Mia.

2nd period

Diary,

Not only is Matthew working for the Devil, he sold his soul to him! Remember a couple weeks ago we were all looking for more Christians in the school, well Matthew and Anne were able to find some. It turned out that there was a "raid" of Christian homes. A lot of the SPS came along with the real police. Apparently it was Matthew who gave away most the names. I wonder he didn't give away David, Daniel and mine name. I should be thankful that we are safe... later. -Mia

4th period

Diary, At lunch David, Daniel and I were sitting together outside when Anne and Matthew came up to us.

"Hey." They greeted us. Daniel glared at them. Daniel use to be standing up for them and was really close but since Matthew joined the SPS, he has been really cold to them.

"I have nothing to say to you." Daniel snapped. Matthew smiled.

"Come on, man, I did what I had to." he replied. I just noticed then that he was holding Anne's hand. Were they going out now?

"Why must you betray your brothers?" Daniel demanded. Matthew shrugged.

"Doesn't the Bible teach 'love your enemies'?" I felt sick. He sounded just like that teacher at the workshop! Throwing around Scripture to back up their case!

"But at the expense of your brothers?" Matthew, Anne, do you truly believe that Jesus is the Son of God and that he was raised from the dead?" Daniel asked.

"Yeah, sure." he said.

"Please, repent and leave the Devil's work!" David pleaded. Anne sighed.

"Geez, you act like we were the one's killing the Christians!"

"Anne, they will die because Matthew revealed their names!" I cried. How on Earth could they not see that they did something majorly wrong?

"Not necessarily," Matthew stated, "If the One World Religion comes in, then they can worship legally." The three of sighed. We could argue with them forever and they wouldn't change their minds. Had they no clue that the Christians would only live if they worshipped what the Leaders said? Arg!

LORD, I AM WORRIED ABOUT MATTHEW AND ANNE. I FEAR THAT THEY ARE NOT IN YOU ANYMORE... I AM WORRIED THAT THEY HAVE FORGOTTEN YOUR WORD, YOUR LOVE. PLEASE LORD, IF IT IS YOUR WILL; PLEASE BRING THEM BACK TO YOU. IN JESUS' NAME, AMEN. -Mia

After Supper

Diary, I am shocked. The leaders have returned with their decision about the World Religion. They decided to have one. Further details about the rules and beliefs will be announced later. I wonder how will anyone believe in a religion that is clearly man made? What credential does it hold? Especially about the after life? I guess I will find that out later. Anyway, they will reveal the symbols tomorrow. LORD I BEG YOU YO PLEASE SAVE THIS WORLD... I DON'T KNOW WHAT ELSE TO SAY... AMEN. -Mia

Afternoon

Diary, I'm at home, in bed. I called my mom and asked her if I could come home at lunch. This morning, during 2nd period, we had to listen to the radio, or in David's class they watched it on TV. The symbols were showed then. There are several. One is a drop of blood. That shows that everyone is one, we are all alive. I don't remember all the symbols but the last one made me sick. It was a cross. Okay, Diary, I know you are wondering why I am disgusted at the cross, the Christian sign of hope and love. But the stupid Leaders have changed our sign of salvation to one of torture! We all know during the first century that the cross was used to kill people and was a fearful sign and now the Leaders of invoking that message again. They said they one caught practicing another religion will be crucified. They said that tomorrow that would be giving out little crosses on necklaces to people who wish to join their religion. I suppose that tomorrow they will tell us the beliefs of the religion.

Diary, I am getting very depressed. I feel lost. Everything is getting so much worst... Lord... please save your Earth... please!

-Mia

1st period

Diary, I'm back at school. David called me last night.

"I was worried about you. Daniel said you didn't show up last period."

"Thanks... I'm fine." I didn't want to talk to him. I guess wanted to sleep. I never felt so horrible in my life.

"Mia... please talk to me about what is wrong." He asked.

"It's nothing really. I'm going to sleep until tomorrow." David was quiet.

"I know how you feel. It doesn't go away but you can't push away your friends. I know that now."

"Are you still... upset?" How could I forget he witnessed some Christians' deaths? Sam's death? I scolded myself for being sad. I had no right. I was just worrying. I should trust God more. Here I am thinking I am getting stronger in my walk with the Lord, when actually I'm falling back like a thousand steps. I am weak.

"Yes I am upset. But knowing that you and Daniel care about me helps. Also I have memorized Isaiah 41: 10. 'So do not fear, for I am with you, do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand'." Do not be dismayed... Lord I am trying! But so many people will die because they love You! Lord, you don't know how much I want to be with You.

"Isaiah 41:10... got it. Honesty, David, I'm peachy." Just leave me alone. I want to be alone. I don't want to talk to anyone right now. David didn't seem to understand.

"Amelia!" Was I in trouble? "I completely understand how you feel. I know the worry. I know you want to be alone. Please don't push me away. I want to be with you through this. I want you to be with me." I began to cry.

"I can't take it! I am not strong enough! Matt and Anne will turn us in! I hate pain... I don't want to betray Jesus. David, it hurts to even think of betraying Him! But I feel that I am when I worry. This new religion is nothing but the work of the Devil and he will try to destroy us all! I can't take..." I cried. Now I should mention I am in the kitchen when this is happening. Dear mom and dad are in the next room over watching TV. I bet you they were listening every word. I bet you once I put down my pen, they will walk in here. They don't understand anything.

"I know," his voice was so quiet, "but we have no choice. We have to be strong... when we can't Jesus will make us strong. If we are put under that trial of being forced to give Him up or not, He will help us. Hebrews 3:14 says we will hold out until the end." David whispered. How did we become so... broken? So weak? When we fell, we did. How beautiful it is that Jesus will hold us up. How wonderful it is that He will cloth us in His righteousness. How awful it is that not everyone knows this or if they do, not all will accept His offer of life. How pathetic humans truly are. It's strange... all day in my mind's eye all I saw was darkness. Darkness brought on by the Leaders, my parents, the students and depression. Now I see light and Jesus is that light. Do not fear, I am with you. Thank- you my Lord, Jesus Christ.

"Til the end." I whispered. I, then, promised him that I would go to school tomorrow. We promised each other that we would go to each other when we had a problem. We would also go to Daniel too. We hung up then. I am so glad that Jesus brought those friends to m. I'm so glad I have Jesus! -Mia.

"So I tell you, don't worry about everyday life-whether you have enough food, drink, and clothes. Doesn't life consist of more than food and clothing? Look at the birds. They don't need to plant or harvest or put food in barns because your heavenly Father feeds them. And you are far more valuable to him than they are. Can all your worries add a single moment to your life? Of course not. "And why worry about your clothes? Look at the lilies and how they grow. They don't work or make their clothing, yet Solomon in all his glory was not dressed as beautifully as they are. And if God cares so wonderfully for flowers that are here today and gone tomorrow, won't he more surely care for you? You have so little faith! "So don't worry about having enough food or drink or clothing. Why be like the pagans who are so deeply concerned about these things? Your heavenly Father already knows all your needs, and he will give you all you need from day to day if you live for him and make the Kingdom of God your primary concern. "So don't worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today's trouble is enough for today. Matthew 6:25- 34

Before Supper

Diary, David continued to watch over me today. He knows I wanted to be alone but he, who was also feeling the same, know friends cheer people up. I know he cares but I'll be fine!

Anyway I came home, kicked off my shoes and was about to walk into my room when I heard my parents talking in their room.

"I think we should let her live with my sister." Okay... that was my mom. I paused... who were they talking about? My parents' door was closed.

"Is that necessary?" dad asked.

"You heard her this weekend! She's depressed. Perhaps if she had a different setting..." Oh... they are talking about me.

"Maybe we should lighten up on her. Before we found out, she was happier."

"The presence of the Leaders, probably aren't helping," mom said, "Listen I'm going to call my sister, see if she will take Mia." At that time I went to my room. So my parents want to send me away.

PLEASE LORD... MAKE THINGS BETTER. -Mia

After Supper

Diary, Daniel called me tonight. We haven't talked on the phone for a while. We just talked about stupid things. I didn't mention what my parents said. Daniel said that he has been watching the news and there has been no word about the new religion. He said that the news reported on how excited the people are about this religion. I don't understand how people are willing to accept this false religion. Sigh. Okay, later!

-Mia

Evening

Diary, I think mom is going to let me ungrounded. I've asked her to let me go to "Daniel's" tomorrow. She agreed. We (Dan, Dave and I) will actually go to Steve's! I've haven't gone to church is so long. Daniel told me that Anne and Matthew use to go to Steve's church all the time but the past couple of weeks they haven't. I pray that they find the Lord again.

Anyway, my aunt, uncle and little cousin are over now. They live in England and they will stay here this weekend. My uncle is a huge supporter of the Leaders. He hopes to see them this weekend and then they are off to Toronto! My little cousin is two years old and she is so cute. Her blonde curly hair is always in pigtails and she is always smiling.

Anyway I was in my room "studying" when my aunt and uncle came over. Lydia loves me! She ran straight to my room. Luckily I heard them come in so I was able to hide my Bible. Lydia jumped on my bed.

"Mia!" she cried, wrapping me in a hug. When the hug was finished I noticed that she wore a little silver cross. I was very surprised to see that but I kept my surprise from her.

"Wow Lydia! That's a pretty cross. Who gave that to you?"

"Papa!" she replied. That was strange. Uncle Lenny was a huge supporter, why would he give his little girl a Christian cross? Unless...

"Lydia, what does that cross mean?" I asked.

"Freedom!" she clapped her hands.

"From what?"

"Uh... dis... a... dents?"

"Dissidents?" Lydia nodded, pleased that I followed exactly what she said.

"Lydia, want to know a secret about that cross?" I whispered. Lydia nodded and snuggled into my lap.

"But you have to keep it a secret! You can't tell mommy or daddy... understand?" Again my cousin nodded.

"That cross also means freedom from death." I said. I didn't understand what I was doing. If Lydia told her dad, I would be dead. Lydia's eyes were wide. I couldn't go back now... I had to trust God. Do not be dismayed.

"Death?" she whispered.

"Yup! That cross represents a promise that a very important man gave."

"Jesus!" she clapped. Uh? Now I was very confused. How did she know that? Unless...

"Who taught you about Jesus?" I asked.

"Mommy! Jesus lives forever and ever in Heaven!" I nodded and smiled. Aunt Jan was a Christian? I hugged my cousin.

"I'm glad you know."

"Mia, why is Jesus a secret? Mommy told me not to tell daddy. You said the same thing."

"Well, people who believe in Jesus are said that they don't want peace and happiness. Lydia, that isn't true. We want love and peace, because that what Jesus wants." Lydia nodded.

"Yeah! Then daddy should know!" she jumped to her feet. Not good.

"I think your mommy will tell him when she's ready." Lydia pouted. I grabbed her hand and then we went down to the rest of the family.

Lydia didn't say anything tonight about Jesus. Aunt Jan is my mom's sister. I wonder if my parents decide to send me away if I can go with her? Of course there is always my mom's older sister- Stephanie. I recall the last time I spoke with her that she was trying to get a job as secretary of the Leaders. I'm pretty sure she's a loyal supporter of the Leaders. That sucks.

PLEASE LORD WATCH OVER ME. PLEASE WATCH OVER DAVID, DANIEL, AUNT JAN AND LYDIA. WATCH OVER ALL YOUR CHILDREN. WE LOVE YOU WITH OUR WHOLE HEART AND WE NEED YOU. THANK YOU FOR SAVING US AND BEING OUR LORD. THANK YOU FOR CARING ABOUT US; EVEN THROUGH IT'S IN OUR NATURE TO SIN AGAINST YOU. THANK YOU FOR ALL YOUR LOVE. IN JESUS' NAME, AMEN.

-Mia

Before Supper

Diary, Oh my gosh! Oh my gosh... thank God! I feel so lucky! I doubt that I will ever forget this day. Okay so I went to Daniel's at nine o'clock. Church begins at ten. I dropped off my backpack off at his house. I pulled out my "chemistry" binder, he pulled out his "history" binder then we went outside to wait for David. He arrived at 9:30 in his yellow convertible. For his sixteenth birthday his parents brought him a car. His parents have a lot of money.

Anyway, I sat up in front with David and Daniel sat in the back with our Bibles. We had to park a block away from Steve's. Steve was happy to see that I've returned to church. The three of us spilt up into that everyone would have excess to a Bible. Daniel promised Steve that after the service he would give him the address of where we got our Bibles.

At ten o'clock exactly Steve started the service. We sang Amazing Grace, Awesome God, songs from DC Talk and a few other Christian bands. I think when I have a chance I might look up other Christian hymns. Steve took his place up in the front of us.

"Okay I have a few announcements. First, praise the Lord that I have left my job for a couple of weeks now and it seems that they believed my story. Also I am moving in a couple of weeks. I will be telling everyone my new address soon. Don't worry, I won't be moving far. Okay, one final announcement, remember if you have a Bible share it with someone who doesn't. I should be getting access to some shortly. Let's pray..." We then repented of our sins and asked God for protection during our time of worship. Steve then began the sermon. I can't even remember what that was about. We didn't get very far into it when there was a knock on the door. I glanced at David from across the room. He looked at my bag and nodded. I understood. If it was necessary, hide the Bibles in my bag. I had a bad feeling about this. I shivered. 'Oh Lord,' I prayed, 'don't let this be what I fear it is...' Steve put a finger to his lips and walked to the door.

"Steven Crager?" a voice called from the other side of the door, "Open up!" He raised a hand, revealing four fingers. We had been through this before. Usually Steve would tell us if there would a drill that day. The four fingers might that we leave the room at four at a time. The four youngest jumped to their feet.

"What?" Steve called out sleepily. The four creped upstairs. An older male, I think his name is Jeremiah, went to the back to see if police surrounded the house. David walked over to me.

"Do you think this is real?" he whispered. I took his Bible and put his and mine into my bag.

"I hope not... I pray not!" I answered. He took my hand and squeezed.

"Mr. Crager, let us in." he turned to us, I noticed some fear in his eyes, this was real, and mouthed, "Go." Panic seized the remaining believers. Daniel joined us. Everyone else either ran upstairs or downstairs into hiding. Steve ran to us.

"Go! This isn't a drill! Save yourselves!" he hissed. We ran into the kitchen. We then saw Jeremiah being arrested and being dragged out of the backyard. Steve opened the door. Several cops rushed into the living room. We hurried to the back stoop. I heard Steve being slammed into the floor.

"You're under arrest, Christian sleaze bag!" a cop said. I looked back. My vision blurred with tears. David took my hand again.

"Mia, we have to get out of here." He whispered. We began to walk across the background. We were planning to jump over the neighbour's fence.

"Hey!" we whirled around. Several cops stood at the backdoor. Some police officers were heading downstairs. David squeezed tighter on my hand. I don't think he was even aware he was doing that. Our fellow believers were going to get caught. Daniel waved at the cop and began to move again. David and I followed. The cop, for what I heard, opened the door and pulled out his gun. We were at the fence... have I ever mentioned that I suck at climbing fences? Daniel quickly got over the chain link fence.

"Go!" David told me.

"Stop!" the officer cried and shot a warning shot. I tried to climb over but... oh gosh... I was shaking. I was so afraid. I fell onto the grass. The cop began to run over to us. I tried again. And this time, it must have been a miracle from God, I felt calm and I was able to climb the fence. Again, must have been another miracle, but the cop shot another warning shot. David jumped over. We booked it! We didn't look back and we didn't stop running until we got far away from Steve's. We aren't going to go back for David's car until tomorrow.

We finally got to David's house. I guess we thought that the police would never look for us there. We greeted his parents, grabbed some cokes and retreated to his room.

"Thank God." Daniel wheezed. We were so out of breath and tired.

"Praise Him." I muttered. I snapped opened the coke and drank. David finished his and pulled opened to a page randomly.

"'My house will be called a house of prayer for all nations' but you have made it 'a den of robbers'." I shut my eyes. I can't believe how lucky we were... no, luck had nothing to do with it. It was all God's work. Praise God!

"I wonder what happened to Steve and the others." I said. Daniel rolled over and turned on the TV. It was almost twelve. He flipped to a local channel. David sat next to me. He gave a supportive smile.

"Welcome to the twelve o'clock news. I am Rachel Suney. This is what is happening at this hour," Rachel, the newscaster, changed camera view, "a local Christian house church has been discovered. Steven Crager, the cult's "pastor" as they call him, has been arrested," they showed a picture of Steve. He was all beaten up and he had several cuts on his face, "The other "believers" (and yes diary, she was making quotations marks with her fingers) have been brought in for questioning. It is unclear right now whether they will also be put under arrest. Three other members of this cult managed to escape. They are older teenagers, around the age of seventeen. Please if you know anyone who is a Christian please turn him or her in.

"Onto other news..." Daniel shut off the TV. His face was red.

"Damnit!" he cried. He was shaking with anger, "Damnit! I hate this place! Lord..." he trailed off. I hugged my best friend.

"Danny," I said, "I understand. David understands. The Lord will help us through it." David nodded.

"Yup! Daniel, something good will happen. And besides the Lord will only give His children as much as they handle." Daniel looked up.

"Lord, we are eternally grateful that You saved us today. Thank you for looking out for Mia, David and me. I pray that You keep us strong and continue to keep us safe. In Your Sons' name, Amen."

"Amen." David and I whispered. Daniel and I hung out there until around three. Then I thought it was time to go home.

So here I am, diary. The Lord is so good to this children... I know this... then why do I feel like I'm going to fall apart?

-Mia 1st period

Diary, I wonder... are they out to get us? We saw Anne and Matthew today. They seemed surprised to see us. They used to go to church with us. It was a major surprise for Daniel when he discovered his three friends from our site went to our house church and our school! Anyway, both David and I think they ratted out Steve. Daniel didn't say anything about that. I think he feels like he has been betrayed. We listened to both the six o'clock and eleven o' clock new last night. We heard nothing about Steve. David said he would spend his spare hacking into the police computer to find out about Steve. Pray for us, diary! Pray for Anne and Matthew...

LORD, I DON'T USUALLY PRAY FOR PEOPLE I DISLIKE... I NEVER LIKED ANNE OR MATTHEW. BUT ONCE THEY SEEMED TO REALLY LOVE YOU AND EVERYTHING YOU DID. NOW THEY TRY TO DESTROY YOUR CREATIONS. THEY SEEM TO HAVE LOST THEIR LOVE FOR YOU. FATHER... PLEASE SAVE THEM. REMIND THEM OF YOUR ETERNAL LOVE. PLEASE LORD... IN JESUS'S NAME, AMEN. -Mia

Late Night

Diary, I did something I shouldn't have, diary. I called Matthew. I was at home, just typing up an assignment for school when I had this overwhelming urge to call Matthew. I tried to ignore it but I couldn't. So I called him and then we agreed to meet at the local café for a drink. Just him and me. My parents let me go. They have pretty much lifted the grounding. I think the idea of having me move somewhere "safe" and away from them makes them feel guilty.

I slipped into a booth with a mug of hot chocolate. Matthew walked in. He seemed dishevelled. His dark hair was messed up and there was a cut on his cheek. I stood up to greet him. He smiled and sat down across from me.

"Sorry I am late." He said formally. I sat down.

"Your face..." I whispered. He touched the cut.

"It's just from training." I left for a moment. I swallowed. Why was I even here? What was I going to do? I reached into my bag to get my cell phone. I was going to ask my dad for a ride home when my hand touched my Bible. I didn't realise it was in my bag. I pulled it out. It was like a message from God or something. The letter from Daniel, when he first gave me the Bible, had fallen out: "Hey Mia! We finally have the Lord's Word! His Way and Truth will always show us through. All we have to do is trust Him. I'll see you in class. Daniel."... Trust Him. I put my Bible back and Matthew returned with his coffee.

"Are you worried about Steve?" he asked, "I wouldn't be. They aren't going to hurt him."

"No Matt, I'm worried about you." I said.

"Me? Whatever for?"

"I would like to apologize. I never made any real attempt to be your friend." I said. I couldn't look at him. I looked, instead, at the bubbles in my hot chocolate. Matthew laughed.

"No big deal. That's way your worried, because you aren't friends with everyone? That's life Mia."

"You are Daniel and David's closest friend. I should have made more of an effort." Sip of the drink, still not looking at him.

"Like I said no biggie."

"Matthew... why did you join the Secret Student Police?" Opps! The secret name escaped from my lips but luckily he didn't even noticed.

"This is what this is all about?" he cried. I shook my head.

"No! I just want to understand. I always thought you had such a strong love for God. I was... jealous, I guess, you seemed to completely and totally trust God and I couldn't. But this seemed such an anti- God thing to do." Matthew opened his mouth to say something but then shut it. It was like he couldn't find the words.

"That's what you thought?" he finally asked. I nodded. I felt like a little child.

"You seemed to trust Him so much, I thought that... I don't know what I thought exactly. I guess I thought I needed to trust myself too." Matthew looked away.

"I understand all too well. I joined because I figured if I looked like I completely worshipped the Leaders they wouldn't doubt me. They wouldn't have any reason to search my things and arrest me... or torture me," he looked at me, "I never told anyone that. Never even Anne." I grabbed his hand.

"It's okay to be scared. I am too. We are human. Fear is a part of our nature. We sin but if we ask God for help He will help us. He will removed that fear and fill us with joy."

"I can't undo what I have done! It's too late! If I quit... I have no doubt they will kill me."

"God will protect." And if you are to die... it's God will. I didn't say that to Matthew. I have the same fears... as do David and Daniel. We all do.

"And if I quit I will also lose Anne. She is so proud that I joined. Mia, I have fallen in love with her." Ha! I knew it. Mental little dance in triumph! But I didn't show it to Matthew. Now wasn't the time to ask more about that.

"Matt, I understand. But what is more important to you? God or Anne?" Matthew took a long drink from his mug.

"That's a hard question. I love Anne but I love God."

"Anne's not a Christian then?" I asked. Matthew drank again.

"I use to believe so. But then she began to make comments about Jocelyn, her parents, you and David. It was her who turned in Steve. I don't think she is."

"She turned him in?" I repeated slowly.

"But if she isn't then I am in a lot of trouble. If I quit she will turn me in. I'd be damned." I so wanted to question him about Anne and Steve. How could she do that? We trusted her! But it was like God talking through me. Ignore that. Matthew needs help.

"You'd be damned alright! Damned to hell if you don't go back to God!"

"Eternal hell..." he whispered. He looked out the window. I finished my drink and pulled out my Bible.

"'The Lord is my light and my salvation- whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life- of whom shall I be afraid?' Psalm 27:1. 'Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; He will never leave nor forsake you.' Deuteronomy 31:8. 'I can do everything through Him who gives me strength.' Philippians 4:10." Matthew looked at me.

"You have really matures in your faith. I have fallen back," he said. He took my hand and bowed his head, "Please Lord give the strength to do what you want me to do. If you want me to leave the Chosen Students then I will. Please Lord, I want to trust You and love You with my whole heart. In Your sons' name, amen." We didn't talk long after that. I hope Matthew leaves SPS and I hope that he will be safe.

LORD PLEASE WATCH OVER MATTHEW. HELP HIM BE STRONG AND MAKE THE RIGHT CHOICE. ALSO HELP ANNE LEARN ABOUT YOUR UNDYING LOVE. HELP YOUR CHILDREN WHO ARE AFRAID. WE LIVE IN SCARY TIMES AND WE GET LOST, REMIND US THAT YOU ARE ALWAYS THERE WANTING TO HELP US AND YOU ARE ALWAYS LOVING US. IN JESUS' NAME, AMEN.

-Mia

1st period

Diary, I HATE waiting! I haven't seen Matthew all morning. I told Daniel and David this morning. They are both worried. They think Matthew could be setting up a trap and might turn me in. I don't think so. I didn't mention what I learnt about Steve. I want to know Matthew's decision first. If he is to leave then I will ask him to tell them; if he doesn't then I will. I want to know where exactly Steve is and why Matthew doesn't think he will get hurt. I want to hunt him down at lunch. In fact that is exactly what I'm going to do!

-Mia

4th period

Diary, I hunted him down but he was sitting with a bunch of SPS. I walked over to him. I was a little afraid after my diary and my Bible is right inside my backpack! A couple sneered at me. I smiled at Matthew.

"Hey Mia! Come to eat with us?" he asked. One student cleared his throat.

"Amelia we are having a meeting. You better leave." He said. I smirked at him. Whatever I wasn't here to talk to him.

"Matt, will have a minute this lunch time?" I asked. Matthew smiled. He seemed so full of joy right then.

"Yeah, Bart here will shut up soon. I will see you guys at your regular table, okay?" I nodded and walked away. I joined Daniel and David. David was frowning.

"I saw you talking to Matthew. What about?" he asked. I grinned.

"Nosey aren't you?" I replied. Daniel rolled his eyes.

"You know you are looking for trouble, right?" he snapped.

"You said just like Anne. Trust me. I know what I'm doing." I think I added silently. Matthew walked over to me. He hugged me.

"Thank you Mia for talking to me last night! I went home and had a long talk with God. I'm not going to quit the Chosen Students but I have decided to try and teach them about Jesus. I know that's really dangerous but I know that's what God wants me to do." He said. He sat down on the table.

"Do you have to keep working with them?" David asked. Matthew frowned.

"Yeah, I know that issue. I don't see another way to evangelize to them."

"I understand Matthew but I don't think God wants to keep sinning like that. I'm sure he wants you to teach them but their must be another way." Daniel said. Matthew nodded.

"I'll pray, okay?" he seemed upset that we weren't more happy for him. I stood up and hugged him.

"I'm glad you made it right with God." I whispered in his ear. Matthew looked at Daniel and David.

"I have something else to tell you guys. I broke up with Anne. I can't continue to see her if she is against God and me. She was the one to turn in Steve." David jumped to him feet, knocking over his chair.

"Damn her!" he cried.

"Matthew, where is Steve?" I asked.

"Mia, don't go after him. They are using him for bait for you guys. Anne didn't turn you in because she wasn't sure if you are the three who got away but if you go visit him the authorities will know. They are going to "re-educate" him." Matthew smirked. I gasped. Poor Steve! Daniel and David said nothing. Matthew apologized then left. I sat down. They were going to brainwash him.

PLEASE LORD KEEP AN EYE ON STEVE. PROTECT HIM AND KEEP HIM STRONG. REMIND HIM THAT YOU LOVE HIM. PLEASE LORD... WE ARE ALL SCARED. AMEN. -Mia