Happiness
By: Magical Secrets
Hey.
Arthur.
Are you...happy with her?
You look happy when you're with her. You have this...light in your eyes when you look at her. You're eyes watch her as she walks in or out of a room. It's kind of like she's the center of gravity. You always move towards her.
She suits you. She's kind and loving. She's confident in herself and in you. She's strong and loyal and not afraid to stick up for what's right. She's beautiful too. I can't deny that. She'll make a great queen.
I can't lie about this. It hurts, when I see you with her. When I'm with you and you suddenly stop talking because she walked into the room. When you don't come to me for advice anymore, but instead go straight to her. It hurts. It's this dull ache in my chest, like part of my heart has been ripped out of my body. I don't think you notice. You're too busy enjoying her company to notice me.
You ask sometimes. You ask what I think of her. I never answer. How can I? How can I tell you how I really feel when you disagree with my opinion, when what I think is wrong and jealous and petty? When I don't answer, you ask what's wrong. Not straight out, of course. It s always accompanied by a (hopefully) fondly said 'Idiot'. But it makes me feel better. It let's me know that you care, even just a little. It let's me know that you know me well enough to pick up on my habits.
Every single time you ask me what's wrong, I respond the same way, don t I?
I smile and say that nothing is wrong. I put on a mask and put up a brick wall. Do you know why, Arthur?
If you're happy, Arthur, when you're with her, I'll don a mask and pretend that nothing is wrong and that it doesn't hurt. You know why?
Because you're happy, Arthur.
And I can't bring myself to ruin your happiness with my feelings. You mean far too much for me to do that to you.
But I need to know. I need to know, one hundred percent.
Hey.
Arthur.
Are you happy?
You look happy. I guess that s enough for me. I ll put on my mask now.
But-
Just once more...
Are you happy, Arthur?
End.
AN: Okay, so this is my first fanfiction ever, so I'd love it if you left a review. Do note that I am a little insecure about my writing due to...certain circumstances (further details are on my profile, if you're that curious), so please be polite.
Hmm. Not my usual style, but I rather like how it turned out. I hope you enjoyed reading it as much as I enjoyed writing it.