This is a Feel-good Drama story. Enjoy! (This is an auto-biography of my life;this chapter will basically be like a page in a journal where I tell you some things.. think of this as the introduction to the story)

Sometimes, being the eldest of 4 siblings is a tough job. I have to take on the responsibility of being a "third parent" often. It indeed brings stress on me since I do go to an online virtual school and stay home all the time. Well I do get out constantly, but not a lot because my mother needs help most of the time with maintaining the household, cleaning, making food, and taking care of the children since my father works two jobs as a police officer and he works in the navy, meaning he leaves from a couple of months to a whole year.

I am turning 13 on February 15, 2013. I am actually excited because it took a while to become a teenager. When I was young, probably about the age of 5, I always wanted to grow up to be a teenager really fast. And now finally, the countdown begins till my birthday. Becoming 13 means I can do a lot of things that I couldn't do when I was a kid or pre-teen. I can do things like, going out to the movies with my friends "maybe" without my parents supervising me. I can go to the mall, and go shopping with my friends and family, and buy all the clothing I want. Well, some clothing. And the best thing is, I can finally get the adults menu at my favorite restaurants since I will turn 13 years old. Pretty cool huh?

But my parents have "other" ideas in mind. They say that once I turn 13, I will be old enough to babysit other children, and even my siblings. They also say that I will be able to study more on my tests and quizes to earn me good grades. My parents have more ideas in mind, but naming and writing them all would literally be writing Santa's naughty and nice list. Joy to the world..

I feel different from my family. Everyone in my family is seemingly normal, and me? I am the type of girl who loves Japanese music, Rock music, squishy necklaces and keychains like Hello Kitty, and "Kawaii" pancake kittens. I love Vocaloid, Black Veil Brides, Anime such as Inuyasha, Vampire Knight, Nurarihyon no Mago, Kanon Wakeshima, ON/OFF, Evanescence... yeah you get the picture. I can't help myself, you know? I used to try to be like my cousin, the one who is very popular, and very beautiful with blonde hair and hazel eyes and perfect skin. I always tried to be like her when I used to go to public schools. It actually went well, that is.. until I was enrolled into virtual school.

Now don't get me wrong her, I actually love virtual school now. I didn't like it when I left all my friends from my midde school however. That last day at the middle school was sad and made me and my friends cry. Luckily, I get to go back everytime I have to do the FCAT. Well.. it is "kind of" good since I don't know my friends anymore. But that is okay, because I have made friends at my online virtual school, and I have made friends on an awesome writing website. And throughout the years, I feel glad with being different and doing my own thing. It makes me feel like the special and unique one from my family.

I have told my parents that I am starting to become goth. They don't' agree with me, and said I can become goth once I am 18 years old and out of the house since I will basically be an adult then. It makes me kind of upset and angry since they didn't support me on it, but that is okay because I can still be the japanese girl, right?

-Ashtin

Okay, this is the journal introduction. I will add the next chapter soon.