Katniss P.O.V
Chapter 1:
I wake up thrashing around and screaming at the top of my lungs. My body feels trapped in something smooth. After 5 minutes of continuous torture, I start to realize that the blanket is wrapped around my body, which explains why I felt trapped. I slowly start to decipher what is real and what isn't. I realize that it was all a nightmare. Once I recall my nightmare, I start sobbing uncontrollably.
I'm in the woods of my first Hunger Games. I'm in search of Rue's berry bush. My senses are on high alert since I've left my bow and arrow back at my camping tree. I figured I wouldn't be gone too long. That's when I hear the howls in the distance. The hairs on the back of my neck stand on end as I see 4 mutts not that far away from me. I start running with all my might in the opposite direction. I hear them following me, they must have picked up my scent. I look behind me and see that they're right at my feet. I run as fast as my frail little legs can last. I spot a tree that looks accessable enough to climb. Too distracted at staring at my only hope of living, I don't see the tree root until a split second later, which was too late. I trip on the root and fall to the ground. I immediately feel a stinging pain on my ankle. I ignore it for the time being because 4 hungry looking mutts surround me and trap me. The biggest of them all slowly crawls towards me and stares at me with cold stare. I notice something peculiar about those eyes. Takes me moment to realize that those blue eyes resemble someone who I will always fear. Those eyes belong to Cato. I try to get up but find that I can't. The excruciating pain in my ankle stops me. I look down and conclude that I most likely sprained my ankle on my fall. The mutt comes close to me and opens his mouth to my neck, a deadly bite. I slowly close my eyes in an attempt to slow my beating heart. I feel the mutts breath on my neck and start screaming as loud as ever. I cry rivers and anticipate the bite. Once I feel the mutts teeth I wake up.
I slowly get out of bed and do my morning routine. Once I get into bed I see by the sun that it is about 7:00 A.M. I pray that Greasy Sae won't come and force me to eat. I know that she will tho. I don't understand why they don't just leave me alone to suffer. I deserve to suffer. I don't want to live anymore. In my life, the only emotion I feel is sorrow and pain. That is no way to live. Why don't they just understand that I want to be left alone forever?
I feel sorrow for all of those people who have died because of me. All of those people who have sacrificed their lives because of me. None of this would have happened if I hadn't pulled out those berries. None of this would have happened if I had just acted better on T.V and not spark a rebellion. None of this would have happened if I had just died in my second Hunger Games. Everything has happened because of me. Every death lost in this battle is because of me. Now i deserve to suffer for eternity.
I feel pain for all those people who have lost a loved one in the bound-to- happen-revolution. I can relate to them because I lost a loved one in this battle as well. I lost my little sister. I lost more than that tho. I lost my mother, who chooses to ignore me. I lost a best friend, whohas probably moved on already. Why cant I move on? Why is everybody able to move on, but I can't? As if something is holding me back from happiness. All I want is to be able to move on.
I know one person that isn't able to move on. That someone will never be able to move on completely. That someone is stuck in the God-damned Capitol because of me. That person loves and hates me at the same time. That person is probably the only way of me being able to move on. That specialsomeone will most likely never talk to me again.
That person is the one and only Peeta Mellark.