Set during New Moon
Disclaimer: Bella & Edward are not mine unfortunately (mostly for Edward) but the song on the radio IS! So don't steal it!!!!!!!!
(EPOV)
I can't believe I came back. I can't let her know, but I can't stop thinking about her. Like the plague you don't want to get rid of. Bad example, but this is a bad situation. How can I leave her when my head is consumed with thoughts of her essence? Tonight I'll leave, but not until then. I have to know that my angel is living the life I left for her...I have to know that she's ok...
(Outside POV)
Edward was sitting on a tree limb outside Bella's bedroom window. Fork's dim sun was slowly fading behind the covering of trees. Bella was in her room writing yet another letter to the love she'd lost and would never see again. Her radio is on and playing mostly break-up songs.
(BPOV)
Dear Edward,scratches this out Edward, again scribbles all over the hated name Stupid Vampire Boy,
She started laughing hysterically before crumpling the paper and tossing in the general direction of the trash can. It wasn't worth it to aim; she'd miss anyways.
There was no real explanation to why she was writing him letters. She didn't know where he went off to so quickly. But it was her own way of letting it out. It made that giant hole in her chest close up a little bit. Being able to write angry words then crumple them up like they were his guts and throw them into the trash where they belonged. If she ever saw him again she'd never be able to say half the things she wrote down. But it was nice to say them to an invisible audience.
The song on the radio changed and she practically threw her pen down. Her small form raced out of the room and then back holding a hairbrush. It was her favorite song and pretty much the only reason she listened to this depressing station all the time. She held the hairbrush like it was a microphone and started singing along with the words that were engraved in her mind...
The lies you fed me
Eat away at my soul
The truth it blinds me
Like staring at the sun
All I wanted
Was a fairytale
Who knew that broken hearts
Hurt so much
But now I'm mending,
Now I'm moving on.
Pick myself up
I'm gonna be strong
I don't need a man
Who's gonna bring me down
Charming's out there somewhere
Waiting to be found.
Sew your heart back together
All the shattered pieces
Shine it up like new
There'll be a day
Your love will come true
But till then, Princess,
Pull that needle through.
Make a wish,
Blow a kiss to a star
Maybe then,
I'll find out who you are
I'm just sitting
Locked up in this tower
Waiting for the dawn,
To make things new
I'm mending
I'm moving on
Pick myself up
I'm gonna be strong
I don't need a man
Who's gonna bring me down
Charming's out there somewhere
Waiting to be found
Your love will be true...
Just keep waiting
Reviving your heart...
She sat down on the edge of her bed; completely out of breath. If only he could see her now. She wasn't completely broken anymore, but he still consumed her entire life. He was all she thought about. It didn't hurt as much anymore either. The ache seemed to be numbing. If he came back right now and apologized and promised that he'd never leave again she'd take him back. Maybe make him suffer a little bit, but she'd never let him go.
Even if he didn't come back there was no way that she was going to let him go. She'd prove him wrong. There was no "Mike Newton" in her future. No incredible human experiences. Without him there weren't any real "diary-worthy" experiences or anything she'd like to remember in general. He'd always live on in her heart...
(EPOV)
Edward steadied himself on the branch. He'd almost lost his balance from the words that came out of Bella's lips. He couldn't come back now. She didn't want him anymore. She was over him. Like that paper in the trash can. Old news and gone forever.
But what if she was still waiting for him? What if that's what she meant in the song? That she was getting over her heartbreak, but she still wanted him as the love of her life. It was all too confusing to try and comprehend.
Maybe someday he'd come back to check up on her. But right now he needed to clear her from his mind completely. He needed to move on too. There was no possible way he could fall in love again, but he could still "live".
(Outside POV)
Edward climbed slowly out of the tree so he could make sure he was concentrating on what mattered, rather than Bella. However, since he was going so slowly, Bella happened to look out the window and see his descending form. She gasped, but released the captive air a moment later when she dismissed it as her imagination.
If Edward had really been there he would've said something...right?
Ok, I know that was definitely NOT the best thing ever. But I kinda just wanted to get my song out there. :) So please review and tell me what you think of it! Love always, HazelEyedHottie