Authors Note:
So this is my first ever fan fiction :D it's Klaine and is set just after Kurt and Blaine come out of Scandals in 'The first time' with a slightly different ending. Please review and tell me what you think. It is Klaine based with probably a few mentions of other couples along the way. I would like to thank Lauren, who I met through Twitter and is going to be helping throughout this story :D 3
"I'm sorry if I'm trying to be spontaneous and fun" Blaine cried at me. We both fall silent. Am I really being that uptight? I mean it isn't wrong to want to keep my innocence until I'm ready is it? Blaine has been hinting about it quite a bit recently, there was that comment about how now is the time to be adventurous? Maybe he thinks that it's about him. It isn't, he is perfect; maybe I don't tell him that enough...
"I think I'm just going to walk home" Blaine replies with a tremble in his voice. Have I messed up really bad? No I can't have! Blaine is in the wrong, he is wrong to force me into something I'm uncomfortable with but if he goes now maybe I lose him forever.
"Blaine!" I cry out as I watch him stubble away from the car. We can talk this out, him walking away solves nothing! I don't want to lose him, I don't think I ever want to lose him but I want to be sure he is the one before I give him the one thing I can never take back. He is so irritating when he wants to be! I think I'm just going to let him wander; it's his own fault if anything bad happens! What time is it; I look at my watch, 11:30! Dad and Carole will be worrying about me. With one final look at the direction my boyfriend walked off in I pull Blaine's keys out my pocket, unlock his car and open the door to the driver's seat. I will drive it home and then drop if off tomorrow, just to give it back though, not to see anybody, nope! Well maybe I will see if he got home ok. I put the key into the car and twist it. The engine starts up and I head out the gay bars car park on my journey home.
I can't believe Kurt! There is nothing wrong with a bit of fooling around, everyone our age does it and I'm sure that gay people are known for being promiscuous! Typical, I choose the one gay person who doesn't put out! Don't get me wrong, it's not as if it's the only thing I'm looking for, it's just nice to get a little action! You know, maybe Kurt is right actually, maybe we aren't ready yet, oh I don't know! I 'm not in a right state I mind to make my decision. I don't even know where I am, I'm in an unknown part of town, no map, nobody I know lives nearby so basically, I'm screwed. In hindsight, maybe I shouldn't have left Kurt. I hope I haven't messed what we had up, he is my world. I am walking down a small street; after I stormed off I decided to just wander, try and sober up a bit and get my head straight. I still have no clue where I am, how am I supposed to get home? Maybe if I just walk about a bit I can find something I recognise, maybe I can find the centre of town and get a bus from there. My head is beginning to stop spinning now; I can walk in a line now. As I look up I see the first landmark I recognise, the GAP. Memories flash through my head of the Warblers performance of 'When I Get You Alone'. How could I have been so stupid! Kurt was all over me and I just shunned him off and chased after someone way out of my league! I was such an idiot to Kurt, I suppose I kind of knew he liked me, he was hinting towards it a lot (and I mean a lot!). He was so patient and I just kept him hanging on. And now Sebastian has come along and he is all over me and I'm doing nothing to stop him. Kurt must think I'm such an idiot! Maybe I should stop talking to Sebastian, I don't even know why I did anyway, he isn't particularly nice to people. I guess I just like the feeling of being wanted. I realise that I have just been staring at the shop for the past few minutes; people must think I'm trying to rob it so I continue my journey home. I carry on walking down the empty high street, I finally know my way home!
I turn down a small alley way which I know leads the way. I step out onto the street; I'm just a few blocks away now. Scandals was great and everything but I don't think I can go back there, Kurt wouldn't let me! Everything will be ok with Kurt, I need to stop worrying over nothing. I need to be more concerned about my first West Side Story performance! That was the reason I even started pressuring Kurt into anything in the first place, I don't know why Artie told us we had to lose out virginities to play the part well. Maybe if I try and relate me and kurt to Tony and Maria, actually, our relationship is nothing like theirs! They had sex within the first few days, not very clever! I decide it would be a good time to practise, take my mind off things so I put my iPod in and hit shuffle on the west side story soundtrack. Tonight is the first song on and I start singing the lyrics in my head 'tonight, tonight. It all began tonight, I saw you and the world went away' I really do love Kurt, as much now as I did when he sang Blackbird. The world goes away everytime I see him. Still going through the lyrics in my head, I step out into the road to cross. My headphones blaring out in my ear as I get fully emerged in the song and start singing along to the end of the song. 'Good night, Good night sleep well and when you dream ...' At that moment a car speeds down the road. The man inside frantically searching in his back seat for something whilst keeping one hand on the wheel. He approaches the crossing unaware of anything.
'Dream of me ...' I continue singing as unaware as the man in the car. ' I stop singing. The man in the car turns around after hearing a massive thud on the front of his car. He gets out and looks at the floor in front in horror. He jumps back into his Chevrolet and drives off. Leaving me on the floor, unconscious, bloody and bruised. Never to sing again.