You can't admit it can you? Because admitting it makes it real and reality is just too much to handle at the moment. It's much easier to pretend that it's just a fling, that he'll get bored or you'll get bored and you'll separate and then it'll all be over and life will go on. Back to normal. And you carefully place Whitney's name into the conversation. You carefully ask without actually asking about any other girls. And you try to act annoyed when he says there is no-one else. It's getting harder to hide your joy at seeing him though. You thought you were managing it though so when he questioned you, it came as a shock. Love. You don't even know if you love him so how can he know? But no, that wasn't quite true was it? You do know but you won't even say it to yourself. It's like a mantra, keep it fake, don't make anything real.
How much longer can you keep it up? He's putting the pressure on now. The question is, will you crack?