Chapter 1 (Prologue)
Mattias P.O.V:
Hi! I'm Mattias Køhler, 17 years old ,third year of high school , wild blonde hair and baby blue eyes. I'm an average student , I get good grades.
Well, my family and love life are a disaster at the moment. I get constantly beaten at home by my mom ever since my father died in a car accident when I was only 13.
I also have a small group of friends who bully me every day. It almost feels like they are trying to find every opportunity to call me "stupid" or other names. They seem to be enjoying themselves while doing it , so if it makes them happy I'm going to keep my signature grin on my face and hide my pain for as long as possible.
And then... There's Lukas... Lukas is my best friend since middle school and the love of my life. He is also the one who bullyies me the most. His words cut deeper than any of my blades could. He keeps saying that he hates me, but I know that isn't true...Probably.
I always act like a happy and optimistic person to hide the pain that my friends and my mom inflict in me. Sometimes, when I feel that my act is falling, I lock myself in the bathroom and I relieve the emotional pressure trough cutting.
I know... It's weak...
I am still amazed by how long I managed to cope with my life. It's becoming harder and harder to hide my felling of hurt, my bruises and my scars. I visit my dad's grave regularly and talk to him about my problems and how miserable my life has become. He is the only one who seems to be listening to me and isn't judging me.
It's the only person who I still feel love from even if we are separated forever.
A/N : This is my first fanfiction ever so please be kind. Feel free to drop a review and I apologize for any mistakes . I'll try to make an updating pattern ( for example To update every Saturday). Anyway ,please review and I'll try to update an often an I can. Love you , Bye!