I saw New Moon. And I felt like writing a one-shot like this.
I don't own anything.
It was February. 5 months since he left me. I couldn't even say his name.
It was Biology class. The first class I had ever had with him. So many memories. So many memories that I hated to think of. The hole in my stomach felt larger than ever. I sat down at my table as I knew people were staring at me. I lay my head down on the desk. I couldn't bear it anymore. I needed him so much. I decided to fall asleep.
"Okay class today we are going to…" Our teacher was interrupted by the opening of the classroom door. Whoever it was, I wasn't interested. The whole class gasped, it still did not give me any instinct to look up. I kept my head down on my desk until I heard the voice of an angel.
"Hello. I assume I'll sit in my regular seat."
I stood up. I looked at him. I wanted to be mad at him. But I couldn't. I just couldn't. He smiled so big, I couldn't feel my stomach. He walked over to me. Slowly. Too slow for me to handle. I didn't care who was around. I ran to him as fast as I could and jumped in his arms. My hands found my way around his back and held onto his shirt REFUSING to let go.
"Excuse me, can we have a second." I had never been so happy to hear anyone speak in my life. Our teacher couldn't refuse the voice. He carried me outside and sat down with me outside the room with me still in his arms. He held me close. "Bella, I'm…"
"Don't say anything. I know you don't want this. Just give me a second. Please. I need to fill this hole in my stomach." Rather than loosening his grip on me, he held me closer and closer. I stayed with him there for at least 10 minutes. I knew our teacher was probably going to kill us. But I didn't care. I didn't care about anything. The only thing that matter was the god that held me in his arms. He kissed my hair, my forehead, everywhere except for my lips.
"Bella there's something I've been meaning to tell you." I couldn't care less how much his words might hurt me, as long as he was in my arms. "The day that I left. I have to apologize."
"Edward, you don't have to apologize for anything. You spoke your feelings. That's all that matters."
"But they weren't my feelings."
"I don't understand"
"Bella, I must be a good liar. I didn't think you would believe me so fast. I thought it would take days to get you to back down."
"But you don't want me."
"Bella don't you understand. I need you in order to live. I love you so much it consumes me, everyday of my life. I cannot live in a world where you don't exist."
"I don't believe you."
"Is there a way I can make you believe me?"
"Kiss me."
He put one hand in my hair and the other on my face and kissed me with more passion and intensity than he ever had before. I kissed him back. I missed this.
"Now do you believe me?"
I lay my head against his chest. "Yes."
"Bella I'm hoping you can be forgiving. If you need time I underst…"
I didn't let him finish. I kissed him again. "I love you Edward Mason Cullen. Always have, always will."
His kissed my forehead. "You want to get out of here?"
I nodded into his chest. For the first time since I had met him I refused to be put down. He carried me all the way to the truck. Where he drove and put his arm around me and I attempted to get some sleep. I didn't know where we were going. But I knew, wherever it was, whenever it was. We would be together.