A Voice on the Wind
Karen sighed as she watched Yuri. He had that far away expression on his face again. I bet he's thinking of Alice again. He's ALWAYS thinking about Alice. Why did I choose to follow him instead of being with someone who loved me?
"Nicolai..." Karen whispered.
"What?" Yuri said suddenly. "You say something Karen?"
"Nothing important...I was just thinking outloud."
"Oh...okay." With that, Yuri turned and walked off.
Karen sighed again and walked to the room she was staying in. As she entered, she noticed a book sitting on the edge off her bed. By now, the cover was familiar to her...so was the name on the cover. Nicolai Conrad. Many times she had tried to open the book and read it and many times she'd failed. It had a lock on the right side and no matter how hard she tried, she just couldn't break it.
"Nicolai...what secrets did you write in here? Did you mention me at all?" Karen asked outloud as she picked up the book. "Your name shows up in my diary so many times... Why could I never tell you that I loved you too?? Why couldn't I find the strength to admit it to myself while your were still alive?? You're gone now and I'll never get to tell you how I really feel. I miss you Nicolai. I just wish I knew what things went through your head during this whole crazy mess."
A cold breeze blew through the room then and Karen began to shiver. She sat the book back on the bed and went to close the window.
"Oh my God!!!!" Karen said as she looked at the window. Her reflection wasn't the only one there. Smiling at her the way he did the first time they met stood Nicolai.
"Nicolai...but...it can't be..you're dead," Karen whispered to the reflection. Turning, she saw that he wasn't really there but oddly enough...the book was open on the bed. "Nicolai...did you hear me after all wherever you're at?? Only you could have opened that book."
"Karen..." a voice whispered on the wind.
"Nicolai...you're here aren't you? I can feel it. You want me to read the book don't you? Did you write things there that you wanted to tell me but couldn't? If only I could have told you my feelings before you died. In that last instant before you died when you called my name out so desperately it all ran through my mind. So many things left unsaid. That last time you called my name still haunts me like your face and your voice."
"Karen! Food's done! Come out here and eat!!" Yuri called from the hallway.
"I'm not hungry!!" Karen yelled to him through the door.
"Okay, if you say so. You alright? You haven't ate much lately."
"Yeah, I'm fine. Just tired I guess."
"Well...see ya around then Karen." Yuri said.
"Godslayer!" the voice whispered. "Damn him!"
"It's okay Nicolai. I don't care for him much anymore. You're all I really think about. You with your familiar voice, your sleek blonde hair, and your gorgeous green eyes. It's always you."
"Read..." the voice said.
"Yes...I'll read it now.