Disclaimer: I don't own any of these characters but I do own the main plot of the ffic.
A/N: I'm sorry for the mistakes you'll surely find on the story, but my english is not really well... anyway, I hope you enjoy it!!
Chapter one: Death and live
Minerva McGonagall crossed the crowd of students and teachers under the castle tower trying to find the reason of their expectation, the whispers advice her about what she should expect, but she wasn't going to believe it until she'd see it… and suddenly she saw it… at the end of the crowd, lying on the floor there was the body of Albus Dumbledore… She could feel how her legs lose their strength, how her heart wasn't able to breath enough air, how her eyes filled with cold tears that she couldn't stop… He was dead… Dead… .. .
Firmly, she raised her wand and charmed a white light pointing the sky that had became dark… a while later everybody was doing the same as her and the shadow above their heads disappeared.
The silence made that situation uncomfortable… she couldn't stand anymore the gazes and whispers around her and stepped back to run away from the crowd. At the castle's doors a shadow seemed to be waiting her.
"Don't dare to say a word, Severus" said her.
"Minerva I… I'm sorry…" said Severus Snape following her into the hall "You know I didn't…"
From the middle of the stairs Minerva turned round and pointed with her wand to Severus, a green light flow from it and touched him.
"Minerva don't be childish!!!" shouted him raising from the floor "I had to do it! He ordered me to do it!!"
"NO!!! Albus never gave orders, Severus, he just asked you to do it… and you agreed…"
"He was dying! What happened to his hand was…"
"I knew it was a curse… I knew what was gonna happen instead he didn't tell me… but I hoped him to stay with me just some more time… just until I'd been able to tell him…" her sobs didn't let her speak "I'm pregnant!" shouted suddenly.
"What?!" exclaimed him, and she took advantage of his surprise to run stairs up.
Severus was sat on his new desk at the Headmaster's office when a voice cut the silence he'd been being involved for the last hours.
"How is she?"
"Bad…" answered him with his look lost on the window from which he could see the Gryffindor tower "She's destroyed… but I'm sure you didn't expect to listen she was fine…" then Severus turned round and faced Albus Dumbledore's picture on the wall.
"She'll recover… both of us knew it could happen one day… Being on the order any of us could never come back from a mission… that's why we never began a family…"
"There's something you should know, Professor…" told Severus "… but it would be better if it's her who tells you…"
"What is it?"
"She's… Minerva is… expecting a baby…"
"WHAT!?!?" it seemed that all the paintings on the wall trembled as Dumbledore shouted "It can't be possible… Are you sure of it? Who… who tells you?"
"She… Minerva shouted it to me when I apologized for what you did me to do…" after a while of silence, he continued… "She was right… you never ordered it to me… I could have rejected your plan… now you would be alive and would begin a family with her…"
"It can't be possible… we've always been too careful with this… we decided together we would never let an error like this to happen to us…"
"This is not a mistake, Professor… it's a baby!! A life growing inside her from your own blood!!!"
"But it changes everything! If Voldemort finds out about a son of mine he will come and… We have to do something… before he discovers everything… Minerva has to disappear…"
"You know he will found her anywhere she'll be hidden… and she would never be saved…"
"Then… the baby wouldn't be born…" said suddenly the old Headmaster's voice.
"Has death turned you into craziness!? Minerva McGonagall's dream has always been to have her own family with the man she loves… and you wants to take it out from her hands?"
"I want to protect her from who-you-know hands… Maybe…"
"What?"
"That's it! The only way is to make him think the baby's father is someone else!"
"That sound better… anyway, just a few people knew about you and Minerva, and they are all friends from the Order… But I can't imagine who could the fake father be…"
"It has to be someone from Voldemort confidence circle, then he would never suspicious anything…"
"Do you want Minerva to seduce a Death Eater?"
"You're not as clever as you seem… are you?"
"Oh, no! I can't do it! She's… she and I… NEVER!"
"Severus, it's the only way! You have to protect her and my son! If Voldemort finds out I left a heir he won't matter to kill him… and I don't wont to imagine what would happen to my kitten after he knows he's been my lover…"
"Alright… alright… I'll take it as a way to pay for my sins… but it will have to be you who tells her all this…" Severus stared the picture and Dumbledore hide his face in a corner of it "I'm not gonna tell Minerva mad plan… she nearly kills me after see your body on the ground… imagine what she will do if it's me who… NO! Go to her room immediately and talk with your dear cat, Professor!"
Minerva was crying on the sheet of her bed when Albus appeared on a little picture of him she has on her desk. The room was untidy, she seemed to have left her rage go out throwing every object to the floor… there were books, crystals from a mirror, and a lot of feathers from the pillows on the floor.
"Minnie?" asked him with a low and prudent voice "Minnie are you awake?"
Suddenly she moved a little, grasped the pillow under her head and threw it against the picture who was talking… if felt to the floor but the noise it made was silence by her shouts.
"I knew you wouldn't be too late on make an appearance! But do you want to know something, Albus Dumbledore!? I DON'T WANNA TALK WITH YOU!!!" She walked to the picture that has felt to the floor "I don't care if you've abandoned me… I don't care if you've dead…" she took the picture with her both hands and stared that blue eyes looking at her "I hate you… have you listen to me? I HATE YOU, ALBUS DUMBLEDORE!!!" suddenly Albus felt his painting flying throw the room and crushing against the wardrobe.
"Kitten, I understand you're angry… and upset… and mad… but… you knew it was gonna happen some day… I advised you the risks of loving me… but…"
"But I was madly in love with you… I know… and that was a mistake… a BIG mistake!! I felt in love with a silly old wizard too much selfish to notice my feelings… to imagine how much I would miss him after he'd gone…" the picture flew again throw the room and this time felt on the bed.
"I knew how much you loved me, Minnie… and those feelings of you were what most scared me… I didn't want you to suffer… but the magic world future was on my hands…"
"That's what most annoy me from you, Albus… why the hell everything has to be on your hands, why can't you just leave something for the rest of people and take some time for you…?"
"Minerva I…"
"Don't talk! I know the answer of every question… I've stood these enough time to know them…" she took the picture again "The problem's I've never get used to this…" then she opened the window.
"What are you gonna do?" asked Albus.
"If I want to forget you I can't have your annoying voice apologizing every day for what's happened…"
"Minerva… don't quit me at this way, please… I know it… I know you're expecting!"
"Oh… I see… killing you has get Severus closer to you…"
"He haven't killed me… he was just obeying my will… Would you have preferred the young Malfoy to become a killer?"
"I would prefer you to stay with me and our son…"
"Minerva, I was dying… I would have death in a few months, anyway…"
"I don't matter… I would have been able to feel your hands on my belly every night, and your lips on mine at least one more time…" he noticed the tears on her eyes and her voice beginning to tremble because of her sobs "… now my son will grow without a father because we've never been able to tell anybody about our love…"
"Minerva, about this…" he was gonna tell her, but he hesitated, she looked at him with wet and red eyes and he couldn't say it to her at that moment "… I'm sorry…" was the only he managed to say.
"You haven't told her!"
"I couldn't, Severus… she's too sad… and desperate… and scared… She's carrying a baby from a death man nobody knows she's been having a relationship and she feels lonely… knowing she will have to manage everything alone… I couldn't… I couldn't add a fake marriage to all these…"
"Then we'll have to think on another way…" said Severus smiling.
"No… you'll meet her tonight and tell her about the plan…"
"NO! I told you it would be you who… alright… but you'll have to be there!"
TO BE CONTINUED… .. .