Disclaimer: I do not own Veronica Mars and it absolutely kills me that it's over. This is just a one-shot with a companion one-shot called Cracking. Hope you enjoy it. Don't forget to tell me what you think!!!
I Could, But I Won't
I see you laughing with her and I hurt. I don't understand why you can't just be with me. It's not like I don't love you. I do, but you hurt me. You hurt me bad. Sleeping with Madison? What did you expect Logan? I couldn't stay with you…not after that. At least, not for awhile.
But now I know I could be with you and seeing you with her is killing me. You're mine, but because of our choices I can't claim ownership. So I have to look away. It's easier to pretend you're not there, like some insanely twisted game of 'I can't see you.'
I wonder if you miss me. If you even think about me. Or better yet if you even think we still belong together. You always used to believe in love even when I didn't. Even when I was pushing you away you held onto our love. I don't think I'll ever forget that conviction, that sureness you had that we could be together in the end. I wonder if you still think that.
I could walk over there to see you two, but I won't. I don't think I could stand seeing you so happy without me. I haven't seen you smile like that in ages. It's plain to see you're okay. I could ruin that. All I seem to do is bring you down. I won't do that anymore.
They say ignorance is bliss and I know it's true. Cause if I hadn't seen you with her I could go on thinking you still loved me. That we still had a chance. But I can see that's over now. That we're over.
I could beg you to take me back and I know you would. We may be over, but a part of you will always love me. And maybe one day you'll tell me that. But not today, not now.
So I'll just watch. I can't bring myself to talk. I doubt words would come out and I don't want you to see me cry. You'd just feel sorry for me. So I'll just walk away and sigh. I could cry, but I won't.