Disclaimer: I do not own Veronica Mars in any way, shape, or form. This is just a one-shot that happens to have a companion one- shot called 'I Could, But I Won't.' So please read and enjoy and don't forget to tell me what you think.
Cracking
I see you watching me so I laugh harder. Maybe if you're so preoccupied with wondering what's so funny you won't see that I'm cracking. That I'm breaking without you.
I want you to think that I'm over you cause if you believe it maybe I'll believe it too. But honestly? Who do I think I'm fooling? I'm still in love with you. So in love that it hurts to breathe, hurts to think cause every moment that passes is another that you aren't with me.
We were so good together. Yeah we had our fair share of fights, but what couple doesn't? I thought we'd last forever, but we didn't and I'm blaming me. If only I'd done something different, said the right words, hadn't slept with her, it would be you here instead of this insipid bimbo.
I know I messed up. That I hurt you when I slept with Madison. I'm sorry. I wish there was some way to make it up with you. But I know I can't.
I don't want you to see me cracking, breaking for you. So I won't let you close again. I can't let you see how much I need you. Cause if I let you near me you'll see right through me. You always have and you always will.
So I'll sit here, fake the smile, force the laughter. Tell another lie to cover up the many I tell even myself. It's easier this way. Easier to believe the lies if I pretend you don't exist. Cause the truth is I'm cracking cause I can't be with you.