Prologue ~ A Request, With No Solution

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This volume is suppose to tell what happens towards the end of the service club's second year of high school, as well as the beginning of a new year for our characters.

Requests come with expectations. Anyone who has one expects it to come through, one way or another. That was what the service club was about. We were expected to carry through, to find a solution, despite the circumstances.

I hated the concept to begin with. It was not only ridiculous but illogical. Forcing each others' ideals on everyone else, trying to see in their perspective of why their wants were important. Why they were entitled to such beliefs, and the gratitude of having those fulfilled was the only thing on their mind.

While I wouldn't consider myself considerate, but more realistic with something like this in mind. For when people made these requests, no one considered the outcome of what it would do to others. To expect that things would just, play out in their mind is silly. It's not only inconsiderate but naïve on there part. And if you think people took this into consideration, you'd be surprised. I wasn't surprised, because I didn't expect people to be compassionate. Everyone is ugly underneath, and everyone thinks there being compassionate, just as I think im being compassionate telling the truth right now. But there will be those who disagree of course, and that's the whole irony of these requests.

Don't get me wrong, I could care less of what the requests did to people. In the end the only reason why I was there was due to an uncanny teacher that thought she was doing me a favor. It only made me develop bonds, reluctantly of course. In the end, it wasn't even my decision to make.

With that being said, these requests, it broke us, hurt us, and made us question things we never bothered to question or even think about in our lives. And thus, why my search for something genuine would also carry through like many other request we've solved. In this case a request, yet to be solved. One however, that was still justified.

Sadly, my search for something genuine, may not have a solution. And regardless of how bad I wanted it, or even how bad Yuigahama and Yukinoshita wanted it, I felt deep down we all knew what the solution was to my request. But we would never bother to say it loud. We couldn't. Afterall, it's what we were trying to avoid all this time.

And thus, this is why I say, still to this day. That youth is a lie. And it is nothing but evil. Youth only favors those who come to aspire of what youth does best. You have to be at the center of youth to get the most out of it, and if you aren't getting the most out of it, you might as well not be in it what so ever.

But of course, the biggest liar was me. For even I am a user of youth, and that makes me just as idiotic as the rest. For even wishing something of a genuine nature, oh, how I am fool to think that my logic is different then those of what I despise.

That is why. I hate myself.

The solution to my request, for it is something that I dearly want, and both something I incredibly fear, because it is something I ultimately despise. And yet at the same time, I do not know what it is.

To which, I ask myself everyday.

What is this genuine thing that I speak of?

Will I…ever find it?

Hell, who's to say I already haven't?

With the snow raining on us on that fateful day, who would think that it would come to this? No one expected it because no one bothered to say anything. But ever since that day, when we all opened up, when I told them both that I wanted something genuine, perhaps Yuigahama felt that it was just as important to say what was needed, just as I did. Perhaps now we thought that it wasn't right to just stay silent. We all knew it didn't solve anything, but we were to scared to come out with it. We didn't want to admit to our faults, we were afraid of trying to make each other understand our perspective, cause we all knew we had our own, and we all knew we would stick by it. But that didn't change Yuigahama wanting to tell us that day when the snow was falling so graciously.

By saying she wanted everything, and that she'll do whatever it takes, of course she wouldn't be specific about anything. If she did things would of become…complicated. For whether or not Yukinoshita understood what she was saying, I did. And what she wanted was both vulgar, disgusting, but devastatingly evil in its own way. It wasn't like I expected Yuigahama's subconscious feelings to be opposite of that of what she tries to be. The nice cheerful girl, who's always smiling and spreads happiness with a big heart. For anyone who does this, you expect them already to be wearing a mask. And that fateful day, Yuigahama decided to take her mask off, and tell us how she really felt deep down.

So obviously, I had to reject her proposal. I had to decline her request. With respect of what she wanted, I know that for me, if things were like that, it wouldn't be real. Forget anything about genuine, or what I even wanted, it would just feel fake and horrible. Even though, Yukinoshita deserves that her insecurity be dealt with, yui's solution would of just made things worse. So I stand by those words of saying "No". Still to this day.

And what followed, not necessarily unexpected. But surprising nonetheless. The smart and beautiful Yukinoshita made a request, a request that I wouldn't imagine hearing from her. I thought of her as a strong, independent woman who didn't lie. And who could take the pain she has dealt with over the years, and stand by it. Whether it be the people who disliked her for her genius, or sister tormenting her, I appreciated, and wanted to believe that Yukinoshita was that of someone who could handle the pain and become something stronger. Someone untouchable, not bounded by others opinions or ideals but standing by her own ideals.

But I was wrong. Because on that day, she made a request.

"I want…to become independent. I want to make my own decisions. I want to be Yukinoshita Yukino."

As she stammered, it was not only unexpected but rather. Disappointing. I felt sad and angry, because I once again pushed my own ideals on Yukinoshita Yukino. I wanted to think that my image of her was true. But it wasn't. Deep down Yukinoshita was lost, and needed our help to become who she was meant to be.

But if I'm being honest?

I don't have the ability to do that. What I wanted Yukinoshita to be, and whether she was that were two different things. One must simply BE that. You can't become that strong unless you simply think it. Something that Yukinoshita might be capable of, but something I don't know I could make her be.

After such a request, not only was there a silence, but the average brained Yuigahama Yui was puzzled by such a request. And to be fair, it was puzzling. "I want to be Yukinoshita Yukino." For that was the case, then who was she all this time? Someone else? Or perhaps, was she trying to be someone she herself didn't know? It would make sense considering that her sister, Haruno, was something of not of an inspiration to Yukino, but someone praised for her own existence. Resulting in Yukino's existence, strangely not being justified. With years going by and having to be reminded of how well balanced, successful and amazing her sister is, it would make sense that Yukino felt lost somewhere along the way. And questioned who she really was if she couldn't be herself. Her, being an imitation of her sister would make sense. Something that I despise. Cause Yukino was fine the way she is. I honestly, liked Yukino for who she was. Or was that wrong of me? Because maybe...all this time…she was trying to be her sister? And I, unintentionally, liked her for that.

Puzzled, Yui questioned, "What…what do you mean..Yukinon?" as expected. While I again chose to say nothing, I didn't even know what she was getting at. With Yukino herself saying,

"I….I don't really know what I said. But. If I were to put it into words. That's." She stammered and paused at first but then continued to reason.

"That is my request."

Of course after everything that happened, with my own reasoning's of doing what I did, with everyone else's reasoning's and decisions that were made, we couldn't deny Yukinoshita's request. She deserved to have it fulfilled. We all deserved our requests to be solved. And we all knew that it wouldn't be easy solving them.

Acknowledging Yukinshita's request, we said our goodbyes and hoped to see each other again at school. With the month of Febuary coming to its end any time soon, it wouldn't be too soon till our third year of high school started. What people would we be? What would happen in this next year? And would our own requests, as well as, relationship as trio, develop? Would it blossom? Would it get worse from here on out?

I don't know the answer to that. You can never know, because you will never know what the future holds. You can only wish, something that I didn't do, but something I found myself doing after that day. And if it was something that I wished didn't happen, I didn't want this to happen.

I didn't want things to end where I end up with someone, or we split up as a group due to the tension of awkward unrealistic lust between the three of us. I didn't want this to end, like how every other romance anime you see on tv end. I want there to be a solution where we all end up happy. Where we can all be ourselves and smile at the end of the day because we finally grasped on something genuine.

Perhaps, that's what was I looking for. Something genuine, maybe just means, something that's real, in terms of, real happiness for all three of us. With no tears or sadness, but just fulfillment for something working out.

If its anything worth wishing for, its that, and that alone. But. A request like that doesn't have an easy solution.

But. Is it worth struggling to find? That's a decision I never really made. But one I made indefinitely without noticing. It wasn't even mind to make, cause what I wanted, was once again forcing my own ideals to those of Yuigahama and Yukinoshita. For I expected that what I wanted was something we all wanted in the end.

But that's where I'm wrong. And that's what makes me idiotic like the rest of those who made requests to the club.

That is why. I hate myself.

Note: This is an introductory chapter to set the tone. Chapter 1 gets into actual story development.

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