I DON'T OWN EVANGELION ( STUDIO KHARA AND GIANAX DOES)

Evangelion

You can (not) find Peace

Chapter I (R) Hebrews: 11, 17-19

It was cramp. A young teen sat in a capsule, his breathing was frantic and shallow.

"Filling plug with LCL."

He felt a warm liquid rise through his black jeans. Looking down, he saw his cockpit slowly fill with a soupy fluid.

I can't swim!

He began tugging and pulling at the console that secured him to the couch. The liquid now rose against his chest, he held his breath as it raised above his head.

"Shinji calm down you aren't going to drown ok? Listen to Ritsuko and you will be fine," Misato, his lavender haired guardian, gave him a reassuring smile. Shinji, the pilot with in the plug, nodded cautiously and began opening his mouth to allow the nauseous fluid into him.

"Shinji once you've inhaled enough LCL," Ritsuko, NERV's resident faux blonde, paused only to check the pilot vitals, "it will fill your lungs and oxygenate them, so don't worry you'll be fine."

"O-Ok" the cobalt eyed teen opened his mouth more and slowly began inhaling more of the strange orange liquid, he found it was hard to breath it and control his gag reflex. Its taste eerily reminded him of blood, that with the fact that it was cold didn't make him like it any better. His chocolate-brown hair, he noticed, floated in the coppery liquid. When both of his lungs filled with LCL he gave a slight nod to the bridge, Ritsuko, and Misato.

Shinji awaited his orders. From his cockpit the synchronization sequence blared through his comm. link. "A.T. Nerve connection normal," his plug began to flow with rainbows and stripes, then a clear view of the cage his unit was being held in. "Switch language logic to Japanese, all preliminary contacts established, performance nominal, bio-directional circuits are open." the voice was soon replaced by another, "Synchronization rate at forty one point three percent."

Ritsuko soon approached the console, to study his sync rate, "Even without training he pulled that off." Very impressive Ikari.

"Harmonics seem normal, no disturbances."

Ritsuko spun to face Misato "Lets do it!"

"Begin launch sequence!"

Shinji noticed that his Eva's cages began sliding open. The intercom continued blaring the launch sequence.

"Removing primary lock bolts and secondary bolts, removal confirmed."

"Removing umbilical bridge."

"Removing primary and secondary restraints."

"Now releasing safety bolts one through fifteen."

"Internal batteries full charge."

"Roger that move Eva Unit-01 to the launch pad prepare for launch!"

Shinji now prepped his body for the launch. Holy shit I'm going to die!

In his mind he began to go into overdrive, thinking, wondering, and trying to find reasonable answer to why this was happening, why is he in this thing, and better yet, why did he make a deal with the devil.

What the hell are you thinking! She's a girl, not something that I can take!

His mental banter took his attention away from the launch sequence, Misato waited for a green light, a tactician turned to her, giving her a thumbs up for the launch.

"Alright, Evangelion Unit-01, launch!"

Just as the G-force hit his stomach, his vision went a blur, and soon felt his mind blacking out. It soon stopped as he reached the surface, allowing his body to regain its posture. He stood there, thinking what to do. He saw the angel, a bastardisation of the human form, with three fingers, a massive upper body, and bone face. How could this be a messenger of god?

He took a step, finding it easy to walk, his second step however, his foot caught the rough concrete, tripping him. The Evangelion's jaw hit first but, what hurt wasn't his forehead.

He felt a searing pain throughout his mind, as if someone was trying to force his brain to find something. He knew something was wrong, a bright light blinded his eyes. Everything was hazy, he felt so many things come to him at once, lost memories they branded themselves into his mind.

Through the Neon Genesis, and the Rebuild of Babel, may you find peace, Shinji Ikari.

The pain ripping through his body muddled his train of thought, "What?!" He gasped, there was nothing, the plug darkened, the angel disappeared, where was he? A light came from his front, he watched it travel until it lit the plug, then his rebirth began.

Images flashed, pictures of the past, not pictures, memories. They tore through his brain matter with no mercy.

Nine Evas, they're killing her! Not her NO!

"I'll Kill You."

My hand that's covered with myself.

"I'm so fucked up."

I'm watching doing nothing, absolutely nothing to stop them!

"Ah~!"

She hates me .

"Stupid Shinji..."

Her kiss, she does she love me?

"That was an adult kiss Shinji, come back and we will do the rest."

No, she didn't...

"Kaji, my love, did I do the right thing?"

No not them to! Toji, Hikari, Kensuke, don't let them die!

She rejected me.

"I don't love you like that."

Why did you give me the world?! Why!?

I killed him, he was the only person to ever say.

"I love you"

Why is my father like this?

"I have purpose for you now."

What are these visions.

Why am I so weak? Someone… help me… HELP ME!

Everything just stopped. He felt something warm glide across him. He cast his gaze to his front and in a sudden moment he was staring at a women who had nursed him, raised him, and gave birth to him. Her essence floated only meters away from him.

Mother?

A warm smile grew on her face, she soon floated to him, into his embrace.

Why did you leave me, he began to sniffle and silently cry, everyone hates me.

I'm sorry Shinji, she stroked his hair I didn't want you to pilot this. But, I'm glad I'm here now, you've grown so much baby. She proceeded to pinch his cheek.

Mother what are these visions, these memories aren't mine but, why do they feel real? Why do they hurt, why do these people die?

She continued the embrace him They are yours, a gift from the All-Mother, she wants you to win, it may hurt but, you will understand eventually I promise…She began to fade and loosened her grip I must go now this isn't my body anymore, Shinji this will be the only time you see me, I had to save so much energy to do this. Unit-01 will protect you and eventually I hope you can bond with her.

Now Shinji, She gently lifted his head from his chin to were her eyes meet his, I'm going to give you something that will ease the pain, remember these for they will rise you from the deepest abyss, these memories will awaken you. She began to lean forward, to kiss his forehead.

Please mother not again… don't leave me…

When her lips connected to his forehead he felt numbness come over him. Then hate followed by rage. He felt cold as his mother's essence left him, time came back and he stood in front of the enemy. His comm. channel bombarded him with yells, commands, and pleas, he promptly ignored them. He embraced these new feelings.

He felt the Evangelion, from it's restraints to the shoulder fins. He became Unit-01.

He easily willed the beast to it's feet. For once in his life, Shinji felt pure. Pure and absolute conviction to clean his sinful and tainted past, he could stop it all from happening... again.

Unit-01's core hummed with energy and the pilot felt it. Shinji inhaled the wonderfully warm LCL into his lungs and closed his eyes. He finally exhaled the now sweet liquid, he opened his eyes. His cobalt blue bleed into a crimson red.

I am... I.

"Misato, " he glared at the third angel, "I know now."

"Sachiel, Angel of Water." he paused to pull out his knife "Long time no see."

He lunged hundred of meters towards the angel, shoving his knife into the beast, he felt it panicking underneath him. This only fueled his uncontrollable blood lust. The frightened angel lifted it's arm to the false god's eye, with an arc of energy it fired the lance into it's opponent but, it halted against an all too familiar octagonal shield.

It's light... it's so bright

He grabbed its arms and twisted, the sounds of bones shattering and muscles tearing filled the city. Its arms were amputated by Unit-01, the Angel became even more freighted, its body began to hurt. It had almost completed it's purpose. Now it will wait for death.

Shinji, happy with his handy work, began to stab at the core. The first strike glanced off the smooth surface, but he continued the assault. It began to crack after his second strike, the third time, part of it started to shatter, he proceeded to stab it one last time. But, his mind burned again, only this time it was if it was warning him. He sat there on top of the Angel restraining it, when he heard it. The numbers repeated themselves over and over again until he submitted to it.

"Eleven, seventeen, eighteen, nineteen," his breath was shaky "Hebrews"

He repeated "Eleven, seventeen, eighteen, nineteen Hebrews… Isaac and Abraham, a sacrifice to god, a child, divine intervention. An Angel…"

Am I Isaac, or… Am I god

He observed his target, it waited for him, waited for its death. His skin crawled, his Eva took it's hand off its chest, moving it upwards, he caressed the angel's larger mask gently. On contact he felt it's pain, and understood it's purpose.

Warmth... what is this?

All father... where are are you...?

I'm cold now... Is this their loneliness?

Please... come back! Please! I will do anything to bring our God back!

A deal? She made a deal, with who?

I am to die, so they can join him...

A lamb, this was her purpose... Sachiel, the covering of god is nothing more than a sacrifice... to him? How many times has he eviscerated her, twice? A endless cycle... Death and Rebirth... He couldn't believe this, she never tried, the fifthteenth never tried, the sixteenth never tried... the last gave in...

"I'm sorry… I'm sorry," soon tears meet the LCL, "I didn't know..."

His body began to convulse, where hate and rage once was, it was now replaced by sadness and sorrow.

"No… you won't die… God Damnit… don't die," he managed between sobs, "I won't let you die!"

He felt energy flowing through him. He allowed Unit-01 to awaken, its green luminescent armor began to change to a similar crimson that matched his now, red eyes. He placed one hand against the angel's core, while the other held the colossus up. Above the demon's horned head a bright circle appeared, it slowly grew outward until it manifested into a halo.

It was Shinji's time, for he will be the one to change what is as we know of our world.

No more pain just… happiness and I will give it to you…

Back in Central Dogma, Misato stiffened in disbelief as Shinji began his transformation,

This isn't right, what's going on!

She panicked, her spun over to Ritsuko who herself didn't know was going on. "Rits what's wrong with Shinji!"

"I don't know! An unknown entity breached the entry plug his sync ratio skyrocketed to 126.7% and now his A.T. Field is blocking all signals to and from the cockpit!" Her hands flew across the keyboards, furiously trying to send commands to the MAGI.

"Ritsuko!" Maya relayed, "Shinji going into the Red Zone! Plug depth is at one eighty and rising, he's risking contamination!"

"Eject the plug now! I will not risk pilot contamination!"

"Misato! Unit-01 is refusing to accept the signal!"

"Damnit! Order the MAGI to run through all the failsafes and get Shinji out-"

"Order the JSSDF to ready a N2 mine bombardment on Unit-01, pilot safety is now out of the question, recovery of Unit-01 is now our top priority," He interrupted. They all turned to the man above them. He sat on top his throne, his hands concealing his face never breaking his posture. His cold eyes were hollow, empty, and sad…

"But, Commander Shinji's still-"

"I don't care order it," Misato shifted her body away from the Commander. Heartless Bastard...

"I'm sorry Shinji," she gave the orders to the generals, who were more than happy to fix their mistake.

Meanwhile back inside Unit-01, Shinji could feel his Evangelion's power running through his veins. As the plug went deeper and deeper, he finally made eye contact with the Angels core. It was a sea of darkness but, a few meters away he could make out a figure in the darkness. He ripped away the constraint holding him to his seat. He slowly crawled to the edge of the pool, each centimeter he moved his skin peeled away more and more, until most of his epidermis burned away, or was about to peel away.

I won't run away… I won't fail… I will make you happy… So please don't join the Chambers...

I can do this… I've done it before… I saved Rei once like this… if I did it then I can do it now!

In Central Dogma, most of the employed NERV staff frantically observed the statistics that Unit-01 and it's pilot released.

Maya, a tactician, launched from her seat, "Dr. Akagi!"

The head of science division turned to her, "What is it?!"

Maya heard a beep, "Unit-01 is expelling a unknown signature!"

Ritsuko nearly leaped to the stations below her, her stared in disbelief at the readings, "Jesus Christ! Commander!"

Said person and the Sub-Commander stood atop the war room's tower. Gendo covered his inner turmoil with his classic pose.

"Gendo!"

He looked down to Ritsuko, "Unit-01 is resonating Anti-A.T. Fields! We can still activate the self destruct since the cable-"

"I forbade that action," he replied with a steely edge, "Captain!"

Misato turned from her daze, "Sir!"

"How long until the airstrike?"

She glanced carefully at the tactical mapping, "Fifty-three seconds!"

Shinji plunged into the darkness, he rowed his upper body through the liquid, he finally made it. What was there shocked him, it was a girl who shared a remarkable resemblance to Rei. Her hair went down to her shoulders, it was astonishing turquoise. Her eyes however they stayed shut, so Shinji assumed that she was unconscious. He grabbed her by the waist, and dragged her to the surface, where he finally liberated her.

In a flash it was all over. He saved her. All that mattered now is that she was ok. He observed her body, to try to see if she needed any medical help. Her arms were intact to his surprise, as he was expecting for them to gone missing. He quickly ripped off his shirt and covered her.

After his 'inspection' he lowered his head to her mouth to see if she was breathing, to his relief she was, however slightly, breathing. He placed his hand in hers, whilst sitting in his plug he felt her squeeze his hand gently. With that, Shinji laid back in his seat and rested.

Gendo watched the security over the hospital room below him. Two beds resided in the center, one with his son, the other with their 'guest'.

Ritsuko walked next to him, "Commander."

"Dr. Akagi, any sign of mental contamination?"

She shook her head, "No, however I'd like to speak to you about the girl."

"Well come out with it."

She flipped through a few pages of data, "The girl is human... but what I find odd is that her DNA isn't traceable to any ethnic group, what's even more disturbing is the fact that she doesn't have a bit of solar radiation. She's the physical representation of a tabula rasa, a clean slate."

Gendo continued evaluating the threat, "What are your thoughts?"

"I don't know."

The Commander nodded, "I believe," he adjusted his orange tinted glasses, "I have a theory."

He knew where he was when he woke up to the sounds of beeps and the white ceiling that his eyes opened to.

Things never change do they.

He turned to his head to see another bed to his side. There he saw the girl. Her green-blue hair head rested against the pillow. Then he became aware of a door opening, to his surprise the Commander and Misato walked in, Misato picked a seat near him, the Commander however, decided to stand instead.

"Shinji… would you like to explain what happened in Unit-01? You really scared me and everyone on the bridge."

"Better yet," the Commander adjusted his glasses for a moment "where did 'she' come from." he pointed to the other bed.

"I don't know Commander," he glared at him "but I woke up and she was there and that's that." He shifted his place away from his father and continued conversing with Misato.

"So, Shinji tell me what happened. A better description would be nice."

He sighed he knew he wasn't going to win so he kept his story in the shade of grey, "Well it got dark in the plug and the next thing I know 'she' was in my arms, holding my hand. That's all I remember, sorry Misato." He replied, continuing his discussion with her.

"It's ok Shinji, both of you are fit to leave by this afternoon, but we still need to find a place for 'her' to stay."

"I believe that isn't necessary Captain, your housing will be adequate for both their needs," he gazed at Misato until she nodded, "Another thing, Shinji you're responsible for her. Take care Third Child." He strolled over to the door until he heard his son respond.

"What about the other girl? Is she coming with me as well?"

The Commander thought it over, "A deals a deal, her name is Rei Ayanami and she doesn't like meat." He calmly continued to stroll out the door.

Shinji leaned into his bed, he smirked, Yes father, I remember.

He turned away and smiled. He spoke with her for a while until she had to get back on her shift. She left him alone with her. All he could do now was sleep and that's just what he did.

The Commander continued through the Med Bay, he came across Fuyutsuki who waited for him, "Sensei."

"Commander?"

"Tell Rei that she needs to pack and move into the Katsuragi residence. Captain Katsuragi will be her guardian from now on."

Fuyutsuki studied for a moment, "Yes Commander, but may I ask you something?"

"Yes Sensei?"

"Do you believe your son? That our 'guest' isn't a threat?"

"...The scenario has changed," he replied after a long silence, "if Shinji was able to create 'her' from an Angel's particle wave matter and actually manifest a soul from it, then many things will have to be accounted for but… he will shape this scenario with his will now. I know that much and I must evaluate multiple variables to account for this."

With that the Commander left his second-in-command in the ward.

If Shinji did create her from a soul, is he transcending humanity?

Or was it coincidence that this happened?

Or was it fate?

Could he save her?

He pondered at the variables in this new scenario his son was building, "Things are just getting started…"