Hello, This is a short one-shot. The idea popped into my mind before bed. And I just had to write it!
The sky was over casted, a sign that rain would soon fall. Allen walked along the street's of town close to the Order, his hood up upon his white hair. He walked forward, looking. He was going to do something he's seen his master do .. once. Only once. Did Allen ever see it. And it surprised him, that his master would do such a thing.
He walked up to the church, and stared at it for a minute. Then walked up the steps, his feet feeling heavy, like they had cement in his shoes weighing him down. Allen opened the door. And looked around, then. He walked to the Confessional. He was going to confess his sins.
Allen was never really one for visiting a church, only once before with Cross. When he went to do the very same. Allen walked into the Confessional booth, and lowered his hood.
" Hello, my son."
Allen looked down into his lap, and took a breath. " Hello father." he greeted the priest, " I have come to confess."
" I would have guessed, now. Tell me, what do you wish to confess? "
" Father.. Forgive me, for I have sinned." he began, and closed his eyes.
" At a very young age, I was an orphan. Alone, in this world. " He began, and stared hard at his gloves.
" Until a clown found me, and took me in. His name was Mana. He was the one who gave me a name, who raised me, who made me smile. Really smile. Then, one day." he closed his eyes.
" Mana died.. I was very upset, and in my grief. The Millennium Earl, payed me a visit. And I accepted his offer to bring Mana back… But at what cost?" Allen knew by then he was crying.
" I turned him into an Akuma, and.. Before he would have taken my skin… He told me..' Allen kill me' I… I did it. I killed him. But in return, I received this cure mark…" his gloved hand touched his eye, and he sighed.
"… And my innocence. I became an Exorcist.. My appearance changed, and I was found by, my master. Cross Marian. He took my on as an apprentice, and over time, showed me how to use my innocence. " He leaned against the wall, and held his left arm.
"…. After some time, I joined the Black Order. And began killing Akuma.. using my eye to see them. For my eye is a demons eye, Father. I was titled the Destroyer Of Time….. " He chuckled.
" Fitting, huh? …. I … I've killed, and caused pain to many. And I know that I am called Gods weapon. But Father.. How am I suppose to live knowing that not only am I a murderer. But I am a host of a Noah! The same thing I am fighting against? Am I forever plagued with the fact that I may one day in fact turn into what I hate the most? What I am suppose to kill? " Allen began crying again, his tears running down his cheeks.
" Tell me father! Am I forgiven? Will I die knowing that I was important? Or that… I wasn't just some tool in this war?" he questioned.
Allen stopped, and froze.
No.. Why… Why now?
His innocence activated, " Father. I am sorry for having to do this." he whispered, and used the Crown Clown, to grab the ' Priests ' Neck, ".. Father, I am about to sin again. And I am sorry."
He killed the Akuma in the holy man's skin, and watched as his soul flew up into the sky.
"….I suppose.. I cannot be forgiven…."