Hey its me again, thanks to everyone who puts up with my changing writing style. this one is similar in style to Confessions however this is just the begining, it will be different later, this one i'm going to attempt to put up more than one chapter so don't murder me if i kill it. This story also is written to someone because i owe her one, this happens to be her fave couple, so i started writing last night while i was hyped up on a blue demon. Continue at your own risk you have been warned... oh and by the way, most of the begining is supposed to be like a journal entry type a thing... so... ENJOY DAMNIT!! i worked hard on this!
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Everyday I sit and pretend to be reading, but instead I watch the blonde called Naruto. I watch as he tries, succeeds, fails and tries again. I watch as he's ridiculed, wishing there was someway I could comfort the boy. Still I sit and watch silently as an observer behind my pink book. Naruto is certainly the strongest shinobi I have had the pleasure to meet. Or maybe I'm just biased. Either way, he's much stronger than some of the others I have taught. Being able to brush off the ridiculing, the oppressiveness and still keep the optimism, it astounds me. I pretend to be annoyed with him, but I never really am. How could I be? It's a cover for the admiration I feel for the boy.
I chose to teach the blonde loud mouth for one reason: to get to know him better and to have a chance to comfort him in any small way when he needs it. I admire his strength and determination. His sheer will power amazes me. His whole amazes me. This one kid, this one, boy, he holds my fascination like nobody ever has. Like nothing ever has. I often ponder how a boy with a past like Naruto's could hold his head up so proudly. How one could be so happy, and it's in this regard that I view Naruto most of the time.
At times, I feel attracted to him. Not just the normal fascination, but a sexual attraction. I know that's wrong, and I shouldn't, but I can't control these things. I know I'm his sensei, and he's my student, but he's just so… perfect. Watching him train, so unaware of prying eyes, he's wonderful. He's a different Naruto when training alone. I want to be someone he can be that Naruto around. So desperately do I want this, I'll go to any lengths to achieve this goal, no matter what.
I often sit and ponder my feelings toward this young boy as I sit in my home and try to get to sleep. However sleep has been eluding me as of late. All I can think about it Naruto. Day in and day out, all that's on my mind is Naruto. And I fear that if I don't do something soon, I will go mad. I don't wish however, to rush things. I want him to figure it out on his own, though I doubt he will anytime soon. One can hope for a miracle, right?
His sheer will power amazes me. His whole amazes me. This one kid, this one, boy, he holds my fascination like nobody ever has. Like nothing ever has. I often ponder how a boy with a past like Naruto's could hold his head up so proudly. How one could be so happy, and it's in this regard that I view Naruto most of the time.
At times, I feel attracted to him. Not just the normal fascination, but a sexual attraction. I know that's wrong, and I shouldn't, but I can't control these things. I know I'm his sensei, and he's my student, but he's just so… perfect. Watching him train, so unaware of prying eyes, he's wonderful. He's a different Naruto when training alone. I want to be someone he can be that Naruto around. So desperately do I want this, I'll go to any lengths to achieve this goal, no matter what.
I often sit and ponder my feelings toward this young boy as I sit in my home and try to get to sleep. However sleep has been eluding me as of late. All I can think about it Naruto. Day in and day out, all that's on my mind is Naruto. And I fear that if I don't do something soon, I will go mad. I don't wish however, to rush things. I want him to figure it out on his own, though I doubt he will anytime soon.
again, this story was written for Envy Uchimaki! haha, she's an author on here as well! go check her out! her pen name is Envy the lost dreamer. she's really good, specially for those of you who like angst... hope you enjoyed my latest story, stay tuned for more! peace out!
p.s review damnit! i love reviews!