If I Were to Hurt You
Guess what?
I hate myself.
I hate the way I always run from
The things I'm scared of most.
I hate the way I can't make up my mind
Or make a decision about something.
Like you for example
I can't make a decision about you
Or us
Or whether or not we should even be together
I fear that I have already given you too much hope
Hope that one day there will be an "us"
But I am not so sure anymore
You deserve better than me
You deserve someone who will love you like crazy
Not that I don't love you
Because God knows I do
I love you to death
But I'm not sure if I love you the same way
That you love me
Oh, God!
What do I do?
I can't hurt you!
If I were to reject you
I would hurt you
If we were together
I would hurt you
Ah! I can't win!
Give me a sign
Somebody give me a sign!
Let me know what I should do
If only somebody could tell me
How not to hurt you
Because as much as I hate myself now
And as much as I hate the person I have become
I would hate myself even more
If I were to hurt you