Disclaimer: This is a #3 in my one-shot series of "Heroes: Fugitives".

This is based on Nathan Petrelli and his thoughts during the first part of the "Fugitives" season finale.

TIL DEATH DO US PART

I have done so many things with my life, some good, and some almost evil.

I have strived for excellence at every turn. I have used people to get my way, and once I thought I reached the pinnacle, the place where success reigned; I would get rid of those who had helped me. Sometimes I would even disown them.

This has happened too many times. I have betrayed my friends, family and the woman I loved. And my actions have never led me to anywhere peaceful. And the only time I felt that grace had ever been extended to me was from those whom I had betrayed.

My mother, my brother, my estranged daughter and even the women who have been by my side; all of these ones have constantly allowed me to come back into their lives after I hit my head against the wall one too many times.

And after all this time, I find myself here, once again. Facing the fears that have entangled my family for so long; the fears I chose to ignore.

And yet everything that has happened to my family and friends has completely been because of my selfish ways. I guess what Peter has said is always true. Love really does find a way. Well maybe he didn't say it exactly like that, but I know that's what he was trying to say. Pete has always been great for me. He's like the part of my heart that always draws me back to those who truly care about me. Without him, I honestly don't know where I would be right now. He kept telling me that I was his source of inspiration…but the fact of the matter is that he has always been MY inspiration; my reason for coming back into the light; the reason I end up pursuing justice…true justice.

Now I find myself here, once again. Walking onto the battlefield to face the consequences of the past decisions I have made. And even after a few months of causing pain and anguish to my own kind, I now it's time to show them that I am worthy of Redemption.

I have been the one who has started the fires and walked through them. Yes I have been harmed, even killed, but it doesn't matter to me. I know I have been placed into this life to make a difference, to be a protector of those who have been placed in my care. And even if I have to put my life on the line I would do it again.

Because I know its worth it. Love is worth it; Justice is worth it; My own Kind is worth it; Love is worth it.

So if I die, I die. But the legacy I leave will be carried and passed onto those I have left behind. And they will seek justice and right-standing for all who need it.