Call me a sinner, call me a saint

Tell me it's over, I'll still love you the same

Call me your favourite

Call me the worst

Tell me it's over, I don't want you to hurt

It's all that I can say

So I'll be on my way

I finally put it all together, nothing really lasts forever

I had to make a choice that was not mine

I had to say goodbye for the last time

I put my life in a suit case

Never really stayed in one place

Maybe that's the way it should be

You know I've lived my life like a gypsy

I've said it so many times

I would change my ways, no never mind

God knows I tried!

I used to think that you loved me. I thought that you would wait for me, if you truly loved me. But you didn't, you found someone else. Please, tell me what happened to us, Chakotay? Did I push you away for too long? Did I wait too long to tell you how I felt?

When the Admiral came aboard and told me all about you and Seven, I was angry, sad . . . and ashamed. I was angry at you because you hadn't told me yourself, and that I'd had to hear it from someone else. Sad because you had moved on, found someone else, learned to love again. Ashamed of what I'd done to you over the last seven years - pushing you away when I needed comfort the most, taking you for granted, never telling you that there might be some hope for a future between us.

But what hurt the most is the fact that you hadn't even told B'Elanna. I knew you were close with her, and that she was the one you told all of your secrets too. I know I pushed you away harder than ever after Quarra, but I really did want to make things up to you. So when you turned me down again and again and not even B'Elanna knew why, that is what hurt the most.

What happened Chakotay? Where did all that trust go? I know you have no reason to ever talk to me again, that you probably hate me forever for what I've done, and that you'll never believe me when I say that I do love you, when did you let something that happened between us, affect things between you and those closest to you in the crew?

I love you Chakotay, and I wanted to change for you, so that I might one day be good enough for you. But no mater how hard I tried I couldn't change. Maybe you were right to move on. Maybe I never will be good enough for you, and you saw that in me. Is that why you moved on?

Is that why you chose Seven? Because in so many ways she is like me, but with all the bad things removed and replaced with things that make her perfect?