It's a constant cycle, a story of love and loss; Of Severus Snape and Marauders; Of vicious slytherins and crazy fifth years; Of pain and happiness; and of drama and simplicity. Includes: Bellatrix,Malfoy Emmeline Vance, Landon Carlson and Alex Diggory.Despite what it may say, this story is about much more than just Severus Snape, it's about everything that really happened, the people he met and exactly what he endured. But aside from that I introduce two OC's, Alex Diggory (Amos' cousin) and Landon Carlson. Alex Diggory is your typical, overly-conceited seventh year who lives for victory and if there is one thing you can count on with Alex, it's that no matter what befalls him, humor will always follow. Landon Carlson, on the other hand, is almost the exact opposite. He is a softspoken individual who can find good in almost anyone, and he always seeks to do the right thing and find justice in a world that has everything but.
We all know what characters are JK's (at least I would hope so if you're reading on fanfiction lol) any characters that aren't from the books are my own unless I claim otherwise. *Iris Hewson (From XSiriusIsTheBestX's Fic When the Stars Go Blue) makes a few appearances but she's not a minor character, just mentioned. =]
Now, me and Cassie (SecretlyaGryffindor) are working together to create one whole story. She is writing for the Mauraders (And Lily + company, of course) While I'm taking care of Severus or the Slytherin side of things. It sounds confusing, but don't worry we're writing it so that you don't need to read both but I guess we recommend it!If you want the full/complete/major/entire/big kahuna story read WHO WE ARE by SecretlyAGryffindor and mine! Also, I'll try to update regularly,And that's it, I believe....
Criticism? Questions? Comments? Anyone? It's is appreciated and I'll even return the favor =]
Severus Snape quietly boarded the Hogwarts express, unnoticed by any of the teary-eyed parents, fearful first years, or taunting seventh years that crowded around platform nine and three quarters. That was all he wanted, to be alone and unnoticed by anyone. He sighed quietly to himself as he walked through the car and shut himself away in an empty cabin. He sunk into the cushioned seat, as his last conversation with his mother swirled through his head, like in a pensieve. He remembered the horror on her face as she threw his journal at him cursing beneath her breath, to angry to yell, torturing him with stone cold silence, the kind that makes you wish they would yell at you instead. He was angry at himself for letting the journal get to her hands, but even angrier that his protective hexes failed to work. He didn't know what to do anymore, his mother hated him and his father had all but fell off the face of the earth and he hadn't one friend to talk to, at least not anymore. He sighed again, this time in sadness. He was alone. He hated school, he loathed seventh year, but he had no other choice and no where else to go. He knew that he was smart, but honestly what good are grades when there isn't anyone to share them with. He knew that everyone was looking forward to seeing their friends, while all he had was the hope that he might make a friend only to be backstabbed later, and that was at best. The train lurched forward and the landscape melted away as the speed increased. Severus leaned farther into the seat and closed his eyes, listening to the quiet rumble of the train on the tracks. Moments later his eyes snapped open as the door of the cabin quickly opened and closed. Severus glanced up to see the anxious dark hazel eyes and deep brown hair of Landon Carlson who was out of breath and clutching the edge of the seat for support.
"Landon?" Snape unintentionally hissed. "Why are you here?"
"Crazy-fifth-year- girls." He coughed breathlessly. "I'll-leave-in a-moment." He wheezed grasping the handle of the door and straightening his posture.
"No, that's fine. You can stay. But wait, Lucius coming?" Severus asked as Landon took the seat across from him.
"I doubt-it, he-enjoys the-attention too-much." Landon said as he leaned back into the seat, closing his eyes to catch his breath.
"Yeah..." Snape said quietly he glanced out the window.
"Hey, Severus," Landon said as Snape gaped at him, astounded. "Oh, I just wanted to say thanks for letting me in your cabin."
"Oh, right. No problem." He replied returning his glance to the window. No one ever called him Severus, well except for Lily Evans. The only girl he was ever in love with.
"So, Severus." Landon started. "How was your summer?"
"Fine." He lied. "I just hung around home like every other summer, how was yours?"
"Surprisingly, good." He replied glancing dreamily out the window, smiling at some happy memory. "I spent most of it with Alex Braugen, you know, the seeker for Hufflepuff." By now, it was a well known fact that Landon Carlson secretly aspired to be a Hufflepuff, no one really understood why he was a Slytherin in the first place.
"Lucky you." Snape replied indifferently as Landon continued his dreamy stare outside.
"Hey, do you know what time it is?" Landon asked glancing away from the window. Severus nodded and glanced down at his wrist, cautiously turning the watch to see its face, avoiding as much pain as possible.
"It's nearly one o'clock."
"Bloody hell. I'm going to be late." He groaned.
"Late for what?"
"I promised my girlfriend I would meet her after the prefect meeting." He said as he stood up.
"Wait, is she from Slytherin?" Severus asked, wondering if he knew her.
"No, she's a seventh year Hufflepuff. Her name is Carly Viridor." He said rushing for the door. "And Severus?"
"Yeah?"
"Thanks again!" He shouted sprinting away as the door closed behind him.
Alone again, Severus leaned back and closed his eyes, wondering if this is what a friend was like, someone who doesn't taunt you, someone who will talk to you at will. Severus wondered if Landon would let him sit with him at the feast, but then he remembered that at school Landon would appear to be good friends with Lucius Malfoy, who would only laugh at him. Severus sighed and opened his eyes to gaze out the window at the landscape, absentmindedly twisting the watch on his wrist, wincing slightly when it rubbed against a sore spot. As he sat there he heard the door of carriage swing open. He froze praying it wasn't the marauders looking for him, incase they were bored. He slowly turned his head, fearing the worst. But then a smile crossed his face when he saw the fiery red hair of Lily Evans gliding through the corridor. He saw the paleness of her hands against the black of her robes, and even though he couldn't see them, he knew her emerald eyes were sparkling, anxious for the new school year. He loved her, he would, do anything for her, and one day he wanted to kill the Potter boy who caused her so much misery. He chuckled to himself at the idea of having Potter at his mercy until he felt Lily's eyes glance at his face. He looked up, giving her a weak a smile which she saw and never returned. She continued to walk until she disappeared through the doors to the next carriage and she was gone. As much as he loved her, she also made him sad. Sad because she would never look at him the same way. She hated him ever since that day in fifth year he had called her a mudblood. He didn't mean to, he didn't want to, and he shouldn't have done it. But he was dared, by Malfoy and his friends, which made him deathly afraid to chicken out. At the same time he wanted to prove himself, prove that he could be someone, for once. Severus truly didn't want to hurt her, he really wanted to say no and run away. But he didn't. He shattered her, and he immediately regretted it. He wanted to pick up all the pieces of the shattered Lily, but he broke her heart and there was nothing he could do to change it, to save his dream.
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The rest of the train ride deemed uneventful as he dozed on and off until the lights of the castle could be seen glittering against the night sky. Minutes later the train came to a screeching stop and all of the students were ushered onto their carriages. Severus Snape clambered into one. Following much hesitation and arguing, three other fifth year girls joined him. They sat far into their seats, digging into the floorboards with the heels of their shoes to gain a little distance from his intimidating black hair and brooding eyes. But Severus ignored their ridiculous poses and stared listlessly out the window feeling their fearful glances bouncing off his back. Their reaction didn't surprise him, but deep down it did still hurt. When they finally reached the grand doors of the school he waited as the girls scrambled out, nearly tripping over their own feet and coming close to trampling the others. He knew that they just wanted to be away from him, but he couldn't necessarily blame them, he thought as he reluctantly stood up and stepped from the carriage. Severus took his time walking through the crowd. He knew that if he walked quickly, shoving through everyone, he was bound to run into a Slytherin or perhaps even worse, one of the Marauders. He shuddered at the thought of being embarrassed before he even got through the doors.
"Severus!" Someone yelled over the roar of students, as an arm was slung, detestably, around his shoulder. Snape smiled weakly as he turned and saw Landon, a smile plastered across his face and his eyes glittering in content. "And this," he continued using his other arm to fish a pretty brown haired girl out of the crowd behind them, "Is my stunning girlfriend, Carly Viridor." He said this with sick tenderness as she got on her tip toes to whisper something into his ear.
"It's a pleasure to meet you, Miss Viridor." Severus said extending his hand and trying to conjure as real of a smile as he could. Why don't they have spells for things like this.He thought to himself.
"Pleased to meet you too, Severus." She said warmly as she politely shook his hand. "Now, Landon." She said turning to him with a pretty smile. "May I please resume my conversation with a certain friend by name of Anastasia?" She batted her eyelashes at him, Snape could only assume that this was how she controlled him.
"Of course, my love." He replied kissing her lightly on the tip of her nose. "I trust I'll see you following the feast?"
"Yes you shall, just meet me in the corridor." She told him, adding subtle emphasis on 'corridor' before she skipped away into the crowd.
"Come on, Severus!" Landon called excitedly as he pushed his way through the crowd of students while Snape struggled to keep with his pace. "We need to find a seat!" He groaned, excitedly? Landon confused Severus, he couldn't understand how one could be so completely happy...all the time.
"Wait?" Severus said, nearly stopping in his tracks causing a few students to nearly collide into each other. "You want me to sit with you?" Severus said a little shocked.
"Well, between you and Lucius Malfoy. I much prefer talking to you." He said truthfully as he resumed his pace down the aisle towards the far end of the Slytherin table and Severus followed close behind, his feet a little lighter this time.
"Ah, I missed the food here so much. Muggle food just cannot compare." Landon sighed as him and Severus took their seats beside each other. Across from them sat the toad-ish Dolores Umbridge and another seventh year girl who were both batting their eyelashes at Landon, who completely ignored them.
"I agree." Severus replied, unsure what to say since he has never really had a conversation with anyone other than Lily.
"Hey, Severus?"
"Yeah?" He said eagerly.
"Can you fly?"
"Sort of..."
"What do you mean 'sort of'?"
"I mean, I can, I'm just not very good." He said looking down at the table, following the patterns with his eyes.
"You're not afraid, are you?"
"Nonsense!" Severus replied, a little peeved that Landon thought that. "I love flying, I'm just not very good." This, he wasn't lying about. Severus really did love flying, he loved the freedom, the speed, but most of all he loved the way it made him feel. He didn't want to quit, but he did. He was a young first year, trying out for the house quidditch team, when he looked up into the stands and saw Lily smiling at him. He suddenly lost control of the broom and was thrown off into a group of fourth year girls. Everyone in the stadium was laughing at him except for Lily whom he saw through the corner of his eyes, throw a glare at someone then dissapear from the stands. It wasn't until afterwards when he found out that Potter had hexed his broom to see Snape make a fool out of himself. Ever since then he knew that Potter was jealous that Severus Snape had Lily and he didn't. Severus did fly after that, but only when he was alone or with Lily. She never told anyone, but Severus was the one who first taught her how to fly. Suddenly Landon spoke up, breaking through Snape's thoughts.
"Well," He continued as if the conversation never stalled. "Sometimes, Alex and I spend our free hours at the quidditch pitch or just flying around the forest. You know, for practice. You can join us. That is, if you want?"
"Only if you promise you won't laugh at me, or hex me." Severus said with a serious expression.
"I promise, mate." Landon said as he thumped Severus on the back. Suddenly Dumbledore's voice boomed through the hall and the sorting began. None of the first years stood out, but he did recognize a few like Sarah Emerson, who was Anastasia Emerson's little sister. Anastasia used to have a huge crush on Severus when she was in third year (She's a sixth year now). There were also a few other names he recognized randomly from his mother's ranting, but none seemed that important. Following the sorting, came the ridiculously good feast. And after that and all the plates and dishes had been cleared away, Dumbledore cleared his throat and enhanced his voice so it could be heard over the buzz of a thousand anxious students who all fell silent immediately after he opened his mouth.
"I have just a few announcements to make and then it will be off to bed with all of you. First I would like to tell everyone that the Forbidden Forest is off limits to ALL students. Secondly I must inform you there is to be no dueling in the hallways. Now, off to bed!" He concluded merrily as all the students rose from their seats and drowsily made their way to the dormitories, Severus Snape included. But though he was tired, he walked a little lighter, the corners of his mouth twisted up in a slight smile and for the first time in what seemed forever, Severus Snape would go to sleep, happy.
I'm forewarning-ish that this story is not all about Snape (Or even half about him) It's also the story of Alex Diggory, Landon Carlson, Carly Viridor, Emmeline Vance, and even Bellatrix Black/Lestrange. And I am not going to change Snape's character to make him look like a misunderstood hero. Why? Because he isn't; He's human and makes a million bad decisions before he makes the right one.
On a final note; I love writing and I hope to continue with it,all I'm asking for is some criticism because I want to improve and become better, but I can't do this alone. Thank you for taking the time to read this chapter, even if it's the only one you do =]