Hi! This is my first KH fic, so I hope it doesn't stink. I really love the pairing!

Disclaimer: Do I LOOK like I own anything?!

"Wolf."-people talking through the viewing glass\

"Wolf."- flashback

"Wolf."-regular talking.

Enjoy!

Becoming Somebody

I sat on a chair in a white room I had conjured with my imagination. It looked like my place in Castle Oblivion, all white furniture, a viewing crystal ball, (a viewing glass) a desk with a chair, and a mirror. The only differences were that there was a kitchen and a bathroom. As much as it looked like Castle Oblivion, it wasn't. I was somewhere deep in Kairi's subconscious. It had been at least a month and a half since the battle at the World That Never Was, and on rejoining Kairi, my Other, I had been able to feel emotion. And right now, I was lonely and bored to tears. (Figuratively. I wasn't actually crying.) I waved my hand over the viewing glass, and watched as the mist inside it cleared and I saw Riku, and Sora on Destiny Island talking.

"Hey Kai!" Sora said brightly as Kairi came into view.

"Hello Sora! Hi Riku!" She said happily, and she sat down next to them. Riku nodded, and looked out to sea.

"Is anyone else bored out of their minds?" He groaned. "It's been two months, and I'm STILL not used to doing nothing!!" He closed his aqua eyes, and lay down on the sand. Sora looked sympathetic.

"C'mon Riku, don't tell me you didn't miss home at all." Kairi said, leaning against Sora. Riku opened his eyes, and raised his eyebrows.

"Kairi, I am a strict adventure-loving person. I can't stand staying here forever doing NOTHING! I might have missed home…a little, but I got over it."

Kairi nodded, understanding Riku's need to explore.

"It's not just that Riku. You haven't been yourself lately…what's wrong?" Sora asked, biting his lip.

Riku pulled his legs to his chest and his expression darkened.

"I'm fine."

"Are you SURE?"

"I'll get through it." Riku said, standing up and brushing sand off of his clothes. He started walking away, but stopped. Turning around, he looked at Kairi.

"Hey Kairi?"

"Yes Riku?" She said

"Well…um…how's Namine?" He asked.

Kairi closed her eyes.

"Hi Namine." I whirled around to seen Kairi. She tugged on her hair.

"Hello Kairi." She smiled. "It is REALLY nice to see someone here; I'm lonely, and SO bored, and I miss you guys. How are you?"

"Good. What are you watching?" Kairi peered over my shoulder to see the viewing glass. She laughed as she saw Sora and Riku poking her. Suddenly her face was serious.

"Is that REALLY what my hair looks like from the back?" She fretted. I rolled my eyes.

"Come ON Kairi, your hair is great." I flipped my own hair over my shoulder.

Kairi looked unconvinced. I cleared my throat.

"Um…you might want to go back to your physical form before the boys drag you to a hospital Kairi." She giggled and gave me a swift hug. She began to fade when I grabbed for her arm.

"Kairi, wait!"

She looked strangely at me.

"What?"

"Can…can you tell Riku I said hi …" catching her mystified stare, I added, "And tell Sora and Roxas hi too!" She still looked confused, but when I saw her rejoin her physical self, Sora visibly relaxed. I tuned into the viewing glass again.

"You really had us worried for a sec there Kai." Sora said, putting a hand on her shoulder. Kairi smiled, and looked up to Riku.

"Namine says that she is utterly bored out of her mind; and that she misses us." She tapped her chin. "OH! And she says hi to everyone, including Roxas." Riku looked like he winced at Roxas's name.

"Okay. Bye you guys…I'll see you tomorrow?" He trudged away.

"Now I'm really worried." Sora murmured.

I hugged my knees to my chest, and fogged the viewing glass again. I missed Riku more than anyone else, including Roxas. No one knew, but when we were in Twilight Town, Riku and I were each other's best friends, and it might have been more than that if I hadn't had to become a part of Kairi again. I picked up my sketchbook, and flipped past blank pages to the last page. There was a black and white sketch on it. I wiped a tear away in one quick movement, and reached for two colored pencils, a blue and a green.

I smoothed the paper down as I looked at the finished drawing. Mischievous aqua eyes gazed out from the page, a smile on the face. I smiled sadly as I looked at Riku's face.

"Namine?"

Kairi's voice echoed in the room. I lifted my head and saw her standing in the door.

"Are you okay?" She asked worriedly. I shut the sketch pad, and looked up.

"Fine. Why?" I asked.

She shrugged. "I felt a lot of sadness, and…are you crying?" She peered into my face.

I ran to my mirror, and saw that my blue eyes were slightly red, and my hair was mussed.

"Great." I muttered, and I pulled a comb wildly through my hair. I felt hands taking the comb from me, and pushing me down into the chair beside the mirror.

"Spill." Kairi said sternly. I shook my head. Kairi sighed, and started to brush my hair.

"Namine!" She whined, "We're connected, you can trust me. I promise."

"It's nothing." I lied, "I…miss the outside world." It was true, mostly; I just left out the part about Riku. I wasn't sure how she would take that.

She stopped brushing my hair, and I heard the screech of chair on marble as she pulled a white chair in front of me.

"Namine, it is no small matter when you get so depressed you just want to curl into a ball. What is bothering you?"

What is bothering you? The words echoed in my head. I stared at my feet, and said softly so that Kairi could barely hear me.

"Riku. I miss him." Kairi looked shocked.

"Riku? Why do you miss him?"

"He was like a best friend to me when we were together in Twilight Town. I was with him longer than I've ever been with anyone else, except for maybe DiZ. But Riku didn't call me a witch like DiZ did, he was really nice…" I flushed, feeling embarrassed that I had told her. Of course, it wasn't all laid out, but it was still a lot.

"Do you want me to tell him?" Kairi asked gently. I smiled and nodded. But then I lifted my head and glared at her.

"If you tell Roxas or Sora-" I began, but I was cut off by Kairi

"Oh, Come ON Namine, why on earth would I do that?" She asked rolling her eyes.

"Promise?"

"I promise." We laughed, and I said,

"It's late. You should get back." I jerked my head at the viewing glass in the corner. It showed Kairi's house in the night. Welcoming lights were on, and I looked around my home, wishing that for once, I could leave.

"Bye!" Kairi called, and I waved back at her. I watched as the viewing glass zoomed in on Kairi's bedroom, where Kairi sat up, dressed in her pink pajamas. She yawned, and turned off the light, plunging the room inside the viewing glass into darkness. I waved my hand distractedly over the glass, but instead of the glass turning foggy; it blinked into focus with a new image. I saw Riku's room, with tan walls, and a blue bed. Riku himself was clad in sweat pants and a blue shirt, and seemed to be looking at a picture. Feeling slightly guilty, I focused the glass on the picture, and gasped. I remembered it. It was before Riku had swapped his original form for Ansem's, and I was leaning against his shoulder. Riku rubbed the photo, and set it gently down on his bedside table. He climbed into bed, and shut off the light. I swept my hand across the surface of the viewing glass, and made sure it went foggy. I went into the bathroom, and changed into a pair of sweatpants and a white top, and lay down on my bed. My head hit something hard. I looked up, and saw the small star charm, I smiled, remembering, and I drifted into sleep.

When I woke up the next morning, I blinked in the early morning light. My room had one big window that reflected the beach on Destiny Island. I groaned, and rubbed my eyes. Leaning against the window frame, I gazed out onto the beach. The sand was a pale orange color, and it looked like the water glowed in the morning light. I shook myself out of my trance, and swiftly dressed in a pair of jean shorts and a white T-shirt. I wanted something different. I made my bed, and then grabbed a muffin out of the hidden kitchen. Looking at the viewing glass, I had an urge to join Kairi and the others in the real world. I sighed, and flipped to a clean page in my sketchbook, and drew. I didn't realize what I was drawing until I looked at it when it was finished. I had drawn Riku again…but I had drawn him with a sad, hopeless face. I shuddered. I had seen him make this face before, but only once.

FLASHBACK

"You are really going to go through with it, aren't you?" Riku asked as I leaned on the balcony on a building in the World That Never Was.

I looked at the face of Ansem, hiding my friend.

"Riku," I said, "You know I do."

"You really don't have to. You could stay alive. For everyone. For…" He trailed off. "For me." I looked at him, and walked over to him. He looked away, and pulled up his hood.

"Don't. Don't be ashamed of yourself, Riku. I don't see you as Ansem." I reached for his hood, and pulled it back down. "Riku, I have to do this for Kairi. She needs to be whole again. And besides," my voice was tainted with as much bitterness as a Nobody could summon. "A Nobody isn't a Somebody. I'm not supposed to exist, Riku." He grabbed my chin, and made me look at him.

"Don't EVER think of yourself like that Namine. Never. You are not just a Nobody. You sound like DiZ." I laughed, and hugged him. He stiffened, but then wrapped his arms around me. He buried his face in my hair.

"Don't do it." He murmured, tightening his hold on me. I closed my eyes.

"I have to." He let me go, looking sad, "Besides Riku, it's not like I'll be dead. I'll still be with you. Whenever Kairi is around, I will be too."

"It's not the same." He mumbled. I started to leave, but he followed me. "I'm coming with you." He said firmly. "DiZ told me to protect you. And I will do that until you…are gone." I smiled. I stepped up next to him, and kissed him quickly on the lips.

"Don't tell Roxas," I muttered slyly, "but I love you."

He looked shocked, but he nodded,

"I know. I love you too."

Somehow, that just made it worse when I disappeared to be a part of Kairi. I saw his sad hopeless look, if no one else did. It hurt to see him hurt.

I shook my head as I relived that memory. I stood up. I was going to find a way out. You could count on it. And since Kairi and I were linked, I had become a somebody. If I found a way out, I could live.My name is Namine. And I swear that I will somehow get out of here, and WILL somehow get to him. Riku.