If Only…
By: Meghan O'Connor
Some times I sit around wondering
If only I
If only you
If only we
It was never like this before
We were perfect together
I was half of you
You were half of me
Together we could take on the world
But then she came into the picture
When I walked into a room I wasn't who your eyes were searching for
It was her
I would call out your name
Our voices clashed but its was hers that you always heard first
You would stand by me but wishing I was her
Soon my pure jealously for your intoxicated love affair
Drove my emotions out i never knew I had
She was the perfect test to see if we could stand through thick & thin
But we failed
A hard failure indeed
Cause not only did she take your hand in marriage
But your freedom
Your individuality
Most of all your creativity
All the things I boasted about when you and I were together
Once she was with you; my heart no longer wanted to keep yours
I grew tired and old of waiting for the day you'd return
For I knew I couldn't keep your heart
She seemed to some how steal everything else
Really what did it matter
Now we had no chance of survival
You threw it all away for that one girl
Now its ten years down the road
I found my one
But some days I cant help but wondering what if
I guess all girls do it one day
I hope your truly happy
For when i gave back your heart
It brought tears to my eyes
The tears dried soon after
Healing my heart which was broken into two
I'm happy for the life you have chosen not with me but another
And all I can do now is ask you:
Was that one girl truly worth it?