Letting the time slip away
Like its your last
Holding on deep to your heart
Even when you have nothing left
You stare at the sky
Feeling loved
But its only a fragment of your imagination
From the start
Since their has never been love
Nor hate
Just loneliness
Your too afraid to put yourself out their
Into the bottomless pit of despair
Thats what we call the world
You think of all your so called loved ones
Who ran far away from you
You and disability
Which you never knew you had
The disability to truly love
As the first raindrop of the season falls
You wonder Can I really let my guard down?
Won't I get hurt?
Yes, you will get hurt
Every one does but thats just whats makes you stronger
You curl back into a circle
Your to afraid
Just like a child
Except 50 years too late
Your body shakes on the thought of being betrayed
Of being hated
Of being lied to
Of being hurt
Or maybe just being loved
So back into your walls
To the place you call home
The one place your truly you
The scared coward you really are
Since love has passed you too many times
Without you even taking the chance
So wither away
Scared for never being perfect
Alone
Hurt from never being loved
Hated
Loved since you only love yourself
And let the time slip away