I do not own Sailor Moon… and for this story I really don't want to. Naoko Takeuchi would probably hate me if she read this story anyways.

I want to warn my readers... There are some extremely graphic scenes in this work. I unfortunately feel it is necessary to describe them in detail so that a person reading this has a very clear understanding of what the characters are going through. Please, if this kind of work has a negative impact on you, either skip those scenes, which are clearly marked with Trigger Warning / End Trigger Warning brackets, or chose a more wholesome story. I have plenty.

AN: Rewriting this story with dates... and all Sailor Senshi Hours - so you can follow along

AN: PLEASE FORGIVE ME USAGI AND MAMORU... I KNOW THIS ISN'T YOU... but this version of the story had to be told

PROLOGUE

What Came Before

Usagi sat up in her bed, sobbing. Again. As she looked around her room, she noticed the frilly pinkness of everything, and wondered if she would ever feel like a little girl again. 'Nothing could feel worse than this moment. Nothing,' she thought, not knowing just how wrong she could be.

Everything started in September, right after school holidays were over. (August is summer break in Japan). And on September 2, she first became Sailor Moon. It was a strange, frightening, heady, and even joyful experience. The first time she met Luna she had felt a strange connection to the black cat with the crescent moon on her forehead. She had met Mamoru for the first time that day too. 'Mamo-chan,' she thought wistfully. That had been unpleasant though... as had many of her first encounters with him. But he had changed by the time she met Ami.

And honestly, he'd redeemed himself that night as Tuxedo Kamen, though she didn't know it was him then, at the OSA-P jewelry store, and he didn't know she had become Sailor Moon. He had helped and encouraged her, while she tried to save Naru. He'd been her only ally for about two weeks.

On September 17th she had helped Ami, who became Sailor Mercury when there was a Youma running a program at her cram school. Not fun. The thing had thrown razor sharp papers at her, and Tuxedo Kamen had to rescue her... again. But Ami had become her friend and ally. Usagi taught her how to play video games and she helped the little blonde study.

And then, on the 20th she had met Rei, who became Sailor Mars. That had been a strange event, and she had been trapped in another dimension and had to fight... Luckily Mercury and Luna had come to help her. They had rescued Rei and all the others who had gone missing on the Sendai Zaka Bus. And Rei had also become her friend and ally. Sometimes Rei could be a bit acerbic, but she really did care about Usagi.

By that time she could tell Mamoru was more than he appeared, and he started being a little nicer to her. He still teased a bit, but it seemed almost like flirting. She felt strange around him, especially that day on the bus... and she just knew that he had heard Luna talking. He was 17 and in high school, but every time they touched hands it felt so good. Like she had known him forever.

And then on September 25th, at the masquerade dance for a visiting princess, while the other girls were off discovering whether the princess had the Silver Crystal she had the most wonderful dance with Tuxedo Kamen... and she didn't know it then, but when she'd dropped her handkerchief, he picked it up and kept it. She'd seen him with it later. They both almost died that night in a fall. Luna said he had kissed her while she was sleeping. The guardian cat was very angry about it... but honestly it sounded romantic to Usagi.

She met Makoto soon after that. On September 25th, she actually saved her from getting hit by a car. And can she ever cook... But that night she almost died, caught up in the trap of a bridal store dummy which was actually a Youma in disguise. It had bewitched Motoki, who went after Makoto. Tuxedo Kamen came and took Usagi from her bed to save Makoto, but in reality, when she became Sailor Jupiter she saved herself. Now she brings lunch for Usagi every day. She says she's happy to finally have someone to cook for.

On September 27th Tuxedo Kamen went public in his search for the Ginzuisho (Silver Crystal) and the dark generals twisted it so that everyone was searching high and low, and they took all their energy, and left and right everyone was dropping like flies. At first she had faded as well, but Tuxedo Kamen had helped her get back up and transform. She'd had to use the Moon Wand, and by the time it was over, she had passed out...

... and on September 28th, she had woken up in the bed of Chiba Mamoru. He'd been a perfect gentleman of course. She'd found a broken pocket watch on her lap, and accidentally stuck it in her pocket. She'd learned his identity that day, confirming something she'd thought about for a while. She'd seen him in the park later and tried to return the watch, but he'd said he had something of hers and to hold on to it. That night everyone had gone crazy, searching for Sailor Moon, and she'd had to save everyone again. It had been so frightening.

On October 1st Sailor V, who was really Sailor Venus in disguise, had shown up, and said she was THE PRINCESS! She'd been happy of course, but it just hadn't felt right. She'd already become a good friend. They looked a lot alike, with blonde hair and blue eyes, and Minako (her real name) was incredibly funny and like Usagi, not the best at school. But she was so brave and funny...

And then it happened. Trying to protect Sailor Moon (again) Tuxedo Kamen had died. And when she had cried, the crystal was formed from her tear, and a piece of it went into him, and she'd prayed as hard as she could that the crystal would protect him and make him better. But he'd been taken from her by the dark general Kunzite, and hadn't come back.

They'd filed a police report to hide his identity, because she refused to believe he would never come back to her. They'd said he'd been kidnapped by a masked man in the park after everyone woke up. And the police, busy with Youma attacks and what they deemed more important cases, put the file to the side, never bothering to look into the missing person.

Usagi had started changing physically after that. Her hair had gotten longer, and more silver, and her body had started to develop faster, as if it wanted to hurry up and mature to what it had been when she was nearly a grown up and living on the moon. They'd even gone to the moon to ask her mother (from her previous life) for help, but there was nothing they could do to save her love. Mamoru. Tuxedo Kamen. Endymion. Whatever his name was before, he was Mamoru to her. It was awful not knowing where he was, or what he was going through. Was he okay? Was he even alive?

And then on Friday, October 11th, she had seen him. She'd seen him, and even though he was calling himself Endo, she had known it was him. He'd started working at the arcade with Motoki, and she'd been there most of the weekend. He kept coming up and asking her questions, and playing with her hair, and wanted to play Sailor V with her. And he looked and smelled, and even felt like Mamo-chan... but it wasn't really him.

Whoever this was, there was darkness inside. Scary deep darkness, and just once she had seen a glimpse, the tiniest glimpse of Mamoru in his eyes. So, even though she knew it was stupid, tomorrow, right after school, she was going back to the arcade.

Watch the all-new Sailor Senshi Hour: Every Sunday Night from 7:30-8:00. We will be discussing all the latest news and warnings, so tune it. Next weeks' episode, Tuxedo Mask. Where has he gone and will he be back? Also, we will be discussing the latest news on Sailor Moon, and the Senshi. Who is the new Senshi? Is she really Sailor V? And Sailor Moon's wardrobe change. We will show you photos and captured footage every week. You don't want to miss it!