halo.. i don't know what triggers me to write this one.. well it's a sad one.. full of hopes..

**i wrote this one when my best friend and I had a conflict.. and sadly we're not still okay..**

aniweiz.. enjoy.. reading this stuff..

Youko:

I wonder where she is, and I wonder what she's doing right now. If she's happy, then I'm glad. Knowing that she's already fulfilling her dream makes me more content. Well, I am lying if I say that I'm not missing her. Well, just for once, I'll stop lying to myself. I'll stop saying words just to convince myself that she's sort of nothing but in reality she's the one I'm yearning, the one I want to be with.

I wonder if she's thinking of me the way I think of her right now. If she's thinking about the times we've shared, the arguments we had back then. I wonder if she still care—or did she ever cared? I mean, it's been a while since things fell into place. I can't even remember the last time we've been together—oh no! I'm lying to myself again, I perfectly remember the last time I saw her, it was here in my room, and we just had a casual talk about life. She shared to me her life in the university she's in, and in response, I also said to her the things I'm doing—that everything is okay, that life in here is easy to deal with.

Me, out of her life, is kind a shocking. I haven't had the chance to meddle in her affairs lately because of my busy schedule. I think, it's kinda, let's say refreshing but at the same time depressing. Well, I have been in her life for too long that I have been settle to the idea that I would never leave her, but, here I am away from her wondering when would our paths meet again... and what if our path cross again? Will I ever say to her that I still love her?

Sei:

I wonder where she is... I know I'd be lying if I will say that I'm not missing her. Well, let's say, she's my only meddler, and hell! I do not know why she's not calling me—asking if I slack my class gain, inquire me if I found a girl after shiori, which I assume she won't be asking. I'm not as dense as they put me. I know her feelings for me, and damn! Why does she always put that mask of hers? Is she wearing it right now? I wonder?

I'm asking myself, is she thinking of me? Maybe no, she's been quiet for a while. So, maybe, she's not thinking of me nor interested with my affairs. Hmmn, the last time I was with her, she's been so quiet almost all throughout that day, though she had been telling about her life, I am still the one who do most of the talking. She just sits there and listens to the things I'm saying. Then, one time that day, I caught her staring at me blankly as if she is in her own fairytale land; she's oblivious with things and obviously thinking about something. She looks so beautiful, but I didn't say it to her.

Youko? out of my life? Could I take it? I mean, all throughout the years we had at Lillian she's been meddling in my affairs, so how could I possibly take it? I mean, I am fond that she's always around. And now? What the hell is happening? I'm terribly missing her. Well, honestly, I'm not just fond of her, I know... I know that I love her, and in my heart I am hoping that one day, when our roads will cross I would be able to say it to her and I'm hoping that she still have her feelings for me.

Eriko (in behalf of the rest of the Yamayurikai)

Sometimes, all of us jump in this subject. Thinking what would happen if their roads cross again. Youko being Youko would just be sitting there—calm as always. Sei, being the usual would be playful. Sometimes, we conclude that, they would be together but someone needs to push their buttons.

They became a puppet of their own fears that made them so withdrawn to their emotions. Youko having the fear of rejection—that, what if Sei would reject her feelings towards the woman—and Sei, she feared that the one she cared for might leave again. If only they could find their way to overcome that fear, everything would be better.

Youko, being herself always been firm but deep inside her core— is a girl with a fragile heart—the real Youko that she's been hiding all along. The one that she shows to other people, thinking that if she cries no one would comfort; if she stumbles no one will pick her up, instead they would just look at her with criticisms. And she's been afraid that that thing might happen, that is why she put herself in a shell wherein no one would try to break her, but inside, those emotions of her that she's been hiding all along is tearing her apart.

Sei, once withdrawn but after that fateful day of her, everything turned upside down. With the help of her onee-sama and Youko—of course with our special participation—she manage to overcome that heart wrenching thing she had experienced. She said that she will never fall for anyone after shiori but it also implies that Sei is afraid to fall in love again so deeply that she may lose all her sanity and in the end she would just be left. Fortunately, she fell again—to Youko—though she knows that her beloved love her, she is still afraid to tell it, thinking that Youko would choose career over love.

If only they would cross each other's path again. If only they would stop playing their hide and seek game, maybe, just maybe everything would be alright. If only they would have the courage to tell their feelings for each other, then maybe, things will be better. They could break free from each other's shell if only they would push their buttons for release.

And as for us, we are hoping that, that day will come, when they would seek each others arms, and sealed the love with one passionate kiss...

------who knows.. they may cross each others path..