School Boy Crush
Summary: A drabble about Justin's feelings for Marc.
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Every time their fingertips brush, every time Marc gives him a flash of that smile, every time he stands close enough to Marc to catch a whiff of his cologne, Justin's heart races. He can't help it. He can't help thinking that he and Marc are perfect for each other, even if he's only thirteen. Marc would never see that, though. Marc has told him that he cares about him, but Justin isn't naive enough to think that Marc would return his feelings. He's just a little boy.
And yet Justin can't help but entertain the thoughts of him and Marc together. He just wishes his mind wouldn't wander when he's around Marc. His thoughts often get quite... mature. He knows he shouldn't think such things, because they're things that a boy his age shouldn't know about. He doesn't even know how he knows those things. He guesses he just figured it out through common sense and sexual innuendo on TV.
He's never told anyone about these feelings he has for Marc, not even his best friend, Hillary. He's not embarrassed by what's in his heart, he could never be. It's because he doesn't think anyone would understand. This would be such a normal thing if Justin was older, but for now people would think he has daddy issues or something. Life is really unfair sometimes.
Justin knows these feelings are real. He doesn't know what they are, but he knows that this attraction to Marc goes beyond mere infatuation. He even thinks that in time he may fall in love with Marc. But it's useless to think about these things, especially now, and yet Justin can't help it. Even if Marc may never feel the same way.
He's never able to shake the urge to kiss Marc, or at least hug him. It makes being around the man almost unbearable, but Justin will take what he can get. If Marc doesn't want him, at least he's his friend. And yet that seems worse to Justin, because his feelings may never go away, then what? Could he really hold his tongue for that long?
"Someday..." Justin thinks to himself, looking down at his feet before Marc catches him staring again. At least he has the hope that someday, when he's old enough, he can tell Marc, and maybe he'll feel the same way.