I'm writing this now, because obviously the first few fics I was working on has flubbed majorly. This is my new muse, people I'm trying to find something to amuse you all. Okay here it is hopefully my power on my laptop don't go out and destroy all my work.

Blood ran down Renji's shoulder dripping off his fingers till joining the pool at his feet. Each breath felt like it tore out a piece of his soul. He didn't know if he had enough energy left, but he had to try. Gathering what his energy stores he had left, he strugged to a better stance to fight the hallow before him. As he wiped the blood off his face, a sarcastic smirk appeared across Renji's face. Even though he was torn to shreds he still had fight.

"Look ahead, what's in front of you Zabimaru, strike hard strike true!" Renji lunged at the Hallow. "It's over you fucker! Your going to loose to me Abarai Renji. DIE HERE!"

The Hallow went on defensive as Renji attacked hard and fast. All he had left in him was being pulled forth. His companion, his best friend in the world lay on the ground out cold. Renji barely dodged to the left as a giant hand grabbed at him. Protecting her was all that matter, this whole mess was his fault after all. Screaming Renji took out one of it's arms, but it wasn't enough.

Flash Back

"Renji why do we have to go so far out to practice?" Rukia asked as she trailed behind Renji.

"Come on Rukia, we don't have much time to spend with each other now that you got very important people looking at you." Renji rubbed is head thinking about the day both of them would have to separate. "You'll forget about me one day Rukia."

They stopped on the edge of a cliff over looking the Soul Society. The wind whipped around them bringing them some relief of the mid day heat. White clouds were like pictures hanging on a blue wall, and crows cried out squabbling among themselves. Grass rustled as Renji crossed his arms on top Rukia's head. Softly resting his head on his arms, Renji look at the ever extending horizon. Her mind also was to lost in thought of the future to care.

It was just a dream that they both had to be together. At one time they were thieving children, laughing playing, and just being young. Then one by one there friends died, departing their company forever. For years now it has been Rukia and Renji, but times changed as her power grew even greater then his. Some things where just never meant to be. Adult hood really could suck.

Without warning Renji pulled out his sword, causing Rukia to leap away ungracefully. Despite the pain he felt deep in side he smiled for her. Tapping his sword on his shoulder Renji looked the total bad-ass. Rukia stood in her defensive stance hand on her sword waiting for Renji to advance. They never truly fought so it was still unknown who'd win in a real fight. Still being antagonistic was fun; Rukia was to easy to get a rise out of.

"Ah come on Rukia, don't get so sentimental on me," Renji kept his grin.

"That was not nice Abarai kun."

Abarai, she often used that name when he was in trouble. In order to break the tention Renji laughed, attacking Rukia agian, this time her sword came out. Playfully Renji hit her with half his strength and watched as she struggled to stay on her feet. Over and over he went at her putting her on the defensive. Swords where never her strong area, spells were. Angerly Rukia ducked under Renji's sword, then pushed her sword up and hit Renji with the butt of her sword.

However, instead of hitting his stomach she hit something else. Pain erupted through him as he staggered backwards, dignity lost. He huddled on the ground clutching what was left of his manhood.

"O! Renji I'm sorry, I didn't m- RENJI!"

Snapped out of his agony by her yell, Renji looked up just in time to see the ground crumble under Rukia's foot. Time moved in slow motion she fell over the side of the cliff. He ran to her as fast as his legs could carry him. Their fingers just barely touched before she was gone. Rukia hit the ground hard and started to roll. Fearing for Rukia, Renji leaped down the cliff after her. She had to be alright, it was Rukia, nothing could ever happen to her.

Shortly after that they were attacked by a Hallow.

Spider web like cracks appeared in the rock base as Renji was slammed into it. New blood poured out of Renji's body, he couldn't afford to take much more. His sword creaked as he tried to move, the world swam as Renji staggered forward. With a flick of a wrist Zabimaru was ready to strike, then with a war cry Renji attacked. Just a year into the school he wasn't ready to fight something as powerful as this.

'I can hardly move, much less breathe, Rukia is still out cold and defenseless and it's all my fault. I must hang in there a little while longer. Please Zabimaru, help me win this fight!'

A strike at the Hallow's injured arm, a strike at his masked head, then blindly at it's body. The Hallow grabbed Renji in mid strike, one of it's claws invading Renji's mouth. For a moment it didn't move, both making eye contact sizing up each other. The Hallow was up to something and something dripped into Renji's mouth besides his own blood. He tried to spit it out but the way he was being held was impossible. He had no choice, Renji swallowed.

Pain radiated through the darkness slowly giving way to light. Rukia's body hurt greatly as she slowly sat up. For a moment the world swam around her, it was clearly to soon to move. She was still stunned by the fall she had taken. Unaware of the hallow behind her, she looked around. Softly she called out Renji's name. Why did leave her? Slowly she turned to find him, then her heart froze.

A Hallow held Renji by the face, several deep and maiming wounds covered it's body. Still it had the upper hand in this fight. At this angle Rukia couldn't tell if Renji was conscious but she could feel his spiritual force. He was still alive if just barely. Closing her eyes she felt the world spin around her, she had to confirm this wasn't a nightmare. Opening her eyes she saw Renji jerk.

Zabimaru howled to life as Renji made a desperate move. The sword dug deep into the side of the Hallow. Instead of letting go, Rukia watched as it slammed Renji to the ground. A scream caught in Rukia's throat as she watched this. Why couldn't she move, why couldn't be strong. The Hallow's hand moved to Renji's chest as it looked at her. It screamed it's siern sound as it pressed on Renji's chest.

He had gone all but numb as he stared out unable to move. Before him was Rukia, she looked so scared. Renji tried to close his mouth as the Hallow pressed down on his chest. Air was being crushed out of him and he could do nothing but stare at Rukia. Oddly he wondered why he was on the ground. CRACK! A white hot pain flashed through out Renji. CRACK, CRACK, CRACK! A broken scream tore from Renji before cutting off.

It was so disturbing, having Renji stare at her. The life in his eyes had gone out. She herd a few more cracks and he didn't even move. Clutching her hand to her chest she couldn't help to watch in horror as her best friend lay dying. To many whys, she was just being to weak. Tears streamed down Rukia's face as her shaking body stood.

Black slowly folded in, pain was all gone now. Wearly he watched Rukia, it seemed so funny, so dream like. Renji if he could, would have smiled. A smile, something he hoped would be the last thing Rukia would see on his face. Not him gasping for air unable to move. Straining to move she could see her forming a spell. Her moves, her words, her face, it was almost euphoric.

The spell was interupted.

Renji's vision blurred but he could see the bottom half of a captains outfit as he landed before him. Which one Renji didn't know he couldn't raise his eyes. Good, Rukia was safe now, he could let go. Darkness wrapped around him, it was great to feel no more pain. Even more so, it felt great to be no longer the strong one. The weight on his back was gone now.

Rukia, she had taught him to live, to survive, even to breathe. She meant the whole world to him. Before him what he had he been? A pathetic street rat holding his breath so long afraid of getting caught. The day she came he was almost caught. Who knows what the merchant would have done to him if not for her. Renji always meant to get stronger to protect her for once... But, for now protecting her till help arrived was alright.

When Renji gets better he would get stronger, that was a promise.

Tentively Rukia walked into the main soul society hospital. It was a week, finally Renji was coming around. They had called for her so she could be there, but it meant missing some of her classes so she waited for the end of the day to go. Renji would understand. Frowning Rukia recalled Renji's broken bloody body. His body had lay unnaturally before healers came, and that's how she last saw him. Shaking her head she put those images aside, they were inrelivant now. The Hallow was gone, dispatched by a captian that just happened to be in the area.

Softly Rukia knocked on the door, waiting for someone to invite her in. She couldn't help but worry about Renji, after all he was like her little brother. That and he was hurt because she was to stubborn to train with him in front of everyone. This was her fault, it was hers it was because she was so prideful. Peaking in she saw what she only bandages around a Shinigami form. There was only a break white just enough to let him breathe. Red hair peeked out around him like a crimson halo. Making a fist she turned away from his door, she couldn't see him right now.

"You should really see him."

Rukia froze with the nurses words. Distracted again, she was having a probablem with that lately she was so weak. Turning around Rukia smiled and waved her hand.

"I'm sorry, I... I forgot to do something I'll visit tomarow."

"Miss Rukia are you certian? Renji has been asking for you." The nurses voice was soft and sweet like honey. "Please he's asleep even if you-"

"I said I will visit tommarow." Rukia said sounding more urgent less sweet.

"He can wait till then, good night Miss Rukia."

Tips to that APPERNALY deleted one of my stories, and I appoligise for any misspellings my spell check is horrible and since I've worked on this for a week I want to post it so I can finish a chapter of my other project. That and try to figure out why they took out a story. SOB's.