A/N: Hey guys! Spoiler warning to begin with, this idea came from Arizona scenes in 14x18. So, here I am, about to try my hardest to write a fanfic this time! To begin with, this fanfic will predominantly be an Arizona one but will eventually become a Calzona one in a couple of chapters time. At this point I'm unsure as to how often I will be able to update, due to college work and my job, but I will try my hardest to update as soon as possible. Anyways, enough of that, I hope you all enjoy and feedback is always welcome!

Chapter 1

She had decided to visit a clinic out of town. She didn't want the doctors at the hospital, her friends to know what was happening. If she received the news she had been fearing, it would have been too much. She would be on the receiving end of sympathising looks and words of condolence, both of which she had never been a fan of and something she didn't want to face.

"Hey, umm," she paused, looking around the reception area. People just like her, women just like her in a similar situation were waiting. In some ways, it was reassuring for her to know that she wasn't the only person in the world facing this right now even though it really did feel like she was. "Arizona Robbins, I called earlier. I have an appointment for 10:30."

"Ah, yes." The dark haired woman sat at the reception nodded as she glanced at the computer. "Doctor Hanson will be with you shortly." She smiled politely to which Arizona gave a small nod before taking a seat in the waiting area.

The lump in her throat became more prominent and her hands more sweaty as she waited and waited. The wait was the worst part. She didn't know what to expect. No.. She was a doctor, a double board certified one at that, of course she knew what to expect but this was different. Different because she was now the patient who was going to be delivered good or bad news. It was make or break.

A part of her wished that she had told someone about this, asked someone to come with her. She knew she could have told April, the redhead would have come with her in a heartbeat but it didn't feel right to put this kind of burden on someone else. She wanted to do it on her own, no matter how hard it may become.

It felt as though she had been waiting hours until a man, who she assumed was Doctor Hanson, called her name. She jumped at the sound of her name, her heart racing just a little more than before as she stood up and made her way into the exam room. She knew the score and she didn't need to be told what to do next. She lifted her shirt off, unclipping her bra after and pulling it off slowly and tentatively as her hands shook slightly. Arizona sat herself on the examination table before laying back. The nerves were getting the better of her, that was for sure.

She felt completely exposed and vulnerable, she hated it. She had been through so much in her life already, but the only time she could relate to feeling this way was when her leg had been amputated. She felt like she had lost a chunk of herself, not just physically but mentally too which took a lot of time, patience and strength for her to come back from. She feared that now would be a rerun of that time in her life.

"Just relax, okay? This will be over before you know it." Doctor Hanson said calmly in a bid to relax Arizona but no matter what anyone could say, she wasn't relaxed; she was far from relaxed.

She couldn't even bring herself to look in the direction of the ultrasound, instead she looked anywhere but in that direction. Her eyes landed on the ceiling as she tried to zone out of her current situation for a little while.

"Right breast looks clear," he confirmed before moving the ultrasound probe to the other breast. "So, you didn't ask anyone to come with you today?" He asked, trying to make at least some conversation with a solemn Arizona.

Arizona was pulled out of her reverie by the voice which belonged to the man. "What?.. Oh, no." She swallowed hard. "I didn't want to trouble them, not only that but they're busy."

Doctor Hanson gave the blonde a concerned look, usually women he saw had someone come with them when they made an appointment such as this and it worried him that Arizona was doing it on her own when she didn't need to.

Turning back to face the monitor, his eyebrows furrowed and eyes narrowed as he noticed something that looked strange, something that shouldn't be there.

Arizona picked up on the way his demeanour had changed in the space of minutes. As a doctor herself, she knew that was never a good sign; it was a terrible one. Hell, she'd done that on a number of occasions which were one too many to count during her own medical career. The lump in her throat grew stronger and she couldn't help but feel like she was going to throw up. There was no way he could sugar coat this. She knew it wasn't good.

She frowned as she watched the doctor, the bleak expression still etched upon his face as he moved the probe further up. "What is it? You did the thing all doctors do when we see something that isn't right." Arizona finally spoke; the silence was killing her.

Sighing, he turned to face the blonde. "Unfortunately, I am seeing a solid lesion in the right breast."

Arizona couldn't register the end of his sentence, she knew what that meant. Her ears started ringing as she felt a chill flow down her spine, her throat turning to sandpaper in a split second.

"I-" She started, though struggled as tears threatened to fall. "I- I have breast cancer?" She spoke the words in a whisper as a few tears escaped her eyes.

"At this stage, it seems likely." He confirmed, shattering Arizona's world even more.

She wanted the world to stop spinning, she wanted nothing more than to get off of this terrible rollercoaster at this given point and for everything to be okayagain, for her life to be normal again; not a disastrous mess.

"I'll give you some space, let you get dressed." Doctor Hanson said just before exiting the room.

Arizona had been holding a wall up during the whole exam, but now that she was on her own she allowed it to crumble to the ground. Her distraught cries echoed through the room as the tears kept flowing, never once threatening to stop. In simple terms, Arizona had already lost some things she held dear, but now it felt like she was about to lose everything that ever meant something to her and this time, her daughter was one of those things she was at risk of losing.

Sofia was the one constant thing in her life, the one person she loved more than anyone and right now the only issue that was racing through Arizona's mind was not being able to see her daughter grow up; Sofia's first day at high school, the first time she comes home and lets slip that she has a boyfriend or girlfriend, the day she finds out she has been accepted into college, the day she leaves home to go to college and both Arizona and Callie would feel the proudest they have ever collectively felt for their daughter. She was scared she was going to miss every single second of that.

Her tears began to dry out for which she was thankful for but she still couldn't shake the sinking feeling she felt in the pit of her stomach. The gnawing ache that was eating away at her heart.

Wiping her tear stained cheeks with the back of her hand, she picked her folded clothes up, putting them back on at a steady pace. She couldn't rush. She felt numb, her whole body was numb after receiving the news she was given just 10 minutes ago. She didn't know what to do, what her plan was going to be next. She was unable to think clearly in the given moment.

Hearing the door to the exam room Arizona was in open, she looked up to see Doctor Hanson walk in, giving her a sympathetic smile as he made his way over to his seat. "Now, there's a few different steps we can take, but first I'd like to get some more tests done. See what stage we're at here so we can attack this in the best way possible for you."

Arizona had zoned out by this point, it was too much for her to listen to right now. Too much to take in. Too much to consider and think about. The doctor was still talking about possible paths to take, all of which she already knew. Picking her bag up and placing it over her shoulder, she interrupted the oncology doctor. "I'm a doctor, I already know what's going on here and what is going to happen," she paused, her eyes flickering as tears pricked them once again. "I- I don't need you to explain it to me." She exclaimed, making her way over to the door and exiting the exam room and the clinic as quick as she humanely could.

Exiting the building, she ran over to her car, unlocking the drivers door before climbing in and slamming it shut. In the privatisation of her own car, she allowed the tears to flow freely yet again. She was in unimaginable pain, she never asked nor wanted this to happen to her. The blonde wanted to live her life to the fullest extent possible, but now it felt like it was far too limited and she wouldn't achieve everything she had ever dreamed of. Her knuckles turned a ghostly white as she gripped harshly onto the leather steering wheel, her silent cries ripping through her whole body.

And then, out of nowhere, Sofia popped into her mind. Her beautiful, smart little girl. If anything, she had to fight like she had never fought before through this for her daughter because she would be damned if she was going to allow herself to slip away from the brown haired, brown eyed little girl. Sofia was going to be the source of strength she needed throughout all of this.

With the thought of Sofia in her mind, she started the engine up and drove out of the car park. She needed to see her daughter, hold her tight and tell her just how much she loved her.

"Hey, Sofia, how do you feel about a movie night?" The blonde asked her daughter as she walked into the living room and knelt in front of her little girl. "We can watch whatever you want." Arizona finished with a wide grin on her face.

"Can we watch The Little Mermaid? And Frozen? And- And, Moana?" Sofia asked in one long breath, Arizona expected nothing less than for Sofia to opt for Disney movies.

"We'll see how many we can get through first." Arizona chuckled, her daughter bringing a smile to her face despite her current circumstances. "How about I get some popcorn ready then we can watch some of those?" She asked to which Sofia nodded enthusiastically. "Alright." Arizona smiled once again, standing up and ruffling Sofia's hair as she walked past her and made her way into the kitchen.

Reaching for the popcorn kernels and pouring some of them into a pan, she placed the pan on the stove and switched it on. In the face of the news she had received earlier that day, Sofia made her feel better, made her feel stronger. The young girl somehow always managed to do that, she had always been the reason why Arizona had kept fighting.

When the plane crash happened and she was stuck in the woods for days on end with no sign of help, the two things that kept her living and breathing were Sofia and Callie; her two greatest loves. It wasn't looking good for Mark, and Arizona knew Sofia couldn't afford to lose two parents due to the unforeseen and catastrophic accident which had taken place, so she carried on fighting no matter how much her body was trying to tell her to give in. That was how she felt right now. She wanted to curl up into a ball and never have to face the world again, but the ray of sunshine that was currently sat in the living room stopped her from doing that. As long as she had Sofia, she had a reason to keep living.

With the sound of the popcorn finally popping, Arizona was pulled away from her thoughts. Turning the stove off and picking the saucepan up, she poured the popcorn into a large bowl. Heading into the living room, she sat next to Sofia on the sofa who had already got The Little Mermaid ready to watch. Arizona placed her free arm around her daughters small body, just having the girl in her arms provided the blonde with a sense of solace.

Sofia quickly pressed play on the remote as she noticed her mother settle beside her. Arizona watched Sofia in complete awe and admiration, she felt unbelievably lucky to call her, her daughter. It was hard for her to believe there was ever a time she didn't want children, especially when Sofia made her feel nothing but sheer happiness.

"Hey, Sof," Arizona spoke up, looking down at her daughter who turned her head to look at the blonde. "You know I love you, right?" Her voice cracked a little as she spoke. " I love you so, so much." She finished, a tear evident in her eye.

"What's wrong, mommy?" Sofia asked, noticing the emotion in Arizona's voice. From a young age, Sofia had easily been able to pick up on others emotions, just like now.

Shaking her head, Arizona tried to rid herself of her tears as she smiled at Sofia. "Nothing, nothing is wrong," That was a lie, but she wasn't going to tell her daughter the real problem. Not yet anyway. "I'm just so lucky. I am so lucky to have a beautiful, smart, healthy, little girl." Arizona sighed happily, resting her chin on Sofia's head as she gave her a small hug. "And I love you more than anything, I just want you to know that."

Sofia smiled widely, causing Arizona's heart to nearly burst. "I love you too." She replied, resting her head against Arizona's body.