Behind the Mask
If you looked in to the face of someone you have known most of your life, you would think you could truly know how they feel.
Some say its all in the smile others say its in the eyes, what if they were wrong what if the person has hidden who they were there away from everyone even them selfs.
This hidden person would seem lost to everyone dose that mean they don't exist? Or do they just wait till there strong enough to show them selfs.
'Why' is the only question that seems to make sense to Naruto as he sits in his apartment. In the last few hours his life has flipped upside down. His mentor, his friend and father figure Jiraiya of the sennin was reported killed in action.
A single tear falls from his eye as memory's of the foolish toad sage play threw his mind. And the only thing Naruto can ask himself was 'Why'. Was it because he wasn't strong enough? 'Why' if Naruto knew the answer he would be Kami. So he is left in turmoil. Left to struggle if life greatest unanswered question of 'Why'. So in his depressed state of mind no one would know that his mask had cracked.
One he has been using for his whole life, if was crafted to hide the pain, to hide he sorrow, to hide the tears. But today it cracked and like all dams when they crack. They will fall apart.
In a torrent of emotion, Naruto's mask shatters and the tears come. He cant even remember the last time he has cried so hard.
Deep with in Naruto something stirs locked away deeper then the mighty beast confined with in. and still Naruto cries.
"Why?"
"Why him?"
"Why now?"
And tears.
Never before has Naruto felt this way even when the Third passed. Has he Felt so alone so empty. Within his questions have been herd an as if a whisper on the wind. The answer 'love'.
Naruto Bolts upright looking around trying to find the source of the voice. As it comes again like a silky caress from a lover. Naruto tries understand how love is the answer and feels more confused.
'Love is what drives you, love is what drove him, love is the reason why you suffer now, love is the answer.' the whisper flows threw his mind. The tears still fall, but for a new reason. And as if the pain was never there a new feeling has taken hold of his heart. Joy in the feeling of being loved so much that someone would die for him. The thoughts of piety and depression, lift like the fog of the early morning.
"Love?"
Naruto seems to believes the voice and as he listens the voice seems stronger.
'Yes love its what binds you its your bond it always has been there, you have always loved but have never been loved you have not been shown love, but it will always be.'
As Naruto thinks on what the voice has said a new thought comes to mind.
"what or who are you?"
a soft laughter like the tinkling of bells can be felt by him.
'if I told you my name wouldn't hear it, if I told you what I am you wouldn't understand, but you wont except that would you? I guess I would say I have always been with you but you could never hear my voice. I will always be here for Im with you always' as the voice finishes speaking Naruto feels a soft caress along his cheek.
"I wouldn't hear you? Wont you try?"
'its not that you would hear me love its that you wouldn't understand, its something I cant explain you would have to feel it, and when the moment is right you will call my name. And in that moment we will truly be together I will be your strength and you will be mine.'
Naruto can feel the love and caring in the voice, as it mends the tear in his heart.
"how would I know the time is right?"