Coarse hands that are stained with the blood of thousands stare back at me, almost mockingly. The lives of million have been swapped by a mere extend of a finger. But they see so…so powerless. So weak. And yet, the evil that they behold glints back at me, blinding me with the memories I try so hard to forget. Is that the same glint that people see in my eyes?
The hands clenched until they are nothing more then fist that rest on my knees. And I look to my window. A large panel of glass that separate my world and the next. But I can see the planets that pass us, as we move through the vastness of space. I can see the glows of colours, the swirls of land, oceans and ice that consume most of them.
And I smile. A smile that cracks the skin around my mouth. Has it really been so long since I smiled? Probably. Very little brings me joy now-a-day. I used to laugh with simple satisfaction when watching a being beg for his existence to be spared. Now I find it hard to even feign amusement.
It seems like the only joy that I have are my dreams. Yes, I dream. Contrary to popular beliefs, a monster can have fantasies when he succumbs himself to the clutches of sleep.
But what do I dream about? Do I dream of purging planets? Do I dream of watching fire swallow up a whole city while I sit back and laugh? No. I don't. Because why dream of something that happens everyday?
I dream…I know it may sound foolish, but I dream of love. Of actually having a family that support the good things I do and who don't push me into becoming the ruler of the universe. I dream of friends who like me for me and who aren't afraid of the power I hold behind my surface. And I dream…I dream of falling in love. With a woman. A beautiful ice-jin with skin as crystal clear as water and eyes that sparkle like the stars themselves and…
But who am I kidding? No one like that exists…at least no one for me. I am condemned to be lonely for all eternity, stuck in a ship with nothing but a window to dream out of.
And my smile fades. And in its place, a tear that slowly trickles down to the corner of my cheek.
I am Frieza, supreme ruler of the universe
And all I want, is Love.