URGENT: IF YOU HAVE NOT READ Baseball Lovers, The Show, or Fame then you will be somewhat confused by this story! Please go back and read the other three first before indulging in the Bolton lives! Thank you!

Chapter 1 – One Day

Three Years Later

Saturday, October 7th, 2023 – Logan is 3, Troy is 29, and Gabi is 28

Gabi's POV

I exhaled while I tried to fight back tears from what I was looking at. "Brie," Troy knocked on the bathroom door and I sucked back tears as I wiped the ones that had slipped down my cheek. I stuffed the package behind the toilet, "Yea?"

"Logan is looking for you," he said softly, I nodded my head as I wiped my tears away as our beautiful girl Logan was perfect as could be. We couldn't believe how big she was getting already and was getting ready to turn four in about a month. Pushing off the counter, I opened the door and Troy took one small look and he knew. "Brie," he pulled me into his arms and he kissed the top of my head.

I tried to quietly cry but an ugly sob escaped my lips, "It's okay," he whispered quietly, he hugged me tightly as today was day one of offseason and this was how we were starting. The Royals made two more post season runs after their first. One in 2020 and then another in 2022, they went all the way to the World Series in 2020 but failed to win by ninety feet in Game seven. In 2022 they made it back to the ALCS but lost in five games.

This year they were gutted and transformed into a different team and they barely made it above five hundred. Troy was okay with it because they played hard and I think he was ready for a small break. "Next month, okay?" I only nodded my head because I wanted a baby now. I didn't want to wait. Troy and I had been trying for well over a year now to have a baby with no luck. Troy squeezed my arm gently and then he kissed the top of my head. "It's okay,"

"Momma!" I wiped away tears as Troy looked at Logan. She was a fireball and quick on her feet to think but also loved to cuddle at any given moment and loved hanging around the boys. She would run from each of their lockers and talk to each of them about anything and everything. "Momma, momma, momma look!" she held up a card as I sucked back tears, I bent over to look at the picture of a flower that she had drawn.

"Oh my goodness, Logi, that is beautiful." She grinned, she had Troy's eyes and his beautiful smile to her features. My nose, cheeks, and ears took over everything else. Her skin was dark from the summer of baseball games that her and Alyssa attended. Alyssa had remained, as her nanny over the past four seasons of baseball but this coming year would be her last. She was getting married at the end of the 2024 season to a great guy who she loved and we were happy for her.

"Momma, I want you to have it." I smiled, "Thank you sweet girl," I pulled her into my arms as I kissed the top of her head, "Don't be sad mommy," I smiled into her hair, "I'm not sad."

She sighed dramatically, "Whatever, you are such a liar." I couldn't help but laugh as Troy snorted behind me; "Yea?" she nodded her head, "Yes." I laughed as I kissed her forehead, "How about you go play with your toys okay?" she nodded her head and went back out into the hallway. "She is something else." I smiled, "At least we have her right?" Troy nodded, "Exactly. Bright side baby girl," he kissed my temple and I hugged him.

"I just want her to have somebody to play with Troy."

"I know Brie, I know you do. I would love for her to have another sibling as well. We are doing everything we can and we are going to make it happen one day. It's okay."

"Maybe we should stop trying for a baby for a while, I don't know how much more I can take with every month coming up with a negative stick." Troy rubbed my knuckle as he nodded, "Of course Brie, whatever you want to do we will do. You know it will forever be like that."

"Momma! CODY IS HERE!" Logan yelled at the top of her lungs as Logan's favorite male, besides my dad and Troy, was Cody. She adored Cody. Troy smiled, "Are you okay to go down there or do you need more time?"

"Cody has seen me in worst places in my life." He rubbed my back, "Okay," I followed Troy out of the room and down the hallway where Logan was telling Cody some story. Ben was sitting on the couch playing with something in his hands. I couldn't believe he was four-years old already. I couldn't believe Logan would be next month. Becca was holding their two-year old daughter, Anna, who was currently asleep.

"Troy!" Ben came running over and Ben showed him his new whatever he had. Cody glanced up to me and his smile shifted into a frown, "Gabi," he said, I looked at him and he looked towards the kitchen. I nodded as I walked into the kitchen; he excused himself from Logan while I entered the kitchen. I pulled out the wine and I poured myself a glass. "I'm guessing today was,"

"It was a negative so I might as well have a lot of wine tonight." I said quietly, Cody nodded his head, "Are you okay?"

I took a sip and I planted my hands down onto the counter, "We have been trying for twelve months to have another baby. The first couple of months whatever, I didn't even take a test but once we hit five months then I became anxious and started taking tests around every time it would happen and that was seven months ago. That was seven negatives Cody, seven,"

Cody came over and gave me a hug, "I'm sorry Gabi,"

"It's okay, I just wish it would happen, Y'know?" he nodded his head, "It can't be easy watching all of our friends have kids either." I shook my head, "It isn't."

"How is Josh?" Cody asked softly, "Torn up. He can't believe Melissa did what she did."

"Has he stayed here this week?"

"He is moving in tomorrow," I said quietly, Cody shook his head, "I can't believe it."

"His decline with the bat wasn't for nothing."

"So do we like shun Melissa?"

"I don't know, it's awkward because we are all friends. How do we start to pick sides?" Cody shrugged, I sighed, "What a rough day."

Troy appeared in the door of the kitchen, "You broke out the wine…" he said with a glance to the wine bottle on the counter, I nodded my head with a sigh, "Yup." I poured another glass but Cody stopped me, I turned to look at him and he kind of shrugged his shoulders. Troy exhaled and I bit down on my lip. "I need a minute," I said, I walked outside onto the deck and I gripped the railing. "Brie," his voice was soft, "Troy, I need a moment,"

He came over anyway while he began to rub my shoulders gently. He kissed the back of my head gently, "It's-"

"Please don't say it's okay Troy because it isn't okay, it shouldn't be this hard to have a baby. I just want another baby and we have been trying for a year to have a damn baby. I am so done with seeing negatives and now Becca is pregnant with her third child when I cant even have my second child." I slid down onto the outdoor couch and Troy sighed, "Gabi, we have a beautiful healthy daughter in our living room right now."

"I love Logan to the moon and back, I love her so much Troy but I do not want her growing up like me. I want her to grow up like you. I want her to be like you." Troy sat down next to me, his fingers laced through mine and he rubbed my knuckles gently. "Remember back when you told me you would trade struggling to have a baby then having a miscarriage?" Troy said quietly, I nodded my head, "It still stands but they are both horrible."

"Do you want to go to the doctor or anything?" Troy asked, his nose pressed into my hair and tears welled in my eyes again. I didn't want to go to the doctor and find out that I wasn't able to have children. I had Logan. It was possible for me to have children so why would I go to the doctor. Fat tears rolled down my cheek and I knew it pained Troy that he couldn't do anything about them. "If we don't get pregnant next month then we can schedule an appointment with a doctor."

"What happened to taking a small break? I think that would be best right now." He tucked my hair behind my ear; I rested my head on my knees as I looked at him. "One more." Troy's eyes contested mine but he finally nodded his head. "One more."

I rested my head on his shoulder, his hand grasped my knee and he rubbed it gently. "I love you Brie,"

Taking a drink of my wine, Troy laughed with Alex and Josh. Josh was in a better mood than of late. Ellie and Mallory were both tending to their children. Mallory had another child last year, Drew, and he had just turned one a couple of weeks ago. Audrey was four and loved playing with Logan. Ellie and Chase had a two-year-old daughter named Emerson who was adored by everybody. She was shy and sweet. She wasn't loud or obnoxious like Logan could be at times.

Logan came running over, her hair sticking to her face from all of the sweat that she had built up from the night of running around. "I'm sleepy," she said wiping at her eyes, I set down my wine glass down and I picked her up. She settled into my lap and buried her face into my shoulder. "Are you now?"

"Yea…I forgot my nappy." I smiled as I kissed the side of her head, "You were busy with Uncle Josh," she giggled because Josh was probably her next favorite. He was silly and made funny faces with her. He did the stupid things that just made her laugh for hours. I pulled her sweaty hair back from her face while she rested against me. "Do you want to go take a shower really fast and then put some PJ's on?" I whispered into her ear, "No." she protested, "I want to stay out here." She rubbed her eyes more while I rubber her leg. "If you say so…" she looked at the fire burning in front of us while people began to chat.

Ellie finally came and sat down next to me with Emerson in her lap. Our kids were used to the late night outings, especially Logan who sometimes didn't go to bed until 1 in the morning after baseball games that lasted a long time. She was the girl who went to bed at eleven and got up at nine. She was blissful with that. "How are you?"

"I'm okay Ellie," Logan turned around to see Ellie, Ellie smiled, "How are you beautiful?"

"I forgot my nappy." She said quietly, Ellie laughed, "Is that why you are so tired? You normally don't stop talking until eleven thirty," Logan closed her eyes while I rubbed her back. "I heard about Rebecca," I nodded my head again not really wanting to talk about it. "I found that out right after I got my seventh negative pregnancy test so there is that," I said quietly, Ellie sighed, "I'm sorry Gabs,"

"It's okay."

"You have been quiet today."

"I just want to give Logan somebody to play with. She is already four,"

"I understand. You now need to stop stressing about it because that isn't going to help."

"I didn't stress about it for a couple of months but now I am freaking out that this is the only child I will ever get to have."

"Is that a bad thing?" Ellie asked, Logan flinched in her sleep and she then curled up closer to me. "I know I am lucky to at least have her. I know I should be so lucky to just have her but I want more. I am jealous of Becca, Mallory and everybody else who has second children."

"It will happen Gabi. Right now apparently isn't the time and maybe there is a reason for that."

My eyes glanced over to her when Troy came walking over, "Somebody pass out?" I nodded looking at Logan, "Yea," Troy leaned over to kiss the top of her head. "I think I am going to go put her to bed." I said softly, Troy watched me for a moment and then I got up. Logan attached her arms around me while we walked down the hallway to her room. I picked out a set of PJ's and dressed the rag doll that I called Logan.

I then turned off the lights and tucked her in to her bed. I stroked her hair gently while I looked at her. Her precious face full of exhaustion, her hair was growing longer and longer by the year and she refused to cut any of it off. I smiled softly as I tucked her in a little bit tighter. "I love you sweet Lolo,"

Getting up off the bed I shut the door while I walked to our room. I sat down on the edge of the bed while I let out a long breath. I closed my eyes as I tried to put my life into focus. I did have a beautiful kid. I did have a wonderful husband. My friends were amazing. My parents and siblings and my in-laws were all fantastic. I had a great life.

The nagging didn't quit though as I got up and went back downstairs. Our friends were beginning to pack up every child they had. They took their sleeping kids to their cars and started to buckle all of them in. I hugged my friends one by one as I put on a beautiful smile. Troy came over to rub my shoulders when the Newman's were the last one to pack up. "I'll talk to you guys later?" Cody said as he picked up Anna.

"Completely." Troy said I nodded my head as I bid a good-bye to both and I went upstairs. I took off my earrings and my necklace as I put it away. I kicked off my shoes as I put them away in my closet. I stripped my shirt off and then I found a tank top to replace it with. I put on a pair of shorts as I went to take off all of my make-up. Troy came into the bathroom, he leaned against the doorframe.

"I want a straight answer." He said softly, "I understand that this is not what you pictured but is our lives that terrible you need another baby to make you happy?" I stopped scrubbing my face, the washcloth stopped rubbing against my skin while I went to look at him. "Troy, I grew up as a spoiled brat. I was an only child for seventeen years and I was a complete brat. I hate how I used to act. It was stupid and selfish. I don't want my daughter to be like that. I want my daughter to become who you are. You have never been a brat. You learned to share and become a good brother. I barely understand my siblings."

I turned around as I finished washing my face while Troy didn't say anything "Was that enough truth for you today?" I asked him, my voice dry, Troy just nodded his head, "Yup." His voice was bitter and he went over to the closet to change his own clothes. I shut off the bathroom lights as I crawled into the bed. "All of our friends asked about why you were so quiet tonight, everybody asked tonight why in the hell you looked so sad and,"

"Troy, you know what, I was wrong. It is equally as miserable to not become pregnant as much as a miscarriage hurts because I at least want the chance to have another child for you. You have always wanted another child,"

"Maybe I see how much this is hurting you right now and I could care less if we ever had another child because you are hurting like hell." His voice was completely raw as I looked up to see his face pained, his face was full of emotion, "It will go away Troy, always does."

He came over as he hugged me tightly, "I hate seeing you this way though." He whispered, "I'm fine Troy, I just need this day to be over. I want this day to be over."

Sunday, October 8th, 2023

"Momma," I opened my eyes to see Logan standing in front of me, her blanket in her hands tightly as she was trembling. "What's wrong baby girl?" I pushed up on the bed as my eyes flickered to the alarm clock for it to be a little after four.

The blanket mumbled, "I can't sweep," and I rubbed my eyes. "Do you want to come cuddle with mommy and daddy?" I asked quietly, she nodded her head and I pulled her into the bed. She crawled over top of me and underneath of the blanket between us. Troy rolled over at the movement, "Lolo what's wrong?" his voice was mumbled and barely coherent. "I couldn't sweep daddy," he rolled over onto his side as he rubbed her back.

"So you think you'll be able to sleep in our bed?" she nodded her head with a small smile on her face, "I always do." Troy couldn't contain his own smile as he draped his arm over her, "My Lolo," she giggled while cuddling into Troy. Those two were two peas in a pod. They loved each other to the moon and back making me the bad guy most of the time. Troy was her favorite, I was mostly jealous of the fact but I also understood.

He was the fun one, did the fun things, and had the fun friends. I reached over to run my hand down her hair as they both went back to sleep without much effort. My eyes flickered to the clock again to see it was a little after four-thirty. Logan was going to pre-school tomorrow like she had been the entire month of September. She didn't travel with us on the road all of September which was refreshing for Troy and I but we also missed her a lot. She stayed back with our parents switching between them during different road trips.

She adored both our sets of parents but my dad was the clear winner. She loved him. She would scream when he showed up at the house and he would just do the silliest things with her. My mind began to wonder deeper about our last couple of months. This baseball season was an entertaining one but proved to be a challenge. Casey and I had gotten even better in the booth with each other making us a team to be reckoned with.

We had both gotten contract extensions last year and we were both not going anywhere. Troy signed another one with the Royals after another CY Young Award and an MVP award two years ago. They bumped up his salary and added a couple more years shocking fans that he was still with them. His no-trade clause came out as well that he was here to stay. People fell in love with him even more and Logan was popular. Alyssa and Logan were always spotted and fans tried to talk to Logan all the time. Security sat close by most of the time now just for that reason.

Troy and Logan both began to snore bring me back into the present. I turned my head to look at the two and I couldn't help but shake my head. Skip purred into the room and he jumped up onto my bed, "Hi big guy,"

I rubbed his head softly but I couldn't fall back asleep. I slipped out of the bed and I put on a long sweatshirt as the cold air was drafting through the house. I crossed my arms as I went to turn on the heat as it was cold and warm weather was leaving the air. I took a couple of steps down the hallway to see the living room TV was on. I scrunched my eyebrows and I saw Josh propped up on the love seat looking at the infomercial on TV.

"Hey," I said quietly, he turned around to look at me and he raised the beer he was holding. "I see you are raiding my fridge," he only nodded his head without looking away from the TV. I sat down next to him and I squeezed his knee. "Are you alright, Josh?"

He shrugged his shoulders, "I don't know, my wife decided to cheat on me with another baseball player, my own fucking teammate, so I am pretty peachy." His eyes looked over at me and they were a little dead on the inside. I moved over onto the couch and I rested against him, "I am so sorry that Melissa did that to you."

"I'm sorry too."

"Troy and I have been trying to have a baby the entire year now and well…" Josh sighed, "I asked Melissa if she wanted to try to have a baby and she said no and he was probably why." I hugged his arm gently, "What infomercial are you watching?" I asked him, he laughed, and "I actually have no idea."

"It sounds better than Troy and Logan's snoring down the hall."

"Troy was a snorer."

"His daughter took right after him."

"I think Logan is excited I am staying here."

"She is."

Josh let out a large sigh, his arms covered his eyes and I looked at the wall. "I won't stay here long. I just need a moment to get back on my feet." He said quietly, "You're fine." I told him, "You'll be downstairs and we'll barely notice you unless you want to be noticed."

"Thanks, I owe you guys a lot."

"We just want you to get back up and be happy. We support you." I rubbed his shoulder, "Thanks, I know this has to make it awkward for you guys because you are friends with Melissa."

"Josh, Ellie, Mallory, and I have been friends with you ten times longer than we have been friends with Melissa. You will always come first."

"Thanks, I know Melissa is upset right now, I honestly can't believe she hasn't been around."

"She hasn't even called."

He sighed as he leaned his head back, "I need to get out of here,"

"No, you have been drinking. Don't make me go get Troy,"

"Gabi, I am not a teenager. I just need to get out of here."

Josh stood up and I realized how drunk he actually was, he swayed on his feet. "Josh,"

"Gabi, I am fucking fine."

I decided quickly that I wasn't going to be strong enough to stop him from getting in a car. I made a dash down the hallway, "Troy, Troy, you need to get up and go get Josh before he decides to drive his car and he is drunk as a bad word," Troy was groggy and he looked at me, "Josh, now,"

He moved out of the bed as Logi rolled over onto her stomach but didn't wake up as Troy went running down the hall. He then went down the stairs as he was quick enough to grab Josh by the arm and Josh tried to fight him off. "Dude, you are not getting into the car and driving yourself. You are drunk." Troy pushed him against a wall while he struggled, "I understand that you are hurting like hell right now but you dying because you are an idiot isn't happening and you killing somebody because you are an idiot isn't happening. So you are staying here."

"Troy, I am a grown adult,"

"Who is hurting like hell, I get it. I know what you are feeling right now and it hurts a lot." Josh slumped over and I watched the two. "Come on buddy, let's go to bed."

Troy shoved him into a room down the hallway and I ran my fingers through the uncombed bedhead. My eyes looked at the top of the stairs to see Logan, "What are you doing?" I asked, "Why was Uncle Josh acting funny?" I walked up the stairs and I swept Logan into my arms. "He is just having a bad day. Maybe later today after he sleeps we can make him a yummy lunch?" I asked quietly. She nodded her head and I kissed her forehead. "Go back up to our room okay and we will cuddle some more."

"Okay," I let her down and she went running up the stairs, Troy came back to the top level and I looked at him. "He is hurt." I nodded my head softly, "How do you understand what he is feeling?" I questioned quietly, his eyes leveled with mine and he sighed, "Gabs,"

"What?"

"You left me once too remember?"

"Melissa cheated on him and he left."

"But he loves her and she betrayed him."

"I never betrayed you."

"Of course not but I know what the hurt feels like."

I picked up his hand and I massaged it gently, "I love you."

"I love you too. How did you know he was down here?"

"I couldn't sleep so I came down here and he was drinking and watching an infomercial." Troy pulled me to his chest, his lips pressing into my hair. "Don't ever let us do something like that okay?" I nodded my head, "I'll never cheat on you."

"Of course, I will never cheat on you." He kissed my forehead and then my cheek, "Is Logan really in our bed?" I nodded my head and he sighed, "We have got to stop letting her sleep in our bed." He whispered into my shoulder, I couldn't help but laugh aloud. "I know."

"DADDY!"

"Fuck, I really just want to kiss you a lot."

"MOMMA!"

"We are coming Lolo," I called back; Troy ran his fingers through my hair kissing me again. "C'mon, somebody is waiting on us." He smacked my ass and I couldn't help but laugh. I grabbed his hand while I dragged him through the house back to our room. Logan was sitting up playing with Troy's cell phone. "What in the world are you doing?" Troy asked, she giggled and dropped the phone. Troy let go of my hand and he crashed onto the bed. He began to tickle Logan and she squirmed and kicked around while her giggle raced through the room.

Troy kissed her cheek gently as he rolled onto his back, Lolo sat up looking at me and I shrugged my shoulders, "You started it."

"I didn't."

"You did."

I sat down on the other side as Troy pulled Logan closer to him and he then grabbed me, I laughed as Logan rolled to his other side and then I was able to rest my head on his chest. "My girls," he whispered, I patted his chest, "Momma?"

"Yea?"

"Is it time to get up and play?"

Troy and I groaned together as our heads butted together, "It's your turn," we stated at the same time, Troy sighed, "You get some rest." He whispered kissing my forehead, "You know I was the one who couldn't sleep. I'll get up. You get some rest, your season just ended." I said as I rubbed his shoulder gently as he smiled, he then pulled me down onto his chest. "Logi, go find a game to start playing with," Troy said, Logan jumped off the bed and once her little feet left the room Troy pulled me into a kiss.

"I love you," he whispered against my lips, I smiled while I rested my head onto his chest. His perfect pattern of his heart beating, he wrapped his arms around me while he let his lips pressing into my forehead. My eyes lured shut as my body relaxed against him, "Momma!"

Troy slid me off of his lap, "Get some rest," he whispered as he got up; I nodded my head as I buried my face into a pillow.

Troy's POV

Taking a sip of my coffee, my eyes scanned Logan as she played with a tall thing of blocks that was about ten seconds from tipping over. She turned around to look at me and she grinned, "Daddy look!" I nodded my head, "Good job Lo,"

She turned around just as it was beginning to tip, "Daddy!" she cried, the blocks toppled over and Logan grew upset that something she worked so hard on was ruined on the floor. I set my coffee down onto the table next to me while I crawled over to her. "Logi, you have to make it strong on the bottom so that it doesn't topple over when it gets really tall." I spread my legs and I pulled her down into my lap. "Like this…"

I began to lie out the blocks and we both began to stack them. She giggled as we were nearing the top and it wasn't even rocking. I let her finish doing the top and she began to giggle, "Daddy! We did a good job," I nodded my head, "We did!" she smiled and bounced up and down. "Why is Uncle Josh here?" she asked, I raised my eyebrow, "Because him and Aunt Melissa are having some issues right now."

"What kind of issues?" she asked, I sighed, "Issues that you don't have to worry about."

"You and mommy don't have those issues?"

I smiled, "No. Mommy and I are fine."

She bounced into my lap, "Do you have a baseball game tonight?" I shook my head, "Not for a long time."

"I miss Uncle Eric and Uncle Sal,"

"Oh yea?" she nodded and I hugged her, "I'm sorry baby girl,"

"Daddy, will I ever get a baby brother?" my heart ached as she watched a lot of our friends have baby siblings and she was understood what it meant. "I don't know sweet girl," I held her head in my head as I looked into her eyes that were a strange mix of blue and brown. "Ben said he was getting another baby,"

If Logan ever had this talk with Gabi I am pretty sure Gabi would go insane. "Logi, we need to talk about this for a minute…"

Pulling her down into my lap, she lay in my arms and looked up at me. "Don't talk about this with mommy okay? This makes mommy sad because she really wants to give you a baby brother, that is all she wants to do but right now isn't the time okay?" she looked at me, "Why does it make mommy sad?" she asked, goodness, why were four-year-olds full of questions. "Because it does baby girl, it just does."

She shrugged her shoulders, "Can we have breakfast now?"

"Yes, yes we can,"

Gabi's POV

Loading the dishwasher, Troy was finishing dinner while Logan colored at the counter. "Mommy,"

"Yes?" I asked looking up at her, her hair was braided back while she had on a Nike sweatshirt. I picked up a plate and began to scrub it. "Can I have a baby brother?" the plate clattered against the skin, apiece chipped off and when I reached down to pick it up and it cut across my finger.

"Logan," Troy hissed from behind me, I looked down in the sink as tears blurred my vision slightly, my throat throbbed and my chest filled with pains. "Logi, will you go check on Uncle Josh please?" Troy's voice was behind me as I tried to breathe but the tears started to pull away from my eyes as the blood came from my finger. All I did was focus on the blood that was gushing from my finger. I watched it swirl in a circle and it happened over and over again. Troy and Logan were staring at each other but I focused on the blood. "But daddy,"

"Logan," his voice sharp and only used at certain times to get Logan's attention. She didn't protest and jumped off the chair and once she was gone I bent over, tears flooding my face as I tried to control anything that might come from my mouth. "Brie," he touched my back gently and he reached around to turn the water off. He grabbed a paper towel and he picked me up gently to rest me on the counter. His fingers wrapped the paper towel around my cut as the bleeding pulsated with every shake.

"I am so sorry," he whispered, he kissed my forehead as he held the paper towel tightly. "Where did that come from?" I looked up at him and his eyes were breaking. "I don't know Brie, she said something about it this morning and I pleaded with her to not ask you about it that it would make you sad."

"How Troy? Now,"

"Brie, relax, please,"

"She understands now that people get siblings and they grow up together. She wants a baby brother," Troy went to the other cabinet to get a Band-Aid, he took my hand and he rinsed it gently without uttering a word. My tears began to subside and he dried my finger before applying the Band-Aid with extra care. He then placed his hands on both sides of the counter as he looked at me. His eyes were serious and I knew that tearing my eyes away from him would cause for him to just move my head back to him.

"Brie, I want you to listen to me okay?" his eyes softened gently as he looked at me, "You are doing what you can. We are doing what we can to give her a sibling. It isn't in the cards right now and if we try right now we are looking at having a baby during the baseball season. Do we even want to do that?"

I shook my head gently and he nodded, "Logan found out from Ben that he is getting to be a big brother again. She is seeing it happen but we don't need to rush it. If you are stressed over this whole issue then it isn't going to happen. We will have another baby, one day; one day we will have another baby so please stop rushing it and getting all upset over it because you are breaking my heart. I would love to give you and Logan what you guys want but it looks like right now isn't the time."

"One more month?" I asked softly, Troy picked up my hand; "If this month works out then we will be having a baby what around…July?" Troy questioned, I swallowed hard on the lump in my throat. "If we have a baby in July then we will always be having to worry about being around on her birthday, you will miss half the season, and I won't be around as much to help you get adjusted with the baby and Logan."

"So you don't want too…"

"How about we have a break for a little bit okay? I think we both just need a break and you are just so stressed out over this entire issue."

"Okay."

He lifted my head and kissed me gently, "I love you, okay?"

"I love you too."

Troy went to find Logan after a couple more minutes of some TLC provided by him. I wiped away the tears and I knew this isn't how we could live around here. Logan needed a stable mother and I didn't need to be upset over this issue. It was just that…an issue. Now that I knew Logan wanted a sibling it made everything a little bit harder but Troy was right. If we got pregnant right now then we would be having a baby in July.

I got off the counter and Logan came running into the room, she wrapped her arms around my legs. "I'm sorry I made you sad mommy," she whispered, I rubbed her back and then I picked her up. "It's okay sweetie, I shouldn't be getting sad over it. One day you will have a brother okay? Not for a while though." She smiled, "I like Ben, I want a Ben of my own." I stroked her hair away from her face, "Good, one day."

"One day."

"Lolo, how about you go make sure you have everything ready for pre-school tomorrow?" Troy suggested, she loved school and any thought of going to school she enjoyed. "Okay!" she ran through the house and to find her backpack. "I am thinking tomorrow we go do something together. Just you and I." He picked up my fingers and massaged them gently. "Like what?"

"I don't know, it is Kansas City, we have a bunch of options."

"Lunch?" I questioned, "We are both off work now…"

"Very true Mrs. Bolton,"

"Is there something else we could do tomorrow?"

I shrugged my shoulders, "I don't know Troy,"

Troy sighed softly, he pressed his lips into my hair, "Go take a hot bath with a nice glass of wine okay? You are so stressed out. How about we do lunch and massages? Then we can go get some coffee and just relax tomorrow. Maybe do some shopping?" I nodded my head, "Yes please,"

"But first we are starting with a bath."

"Are you going to put Logan to bed?"

"Yes, but you know how it goes ten books later."

"You are such a pushover." I told him, Troy laughed as he hugged me tightly. "She is my little girl."

"What am I?" I asked softly, "My favorite girl,"

"Really?"

"I get to kiss you and love on you."

"I mean…you can do that with Logan."

Troy pushed me back against the wall, his lips pressing into mine. "I don't think this is right to do with my daughter," he said with a laugh, I kissed him again, "MOMMY! DADDY!" Troy kissed me a little bit harder as we were open to kissing in front of Logan but nothing more than a kiss.

"Ew, Daddy!" Troy pulled away and he kissed my cheek gently, he winked as I smiled, "Lolo, I am going to go take a bath. I want a goodnight hug and a good night kiss." She came running over and I picked her up. "I love you momma,"

"I love you too sweetie," I hugged her tightly, "Be good for daddy okay? No more than three books tonight." She giggled because she knew that she would get her way with Troy. "Why do you and daddy kiss? Cody and Aunt Becca don't kiss like that." I laughed, "I love daddy and one day when you love somebody,"

"And when you are thirty," Troy piped in, "You can kiss somebody too." Logan giggled, "When is thirty?"

"A very long time," I gave Logan to Troy and they went off and down the hall together. I shook my head while I grabbed my glass of wine and headed down the hall to myself.

Monday, October 9th, 2023

"Have a good day Lolo," I kissed her cheek and she wrapped her arms around me, "I don't want to go." She claimed as she hugged me tightly, I hugged her tightly back, "You will have so much fun today though!"

"You and Daddy don't have to go to work!"

"No we don't but we do have other things we have to do."

"Like what?"

"Like stuff." I replied to her, "You are going to have a fun full day of activities with your teachers." She shook her head and tears pooled in her eyes. Logan only did this every now and then but when it didn't happen it was ugly. She made me feel like a terrible parents and all day all I did was worry about her.

I put my bag up and I walked over to one of the tables where Audrey was playing. "Hi Audrey," I said with a smile, "Hi Mrs. Bolton," Logan came over and hid behind me but she noticed Audrey. She came around and began to talk to Audrey about something. I backed away from the table but Logan noticed and came running back. "No mommy," she began to cry and I sighed, "Lolo, how about this, if you stay for a couple of hours then I will come back and pick you up for an afternoon together."

She sniffled and a tear fell out of her eye, I nodded my head as I kissed her forehead. "I love you, go play with Audrey,"

She wiped her eyes and sniffled again, "I love you momma,"

I stroked her hair gently, "I'll see you later baby girl," I squeezed her hand and made a beeline for the door before anything changed her mind. I had no intentions on picking Logan up early but once she was settled she would be fine for the rest of the day. Getting into my car, I realized that Troy would be asleep still. I started the car and began a trip to my dad's house. I couldn't believe that the twins were already twelve. It was amazing.

They were growing up to be beautiful children and I loved it. Pulling into my dad's house I shut off my car. I needed to talk to my mom mostly because of everything that I was feeling lately. Normally the feeling of the negative pregnancy test went away but right now it wasn't leaving. The feeling wouldn't go away and the only person who understood was probably my mom. Going up to the front door, I picked up the newspaper and I opened the front door.

"Hello?"

"Gabriella!" my mom called, "Gabi!" Lilly yelled I came into the room to see her sitting up eating breakfast, "Why aren't you at school?" I asked her, she smiled, "I have a doctors appointment for my sore throat." I smiled as I kissed the top of her head. "I'm sorry you don't feel good." My mom glanced at me and I think she knew almost instantly that something was wrong. My dad came into the kitchen and he smiled, "Hi sweet girl," he hugged me and I didn't want to move from the grasp he just pulled me into. I held on tight as my chest built up with pains.

"Gabi? Are you alright?" I shook my head as I buried my head deeper into his chest. "Hey Lil, how about you go back to your room okay?" I held onto Troy tighter as the first tear leaked from my eye. Troy would get mad that I was doing this right now, that I wasn't with him doing this.

"Gabi, sweetie," I pulled away from my dad as I wiped away a couple of tears. "Is everything okay?" I sat down on the table as I could only shake my head no. "Is Troy okay?"

"Yes, Troy is fine. Logan is fine. I am just…I don't know what I am. Troy and I have been trying for another baby and we have been for almost a year now and it keeps coming up negative. I want to give Logan a sibling and it's month after month." I wiped away tears from my eyes as my mom this time came over to pull me into a hug.

"You should stop trying for a while," she whispered into my ear, "Both of you just need to take a break and July…" I smiled softly, "I know but I just want a baby again. I want Logan to be a big sister. She asked the other day if she would ever get one."

"You asked me that a couple of times as well. It is hard but you will one day have another baby. Right now it isn't in the cards."

"I mean normally when this happens I get sad for a little while but it isn't going away this time." I told her, she nodded, "It will happen. Just remember you have a beautiful baby girl at home who loves you."

"She cried when I dropped her off at pre-school."

"I hated when you kids did that."

My dad came over to rub my back gently and I leaned against him, "You have talked about this with Troy right?"

"Parts."

"What parts?"

"I mean he knows my frustration and my sadness about the whole thing. I mean he knows everything I just needed a break."

My dad hugged me again and sighed, "One day it will all fall into place. You don't want to have a baby during baseball season." I laughed, "All three of you guys have said that."

"It's true. I hate that the twins were born in June."

He rubbed my knee gently, "It will all be okay."

"Thanks dad, I just needed that moment. I just needed you for a moment."

"You'll always have me."

Dropping my keys on the way in I noticed the lights were all off upstairs and that the TV was on in the basement. I ventured down the stairs as Troy was watching highlights from this years career. Another CY Young worthy year but he probably wouldn't get it this year.

I walked over to him and sat down. He wrapped his arms around my waist but his concentration never left. "How was dropping off Logan?" I sighed, "She cried again."

"I'm sorry,"

"It's okay, it's the first one after the season and she really just wants to stay home with her daddy."

Troy smiled softly as he held me, "Did you go anywhere else?"

"How come I know my dad already called you?" Troy laughed, "He didn't call."

"A text?"

"Maybe." I smiled, "It was nothing."

"I know, are you okay?"

"I am okay."

"You seem better."

"I am."

"Good."

I watched the highlights on the TV and I rested my head onto his shoulder and I laid on him. My arms wrapped around him and I listened to his heart beating. He slid down the couch gently and he rubbed my back until my eyes couldn't handle it anymore.

Happy Sunday! I really hope you guys liked the beginning of Moment of Weakness! It is going to be a different story and has things you'll have to get used to but I am so excited to share this part of the Bolton's lives! It is a frustrating, grueling, and upsetting time in their lives that we all have but they do have to figure out how to over come and conquer!

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