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Make It Right

Lauren: You'll just make it worse.
Bo: No, I'm gonna make it right.
-Bo's mission in life,
Lost Girl episode 2x03 Scream a Little Dream

Author: TeamLauren4eva
Fandom: Lost Girl
Genre: Angst/Romance
Pairing: Bo/Lauren
Rating: M
Disclaimer: I own nothing, don't sue me.
Summary: Lauren is in crisis and tries to push Bo away. Bo won't give up that easily. Alternate ending for ep 3x10 and beyond;
the backstory is mostly canon, with a few revisionist reinterpretations thrown in. This is Doccubus all the way!
Distribution: Sure, just let me know where and give me credit
Spoilers: Up to and including the following dialogue from episode 3x10, Delinquents

Feedback: LOVE it! Please review! No outright flaming please. Constructive criticism is fine. BTW this is my first attempt at fan fiction. I don't know what possessed me. :P

A/N: Contains mature sexual content of two women in love. Move on if that's not your thing. Thoughts are in unquoted italics.

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"It's just I'm so tired, Bo. These last few years with the Fae,
I… the Garuda…and Nadia….I feel like I'm losing myself.
… I think we need a break.…I'm so sorry, Bo – but I think I'm
always going to be asking for more than you can give to me."

Bo felt her stomach lurch, as if Lauren's words had physically punched her in the gut. This can't be happening, not like this.

Bo tried to swallow the boulder in her throat as a horrifying realization hit her. "All this time…Because I have to feed off others, all this time you've kept saying that you're not 'enough' for me, and I've been at a loss as to how to convince you that you are. But now I see that's not what you meant at all. What you really meant was that I'm not enough for you."

Bo's voice cracked along with her heart as she looked away in shame. "I can't be human enough for you."

The nausea of guilt threatened to consume Lauren as the painful truth of Bo's words seeped in. God, how can I do this to her? "No, Bo. I…" But the words wouldn't come. All she could do was close her eyes and allow the tears to fall and make a futile attempt to control her breathing.

Bo thought she was on the verge of passing out. She was shaking and starting to hyperventilate as tears silently streamed down her face. The urge to run was overwhelming. She needed to get out of that apartment before she suffocated. But somehow she stayed rooted to the couch. Fight dammit. We can't let this destroy us. Whatever happened to love conquers all and all that crap? Shouldn't love be enough?

Bo struggled to find her voice, but all she managed was a raspy whisper. "Baby, please look at me. I'm so sorry you're in pain. But please – can you grant me one request?"

Lauren knew that Bo would try to drag this out somehow, hoping to weaken her resolve. She had to do this while she still had the strength. "Bo, I…"

"No, please hear me out. Just give me one more day. You've just been assaulted and traumatized. Please don't make a major life changing decision while you're feeling like this."

"Bo I've been thinking about this for a while now. Waiting a day won't change things. It just prolongs the agony."

"I can appreciate that. But even though you've been thinking about it, today is the day you decided to say something. Today was the tipping point. And I'm begging you to postpone that decision so we can concentrate on healing from this immediate crisis. Then will you be willing to have this discussion tomorrow? I mean really talk about it. I don't want to make this more painful for you, but please – don't I deserve to have something to say about all this?"

They just sat in silence while Bo listened to the deafening sound of her heart pounding in her ears. Please say something.

A storm raged behind Lauren's eyes as she held Bo's gaze. Dammit, why can't I say no to her? She's being so damn logical and it's going to kill me.

"Alright. One more day."

Bo exhaled a breath she didn't know she was holding, causing her head to pound from the rush of oxygen. One day. She had one day to prepare for the fight of her life. But she couldn't punch, kick, stab or slice through this fight. She had to dig deep within herself and find a miracle.

Bo gently took Lauren's hand and brought it to her lips for a painfully soft kiss. "Thank you, baby. Thank you so much."

Lauren just silently nodded while staring at her lap. She gave Bo's hand a final squeeze before letting it go.

They sat in silence for several minutes, avoiding eye contact. It was Bo who finally broke the spell when she gingerly suggested, "Can I make you some tea? I'd like you to be able to relax tonight."

Lauren couldn't help but smirk. Relax? Yeah, right. "Sure, that would be nice."

Bo positively beamed as she got up to go to the kitchen. Tea, ok I can handle tea.

A few minutes later Bo returned with a steaming cup of chamomile. Lauren was simply staring into space with a blank look upon her face. She snapped back to reality as Bo offered the cup to her with a tentative smile.

Lauren looked up at Bo and felt like she could just fall into the deep, still pools of her girlfriend's eyes. "Thank you, Bo."

Bo sank back into the couch and cautiously put her arm around Lauren's shoulders. "Is this ok?"

Lauren simply nodded, her voice having abandoned her.

Time stood still while Lauren sipped her tea. Bo just sat quietly, hoping to convey her love and support by just being present in the moment. No pushing, no pleading. Just sitting. And loving Lauren.

When Lauren was half way through her tea, Bo ventured to break the silence again.

"How about I draw you a bath and you relax while I go get take out? It's fish 'n' chips night at the Dal. Or we could do Chinese, Pizza – whatever you want."

Lauren took another swallow of tea and then gave Bo a small grin. "Sure, what the heck. Make sure Trick gives me extra tartar sauce."

"Ok, sweetie, you just enjoy the rest of your tea and I'll start your bath and call in our orders. Be right back." She pressed a quick kiss to the top of Lauren's head and then headed up the stairs.

Bo hadn't returned by the time Lauren finished her tea. Taking a deep breath, she pushed up off the couch and made her way upstairs. She found Bo sitting on the bed, calling in their dinner order. Bo smiled at her girlfriend as she hung up the phone. "Your bath should be ready. I added the lavender bath salt you like and lit some vanilla candles. I poured you some wine, and I also have an Enya cd ready to go, unless you think that's too cheesy."

Lauren looked at the floor and tried to stifle a smile, but to no avail.

"So, uh, you go relax and I'll pick up dinner, ok?"

"Ok."

Lauren turned as Bo was leaving the bedroom. "Bo?"

"Hmm?"

"Thank you."

Bo returned a wink and a smile and bounded down the stairs and out to her car. She took deep breaths to calm her racing heart. Please don't let me mess this up.