Disclaimer: I have not and never will own Twilight even though I would love to.

This story takes place during New Moon. Let's pretend that nothing in the book happened after Edward left. So for those of you who haven't read New Moon yet...

Recap of New Moon by Stephanie Meyer

On Bella's 18th birthday she gets a paper cut at her party and Jasper almost bites her. Edward thinks that he is putting Bella in harms way so he decides to remove himself from the picture. He wants her to live a normal happy life without him and remain human. He lies to her, telling her he doesn't love her and that basically she isn't good enough for him. Bella believes him because she never felt that she actually deserved Edward and then Edward leaves along with all the Cullen's. Bella tries to follow him through the forest but gets lost and is later found crumpled and alone on the forest floor.

And now on with the story...

BPOV

It had been almost a month since he had left. I couldn't bring myself to actually say his name. I had loved him so much. How could he do this to me? Of course I knew the answer deep down. I wasn't good enough for him. He had told me himself, but I had known it for too long. What had I ever done to deserve someone like him? Nothing. Absolutely nothing.

I tried to get up and start the day but I couldn't make my legs work. I really had no will to do anything at all today. I wanted to stay wrapped up in my cocoon of blankets and sleep. I had barely left my room at all since he left and Charlie was starting to get worried. I knew I looked different. I had lost weight I was sure from my lack of eating or doing anything at all. Renee had phoned me and I had tried to sound normal but my depression seeped through every forced, cheerful word. My parents knew something was wrong and to tell you the truth, they were right. Renee had flown out to Forks because according to her, this wasn't normal. I could hear her now down in the kitchen, arguing with Charlie about something. As I listened to their dulled voices I drifted off into a restless sleep.

The sound of my shallow, ragged breaths mixed with sobs woke me up. I had been dreaming about him again, about the time we went to the meadow. But that dream had turned into a nightmare as the words he had said to me got twisted within my head. Renee was sitting in an armchair by the door and turned her head to look at me as I struggled to sit up. She had a pained look on her face.

"Bella," she started, "We need to talk."

"About what?" I mumbled.

"Bella, honey. This isn't normal. You shouldn't be this depressed. You two broke up. It happens all the time to people Bella and most of them don't deal with it like this."

"Then how should I deal with it mom?" I said, anger starting to come into my voice.

"You need to be strong. You need to be with your friends again. You have to be Bella again. We all miss you Bella. We love you and we want you back. Don't let him do this to you. Don't let some jerk ruin you like this. Everything happens for a reason. Just because it didn't work out doesn't mean that your life is over. Maybe this happened so that you can find someone else. Look at your dad and me. Of course I was upset that things didn't work out but I moved on and I found Phil. You have to take what life gives you, Bella, and make it work for you. You need to start living again," Renee said quietly, resting her hand on my shoulder.

It was that sincere, heartfelt, mother-daughter moment that pulled me back. With shocking realization I knew that I needed to live again. I wouldn't stop loving Edward, even if he didn't love me but I couldn't just lie around feeling hurt and broken. Edward had picked his parting words so that he would hurt me and he had gotten what he wanted. I wasn't going to let him hurt me like that anymore. It was time to fight back.