Breaking From Sanity
Chapter 1
Rain Always Brings Bad News
By: MyNameIsJag
Author's Note: I don't own IZ. In this story, we find our human hero in female form. So yes Dib is a chick, which complicates a lot of things for the Irken invader…until an accident leaves him searching for the truth. Gaz is a he and is older then Dib, which is going to make him the older protective brother. Contains some swearing and sexual comments.
Rain…she loved the rain…it cooled her off as it hit her porcelain skin, her dark ebony hair just made her seem paler as it flowed around her in the gentle breeze…her golden eyes opened to the sky as she heard someone calling out to her. She turned to see her older brother standing in the doorway of the skool holding her jacket, he growled out at her, "Try for years to get you to take off this stupid coat and when you do, it leads to you running around half dressed in the rain." She laughed and twirled, the puddle she was standing in splashed up as though to join her youthful dance, "I'm not half dressed, I'm wearing my usual attire!" She heard another huff from her brother, it was true though, she was dancing in the rain in her knee high black boots, her black skirt swirling with her only to lift enough for a quick glance of panties that matched her tank top, blue with that recognizable face on it.
She heard her name get called out again as a group of jocks passed that had gave a quick whistle at the ballet…earning a 'look' from her brother that sent them scurrying. She laughed, then looked over at her 'guardian', he was glaring at her…he was tiring of her childish ways really quickly...thankfully the rain ended as hurriedly as it began. She sighed before pulling her hair out of it's pony tail, it was hard to get it out of a mess if it was still wet and up, her spike was now sticking to the front of her face instead of holding it's own. She motioned for the jacket and it was thrown at her…unfortunately standing on wet ground and having something thrown at her from her somehow superhuman strong older sibling usually meant she was going to crash backwards…and she did… "Opf!" Strange, she didn't feel like she fell on the wet ground, blinking she realized she was being held up from behind, quickly turning around she was met with strange purple eyes, a sadistic grin…all on that oh, so familiar green face that was uncomfortably close to hers, "Hello…Dib-doll."
She frowned and pushed him off of her, he just tilted his head and continued to smile as though he was the cat that was about to eat the poor caged canary…the canary being her… "No, hello's back?" She rolled her eyes, it had been at least a good five years since they had last fought…Zim finding out he wasn't an invader just made the whole 'saving the world' thing dull… She enjoyed her somewhat normal life now, she figured she had plenty of time to find the hidden secrets of the world after school…for now she was going to act like a normal sixteen girl, and it was working great in her favor. No more being called freak or insane by the others, she was slowly accepted into the crowd…she enjoyed having friends that actually wanted to do things with her…instead of throw stuff at her… The only problem she had now was her old 'archrival', since starting high school the once proud Irken 'invader' seemed to lose the will to take over the world and instead made it his goal to aggravate her to death.
Speaking of the green annoyance, he seemed to have grown taller through out the years at least 6'2…a fact he pointed out everyday as he loomed over one of the tallest girls in skool…Dib… Being 5'10 was hard to find a date that she didn't have to bend down just to kiss, though it did earn her a lot of, 'OMG, you should be a model!', 'Your legs lead to the center of heaven.', 'I always wanted to be dominated by a taller woman.' Not exactly what someone who was more one the logical side wanted to hear on an everyday basis. Being so tall always lead to Zim randomly showing up to hover over her, only to say something along the lines, 'It must be so hard with legs that long to find someone…luckily you have Zim." She usually ended up either slapping him or just simply walking away, which left the odd alien smiling at her leaving form.
She looked back at him, he was staring at her with an odd smile…she looked down at her clothes then realized why…the rain had left her thin shirt clinging to her white skin…allowing him to get a good idea of what she looked like underneath. Blushing she hurriedly put back on her jacket as Gaz seemed to appear between the two, a slight snarl at Zim sent the green male on his way. Dib looked over her brother's shoulder to watch him leave, the Irken stopped mid-step, turned around to wink at her, "I'll see ya later, Dib-doll.", he blew her a kiss before taking off in full run as her brother went after him for blood. She shook her head, was high skool supposed to be this crazy…or maybe it was just her life that was crazy.
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Zim growled to himself as he held his eye, the Dib's guardian brother had gotten his hands on the mighty Zim long enough to bruise his eyes before he wiggled free and took off. It was true he had no reason to destroy this puny planet, but he had plenty of reason to be a factor in his obsession's life… He wasn't sure if he was crazy or if all Irken's were the same way…but he needed something to drive him forward…a reason to live… His reasons varied from each passing day…changing along with his moods…some days it was the drive for revenge against his former 'leaders'…or if it was as simple as getting noticed by the seraph of Earth for whatever. He wasn't quite sure why he needed the attention from the young girl…but it made the days of his exile go by quicker…
He had watched her grow, like a flower in the mid of a filthy barren desert…her skin paler then most around her made her seem as though she was a different creature that was just passing through this world, her gold eyes glowed with whatever emotion filled her at the moment, it be happiness or sadness…he could tell what she was feeling just by looking into the honey colored pools. He made observations of her like a scientists would a strange feral animal…which in his mind was pretty much the same thing he was doing. At first it was hard to keep going…he spent the time as though he was a zombie…walking around in a daze losing himself in his own mind… Perhaps he excepted the truth…or he went insane…he couldn't tell anymore… He just knew he had to survive each day, to find a new reason to live on…even if that reason only lasted for the day. It was all he could do from tearing himself apart with his own claws as he screamed in the mixture of relief and the feeling of abandonment…
He looked around his home…the sound of Gir screaming his usual random thoughts could be heard echoing off the walls…a few beeps and pings went off here and there…it was just racket that he had learned to faze out…leaving him with the hum of white noise…he wondered how long it would be until he started hearing voices of those who weren't there from his spiral into insanity…or boredom…he wasn't quite sure yet… But it had to be soon, he couldn't take the loneliness any longer…maybe there was someone that could change that…
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She laughed as she spun around in the living room, it was time for her show but Gaz wanted to play video games, so she was running from the older sibling with remote in hand. "Dib, give me the remote or I will send you into a world of pure pain and misery as rabid badgers devour your intestines and hornets make their nest inside your eye sockets!" The black haired teen just smiled and dangled the controller in front of him, "You can after my shows." A flash of purple sent her flying backwards onto the couch, her brother tackling her, they both continued to wrestle over the devise only stopping for a second as the doorbell rung. They both stared at the door before looking at each other, "Go open it, SPAZ!" "You go open it, DIPSHIT!" They continued to argue, their father coming up from the basement as the ringing got more and more desperate, he shook his head at the two siblings, "It's good to see those two getting along with each other." He calmly walked over to the door, opening it up to see a frustrated Zim, Professor Membrane nodded at him, "Ah, come in, you must be Dib's little friend, she's playing with her brother at the moment." Zim looked over his shoulder to see Gaz holding Dib in a head lock as she kicked him the legs, "That's some…playing…"Dib looked over at the door, her gold eyes locking with his purple contacts, letting her guard down enough for Gaz to take the remote from her grasp and release her. She looked back at her brother, throwing him a hateful glare as he gave her the finger, turning her attention to the alien at the door she let the matter drop.
Membrane smiled as his daughter walked up to them, she was becoming such a lady, sure she got her recognizable hair from him…but the rest of her was her mother… The gold eyes, the over excitement, the laugh, the beliefs in the paranormal…her face…she was all her mother's child. She had grown so much, her intelligence was so close to his, he was going to be one proud father when he announced her as his successor…if he could convince her to come over to real science… He hoped Gaz would show some interest in the field, it only resulted a look and a 'hell no' from the young lad. He watched her walk up to the young man at the door, he frowned he hoped the green boy wasn't more then a friend…he had already picked out a suitor for her.
Zim watched her walk up to him, a zipper like smile spreading across his face, "Hello, Diblet." She frowned up at him, "Hi, Zim…what do you want?" He tilted his head and put on a sad face, "Well, that's not polite." Membrane nodded, "He's right, daughter, why don't you invite him inside for some coffee!", he then turned to head back down into the labs, "I'm going back to work on my next greatest achievement to mankind!" He laughed as he disappeared into the floor, leaving the two at the door. Dib shook her head, her dad could be so weird at times, she looked back at the visitor, he smiled at her and she just ended up sighing. "Fine come in," she watched him walk into the house, his eyes surveying the scene as though expecting hidden traps to suddenly come out of nowhere and attack him. She placed her hands on her hips, "Don't look so nervous." He turned to look at her, "Can't be to careful in the enemy's base…" She rolled her eyes, "Yeah, if you were a burglar, but you came through the front door which means you're a guest." He smiled and nodded, "Of course, for no security system is too great for the mighty ZIM!" She just shook her head as he pumped his hand into the air as though he had gained victory over something, "Let's just go to the kitchen."
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She laughed as a container of milk flew by her head, Zim was not a fan of earth food and had no problem showing it, "This is how do you pig monkeys say…CRAP!" He took an apple out of the fridge, looked at it and threw it out the window…she could hear a car skid and a bright light from an explosion flashed for a moment from outside. "Zim, stop wasting our food, we actually need to eat that stuff." He snorted at her request, "Zim will stop when he feels like it or until he finds a snack worthy of him!" He started laughing as he pulled out a candy bar, "Victory for ZIM!", he happily plopped down in a chair across from her. She shook her head, he was so weird…though she really wasn't any better, "Happy now?" He grinned at her as he unwrapped his victorious winning, "Yesss! For Zim has the ultimate of huuuman snacking! And there is nothing you can do to stop ZIM!" She rolled her eyes and took an orange from a bowl that was in the middle of the table, "Oh, that's so horrible, I suppose I have to eat this healthy fruit now, how cruel of you!" He laughed, clearly ignoring the dripping sarcasm from her words as he continued to stuff the whole bar into his mouth.
He licked his lips and happily looked over at her, she was now focused on peeling the orange in her hands, her mouth pulled into a line as she glared at the fruit for being so hard to open. He didn't like that look for her, he preferred her with a smile and a laugh or looking absolutely confused like a lost child…he felt he could overwhelm her if she was confused about something…which wasn't often. "Ha!", she finally managed to peel the orange, she celebrated by taking a bite of it…only to have a sour instead of citrus taste, "Eww! Bad orange!" Zim laughed at the disgust on her face, "Foolish flower child, what would you expect from a thing that came from a nasty outside tree!" She glared at him, "Well, Dib thought it was going to be yummy." He blinked at her, "Is Dib-female making fun of the almighty ZIM!" She laughed then leaned in closer to him, "Dib thinks Zim-alien is being paranoid, she thinks he's being silly thinking she would make fun of him." He leaned in closer t her, their faces nearly touching, he could smell the orange on her breath and her natural smell wafting off of her, the mixture of flowers and candy…so sweet smelling. He frowned at her smile, "Zim thinks, Dib-doll is making fun of him…she should quit it." Her laugh made his antenna twitch under his wig, it wasn't as though it hurt…in fact her voice was actually pleasant…one of the improvements she got from getting older.
He would let her laugh, it was so much better then being alone in his empty base…alone with his thoughts of how he was betrayed…how he was left to rot on a planet that could so easily kill him with water or germs…to leave him alone with an insane robot and the feelings of self-worthlessness… The thoughts of how he would never truly become an invader and how he was so useless…to be left alone for so long…it would be only a matter of time before he snapped… But for now, he would let her laughter fill his mind inside of those horrible thoughts…she would be the object of his obsession that would keep the insanity at bay…he would hang onto her like a drowning man to a life ring…
She stopped laughing as soon as she realized his face held a very serious look to it, "Zim are you ok," he didn't respond. She grabbed one of his claw like hands, "Zim, I'm sorry if you're made that I was making fun of you…I didn't think you would take it so seriously…" He blinked out of his daze as soon as he felt the warmth of her hand over his, he looked down at her pale fingers…so pale, as though she was about to disappear… He looked back at her distressed face, a smile spreading across his face, "Fear not Dib-love, Zim is not angry at you, he is glad you seek to impersonate his greatness!" She blinked at him, then smiled, "Oh, I thought you were angry at-what…did you just call me Dib-love?" He squeezed her hand, "Isn't when huuymans hold hands, they are couplet?" She looked down at the intertwined fingers, a slight blush immediately spreading across her face, "Oh no!" She tried to jerk her hand back, only to find his three fingered claws were attached to her like cement, she looked back at his face…he seemed sad that she was trying to break the connection. "You do not wish to be the love of Zim's?" She looked back at their hands then back at him…then sighed, "Usually Zim, humans ask each other to date, then decide if they want to be girlfriend and boyfriends, then after some time, they may get engaged and in time become possibly get married and have children." He frowned, "All that is pointless, we shall do this like Irkens!" He released her hand and stood up and faced her, she gazed up at him, "If I was an Irken we would…but I'm human and we're on Earth." He waved his hand at her, "All unimportant, now Dib-female shall be Zim's love!", he reached down and grabbed her hand to jerk her out of her chair, it clattered on the floor from the force. Her golden eyes went wide as he jerked her closer, "What are you-", his mouth took over hers, for once silencing her. She stood there in shock…before relaxing into it…she never had been kissed before and often wondered how it felt.
She could feel his tongue swirling around her mouth and his hands pulling her body closer to his…she could feel herself start to give into his will almost unnaturally…until a scream was heard. Instantly she was jerked away from the wonderful sensation, she blinked a few times before realizing her brother must have caught them in the act because he had jerked her away and was now glaring daggers at the alien. "What the fuck do you think you're doing to my sister!" Zim rolled his contacts, "Beginning the ritual of Irken pairing, we release a numbing chemical in our kisses that put our possible mates in a trance that leaves them vulnerable and unable to resist the temptation of mating." That explained why she was starting to become so calm about an alien locking lips with her…and why she was feeling so light headed… Gaz stared at him like he was insane, "Did you just admit to DRUGGING my sister so you could practically RAPE her?" Zim blinked at his anger, "It is a simple Irken gesture…but I suppose in the eyes of a earth monkey…yes, I did." Dib shook her head, "Bad choice of words…", she shouldn't have shook her head, everything was starting to become fuzzy…guess the effect kept going at it even if he was lip locked with her…must be in his spit that came off his tongue as he was shoving it down her throat… Gaz seemed to be frozen at his words, the Irken stared at the eerily calm older brother…time seemed to stand still… "I'M GOING TO KILL YOU, FUCKING STUPID GREEN SON OF A BITCH!" Zim screamed as the purple headed teen attacked him, he ran at full speed toward the living room, the murderous Gaz right behind him.
Dib blinked, she finally realized she was alone in the kitchen…and the effects were starting to wear off… She could hear things crashing as screams filled the house, gasping she ran toward the noise, only to see her brother and Zim fighting on the floor. "Guys, stopped this right now!" They ignored her and accidentally pushed themselves through the basement door, causing the two to crash through some wires and cords. Professor Membrane blinked at the two trying to punch each other, "What nonsense is this!" Dib ran down the stairs that her brother and Zim seemed to fly over, "Gaz is upset that Zim kissed me." He raised a goggle ridge at her, then back at the two fighting teens, "Is that all?" Gaz pulled Zim's worm like tongue out of his mouth, "I'm going to cut this piece of shit up and shove it up your ass! Let's see if you want to fuck my sister then!" Zim bit down on his hand, causing him to let go in a cry of pain, the green teenager stood back up, "You evil sibling shall never stop Zim's love for the Dib-doll!" The professor watched as his son attacked Dib's…boyfriend…what…this green kid was his little girl's boyfriend! He looked over at her as she rushed over to the two and placed herself between them, "Stop right now!" As soon as she scream, a siren went off, Membrane seemed to fly over to the computer, a quick scan of the screen before he turned to scream at the teens, "Everyone out! The pressure lines have been cut, the basement shall explode into a fiery mess of flying metal!" Everyone headed toward the basement door, practically falling over each other to get out and crashing on the ground. Zim looked around for his obsession, "Where is Dib-love?"
Dib looked at the stairs before her, the effects came back with full force, her eyesight couldn't focus and her balance was off. "Okay, you can do this!" The siren seemed to get louder and echo through her mind, it was all fuzzy… "DIBLET!" She could hear someone screaming her name, she stared at the stairs…all she had to do was go up them and her dad could shut the reinforced steel door and they all will be safe… She took the first step, her legs giving out from under her causing her to fall…pain shot through out her body…she must have broken her ankle… She coughed…smoke…it was starting to smoke down here, "HELP!", she had to get help…she couldn't make it up the stairs in her condition…
Zim heard her and attempted to jump down the now smoking basement door, but was grabbed by Membrane, he looked back at the man, "Let me go, she needs help!" The scientist shook his head, "You won't be able to see down there," he turned toward Gaz, "call 911, the system was automatically connected to call them but I think that wire was broken." Gaz nodded, a bit in shock that his sister was still down there but he needed to get help and rushed off to the phone. Zim looked back at the billowing smoke…there was a fire…fire burned humans…fire killed humans…when they die…they don't have a computer system hooked up to them to hold their souls in storage until a new body was found…which meant if he lost her now…he lost her forever… He heard her again and tried to escape from the man's grip, "I have to help her!" "You can't go down there!" He had to get her, she was the only thing holding him to sanity…what would he do without that link…he couldn't lose her now!
Dib coughed as the smoke got thicker…her eyesight completely gone from the smoke…she couldn't move now…she didn't know where to go… "DIB-LOVE!" Was that Zim…it had to be…no one else called her that… "ZI-", she was caught off from the explosion behind her…she could feel the shards of metal slice through her flesh and the warmth of her blood spill on the floor… She closed her eyes and tried to hold herself up, but the pain and the quick lost of blood was making her weak…she suddenly felt…light… The pain disappearing into memories of her past, the adventures she had, her victories and her failures…she couldn't help but think…'Is this dying?' She felt…happy…as the memories rushed through her mind…she didn't mind dying…it wasn't so bad…though she wished she could tell everyone how she felt about them…especially a certain green teen that took up most of her memories…even her last one…them laughing together…it was kinda of sad… She was sorta looked forward to being, 'the love of Zim'…she smiled slightly as the flame built around her…
Membrane shut the door closed as an explosion went off, he had to protect them and the rest of the house! Gaz stared at the man that had just shut his little sister in a flaming hell pit, but before he could do anything, Zim attacked the older man, "YOU LEFT HER DOWN THERE!" Membrane could only raise his arms in defense as the Irken went after him with his sharp claws, Gaz instantly ran over and jerked the ex-invader off his father. Zim jerked himself from his grasps and ran toward the door and tried to pull it open, "Why won't it open!" Membrane straightened himself out, "It won't open until the fire dies down, that's how it was built." The purple haired teen snapped his head at the man, how could he say it so…uncaring…, "What about Dib, she's still down there!" The Professor just stared at the door and watched as Zim tried to claw his way through it, "We can pray she's alright…" Zim looked over his shoulder at him, "Praying never done shit for me…"
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Whoa…longest chapter one I have ever wrote! People who are familiar with my stories already know…I don't do happy… I decided to make Dib a female for a more dramatic view, which will come into more of a role in future chapters. Hope ya liked it! Send in your reviews! PLEASE!