"I am very bored; I wished I could be with someone… someone that would be my side before I pass away," I said looking up at the ceiling of my room. I am at home right now grieving over one simple fact that is important to me: I lack a female partner… As I grew older, I would constantly think about getting a girlfriend to have fun with. I always felt lonely in my heart, and I did not like to be in solitude's cold grasp. I ask myself, "How much longer must I suffer? Am I going to overcome this overwhelming pain of insatiable craving for a girl?" This terrible pain inside of me crushes the deep abysses of my heart. I realized that it is tiring to attach myself into my personal, yet excruciatingly arduous thoughts. These thoughts that hold anxiety and angst make me feel sick. In fact, there were many times when I wanted to cry to release my fears; it just so occurred to me, sadly, that I could not cry anymore.
Of course, I am not a robot. I am a human being that obviously could cry. But it is just that due to tightly securing my troubles, inside of my mind, for an abysmal amount of time, it seemed that I accidentally contracted a symptom that would prevent me from conjuring tears. Just thinking about that hurts me much; it would inevitably force me to think, "Will these concerns of mine ever recede? Am I willing to triumph over this stress of uncertainty?" I suppose only time will unveil the answer to my worries someday… All I could possibly do is remain patient whilst in awe and sorrow, without knowing when I could relax.
I continue to stare at the ceiling of my room in silence, waiting to feel tired enough to fall asleep. "Hmm, I hate this kind of situation. It never fails to vex me when it is to occur," I lamented quietly. A few seconds later, I thought about a girl I liked from my school named Samantha. She is precious to me, and at times of discomfort I yearn for her presence. If she were to be next to me at the present, I would want her to hug me… And kiss me too. Samantha is a student just like I am, but regardless her natural, unexaggerated charm enamors me. "Samantha… I really like you, did you know that? Hmm, I wonder if she has thought of me before," I sighed.
I miss her deep inside my heart… I am well-aware that I lack the resolution to flirt with her, but for now… I guess I should concede. After contemplating for a long while, I decided to fall asleep until the next day.