Chapter 1 :
She has got so much love,
So much more, so much love to give,
She has got so much more, so much love
So much more love left to give,
So much pleasure…
The sun comes up as each morning, its rays creep through the bedroom's shutters which are today unlikely not fully closed. Lexa is the first one to wake up even if she is going to spent a lazy day probably hanging out at the Grounders' the most popular café in West Hollywood she cannot help herself check again if 'that's it!'.
"Clarke!" She shouts from the bathroom waiting for her wife to wake up. The blonde walks to her eyes still partially closed. Lexa is leaning on the sink with a stick in her hand, Clarke's eyes finally open wide with a sleepy smile.
"You're ovulating" She says leaning on her wife's body and starts kissing her neck.
"I'm…ovulating" Lexa manages to lets out between moans, Clarke's lips disarm her every time.
Clarke nips into her wife's skin "let's make a baby" she slides her arms around Lexa's waist and one hand goes lower to grab her woman's ass.
"Let's make a baby" Lexa chuckles feeling Clarke's hands everywhere on her.
Clarke and Lexa have been married for about three years now they have all they dreamed about, prosperous lives with successful careers, great friends, a big house with the pool in one of the most beautiful neighborhood on LA but still something was missing, something Clarke has always wanted to have but never talked about to Lexa, afraid that it might disrupt their happiness until six months ago.
She was panting under Lexa, the way she makes her feel and the way she easily drives her to the edge using only her plump lips never seems to lose its effect on her.
She feels Lexa smiling against her skin, she knows she is good with her lips but it's always satisfying to hear Clarke's moans or better Clarke begging "Lexa! Please" Clarke clearly needs more.
But of course Lexa loves to tease her wife and she knows more, the longer she teases her the harder she will cum. She resumes placing kisses on her abdomen then Clarke's heart flutters when Lexa pushes her plump lips tenderly on the lower part of her belly whispering 'I love you', she helps herself on her elbows and grabs Lexa's neck for a kiss "Come here" She lets out breathily.
Lexa hovers up to Clarke placing a languid kiss on her lips and after few seconds Clarke pushes her hand lightly on her chest to break the kiss. She looks at her favorite shade of green catching her breath, she wants Lexa to read her mind through her eyes but Lexa is not good at reading people so she leans in this time to peck Clarke's nose, it always makes her chuckle lightly and Lexa loves to hear that sound.
Clarke cups her wife's face in her hands preventing her from resuming her activity she looks again at Lexa expectantly, Lexa seems to understand that Clarke wants something or wants to say something but she can't guess. She looks knowingly at her woman "I love you" She whispers to encourage her wife onto talking.
Clarke smiles "I want us to have a baby" She finally blurs out, it takes Lexa by surprise but a good one her smile reaches her eyes and Clarke lets out a breath she was holding afraid that Lexa might not like the idea.
"Then let's make a baby" Lexa wiggles her eyebrows and starts kissing her wife eagerly.
Clarke bids her wife goodbye with a kiss Lexa moans when it turns heated.
"I'll try to be home early" Clarke promises after she breaks the kiss "And I'll call Marcus to give us the baby liquid" Lexa replies smiling.
"Ok, great! See you tonight wifey" Clarke adds after Lexa gets out of the car.
Lexa looks at Clarke driving away thinking about how lucky she is to have such a loving wife, such a nice, sexy, careful and beautiful woman to call hers.
The first two months Clarke wanted to be the one to carry the baby, she tried many times but to no avail. She knew somehow that she has minimal chance to get pregnant due to her tests and what her Ob told her but she kept trying over and over again until one day Lexa asked to be the birth mother seeing that it was deeply affecting the bubbly and joyful Clarke, she loves. Of course, Clarke was in heavens when Lexa quitted her job to be fully prepared to give them a baby.
Lexa was a bit choosy about the process wanting to have a donor which will at least have good and smart genes so instead of getting anonymous donors' sperm from the sperm bank they made a list of all their male friends and colleagues that may be interesting in getting some of their genes for their future baby and Marcus was one of the artists who was working with Clarke.
Tonight again, they will be trying not in a clinic but in an intimate way, Lexa asked Clarke to be involved in the process wanting to give her something, something that may make her happy and it was more romantic anyway. Clarke went with the idea knowing that Lexa is trying to give her something that she wants badly but may never have without her help.
She gets into the café "Grounders" and goes straight to their usual spot where she, Clarke and along with all their friends gather usually but today Clarke went right to work to get everything done and go back home early for their special night.
Lexa sits next to her friends hoping that Clarke won't be late again especially tonight she wants to spend the night making love with her and making a baby. She doesn't want to be alone, she has done it before whenever Clarke couldn't make it home, she pleasured herself and shoot the sperm into her vagina and crossed her fingers hoping it will work but it felt wrong and she spent the night questioning the idea since Clarke got promoted to the Director of the California art center she has been busy and absent how is it a good idea to have a baby in such an important step of her wife's career. She might even regret it later when they won't be able to get much sleep and she will be missing all of her baby's firsts.
However tonight, she doesn't want to think or question it she wants to have Clarke for her and she would wait all night for her to come back home and get her pregnant. Since she's been trying, the idea of having a baby became more of a wish for herself. She never thought about having babies before, sure she wanted to have kids one day with Clarke but she always thought they will adopt or Clarke would be the one getting pregnant. However now, it is all she is craving for.
"Hey, you have Clarke's lipstick on you" Raven remarks trying to wipe it off.
"I assume things are getting better" Octavia joins them with their usual order.
Lexa smiles "Yeah!" She shrugs "It's happening tonight and she'll be with me this time" She explains happily.
"Wait, what are you talking about?" Raven interrupts confused.
"We're talking about the insemination, Rey" Octavia replies and then she looks back at Lexa.
"Why I'm the last one to hear about that?" Raven pouts.
"Because you're not as a good friend as me" Octavia deadpans before taking a bite from her doughnut wiggling her eyebrows.
"Fuck you" Raven mopes.
"Shhhh! Rey, not in front of" Octavia points her index at Lexa's belly.
"Shut up, she's not even knocked up yet" Raven replies.
"But you gotta used to talking clean" Octavia adds knowing that she's pushing the limits of her friend's patience.
Lexa acquiesces with a grin and it is all it takes for Raven "Really?" And again Lexa nods.
"Ok! I'm leaving and don't come later to ask me for help when your POLITE baby needs help in his science project" Raven replies looking at Lexa. She drinks her coffee and leaves them laughing.
"You're so rude to her" Lexa looks back at Octavia "But I get it, me and Clarke first hated each other's guts! Do you remember?" Lexa says cheekily.
Octavia frowns at what Lexa was meaning "Yeah I remember but it's nothing like that! You know I just like to irritate her there's nothing…nothing gay about it" She excuses herself.
"If you say so" Lexa shrugs and starts eating her pancakes.
"Hey! What's the matter" Luna approaches their table with a tea in her hand.
"Nothing, we're talking about the days when Lexa and Clarke were enemies" Octavia replies and Lexa raises her eyebrow missing the way the younger brunette's eyes pleaded her to not talk about her and Raven.
"Pfff! You guys have the best relationship of anybody I know gay or straight, you're way over the enemies' stage" Luna replies.
"I know, we were actually talking about Raven and…" Lexa was about to talk when Octavia interrupted her "Oh, hey Luna can I join your book club next week?"
Lexa feels guilty at making her friend uncomfortable so she lets it go and doesn't bother her further about the subject.
"I never thought you'd be interested in reading, never seen you read!" Luna looks weirdly at her friend.
"I do, I…I just love to read short things not books…I've been reading fanfiction lately and now I want to go for it you know but I might need encouragement I don't know, I think the reading club might help" She shrugs her shoulders.
"That's so gay!" Luna comments.
"What?" She looks at both her friends blushingly.
"Fanfiction, O! Reading fanfiction is so gay you know, right Lex?" Luna looks at Lexa who nods with a smile.
"I really need to meet new people" Octavia replies and leaves the table annoyed.
"God! She's pickling in her self-loading homophobia, isn't she?" Luna looks at Octavia going back to her work.
"Yeah!" Lexa replies sadly, seeing her friend torturing herself into being someone else and fearing to come out of the closet is not as funny as it may appear it pains her.
"I mean all her group of friends think that she's a gay Lady and we still love her, we all are a bunch of gays anyway" Lexa laughs at Luna's last words.
"Yeah, I know! And we're not all gay! You're not…but we know that she is but she doesn't so we won't be pushing her" Lexa replies.
"Ok! Fine by me and I swing both sides now, update your gossip app" Luna says.
"Ok, I'm sorry I've been…absent lately me and Clarke are trying to have a baby again and I'm caught up in the baby euphoria bubble you know!" Lexa explains.
"Congrats" Luna replies happily.
"Oh we're still trying, not there yet so that explains why I've been away these last couple of weeks" Lexa smiles weakly at her friend.
"No problem, we should gather next weekend and catch up" Luna suggests "I'll invite you guys, for dinner maybe?".
"Good idea" Lexa agrees.
"I'll call you about that, I need to leave now" Luna stands up "But I won't promise to not tease O about her gayness at least for one last time" Luna winks.
Lexa takes her phone and calls Clarke's colleague Marcus who was happy to help them to get a baby. She told him that it will be nice if he could come by their place and get it done because they'll be trying tonight. He agreed and said that he'll come to her place right before dinner. It was a little difficult for her to be the one to ask but for Clarke she would do anything.
Clarke got in her office and started ordering and working right away not wanting to waste any minute of her day. She has big plans tonight and she's willing to wrap everything up before dinner time and goes back home early enough to cook dinner for her beloved wife.
"Clarke! You need to chill a little bit seriously cause at this pace you're going to make them hate you" Jasper comments.
"They don't hate me! They love me" Clarke replies.
"Really!" He looks at her.
"I know! It's just today, I want to leave early and in order to do that I need to wrap everything up before 6 so I can go home and get my wife pregnant" Clarke smiles toothily.
"If you need help, I'm here" He says.
"Shut up and go back to your work please!" Clarke looks boosily at him.
"The boss look Ok ok I'm leaving, just keep in mind…" He laughs when Clarke throws at him a notebook "Go".
"Straight men, huh!" Clarke hears a woman's voice, she turns and takes a look at her "You are?" Clarke asks not sure to have seen her around.
"Niylah" The blonde woman introduces herself.
"Clarke, the director" Clarke replies shaking Niylah's hand.
"I know! It's kind of hard to miss it, I mean you're the leader here" Niylah replies looking flirtatiously at Clarke's body.
"Oh! Thanks" Clarke blushes then quickly adds "You still didn't tell me what you are! I mean you're Niylah but?"
"True! I'm Niylah, the new interior designer you asked for!" She explains.
"Good! Are you ready? I mean there's a lot to do today" Clarke says.
"Of course, I'm always ready" She winks.
At the end of the day Clarke drives home on time, even earlier than Lexa was expecting her.
"Don't, I'll be cooking tonight for my lady" Clarke says taking Lexa's apron off of her and trailing kisses on her neck.
"Ow really" Lexa smirks leaning into Clarke's front.
She hums "I wanna make it up to you for all the days I've been working" Clarke adds.
"I don't mind" Lexa shrugs "I can still cook however I'll need you in bed".
"Uh uh, this is not up for discussion, I'm cooking and I'll make love to you, all night long and hopefully get you pregnant" Clarke whispers sexily in her wife's ear after nipping on it.
"God! I'd love that…we should try everyday not only when I'm ovulating" Lexa replies.
Clarke finally takes a step back from Lexa's back and turns her so they are face to face "I've been thinking about you all day" Clarke says between kisses.
"And I've been waiting for you to come home all day" Lexa replies looking at Clarke's blue eyes "I love you" She adds before leaning again in for a kiss.
"I think we should skip dinner" Clarke breaks the kiss and looks with a smirk at her wife.
"No! We need food first and you need at least one healthy meal per day" Lexa refuses tapping her wife's ass.
"You're going to be a great mom" Clarke replies sarcastically.
"I'm going to be THE BEST mom" Lexa says before leaving her in the kitchen alone.
Later that evening, Luna called Octavia to hang out with her at a bar and she gladly agreed. She wants to have some fun and get drunk, she wants to meet new people and she wants to get laid. She is feeling frustrated this last few days and if she can have a one night stand, why not!
As soon as they got into the bar, Octavia started drinking and checking men out while Luna was just enjoying her night at the bar and later Raven joins them with some girl. After the first few drinks, Octavia was barely able to stand on her two feet and let along handle the presence of Raven and her date.
"Why are you acting so fucking old" Octavia looks at Luna questioningly.
"I'm not, I'm just enjoying my drink but clearly not as much as you are" Luna replies with a smile.
"Clearly" Octavia says then looks back at a group of friends on the other corner of the club "I need to get laid and it seems like the good ones are not here tonight".
Luna looks where Octavia's gaze was and she eyed the group of friends "I think they're just not your type" She says taking another sip from her beer.
"Or they're just a bunch of gays" Octavia lets out rather harshly and snapping Raven and the girl from their bubble. They both look at her with a raised eyebrow.
"Such a homophobic" Raven's date leaves.
"Hey wait" Raven shouts and looks at Octavia angrily "You need to stop that thing or get a shrink you really need to stop this homophobia".
"Fuck you" Octavia replies getting angry herself.
"You wish" Raven says running after her date out of the bar.
"Then look there at 3, that woman in black has been eye fucking you since we stepped in, if you need to get laid, it's your chance" Luna tries looking at Octavia's reaction.
"What? No, she's not" Octavia looks at the woman who smiled at her and lift her drink.
"Oh yeah she is" Luna laughs.
"Fuck! What am I supposed to do, Lu?" Octavia looks nervously at her friend.
"Just go with it, have some fun you said you wanna get laid as easy as that!" Luna replies.
"What? No, I'm not…" She waves with her drink in the air between the two of them "into women. I can't do that" She says.
"You don't need to be into women to appreciate a good fuck" Luna replies "I've slept with women and lemme tell you! They know how…" Octavia leaves Luna talking alone and heads to the bathroom.
Raven goes back to the bar and orders another drink, her date left before she could talk to her.
"Whiskey please!" She shouts to the barman, he nods at her and when she turns to look at her friends she sees Octavia leaving Luna with an angry look so she decides to follow her.
"Hey! What's up with you tonight O?" Raven looks worryingly at her.
"Nothing" Octavia replies before stepping in the bathroom.
Raven freezes for a moment then steps in after Octavia who turns and looks at her. None of them dare to speak, Raven knows that her friend is highly drunk and Octavia is afraid to say anything, she can't trust her words especially after seeing that woman all over Raven and feeling so frustrated and on the edge. But here is Raven dangerously walking towards her silently like she is some sort prey.
"Rav.." The name of her friend dies on the owner's lips, Raven backs her against the wall and kisses her passionately.
She feels out of space Raven's lips are so soft and so addictive, she doesn't want to stop kissing her but is it the booze that's messing with her head! No, it is Raven's warm body against hers, and it is Raven's hands all over her body which is making it difficult for her to see clear. When Raven's hand cups her breast and brush her perked nipple, Octavia pushes her like if she was burning her. She looks at her friend shaking her head slowly in disbelief while touching her own lips then rushes out of the bathroom leaving Raven all by herself.
"Fuck, Raven what did you do!" She mumbles to herself. It's going to be even weirder now between the two of them like the constant picking on each other's nerves is not enough now there's sexual tension on top.
"How long do I have to stay this way?" Lexa asks Clarke with her legs up against the headboard of her bed.
Clarke leans down and places a kiss on her mouth "Do you want me to try the diaphragm again? Maybe it will help!" She asks cheekily.
Lexa frowns hearing the doorbell "Did we forget something?".
"No!" Clarke replies with a hesitant tone putting on her robe "Don't move, our baby is settling" She leans again and kisses her wife.
Clarke opens the door finding Octavia and Luna at her doorstep.
"Hi, were you sleeping?" Luna asks.
"Not exactly" Clarke says eyeing her friends confused.
"Sorry we called but none answered" Luna explains.
"So the logical conclusion is just to come over?" Clarke deadpans looking at them expecting a reply.
"No, it's an emergency and I'm drunk and she needs your expertise" Luna excuses herself getting in uninvited.
"I'm so embarrassed, I'm sorry" Octavia pouts blushingly.
Clarke grabs her wrist and pushes her into her house "It's Ok, O we were finished".
Clarke walks to her bedroom, Luna and Octavia follows her she throws the sheet on her wife's body to cover her intimacy.
"Oh hey!" Luna says seeing Lexa in not a conventional position then she sees the syringe on the nightstand "What's this" she takes it eyes it a moment and then she clicks it hearing Lexa replying "It's Marcus Allenwood" The left sperm in the syringe ends up on Octavia's shirt who freaks out.
"That's disgusting" Luna chuckles.
"Stop moving lemme help" Clarke says to her trying to wipe it out of her shirt.
"Get it off me, get it off of me" She says repulsed.
"Alright, alright, you're not getting pregnant through your shirt, O" Luna laughs.
"Thanks, I got it" She takes the towel from Clarke's hand.
"Oh my god, so we could be here at the moment of conception!" Luna smiles at the couple.
"You could yeah" Clarke smiles happily.
"Don't be so smug" Lexa taps her thigh.
"I've the right to be, you're my wife" Clarke excuses herself.
"She's totally right though" Luna says to Lexa.
"Ok, ok I see you're teaming with Clarke" Lexa pouts.
"We should leave, I'm really sorry" Octavia says "Clearly it's not the time for this" She tries to leave but Luna grabs her arm.
"It's Ok O, really we're finished anyway" Clarke explains.
"So tell us guys what's the emergency?" Lexa asks seriously looking at her friends.
"Octavia is gay" Luna blurs out seeing that her friend is having hard time thinking let along talking.
"That's not an emergency! That's a fact and not even a new one!" Clarke says looking puzzled.
"What?" Octavia is taken aback by Clarke's words.
"See! I told you" Luna looks at Lexa.
"You told her what?" Octavia looks at them.
"You're gay" Lexa replies with an apologetic smile.
Octavia looks at her friends one at the time then sits down on the hassock behind her a second ago she was leaving.
"Fuck" She breathes out.
"What happened though?" Lexa asked curious about what made finally Octavia realize her gayness.
"Some random girl kissed her in the bathroom and she enjoyed it" Luna again replies instead of her friend.
"That's…" Lexa tries to find the right word "interesting" Clarke looks at her "What? It's not interesting Lex; it's more than that clearly".
"How?" Octavia finally talks intrigued to know more.
"Well you really are oblivion to your gayness and if you enjoyed a kiss from a random woman that means you're like totally gay, there's no doubt about that" Clarke adds.
"It's not" Octavia disagrees with her friend.
"And why is that?" Luna looks at her questioningly.
"It's…fuck! What if it's the alcohol which is messing with my head?" Octavia looks desperately at them.
"You're drunk and that makes you more you and it took out the stick in your butt so you finally are acting spontaneously and you're embracing your gayself" Clarke comments "Congratulations, I'm happy for you".
"Congratulations" Lexa and Luna says in unison.
"That's so stupid" Octavia replies frustrated.
"At least you're going to stop getting on Raven's nerves" Luna says and Octavia huffs "Shut up, thank you guys and sorry for ruining your night" Octavia says before stepping out of the bedroom.
Luna stays for few seconds, not willing to move "Well, do you guys need any help?" She winks at them.
"God! Get out" Clarke throws a pillow at her she bids them goodnight and finally leaves.
"So, do you wanna go for another round, there's some magic liquid left" Clarke says placing her hand between her wife's legs.
"I think I'd like that, we need to get the odds in our side" Lexa smiles.