CHAPTER 1

As I lazed around in my PJ's and watched an old re-run of Friends, I never, not in a million years would have expected a call ... from HIM.

I answered the phone praying to sound normal.

" Hey! 'ssup?"

His voice was enough to send a shiver down my spine. I closed my eyes and instinctively saw his beautiful brown eyes in my mind.

" Hi..."

" Come to the reception . I'll see you there."

" K.."

Crap. I should have asked him if Brad was coming too. But my brain wasn't functioning. Within seconds I jumped out of bed and ran to change into better

clothes. As I pulled down my pink pj's and hurried to pull on my Levi's I saw my favourite black bra hanging off a hook in the closet. Oh , come on! Don't be

mad. He doesn't want that!He probably wants to just say bye. Besides black bras are super slutty!

Little did I know that I'd seriously miss the bra after 15 mins..

Crap! I could't find a single scrunchie and my cell was ringing . Damn! It was him.

" I just have 10- 15 mins!" he said not even bothering to hide the irritation in his voice.

I was tempted to tell him to just sodd off. Yet, something told me to shut up and get going.

So I told him that I was on my way. As I walked towards the park I was aware of my heart beating at nearly twice its normal pace. K! Calm down, Lils. You

are just going to meet the guy whom you loved with every fibre of your being, who broke your heart thrice before finally deciding to be friends with you..

Flashback

" How's the movie?"

I read Nicky's text and rolled my eyes .

"Bloody torture! Though it's not that bad coz' of 'Judas' "

I texted back

I leaned back against my seat and unwittingly moved closer to him.

Mmmmmm... Damn! He smells GOOD ! I thought, licking my lower lip.

Fuck! What was that? Snap out of it Lils! This is JAMES! You are supposed to hate him.

But he smells good and uh- oh .. Why is his elbow creeping right near my ribs. Crap! I was having difficulty in breathing. His damn arm was

moving along with my ribs whenever I breathed. K .. Calm down. It's no big deal. Fuck! Why doesn't he move his arm?

But most importantly, why the hell am I not moving away? Thankfully, he got up and went outside to attend a call.

I stared at his back as he went out and couldn't believe it.. I LIKED it when we were sitting like that a few seconds back. Without realising it, I let

my mind wander. I could still smell him and that did NOT help!

I could see us sitting together, watching this movie (minus Brad) , his strong arm around my shoulders and me resting my head against his

firm, broad chest... I could see us all happy, looking into each other's eyes as he leaned forward to kiss..

NOOO ! Said a voice in my mind which honestly sounded like Nicky's .

Oh no! What am I doing?

I quickly texted Nicky,

" Save me! He smells yummy!"

"Lol! Get away from him then !"was her instant reply

" Don' t wanna" I texted back truthfully.

He was coming back and as he sat next to me, I could feel my heart skip a beat.

What was that? Shoot! I had it BAD for this guy.

I decided to text Nicky again but he asked me to give him my cell. K! I could't say no. That would just be rude. So I gave him my beloved

BlackBerry and continued watching the movie. It was then that it all happened. I turned and saw him reading my messages... THOSE messages

.In an instant, he held my hand as I lurched forward to snatch my cell. His grip was iron hard initially but then it loosened and I could feel my

heart beating frantically against my chest. I squeezed his hand and as he turned to give me back my cell, I took it back , my eyes half lidded due

to sheer embarassment. Oh no, oh no, oh no!

Flashback over

Was I doing the right thing? Oh no, I could see him walking towards me. Why was it that just being near this guy made my internals do gymnastics?

" Hi !" I said

" Hey! Is Brad coming?" he asked

" I didn't call him. "

" You want to come to my room?"

K. How do I reply to that ?Cz' honestly, it sounded like a rhetorical question.

" Yea.. Ok!"

Great going Lils!

"K. Wait here. I'll go first. You follow me after a minute ."

This didn't sound right. Why was he behaving like this?As I saw him walking ahead, I quickly texted Nicky telling her where I was going.

"Ooh be carefull!" was her reply

K! Got it? Be carefull. You know what that means. I started walking towards his room. He called me inside and I asked him,

" Where are your parents?"

"At home. They'll come here after 10 mins or so."

K. That didn't sound right. Or what if he..oh, shut up!

We entered the bedroom and he switched on the tv .I tried acting all nonchalant as I watched him lock the door. My heart nearly lurched out of my ribcage

as he turned and put his arm around my waist.

Omg! This was really happening. Oh no.. Why didn't I wear my black bra...?

Yikes! Stop..! No, you are just hugging a guy. That does not necessarily mean that you'll go to second base. So relax! Too bad I was relaxing in HIS arms!

"Well.. Yesterday was embarassing." I said resting my head against his chest. Wow.. That felt good.

I felt his arms around my waist as he pulled me closer. Oh no, you don't want this Lils!

Who cares? He looks good enough to eat.

Shut up, RUN!

No, too late..

He was kissing me and this time he didn't bother being gentle. Our tongues duelled and I could feel his hand creeping under my shirt. Oh no.. This was too fast. I moved backward but unfortunately, I fell on the bed and I pulled him down.

What are you doing? You don't even like him! Oh no. He was on top of me and his hands were all over me. I found myself pulling him closer. He was everywhere and his scent was driving me crazy. I wanted him, more than anything else. I knew that when this moment of insanity does get over I would deeply regret it. Because it was different this time! I didn't love him. I didn't.. And neither did he..

I could feel the heat rushing to my cheeks as he kissed me furiously, his hand successfully moved aside the normal, boring white bra I was wearing ( Now I really did miss my black bra. Darn!) and he was pinching my breasts and I found myself enjoying it. I was liking it.. Whatever interesting things his hands were doing to my all-too-willing body.

Oh no.. His hand was going lower. Far too low.I was fighting a losing battle. No, no , enough, stop it, tell him..!

But I didnt and I let him touch me. I was panting now, I was kissing him everywhere hoping to distract him. But he was too preoccupied. It was then that I found my own hand being pushed down. I was breathing very , very hard now. I felt my fingers curl around his manhood and my first thought was. ... Wow! That's BIG and soft! I was scared of this new emotion. Was I liking this? Oh no..this was against my principles. I rolled over him so that I was on top and whispered to him

" Take off your shirt"

We were sitting now and he was shirtless. I saw his fair torso, the sexy chest hair and we were kissing again, my hands roaming across his back as I breathed in his smell. Mmmmm..

It got over as fast as it had started. I watched in dismay as I saw him pulling back his shirt, hiding his gorgeous chest from view. I got up and pulled down my shirt and buttoned my jeans. I was feeling all funny.. Down there. Hmm.. As I adjusted my bra I moved closer to him and whispered, " Kiss me."

He smiled and pulled me closer, kissing me lazily on my forehead.

Aww.. That was sweet.

"Don't tell anyone.", he said.

I nodded as I headed towards the door.

As I started walking towards home, my mind was working furiously. I was saying the same thing over and over again,

"What did I just do?"

I kept walking and took out my i-touch hoping to distract myself by listening to good music.

Hell! Why did I always listen to such sad music , I thought as I kept changing one song after another.

'Last kiss', Taylor Swift

'Over', Lindsay Lohan

'I can't stay away', The Veronicas

'Take me on the floor' , The Veronicas.. Fuck! Next..!

'Naive', The Kooks. Well, that's better. As I hummed the song I touched my face and smiled as I remembered how just a few minutes back it was rubbing against James's unshaven face...

"Shoot!", I screamed as a bus passed, merely inches from me. I turned down the volume and walked towards the golf course. I sat down and took out my cell absent-mindedly.

He had texted me..

"Njoyed..?"

I blushed as I read it and hurriedly texted back.

"I'm too shocked to reply. I was nearly run over by a bus"

Good. Don't give in that easily!

But on second thought..

"I smell of you and I can still feel your taste. So I'm sitting near the golf course to calm down." I texted

Yikes! What was that? But I was just being honest, I thought as I hugged myself inhaling his smell which still lingered on my jacket ..

K. Enough, Lily! Get up.

Shoot! Nicky was calling.

"Hey..." I said cautiously

"What happened? Did he make a move?"

" No. We talked and I said bye." I lied through my teeth, hating myself more than ever

"That's it? Hmm.. Lils?"

"K fine! He kissed me on the forehead.", I muttered

" Awww. Sweet! DON'T fall for him." she said seriously

"No way! Don't worry!" I said

"K. Bye. Ttyl"

"Bye..muah"

As I walked alone, I could only see one face in my mind, hear only one voice, think of only one person..Oh no, oh no, oh no..

I was falling for James Potter... AGAIN!