Author's Note: I have no idea where this came from. Title is a song from Heather Nova. I was listening to it today, and these lyrics stuck with me. "And when somebody knows you well, well, there's no comfort like that." And then this happened.
She didn't know why she did it.
Okay, she may know why. At least on a basic, human level, she knew why. But lying there, next to him, it felt wrong. She rubbed her fingers over the necklace. A painful reminder of everything that had happened in the past twenty four hours. A reminder of where she'd rather be, who she'd rather be with.
He had every right to be with Allie. She was good for him. Jane couldn't be with Kurt. It was too complicated. Death threats, lies, secrets, it wouldn't work. He deserved to be happy.
And she deserved… well, she wasn't sure what she deserved. Somehow this pain felt right though.
Oscar rolled over in this sleep, his arm gently resting over her stomach. A contented sigh escaped his lips, an aching reminder of what was. Before this. He may have accepted the mission, the risks, the sacrifices. But Jane didn't. Maybe Taylor did. But Jane wasn't Taylor.
It haunted Jane's thoughts, every day, every hour. Her memories were coming back more and more, and yet, she still couldn't comprehend her journey. How did she go from the little girl that Weller knew as a child, to the heartless assassin, to, well, being dead. Why did she agree to this?
Jane sighed, longing for answers, a sense of belonging, a sense of understanding.
Maybe Oscar was just her past. But right now, maybe that was exactly what she needed.
Thoughts? Comments?
I literally wrote this and posted it in like an hour, because I wanted to get it out there before the episode aired and made this all a moot point. I'm not totally sure I got from the lyrics to this. This was not what I had in my head, but it's what came out. It may totally suck, I'm okay if you think that also.
Either way, I'd love reviews.