A/N: To any of my MerAdd readers, I know I've promised to write second parts to a couple of my fics but my MerAdd brain just isn't working lately, my Addisam brain however, I think it's on fire. I have a thing for miracles which you will come to know by the end of this fic. Starts in 3x07. Would love some reviews ;D.
Hey now, this is my desire
Consume me like a fire
'Cause I just want
Something beautiful to touch me
I know that I'm in reach
'Cause I am down on my knees
And waiting for
Something beautiful.
Oh-oh... something beautiful.
-Something Beautiful by Needtobreathe
Something Beautiful
[1/3]
~x~
Addison was sick of it, feeling so low, feeling empty, unwanted, she was sick and tired of it, and as she lay out on her deck, her face flushed and her hair still wet from her shower her life decisions seemed to play over in her head, seeing this woman she barely knew die right in front of her made her re-think everything.
"I know it's a bit early for scotch but.." she heard Sam say from behind her.
"It's 5 o'clock somewhere" she answered as he sat on the edge of the lounger.
"D' you remember when medicine was simple, where you could save peoples lives, people didn't die, bad things didn't happen"
"Bad things always happen" answered Sam, taking a sip of his scotch.
"So me and you?" Addison said with a small smile.
Sam nodded a little, a grin spreading across his face "You never answered my question!" he smiled, a slight laugh coming from his lips.
"Do you think we would've made it?" Addison asked.
"Oh I don't know" Sam breathed "I don't know if we even had chemistry, ugh, I was just a geek going for the hot girl" he said taking another sip of his drink.
"I was the hot girl!" Addison said with a wide smile.
"Mmhmm, oh yeah" Sam nodded "You were hot"
"You weren't a geek" Addison said softly, Addison's heart raced as their eyes connected, she saw something she'd never seen from him before, a look of pure love, love love, not friendship love, he turned his body, his arm moving to the side of her, she sat up slightly, his arm coming around his neck, her leg pushed up against his back as their lips touched softly, they pulled away slowly, their eyes opening and connecting with each others, searching for something, a reason.
"You are no Naomi" Sam said quietly.
"You're not Derek" Addison replied, and then they were laughing, deep from their stomachs laughter, cutting each other off with their lips, this time tongues playing with each other, a moan coming from the back of Addison's throat.
"What are we doing?" she whispered against his mouth.
"I don't know" he said kissing her jaw and neck, his hands moving to her waist.
"We probably shouldn't do this" she said with a slight gasp as he kissed the spot on her neck that Derek had taken months to find and Mark never even bothered to look for.
"No, probably not" he mumbled against her skin "But why can't I stop?"
"I don't know" she whispered quietly "God Sam" she moaned as he slipped his warm hands up her shirt, his thumbs resting just under her bra "Inside" she gasped as he moved his hands up further, he stood up, pulling Addison with him, the glasses of scotch long forgotten on the floor as they stumbled to her bedroom.
~x~
"Oh my god" Addison laughed as Sam rolled off her "That was amazing"
"So amazing" Sam said with a laugh, they turned to face each other and started laughing again cutting each other off with a kiss "Well" he smirked "I think it's safe to say we're no longer in the desert"
"Absolutely" Addison grinned "God I feel better now"
"Me too" Sam smiled running his palm across her flat stomach.
"But we can't do it again" Addison whispered "You know we can't"
"I know" Sam said softly "Let's just enjoy now, we have the whole day, I left them a message at work when you were in the shower, telling them we're not ready to come back after last night, so let's just enjoy now"
"Enjoy today" Addison smiled "And then it's done"
"And then it's done" Sam nodded, Addison leaned into his body and kissed him slowly, and they enjoyed the day, over and over and over again.
~x~
6 weeks later.
"Addison?" Sam shouted walking into Addison's house "Addie?"
"Just a minute" she shouted from upstairs, Sam leaned up against the kitchen counter and waited for Addison to come down the stairs, after 10 minutes he started to feel a little worried "Addison is everything ok?" he shouted, when he got no reply he walked up the stairs, he slowly opened the bedroom door and instantly heard the sound of Addison retching, he burst into the bathroom and found her hunched over the toilet, he moved over to her, kneeling down on the floor, scooping her hair up in one hand and rubbing her back with the other.
"That's it Addie let it out" he said soothingly "It's ok, you're ok" Addison threw up one more time before taking a shaky breath, as she flushed the toilet Sam stood and poured her a glass of water handing it to her, she moved away from the toilet and leaned up against the bathroom cabinets, Sam sat down next to her, her head dropped to his shoulder, his hand came to her stomach, he rubbed soothing circles against her skin.
"You ok?" he asked quietly.
"Just don't talk for a minute" she whispered, her eyes closing, Sam's other arm wrapped around her shoulders as he kept rubbing her stomach, Addison breathed slowly in and out, after a minute of silence Addison finally spoke "I'm pregnant" she said simply, her eyes still closed, Sam's hand stopped moving.
"But I thought you couldn't, I thought, that's why we didn't, Addie, are you, are you serious?" he stuttered.
"Look in the bathtub" she mumbled, Sam slowly moved over to the tub, as he glanced in he saw an array of different pregnancy tests, 15 he guessed, he reached in and took a handful out, all of them reading positive.
"When did you take these?" he asked quietly.
"I've took a couple a day for the last week" she replied, tears building in her eyes, heavy sobs escaping her.
"Hey, hey Addie calm down" Sam said moving back to her side and hugging her tightly "Calm down, just breathe"
"I, I can't, I can't do this, I can't, I can't" she choked "I can't" Sam got to his feet, he reached down and pulled Addison up, guiding her through to the bedroom, he sat on the edge of the bed and cradled Addison in his arms.
"Sshh" he whispered rocking her a little "It's ok, it's ok"
"It's, not, ok" Addison sobbed "This isn't, ok, what, what are we, going to do?"
"What do you want to do?" he asked quietly.
"I want a baby more than anything, I really do, and this, this is a miracle, it's a miracle and the chances of this happening again are, there isn't a chance, but we can't have a baby together Sam, Naomi she, she would hate me if she ever found out we slept together, she would, hate me, I can't do this"
"So what are you saying? You want to abort your only chance of having a baby of your own? You want to abort our child? Is that what you're saying"
"I don't know!" Addison cried "I don't know what I'm saying, I don't know what to do I don't, what, what do you think we should do? What, what do you want?"
"I don't want you to abort it, because I really think if you did, you'd regret it, this is a miracle Addison, you can't throw away a miracle, but if you want too, if you want an abortion then I'll be there, I'll be there for you, and if you want to keep it then, I will be there every step of the way, I'll be Daddy, I've always wanted more kids, always, so if you want to do this, I'll be there"
"What would we even tell people?" Addison whispered.
"The truth, we went through a horrible awful experience together, and we needed comfort, so we turned to each other, it was a one time deal, well, several times in one day but…."
"Shut up" Addison said hitting his shoulder "It was a one time deal"
"It was a one time deal, and by some miracle, you're pregnant, and we're going to raise this baby as friends, we tell them the truth"
"She's going to hate me" Addison whimpered.
"She shouldn't, even if she does she hasn't got a right too, we didn't do anything wrong, we're both single, we're single adults, just because we were married doesn't mean she can control my life, we got divorced Addie, we moved on, she's not allowed to get mad"
"But it's like an unspoken rule, oh god I'm an adulterous whore all over again" Addison sniffled.
"Hey, you are not a whore, and you are definitely not adulterous, we're single Addie, two single adults who needed comfort and gave it to each other"
"God I'm pregnant" Addison whispered with slight disbelief.
"Yeah" Sam said with a small smile "So, what are we doing Addison?"
"I can't abort it Sam" she whispered "I can't"
"I know" he said softly "So we're going to do this?"
"Yeah, I guess we are"
~x~
8 weeks pregnant.
"Ok, everyone's gone" Sam said as he walked into one of the exam rooms at the practice one evening, locking the door behind him just to be safe.
"Ok" Addison breathed "Let's do this" she said hopping up onto the exam table and lifting her shirt a little, Sam moved to the side of her, he squirted a little gel on her skin and brought the doppler to her stomach, they both watched as the grainy image of the 8 week old fetus appeared.
"Oh my god" she whispered tearfully "Oh my god look at that"
"Look at that" Sam smiled "Our miracle"
"Our miracle" she sighed "Look, there, there's the heartbeat" she said pointing to the blip on the screen "Oh my god" Sam froze the image and printed off the pictures, he wiped the gel off her stomach and sat on the edge of the exam table, Addison sat up next to him, her cheek resting on his shoulder, their eyes locked on the screen in front of them.
"I can't believe this is happening" she whispered.
"I know" he said reaching out and squeezing her hand "I know you're scared Addison but look at that, look at what's growing inside you right now"
"I know" she said with a small smile "I know it's not ideal, and we're probably going to be judged, and Naomi won't like this, and she'll say hurtful things but, if I could choose anyone in the world to raise a child with, well I'd pick you in a heartbeat"
"I'd pick you too" Sam said softly "I know this isn't how you imagined you'd have a baby, and I'm not the guy you would have put in the picture, but these past couple of months, I feel like we've got closer, you're, you're my best friend Addison, and there's nothing better than having a child with your best friend"
"You're my best friend too" Addison said softly, she took his hand and placed it flat against her stomach "We can do this" she whispered.
"We can do this" Sam smiled.
~x~
12 weeks pregnant.
"Oh god I can't do this" Addison said as she paced her office "I can't do this Sam"
"Addie I'm here, I'm not going anywhere, it's going to be ok" Sam said softly as he sat on the sofa.
"She's going to hate me" Addison whispered.
"Addison, we're in this together remember? We're just two friends having a baby together, now come and sit down" he said patting the space next to him, Addison moved to him and sat down with a heavy sigh, Sam brought his hand to her her small bump which she'd kept covered since it appeared a week or so before "Think about what we're going to get in 6 months time Addie, a perfect little baby, who's going to love you unconditionally, focus on that"
"Ok" she breathed "Ok, I'm ok"
"Ok" Sam smiled softly, he slowly removed his hand, they sat in silence as they waited for Naomi to enter, when she did she looked at them warily and moved to sit on the empty chair.
"What's this about Addie?" she asked curiously "You look a little, scared, is, is everything ok? Are you sick?"
"I just want you to know that, this, this isn't something I did, we did to hurt you" Addison stuttered "I, we, we would never want to hurt you, we love you, always, always, it just happened and, it was just once, a one time deal and, it only happened because we'd spent all day in the hills trying to save that couple and we were both feeling like crap and, it just happened, like, like a comfort thing, a one time, comfort thing"
"Addison, what exactly are you saying here?" Naomi said shakily.
"We slept together" said Sam "Once, one time"
"And, and you're telling me this because, why are you telling me this? If you're so worried about how I feel why are you even bothering to, tell me!" Naomi exclaimed standing up with frustration and storming towards the door.
"I'm pregnant" Addison called out after her, Naomi froze still on the spot "I'm 3 months, it's, a miracle, we're raising the baby together, as friends" she added quickly "It was just a one time thing Nae, and if this wasn't a miracle, if this wasn't my only chance, then maybe I wouldn't have kept it, and we would never had have to have told you, but I can't do that Nae, I can't"
"What am I supposed to say Addison!" Naomi exclaimed turning around to face her "That I'm happy for you! Because I'm not, I am so, so angry with you right now, so angry, you betrayed me, you both, you've betrayed me" she said with a whisper.
"Naomi I'm so sorry" Addison said moving towards her, tears building in her eyes "It just happened"
"What like sleeping with your husbands best friend, did that just happen too?" Naomi spat.
"That was different" Addison said shakily, tears falling down her cheeks "You know that was different, I thought I was in love with him, you know that, you know everything that happened in New York Naomi, you don't get to throw that in my face, I screwed up, I screw everything up, and I know me and Sam shouldn't have slept together, I know that, but I can't change it, I can't change it and now, now I wouldn't change it, because now I have the chance to do the one thing I've always wanted to do, I get to be a mother, and I really, really need you to know, that this wasn't about you, I wasn't trying to hurt you, I love you Naomi, you're one of my best friends, and I don't want to lose you"
"I don't, I can't, I can't do this" Naomi said tearfully "I'm sorry Addie but, I just can't, I can't look at you right now, I need to think, I need some time to think"
"Ok" Addison sniffled "Ok, I, I understand, I understand"
Naomi nodded a little and back out of the room, Addison moved back to the sofa, and instantly started to cry into her hands.
"Sshh, Addie it's ok" Sam said rubbing her back softly "It's ok, she'll come around, I know she will"
"What if she doesn't?" Addison whimpered.
"She will" Sam said firmly.
"I can't, I can't tell the others, I can't" she sniffled "I can't do it"
"I'll do it by myself" Sam said softly "You lie down" he said running his fingers through her hair "Get some sleep, Miracle needs you well rested"
"Ok" she whispered lying down, her legs coming behind Sam, Sam reached out and rubbed her stomach softly, he kissed Addison's cheek before heading out of the office.
~x~
"Aunt Addie?" Maya said quietly knocking on the open door of Addison's bedroom that evening.
"Oh, hey Maya" Addison said softly as she sat up a little "Is everything ok?" Maya walked into the room and climbed onto the bed next to her.
"Dad just told me, about the baby" Maya said simply.
"Oh" Addison whispered, looking down at her hands.
"It's ok" Maya said squeezing her hand "I'm happy about it, I get a baby brother or sister who'll have the coolest Mom ever"
"Thanks" Addison said with a laugh "I'm glad someone thinks so"
"Mom didn't take it so well huh?"
"As happy as I am about this baby Maya I shouldn't have done what I did with your Dad, she's allowed to be mad at me"
"But why? It's not like you cheated, they're not married anymore"
"It's an unspoken rule sweetie" Addison said softly "Exes of your friends are off limits"
"She'll get over it" Maya shrugged "It's funny, I've always thought you and my Dad would make a good couple"
"Maya, we're, we're not a couple" Addison stuttered "I'm, didn't, didn't your Dad tell you that….."
"Oh, he told me" Maya said with a laugh as she stood up "Doesn't mean it won't happen" she smiled, she reached out and kissed Addison's cheek softly, her hand resting against her bump "Night Addie"
"Night sweetie" Addison smiled, she waited until she heard her patio doors close to speak "You have an insane big sister Miracle" she chuckled as she lay back, her hands against her bump "But you'll love her, you'll love her, and your Daddy, and I really hope you'll love me, I think you will, I can't wait to meet you sweetie, I really can't"
~x~
18 weeks pregnant.
"Hey" Violet smiled as Addison and Sam walked into the kitchen at the practice "So, let me see" she said holding her hand out, Addison passed her the scan picture "Wow, it's getting big"
"She" Addison smiled.
"She? It's a girl? Congratulations" Violet said hugging her "And you Daddy" she said hugging Sam.
"Thanks Vi" Sam smiled, he took the scan and pinned it to the fridge "Pride of place" he smiled.
"Hey Violet can I….oh hey" Naomi stuttered.
"Hey" Addison whispered "I'm just gonna, I have patients" she said walking out of the room from the other door.
"How long are you going to keep this up Naomi?" Sam asked quietly "Ignoring her, ignoring us"
"I didn't ignore her! I said hello didn't I" Naomi exclaimed "She was the one who walked out"
"Because she's petrified of you" Sam sighed "We know this must be, hard for you but, look at this" he said showing her the scan "She wants to share this with you, her miracle, she wants to go shopping with you for baby clothes and she wants your help to choose what shade of paint will go on the walls of the nursery, she wants you to be the godmother and throw her a baby shower, but mostly, she needs you, she needs you to help her through this because she's petrified she's going to screw this up, and I'm trying to be there, and I'm trying to support her but I know that the only person she wants to see when she's feeling down is you"
"I just don't understand why you would do that, why you would, sleep together, you're not like that Sam, you don't do one time deals, so why, why did you do that with her?"
"She's my best friend too, and we were both lonely and sad and, it happened, and we agreed that it was a one time thing, and for 6 weeks after that we were back to normal, but then I go to see her one morning and I find her throwing up in her bathroom and there's 15 pregnancy tests lying in the bathtub and, she broke down, she broke down, we talked and talked and she cried and, she couldn't give up on this, miracle, we didn't do it to hurt you"
"I know" Naomi sighed "I know you didn't, I'm just, trying to wrap my head around it"
"I still have to pinch myself sometimes" Sam said with a slight laugh.
"I can't, I can't do it, yet but, I can try" Naomi stuttered "Maya doesn't stop talking about it, she's so excited about having a baby brother or sister"
"Sister" Sam smiled "It's a girl, we found out today"
"Congratulations" Naomi whispered "Violet, I just wanted to make sure we're still on for tonight, Martini's and movies"
"Of course" Violet smiled.
"Ok then" Naomi nodded before leaving, Sam let out a heavy sigh, leaning over the counter.
"That was good Sam" Violet said softly "That was progress"
"Yeah, I guess it was"
~x~
22 weeks pregnant.
"Na...Naomi, hey" Addison stuttered as she opened her front door to Naomi.
"Hey" she said with a small smile "Can I come in?"
"Sure, sure, do you, want a drink?"
"No I'm good" Naomi replied as they walked into the kitchen, Addison poured herself a glass of water and leaned up against the counter, her spare hand on her bump.
"So…." Addison started "Is everything ok?"
"I'm good" Naomi nodded "How about you, and the baby, is everything ok?"
"I'm good, always tired and craving ice cream with everything I eat, and the baby, she's perfect, kicks up a storm, sometimes I just lie in bed and watch her moving around, here, feel" she said taking Naomi's hand and putting it on her bump.
"Wow" Naomi smiled "That's amazing Addie, she's going to be a big one, look at the size of you"
"I know, I'm huge" Addison pouted "I'm scared for the life of my vagina"
"Addie" Naomi laughed "There's…."
"If you say nothing better than the miracle of childbirth I will hurt you" Addison smirked.
"Right" Naomi laughed "Have you started the nursery yet?"
"Kind of, it's a bit all over the place, I could, use your help, if that's, ok"
"Lead the way" Naomi smiled, Addison put her glass in the sink and led Naomi up to the nursery.
"I just can't pick what colour paint I want" Addison said pointing to the 6 patches of different shades of pink on the wall.
"Well you could have this one on 3 of the walls" Naomi said pointing to the lightest shade "And then this one on the window wall" she said pointing to a darker one "The crib could go in the corner maybe, oh, you should get one of those mobile things to hang above it, I love those, you could have some wardrobes built against this back wall, so you don't have to change them when she gets older, you can just change the paint and the bed and everything"
"Thank you" Addison said hugging her tightly "Thank you" she whispered.
"I'm sorry" Naomi whispered back "I should've been there, I'm sorry"
"It's ok" Addison said quietly "It's ok, just, help me out because Sam's really bad at all this decorating stuff"
"I know" Naomi said with a laugh.
"Right" Addison said awkwardly "Come and sit on my balcony? The suns about to set"
"Sure" Naomi smiled, they walked through the the balcony off of Addison's room, they sat down and watched the waves "So, do you and Sam know how you're going to do this? Like how it'll work and everything"
"Well, because we live next door to each other we didn't see the point in having 2 nurseries, maybe when she gets older she can have a bedroom at his place but we'll cross that bridge, he's going to stay in the guest room a couple of nights a week at first, to help with her at night, and well, we see each other every day anyway, nothing really needs to change, we're just going to be passing a baby between the two of us instead of wine" she said with a slight laugh.
"Yeah" Naomi breathed "I still can't believe you're pregnant, it, it really is a miracle Addie"
"I know" Addison said softly "I can't wait to meet her, I just want to know what she looks like and, I just want to know things y'know?"
"Yeah" Naomi smiled "You're going to be great Addie, you should have one of those 4D scan things, who's your OB?"
"I don't have one, Sam does all my scans for me at the practice"
"Addie" Naomi scolded "That's ridiculous"
"Why?" Addison laughed "He knows what he's doing"
"Yeah but, you need a proper qualified obstetrician, and you don't count" she smirked "I, I could do it"
"Wouldn't that be a little weird?"
"You were mine" Naomi shrugged.
"Yes, when you were having a baby with your husband, Sam, who is the father of my baby, you're only just coming around to this whole thing and now you're offering to be my OB"
"I need to do something Addie, just let me do this, you don't really want Dell delivering your baby do you?"
"No, no way is he looking at my, area" Addison said with a laugh "I'd never be able to look him in the eye again, ok, you can do it, but good call on the 4D scan thing, I'll call St Ambrose in the morning, try and get an appointment"
"Maybe you could ask Maya to go with you, she's really excited, she's told all her friends, she's saving her allowance so she can buy some presents for her"
"She doesn't have to do that" Addison smiled.
"She said she's her big sister, she's going to spoil her, oh, here's a point, have you told Seattle"
"As in the state?"
"Addie don't be a smart ass, it's not attractive"
"Alright, keep your panties on" Addison laughed "I've told Callie and Arizona, Miranda and Richard, and that's it, and they've been sworn to secrecy"
"What?"
"I just can't deal with Mark and Derek right now, they'll try and go all angry exes on me"
"And you don't think they'll be angry when they find out? You can't keep this a secret forever Addie"
"I know, I'll tell them, I will, eventually"
"You're insane"
"Yep, I am" Addison laughed.
"Now that's a sound I like to hear" Sam said appearing on his balcony "Having fun?"
"Yeah" Addison smiled glancing briefly at Naomi who smiled back at her "We really are"
~x~
35 weeks pregnant.
"I'm here, I'm here, I'm here" Sam said rushing into Addison's room "What's wrong?"
"Help me put my shoes on" Addison said holding out a pair of shoes.
"You 911nd me for shoes?" Sam exclaimed "God Addie you scared the shit out of me"
"Sorry" she sighed "It's your fault for knocking me up with a baby the size of two small toddlers"
"Oh don't be so dramatic" Sam laughed.
"Sam, I can't put on my own shoes!" Addison exclaimed frustratedly "I can't bend down, I don't think I'm going to be ready when she gets here, I'm stressed out and I can't do the one thing that relaxes me which is surgery because I'm too freaking fat and my feet hurt if I stand up for longer than 5 minutes at a time, I'm tired, I can't sleep when I want too because I think she finds it funny to kick me whenever my eyes close for longer than 2 seconds and I'm pretty sure she's going to come out with two heads" she huffed, Sam took one look at her and burst out laughing.
"Oh Addie" he chuckled moving to sit next to her "You really need to relax, you don't want your blood pressure getting any higher"
"I'm scared" Addison whispered tearfully.
"Hey" Sam said cupping her face "You have nothing to be scared about, nothing, you can do this Addie, we can do this, we're going to have a perfect little daughter with 10 perfect fingers and 10 perfect toes, and one perfect head" he said joining their hands together and bringing them to her bump "You're just feeling a little overwhelmed right now, but you'll be ok"
"Promise me"
"I promise" Sam smiled.
~x~
"Hey Dad" Maya smiled walking into his living room.
"Hi sweetie, have fun at the movies?"
"Yeah" she said sitting next to him "So, how's Aunt Addie and the baby?"
"You love them more than me now don't you" he smirked.
"Shut up" she said hitting him playfully.
"They're ok" Sam smiled "Addison's feeling a little overwhelmed, it's the hormones I think, she's staying over at Violet's tonight, they're eating ice cream and drinking virgin cocktails"
"Sounds cool" Maya smiled "So, are you going to tell her you love her anytime soon or are you still in denial?"
"Maya, not this again" Sam groaned "It's not going to happen"
"But you love each other" she whined "Come on Dad it's perfect, you can be a proper family"
"Maya, me and Addison aren't going to ever be together like that"
"But you want to be, and so does she, I can see it"
"Maya, if you don't close your mouth you'll be going to your room"
"Fine" she groaned.
~x~
40 weeks pregnant.
"Only Addison Forbes Montgomery could have a kid who arrives on the due date" Naomi laughed as Sam helped Addison up onto the bed in the delivery room at the practice.
"Shut up" Addison groaned as a contraction shot through her "She's coming now, like now now, I swear, these things are like two seconds apart"
"Let's have a little look" Naomi said sitting at the foot of the bed, she helped Addison out of her underwear and put her legs in the stirrups "Wow, 9 centimeters already, have you been having contractions all day?" she said raising her eyebrow.
"I thought they were just braxton hicks, they didn't feel too bad until my water bro...ow, fuck, ow, ow, ow" she cursed, squeezing Sam's hand tightly "Gas and air, right now" she almost growled, Naomi held back a laugh as she turned on the gas and air and handed her the mouth piece, Addison breathed it in deeply as another contraction hit her.
"That's it Addie just relax" Sam said rubbing her back softly "Do you want your pillow?"
"Yes" Addison whimpered, Sam moved over to the cabinet at the back of the room, they'd stashed their baby bag and pillow there weeks before, he took out the v-shaped pillow and slipped it in behind Addison, she lay back and breathed in and out deeply.
"You ok?" he asked brushing her hair back with his fingers.
"I can't do this" Addison said shakily.
"Yes you can" he said stroking her cheek softly "You can do this Addie, you can do this, you have to do this so we can meet our beautiful daughter, our little miracle, you can do this, let's talk about her, like, her name, have you come up with any more?"
"I, it's, it's between Ella Kaitlyn and Emily Kate but I think I want to meet her first y'know?"
"Yeah, I know" Sam smiled.
"Ooh, another one" she hissed breathing in some gas and holding his hand.
"You're doing really well Addie, really well" Sam said softly "Just keep breathing"
~x~
"Ok Addison one more big push for me" Naomi said with encouragement
"You do it" Addison growled as she started to push "Oh god" she groaned.
"You're doing great Addison, so so great" Sam said brushing the sweat from her forehead "You're nearly done, she's nearly here" without warning Addison started to push again.
"That's it, good girl" Naomi smiled "We've got the head, one big push for the shoulders Addie, next contraction, one big push"
Addison screamed out loudly and pushed as hard as she could, the baby was soon released into Naomi's hands.
"There we go" Naomi beamed "Oh she is gorgeous guys, Sam come and cut the cord"
Sam reached across as cut the cord, Naomi wiped the baby off a little and wrapped her up before placing her on Addison's chest.
"Oh, oh my god" Addison cried "Oh my god she's beautiful, she's so beautiful, hi, hi baby, I'm your Mommy, yeah, I'm your Mommy, I love you so much"
"Well done Addison, you did great" Naomi said softly.
"You did so great" Sam said kissing her temple "She is perfect Addie, so perfect, thank you so much, thank you"
"What are you thanking me for?" Addison said with a slight laugh.
"For doing this, for having my baby, thank you" Sam whispered.
"You should be thanking your super sperm" Addison said with a slight giggle "Does Daddy want to hold her?"
"Daddy's been waiting for 34 weeks to hold her" Sam beamed taking the baby from her, he held her out in front of him, his arm under her body, his hands holding her head "Hey" he whispered "Hi baby girl" he smiled "You are so much more beautiful than I could've ever imagined, I can't wait to watch you grow up, but you're never having a boyfriend, boys don't exist to you ok? Ok" he smiled "Ella" he said glancing to Addison "She's an Ella, definitely an Ella"
"Ok" Addison said softly "Ella it is" Sam moved to Addison's side and kissed her forehead gently, Naomi stood back and watched as the two of them interacted with Ella and each other, and all she saw was a family, and she didn't even care that she was once married to the man who was so obviously in love with her best friend, even if he didn't know it yet.
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"Ow ow ow ow ow" Addison whispered as she lowered herself onto her bed late that evening, climbing under the covers, she changed into her pajamas at the practice, Sam slowly passed her Ella, kissing Addison's forehead softly before finding the 'Snuggle Nest' they'd bought so the baby could sleep in Addison's bed with her for a few weeks, he set it out in the middle of the bed, Addison slowly placed Ella in it, she lay down slightly on her side, her finger tracing over Ella's small body, her head propped up on her hand, Sam climbed onto the other side of the bed and copied Addison's actions.
"She's so perfect" Addison whispered.
"Yeah" Sam smiled "She really is, you really are Miracle, you're perfect"
"Her name is Ella" Addison said with a laugh.
"She'll always be Miracle to me" Sam said softly "How are you feeling?"
"Like I need to sleep for 10 days but I don't see that happening"
"Well, whenever she's sleeping you need to be sleeping, and I'll be here, every second I can, I'll be right here" he said squeezing her hand a little "Addie, you know I love you right?"
"I know" Addison smiled "I love you too, thanks to you I got my miracle, I will always love you for that"
"Yeah" Sam whispered "Well, you close your eyes, she'll wake us when she's hungry, she certainly guzzled it down at the practice, I think we have ourselves a greedy one"
"Gets that from you" Addison yawned "Goodnight Ella sweetie" she whispered kissing her cheek lightly "Night Sam" she said reaching across and pecking his lips.
"Yeah, night" he said softly, he watched as Addison lay down and slowly closed his eyes, he could still feel the sensation of her lips against his, and he couldn't help but want to kiss her again, he brushed it off as nothing and closed his eyes, slowly drifting to sleep next to his daughter and the woman he….'damn it'.
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