A/N: Happy birthday, Zhie (Renzhie)! This is for you, I hope you'll like it and that you have a wonderful day!
Many thanks to mew (mew-tsubaki) for betareading!
To the Moon and Back
stars in her eyes
burning him
swallowing him
it was lovelovelove
for anyone who saw them
for everyone
but then she opened her mouth
in a curled snarl
-animally-
-beastly-
I hate you
he threw his head back
blonde hair touching his shoulders
the mane of the lion
who was dressed up
to hide his
secrets
I know
dripping dropping
sarcasm
drip drop drip
BOOM
the world was black
because the stars were gone from her eyes
black holes were all that were left
what now?
floating in the space
no track of time
nowhere to gravitate
two lost souls
lost lost lost
gliding away more and more and more and more
slowly
LOSING it
sentenced to a life in
darkness
loneliness
insanity
once they were animals
never really humans
but now
when they had lost their anchor
to reality
what kept them sane
two monsters were born
no trust
not being trusted
FEAR
(of themselves
some would say)
engulfing them
but only when they dared
to listen to themselves
what had they become?
only in the nights
in their faraway towers
(high for fear of what was on the ground
thick walls for fear of what was outside
hidden for fear of who might find them)
when they had locked the door
put the key away
they would SCREAM
in rage
in sorrow
in grief
in anger
but they wouldn't be able to hear the other
if they had
they might have understood
but now their howling would only echo
round and round
and round
round
und
d
between the stone walls
break them
kill them
CRUSH them
until the morning came
and all would be regretted
they had chosen this
themselves
they were strong, they said to themselves
and he would smile
and she would smile
and everyone would be fooled
they would fool themselves
all was well
they would say
and believe in it
because they wanted to
needed to
it was what held them together
but everyone knows
the only thing that holds forever
is nothing
so they BROKE
at last
fell hard
two rocks dropped from the highest mountain
but they would survive
and what doesn't kill makes you stronger
or in this case
makes you realize
what the problem was
a heart not being close enough to its mate
a hand missing the hand that fitted so perfectly there
a pair of lips lacking the touch of another pair
they would always say they reunited
to heal themselves
that they still were the selfish brutes they always had been
(but it didn't look like that when their eyes met
they could have done anything for the other
anytime)