He had known it.
He didn't know how long he had known it - just that he knew. He knew.
He knew that every word, every insult, every shitty act he did - everything - everything was a lie. It was a mask to hide all the things he truly felt and deny all those feelings at the same time.
But no matter how much he didn't want to admit it, even just to himself, Kanda had to. He had to admit that he cared. Cared for his... friends - more deeply than anyone else, as weird as it was to call them that. But it was just something he could not just push away, the way he did to them. He knew he might get hurt if they were, which was why he tried, but never succeeded. And after realizing it, he simply kept up the attitude because of pride. And also habit, but what did that matter? They'd never know.
Unless Marie decided to speak up, because he was the only one (other than freakish General Tiedoll, the old fart) wise enough to be able to tell, he believed. (Which, by the way, he did, unknown to Kanda).
He had known it for a long time, and there was nothing he could do to change that no matter how much he denied it. But as long the others never knew, he didn't care.
Or so he thought.
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Hi! So I'm back with another D. Gray-Man fanfic, which is also my first two-shot ever! Though ruth be told, this was actually just written on a whim. And for those of you awaiting my new chapter for "the next disaster", rest assured that I will continue it, unlike what I had said in the author notes on chapter 2. But until then, I'll be writing some other stuff cause I haven't been quite up to tat story as well as "Gone" just yet (I think I'm starting to shift through my hobbies again), so until then I hope you'll bear with me!
As always, hope you liked this new story, though I think it came out a little funny.
- animellow